Woke up in a strange world

I was born in the 80s. My parents were neglectful abusive baby boomers. Dad was physically violent to mom and I, mom was an extreme alcoholic. I never had friends, always bullied in school. In 1999 at the age of 16 I was hit by a car while on my bicycle and fell into a coma. I woke up from this coma in 2018. I am now in my 30s, my dad has passed away, my mom is elderly and mentally vacant but at least no longer alcoholic. I don't know how to function in life, how to work, what job to get, nothing pays enough to feel worth it and I don't like this world I've woken up to. Everything seems like a bad nightmare. I don't know what to do and don't think I have the strength of will or desire to do something if I did know. I really don't want to be alive but don't want to die. I only wish I hadn't woken up from the coma. I have no friends, no guidance, never had a girlfriend and now it's too late for all that. I've been to therapy and recovery programs but they just don't help and I feel insecure around adults, too shy to talk much. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I lose my mind and feel I'm going insane, I can't help but rock back and forth pulling my hair or something. It really feels crazy. I don't know how to explain the feeling right, just want it to all stop.

  1. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Do something productive, help people. You'll make friends who'll want to help you in return.

  2. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Holy.... sorry dude... hope you find peace and happiness

  3. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    It’s a cool plot write a book about your life story if true. Especially rant about how much trump made everything worse for max midwife appeal. Make bank.

  4. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    >In 1999 at the age of 16
    >I am now in my 30s

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      What's the problem anon?
      >In 1999 at the age of 16
      1999 0
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      2022 22 + 16 = 38

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        >2006 7
        >2008 8

        • 1 week ago
          Anonymous

          I am not fully cognitively here i will admit. There are times that I miss simple things. I approve, but it really changes nothing. I know when I was born. I know when I went into a coma. I know when I woke up. The math is not perfect, but neither is my mind

          • 1 week ago
            Anonymous

            I approve
            I meant i apologize* uurggh. Never mind. I just feel stupid every day. I'll just go away now

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        >2006 7
        >2008 8

        I even tripple checked this and every time it looked right. I'm just stupid. I wish I never woke up.

  5. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Take this questionnaire for me
    http://traumadissociation.com/des
    It sounds like you've had a really hard life, dude. My parents were pretty similar, but a lil bit different
    >Alcoholic father, constantly fought with mother and beat me
    >Narcissistic mother who severely neglected me
    >Both worked full time, so I grew up being raised by babysitters and nannies
    I mean I didn't slip into a coma for 14 years but something tells me you weren't actually in a coma

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      I'm only a 30.36

  6. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    holy shit i dont know if its true but falling into a coma in 1999 and waking up in 2018 sounds like hell

  7. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Anon join a church, support group, or club. You need a community and fast, people who will make you feel like you belong in this era.

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      I'm not very religious. Don't know which church would be good either. Or group. I'll look into it though thank you for the idea.

      Let's go back to 2018. How did a person who went into a coma in 1999, before something awful or fark or any of the mean comedy internet even took off, end up on LULZ? if you come to in 2018 it's already after MAGA and this sites reputation in the mainstream being pure poison, and if you're 35 or 36 or whatever, it doesn't seem like there's anything that would draw you to ask advice here? It's not that popular of a site even with the people who were around 2004-2008 anymore

      My brother is 50, he first introduced me to the political form, which is how I learned a lot.

      You haven't been in coma, you're just a dude that's tired of modern culture and wanted to make a point about it.

      I'm not here looking for belief in my experience. Just advice or support, you don't have to believe me it's okay. You can assume everything I've said is a lie or a role play story. How would you help this role play character (which would be me) i think the post about joining a chury could be a good idea except that I'm very agnostic and boarding atheist actually lol but idk. *Shrug*

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        Church* omg x.x

  8. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    >In 1999 at the age of 16 I was hit by a car while on my bicycle and fell into a coma. I woke up from this coma in 2018. I am now in my 30s, my dad has passed away, my mom is elderly and mentally vacant but at least no longer alcoholic. I don't know how to function in life, how to work, what job to get, nothing pays enough to feel worth it and I don't like this world I've woken up to. Everything seems like a bad nightmare. I don't know what to do and don't think I have the strength of will or desire to do something if I did know.
    more or less same here except I was never in a coma I was just addicted to video games and then the internet
    still am too

    but I guess the cool thing is that now you can just listen to whatever Korn and Hanson albums on youtube and download it for free off some mexican blog and catch up on all the Matrix sequels and star wars extended cinematic universe

  9. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Let's go back to 2018. How did a person who went into a coma in 1999, before something awful or fark or any of the mean comedy internet even took off, end up on LULZ? if you come to in 2018 it's already after MAGA and this sites reputation in the mainstream being pure poison, and if you're 35 or 36 or whatever, it doesn't seem like there's anything that would draw you to ask advice here? It's not that popular of a site even with the people who were around 2004-2008 anymore

  10. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    You haven't been in coma, you're just a dude that's tired of modern culture and wanted to make a point about it.

  11. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Get into the /sig/ thread here regularly to find guidance and support, learn about computers. There are online classes for anything, not just Khan Academy, also Coursera and edX, you can learn a profession for free. You can find learning material like digital books for free.

    After you find a profession you want to follow and you keep improving your personal life you can move on.

    Sorry to hear about your story bro, dont give up.

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      Thank you. I didn't know these exist. I feel kind of depressed (but grateful also) I'll probably go to sleep and won't come back on here but thank you for the advice ^_^

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