Who else been at rock bottom for months and on the edge of ending it all?

Who else been at rock bottom for months and on the edge of ending it all?

  1. 1 week ago
    Charlie

    Can you not get help?

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      No one really can. It’s all hopeless

      • 1 week ago
        Charlie

        I just poured out all of my alchohol earlier and I probably won't cut myself that much today. Baby steps in the right direction are healthy.

        • 1 week ago
          Anonymous

          not buying in the first place would have been a better idea

          • 1 week ago
            Charlie

            We all make mistakes, sometimes you just really want to get drunk and cry.

            • 1 week ago
              Anonymous

              what do you drink

              • 1 week ago
                Charlie

                Straight vodka and whiskey followed by water chasers so I don't throw up.

                You know the name Charles comes from the Norse thor-les

                Meaning thors arrow

                Maybe to heal yourself and achieve strong health you should vibrate the thorayzaz rune.

                Thurs is the rune of cutting and piercing.
                You will love the energy.

                How do I vibrate the rune? Sounds kinda /x/ to me

              • 1 week ago
                Ary

                Th-oh-rrr-ayy-zzz-aahh-zzz
                Or
                Teh-who-ree-tsahz

                Focus And feel the vibration of your voice in your body. It should be bright clean pure blue energy.

                Like a blue lightning bolt piercing a dark cloudy sky. You should vibrate it a multiple of 3 times
                Remember to affirm at the end

                "I am fully healed and protected in all the most positive healthy ways for me"

                Good luck sis, hope you feel better

            • 1 week ago
              Anonymous

              What a mood, I try to only get small flasks of stuff now so I don't go too sad.

        • 1 week ago
          Ary

          You know the name Charles comes from the Norse thor-les

          Meaning thors arrow

          Maybe to heal yourself and achieve strong health you should vibrate the thorayzaz rune.

          Thurs is the rune of cutting and piercing.
          You will love the energy.

        • 1 week ago
          beanie

          Not at rock bottom starting the very fast fall towards it, probably gonna get committed by the end of today

          • 1 week ago
            Charlie

            Only reason I haven't checked myself into a temporary care facility is I need my job to live. So yeah do what gets you better.

        • 1 week ago
          Anonymous

          >I just poured out all of my alchohol earlier
          that shit isnt cheap
          donate it next time

  2. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Me

  3. 1 week ago
    Ary

    Me

  4. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    I will soon

  5. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    my goal is to be out by the end of october

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      Would having a boyfriend help

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        no i hate men sorry

  6. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Me. Things holding me back atm
    >my dog
    >guilt (mostly for my dog)

    • 1 week ago
      Charlie

      Glad you have something to keep you going. Attachment is important if you want to stay alive.

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        Well, she's not all that young anymore, if you catch my drift. Focusing on doing my best to give her a good life and then I'll probably call it there tbh.

        • 1 week ago
          Charlie

          Why not just stay alive though. Suffering is better than nothing.

          • 1 week ago
            Anonymous

            Is it tho?

            • 1 week ago
              Charlie

              I don't know. But one of them I make one choice and I can never go back. The other is pain and torment but at least I get to spend it with people I cherish.

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                I have nobody left to cherish

              • 1 week ago
                Charlie

                Find friends. It's not that hard. I will literally be friends with anyone for example.

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                Why? What happened to the people you cherish?

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                Im the problem i guess so they all left me

          • 1 week ago
            Anonymous

            I don't know if anyone can say that really since nobody knows what nothing is like. Every moment of my life is full of self loathing and wishing I could disappear. I have the avoidant/schizoid cycle of desperately wanting to be involved with people then losing all interest as soon as anyone actually engages. Combine that with crippling body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria and rock bottom self confidence and I honestly don't see a way for me to enjoy life beyond short dopamine fixes from solitary activities. Maybe I can live for the next 50 years with only anime to keep me alive but somehow I doubt it.

            • 1 week ago
              Charlie

              You just need to find people you can engage with despite your disorder. I know someone with Schizoid Personality Diagnosis, and even they have one friend.

  7. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    If by months you’re talking like 45, yeah

  8. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Me but for years

  9. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Me too sis, its over

  10. 1 week ago
    Charlotte

    endthepainendthepainendthepainendthepainendthepain

  11. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    I've been like this for 6 years. Anyone who tells you that it will get better is gaslighting. Don't say that it's over when it never even began for you.

