Because I found out my boyfriend is a pedophile and im trying to ignore it and continue our relationship like nothing ever happened much to the protest of my family.
If your family knows it’s already over, but this is probably a troll post. Are you in a straight or gay relationship? How’d you find out? Hell do it again btw.
Straight. I told him he needed to stop jerking off and that we needed to work on our intimacy. He said he'd stop watching porn. I looked through his phone a week later and it was duckduckgo searches of preteen e-boi and other shit. Those sent me to html sites full of links and every link you click opens another page full of links but every now and then you'd see a small girl under 10 in skimpy clothes or just straight up porn involving them. No hair to be found. Turns out hes had a porn addiction for a while and since he was a kid that accidentally found that pedo shit he would occasionally look it up to jerk off a few times a year. He says it's because he was molested as a kid and by other girls. His dad is a child molester in prison and he was orphaned because of it when he was 14. I think what his dad did made it into a morbid curiosity turned to a sick thrill followed by self harm because he would randomly get super depressed for like no reason and call off work for days every like 3-5 months. Now I'm alone, lost the person I thought I was gonna marry and my bestfriend. So I'm in denial at the fact he should probably kill himself and afraid to be alone because we used to live together (we don't anymore) so now I still see him a few times a week and he does yard work for me and we go and do stuff together. And every day I think about what he's done. And every night I drink and choke down ambien and Lexapro just to sleep.
Wait. Why? I am an alcohol hater since day 1. I know you bad taste having normalfrauds are not about this life really actually, truthfully but please do tell if you can so we can learn something and so that your generosity speaks for you before God and that you may be rewarded.
funny parable from a classic french novel >young naive guy meets alcoholic >'so why do you drink?' >'I drink to forget' >'forget what?' >'I want to forget that I'm ashamed' >'ashamed of what??' >'ashamed of being an alcoholic!'
I like to lie to myself I'm not an alcoholic in the making, but my father dies as an alcoholic, my sister drinks every day and I drink when I'm sad but I've been sad every day as well.
Why did she leave me? I felt her love, I saw her cry not wanting to say goodbye the last time. So why did she leave? Why the corruption, why the ambition? Every time we were together we were happy. I guess this is what winners do. They stomp on people.
>be uni fresher who was a total loser up until this point >find love for the first time in my life >waste weeks getting high with hookup followed by fucking her in the backseat of her car >shit was cash in every sense of the word (lost my vcard this way) >eventually start dating (had no idea how it works since it was my first time) >slowly she starts to get just how shitty I am at this due to a very late experience of dating in general >eventually goes to a frat party without me and spends the night fucking every brother within the chapter >have to drive her back to her place since shes "too fucked up to drive herself" >eventually find out how and confront her about it >she embellishes how much i was nothing but a crutch and a source of ego to her while she never took me seriously for a second ever since meeting me (we hooked up on tinder) mostly due to my height/lack of dating experience which led her to her actions >find out later that her and everyone in the college "town" views me as the village retard and never take me seriously whatsoever >im 5'8 and 200+ ever since because no one in my campus wants anything to do with me >lose my trust/faith in any breathing human being since they see me as less than trash >eventually find comfort in bottles and never looked back since due to my malformed traits that refuse any kind of commitment
Im just ugly and short and thats pretty much enough for me to live the way that I do. Any potential source of affection/attraction is nothing more than ego fishing bullshit to me since i've lived through the consequences of not knowing better. Fuck anyone who gives me shit for my life choices, they will never experience what its like to throw away academics and shit for nothing months later and being the only one to suffer the consequences of their actions because your a short and ugly moron who didnt know better. I wholeheartedly decided to live this way because my repulsive traits are more than enough to justify it
I also refuse any moral fag who claims that things will get better since they will never know what its like to take anything seriously and wholeheartedly (despite your repulsive traits) only for it to rip away from you as a cruel act of fate and an overdose of reality. Why even try again anywhere/anyone else when nearly every physical trait is totally repulsive to a majority of the population/any jpb recuiter ever. I wasted the last five years studying for a PM career but who would ever take a depressed MANLET seriously in such a role? It perfectly explains why I remain jobless despite a 3.1 gpa, im honestly playing the long con and destroying my liniage since my entire existance is irrelevant let alone absolutely irrelevent in every sense of the word. I am well aware of the long lasting consequences of my drinking habits, but I dont give a shit as I see it as the trash taking itself out.
*pointless, let alone irrelevant* sorry for the dumbass typo im currently drunk and waiting on my next pitcher as I give my disgusting two cents into this thread. I welcome cirrosis and liver failure with open arms since a pair of fucking repulsive morons have the audacity to procreate regardless of the consequences and expect anything but the consequences of their actions to play out.
Same. I can be pretty quiet and austere, even if I don't mean to be, but drinking is often the only time I'm filled with life and become talkative and visibly happy. Anytime I stop drinking, I feel like I'm once again back to being a quiet and boring person. And if I make attempts to speak up, it's just more awkwardness.
Because it's fun with friends
Sorry to hear that. Marriage can be horrible. When I do drink, it's kind of like time travel, I get that old positive mentality when I was younger
Because I found out my boyfriend is a pedophile and im trying to ignore it and continue our relationship like nothing ever happened much to the protest of my family.
If your family knows it’s already over, but this is probably a troll post. Are you in a straight or gay relationship? How’d you find out? Hell do it again btw.