  12. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    you see anon instead of feeling sorry for yourself and wanting to "end it all" why don't you turn it around on everyone else

    instead of feeling like everyone is against you try feeling like its you against everyone else and take up the underdog mentality

    pretending like im the main character in taxi driver, blade runner or falling down is whats helping me get out of bed every morning and i suggest you do the same because suicide is gay

  13. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    do it you fucking pussy, your life is worthless

  14. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    i finally let go, i don't really care anymore, probably got a few more months to have fun

  15. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    before you end it all, can you please blow me?

  16. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Months? Try years.

  17. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Was recently drugged by my pooner ex. I’m just hoping I survive the drive back to the west coast and I that I can find work quickly enough once I’m settled back in with family.

  18. 1 week ago
    Hollow

    I just quit another job today, they were gonna fire me anyway if I didn't, I couldn't go to work because I couldn't stop crying from the anxiety of going and working there. I just don't know what to do or how to make an income consistently, and I can't afford help for the bag full of mental illnesses I'm carrying, I mean, what does somebody like me even do besides dying early

  19. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Haha yeah it's been really quickly downhill ever since I trooned out, was already often at a low point but there were some people who made me happy and all at least

    But now there's no one and I'm just totally alone, no family, no friends. The one I really care about hates me. Meanwhile I just fell in a huge isolation, depression and loneliness as I never experienced it this heavy, I've been feeling like this I was 12.

    Since then got three times in the hospital, attempted suicide either with jumping/pills/alcohol, been feeling immensely guilty I binge drink the shit out of myself when the chance to cope, which I already do enough weekly, get stupors and abandoned my comfy life for homelessness that looms on the horizon because of my mental issues

    I deserve it all, don't I, for hurting my friend, for being an utter demon to everyone, there's no forgiveness to be earned, just utter torture waiting. My hip utterly hurts now, why am I even still abroad, my plan is just to die here after wasting my savings

    God I need to get rid of this cancer called me for the sake of everyone

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      You tried to kill yourself by jumping? How did that turn out

  20. 1 week ago
    )*Kassandra of Ellaphae|PSO2

    i've been better lol but it's always up and down for me, i know it will probably be ok and i won't lose my hope or my dreams or my love, my goddess will keep me alive as long as i need to be here and as long as i can live for her infinite love

    ive dealt with sui stuff since i was a child, over dysphoria and love, i'm sure it will always be with me from time to time no matter how much better my life gets

  21. 1 week ago
    it is over (repressor, honorary)

    no, im too lazy and indecisive to kms.

  22. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    One of my best friends (who frequented this board) ended it this morning, and me and gf have been crying our eyes out unable to do anything all day. And I don't think it's getting any better tomorrow.

    Don't make people go trough this girls.

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      🙁

  23. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Not a tranner but I'm a gaycel and living is suffering. I don't meet beauty standards and everyone I'm interested in doesn't like me because I'm too "fem" yet I'm not even trying to present as fem.. I just look like this... Well, I shouldn't say no one as fat, balding, bearded chasers love to message me but I actually put effort in myself so I ignore them.

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      I am okay to look at even though I have flaws. wya

  24. 1 week ago
    Furioso

    Ez and I broke up with me and took my cat, parents disowned me, getting a decent job is terribly difficult, still diy'ing with no tests and my 'friends' keep referring to me as a he. Not rock-bottom but life isn't very fun atm

  25. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    I was a gaycel too, I woke up every morning hating myself and other men for being gross and repulsive, I decided to just workout and stop eating and drinking shit, now I have a healthy lifestyle and a fem boyfriend who I live more than anything (yes we are both autistic), anyway if you make changes in your lives and try and actually commit to things they get better

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      I'm already thin/toned, I also have autism if
      that helps you understand.
      Just people are a bore/they're too sexual/they have hyper specific porn preferences I don't meet.
      It's weird, I'm even excluded from most friendships because of this and it's frustrating. I want acceptance but it's a pain.

      I am okay to look at even though I have flaws. wya

      Sorry anon, I don't e-date

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        >>wya
        >Sorry anon, I don't e-date
        ???

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah seems to be the case for 95% of the gay community 🙁 I hope you can find someone who will truly accept and love and cuddle you anon

  26. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    i wqnt to kill myself so so bad im just waiting for my dad to die so i can kill myself but not a day goes by where i dont think about killing myself i hope he dies soon his health isnt good i dont know how i am waiting so long

  27. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    >ending it all
    Just do it. You failed and there is no way up.

  28. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Oh, me me me
    Over here!

  29. 1 week ago
    loopy

    me, and my bottom dysphoria has only gotten worse. I have a bf now so I guess we're in this shit together

  30. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Me a few months ago, but it got better 🙂

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