Straight. I told him he needed to stop jerking off and that we needed to work on our intimacy. He said he'd stop watching porn. I looked through his phone a week later and it was duckduckgo searches of preteen e-boi and other shit. Those sent me to html sites full of links and every link you click opens another page full of links but every now and then you'd see a small girl under 10 in skimpy clothes or just straight up porn involving them. No hair to be found. Turns out hes had a porn addiction for a while and since he was a kid that accidentally found that pedo shit he would occasionally look it up to jerk off a few times a year. He says it's because he was molested as a kid and by other girls. His dad is a child molester in prison and he was orphaned because of it when he was 14. I think what his dad did made it into a morbid curiosity turned to a sick thrill followed by self harm because he would randomly get super depressed for like no reason and call off work for days every like 3-5 months. Now I'm alone, lost the person I thought I was gonna marry and my bestfriend. So I'm in denial at the fact he should probably kill himself and afraid to be alone because we used to live together (we don't anymore) so now I still see him a few times a week and he does yard work for me and we go and do stuff together. And every day I think about what he's done. And every night I drink and choke down ambien and Lexapro just to sleep.
Wait. Why? I am an alcohol hater since day 1. I know you bad taste having normalfrauds are not about this life really actually, truthfully but please do tell if you can so we can learn something and so that your generosity speaks for you before God and that you may be rewarded.
funny parable from a classic french novel
>young naive guy meets alcoholic
>'so why do you drink?'
>'I drink to forget'
>'forget what?'
>'I want to forget that I'm ashamed'
>'ashamed of what??'
>'ashamed of being an alcoholic!'
I like to lie to myself I'm not an alcoholic in the making, but my father dies as an alcoholic, my sister drinks every day and I drink when I'm sad but I've been sad every day as well.
Why did she leave me? I felt her love, I saw her cry not wanting to say goodbye the last time. So why did she leave? Why the corruption, why the ambition? Every time we were together we were happy. I guess this is what winners do. They stomp on people.
was sexually abused from the ages of 5 to 18, and now i have herpes. i feel like im gonna die alone. so, i drink, and pretend that im okay with it.
to enjoy myself for a few hours in my terrible life
>Why do you drink?
I don't.
I find the easier solution to imaginary bullshit is to just not imagine it.
>be uni fresher who was a total loser up until this point
>find love for the first time in my life
>waste weeks getting high with hookup followed by fucking her in the backseat of her car
>shit was cash in every sense of the word (lost my vcard this way)
>eventually start dating (had no idea how it works since it was my first time)
>slowly she starts to get just how shitty I am at this due to a very late experience of dating in general
>eventually goes to a frat party without me and spends the night fucking every brother within the chapter
>have to drive her back to her place since shes "too fucked up to drive herself"
>eventually find out how and confront her about it
>she embellishes how much i was nothing but a crutch and a source of ego to her while she never took me seriously for a second ever since meeting me (we hooked up on tinder) mostly due to my height/lack of dating experience which led her to her actions
>find out later that her and everyone in the college "town" views me as the village retard and never take me seriously whatsoever
>im 5'8 and 200+ ever since because no one in my campus wants anything to do with me
>lose my trust/faith in any breathing human being since they see me as less than trash
>eventually find comfort in bottles and never looked back since due to my malformed traits that refuse any kind of commitment
Im just ugly and short and thats pretty much enough for me to live the way that I do. Any potential source of affection/attraction is nothing more than ego fishing bullshit to me since i've lived through the consequences of not knowing better. Fuck anyone who gives me shit for my life choices, they will never experience what its like to throw away academics and shit for nothing months later and being the only one to suffer the consequences of their actions because your a short and ugly moron who didnt know better. I wholeheartedly decided to live this way because my repulsive traits are more than enough to justify it
I also refuse any moral fag who claims that things will get better since they will never know what its like to take anything seriously and wholeheartedly (despite your repulsive traits) only for it to rip away from you as a cruel act of fate and an overdose of reality. Why even try again anywhere/anyone else when nearly every physical trait is totally repulsive to a majority of the population/any jpb recuiter ever. I wasted the last five years studying for a PM career but who would ever take a depressed MANLET seriously in such a role? It perfectly explains why I remain jobless despite a 3.1 gpa, im honestly playing the long con and destroying my liniage since my entire existance is irrelevant let alone absolutely irrelevent in every sense of the word. I am well aware of the long lasting consequences of my drinking habits, but I dont give a shit as I see it as the trash taking itself out.
*pointless, let alone irrelevant* sorry for the dumbass typo im currently drunk and waiting on my next pitcher as I give my disgusting two cents into this thread. I welcome cirrosis and liver failure with open arms since a pair of fucking repulsive morons have the audacity to procreate regardless of the consequences and expect anything but the consequences of their actions to play out.
its the only time i feel genuine happiness
I agree, it also makes me forget about my absolutely undesireable traits that my peers and strangers around me find absolutely repulsive
Same. I can be pretty quiet and austere, even if I don't mean to be, but drinking is often the only time I'm filled with life and become talkative and visibly happy. Anytime I stop drinking, I feel like I'm once again back to being a quiet and boring person. And if I make attempts to speak up, it's just more awkwardness.
i've been on a 2 week bender and finally had to take a break for tonight bros.
I used to do something like that for a few years and then I moved on with my life.