Having a guy in my class take advantage of my isolation from others caused by autism so he could sexually assault and control me for an entire summer before I went to another school
My best friend dying. He was a great guy, incredibly sweet, gentle and generous. I'm also pretty sure he was a repressed gay, he once admitted to me that he really loved Vigo Mortensen as Aragorn and was romantically crushing on him lmao - this was in the 2000s when LOTR was huge. His family were dicks to him though, I have no doubt that if he really was into men then he would've lived in fear and shame of their response.
He died suddenly and unexpectedly in his sleep, of an undiagnosed hole in his heart. It left one in mine, too.
After the funeral, my friends and I went to his house and went in his room. There on his bookshelf was this shitty, hand-drawn comic made by me when I was like twelve. It was about us and the rest of our friend group hanging out with video-game characters. He'd kept this cringe shit from me until he died.
I love you Tayler, the world is bullshit without you in it.
I allowed almost 20 years to elapse without ever seriously seeking out any sexual opportunity beyond one very brief relationship at age 20. Now I want to get some sex/relationship experience points but I'm stupidly naive at 40-ish. What I have on my side is living independently and being a gainfully employed skinnyfat white guy who looks okay and is fairly thin.
I think I will ask the physician about prep next physical. What else would you youngshits recommend?
my dad committing suicide when i was 9. i still dont really know how its affected my life, but i think i could have been a lot happier if id had a father figure. he was a good dad too. sometimes i wonder if its the reason i trooned out too.
psychosis. it's the genesis unto your road of insanity, the rest is just personal revelations and hallucinatory delusion. there is not one thing i can consciously think of that is worse than your own personal event horizon, even jesus fucking wept.
being born a tranny
that's it
i have 0 reason to be such a useless sack of this that hates almost every second of life but here i am
im such an insensitive dipshit
>dissociating in the supermarket and buying a bottle of wine and an avocado
I have trauma in my past but I only do this cause I'm extremely stoned every time I go grocery shopping
My mom passing when I was 13 messed me up a little.
Growing up in a meth house and all the crap that goes on around that, was depressing.
Getting fucked by a few relatives as a kid sucked.
Developing epilepsy and major brain damage has not made life at all easy.
I could go on and on, but the worse I think the worst was a very very bad trip, on some RC blotters, that took a long time to recover from.
Being isolated for long periods of time, seem therapeutic compared to that experience.
>a very very bad trip, on some RC blotters,
know that hell all to well, it was my hard first break, despite that i went back again for round two. haven't had a ride as wild since, only some affective insomnia breaks come close. research chemicals are no fucking joke. was it 2-CB? N-BOMe? those are the real fun ones, the real cocktail of drugs. especially by yourself. if not, usually your trip sitter acts a ground, like somebody being a negative to your positive. it also sounded like you had a heavy load, long road for the set; bleeds over in the most horrifying, literal way.
I had 4 tab's of N-BOM and was being tormented by an entire party of people, basically fucked with me for several hours. It was really evil. Had tripped lots before this too. Really awful going through the worst parts of your psyche and people finding joy in your lack of composure.
Oddly it always seems another trip is the quickest way to recover from a bad trip, though for this one I think only time would have helped.
I dislike N-bome's, and DO(x) compounds. They feel so shitty compared to lsd. 2c-x compounds can be nice though.
Though I am glad to hear you could find enjoyment in tripping, despite having a break.
Some people quit, but theres lots of healing and enjoyment to be had, and im happy you could find it again.
you got that vibe. the same shit had happened to me almost word-for-word, having past experiences already and people fucking with me at a party specifically. they were getting me to rip fatass monster hits of thc wax, the fog would clear whenever i would go to hit the rig, like i was getting thrown back into my seat, then i'd blow it out and get thrown out my head feet first.
the most fucked up feeling was afterwards, seeing it on video, that i was actually recorded during that primal retard state. it's hard to describe what looking into your own eyes and seeing that nobody is home feels like for the first time. if your tab tastes metallic, spit it out, or swallow 3 like i did and get ready for the heavy metal. the song 'pepper' will forever be etched, reverbing and looping in my mind, i think i got the front row ticket that night. mushrooms are far better in every-way any-ways, i only eat golden teachers every once in a blue moon now. shine on, crazy diamonds.
God I sure fucking hope it was never recorded.
As it was a full blown psychotic break, and having it out there for posterity seems miserable.
If I were you I'd rather have just not watched it.
Though i will say experiences like these really teach you to be a little more private about your drug usage, and especially psychedelics.
Also teaches to be motherly, any time you see someone who obviously having a distressing time, you cant help but want to do everything in your power to make them feel better.
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had a bad trip (sounds like baby shit compared to yours though), just incoherent panic and 120 bpm for 6 hours
smoked weed a few days later, felt the panic coming back
after that I quit everything, straight edge
That's a shame, but pretty typical for bad trips.
It's pretty common to for weed to just bring about panic after wards. Which sucks, I think you could learn to enjoy weed again, esp with moderation, but maybe theres no need for you too.
As long as your feeling comfortable sober, why push yourself with drugs though, esp when they now make you uncomfortable.
I bet we could trip together and have a good time though ^_^
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had a bad trip (sounds like baby shit compared to yours though), just incoherent panic and 120 bpm for 6 hours
smoked weed a few days later, felt the panic coming back
after that I quit everything, straight edge
I was groomed and assaulted by my brother and step brother, and made to have sexual relations with my step sister who was also groomed. Also my dad was an abusive alcoholic to the point a teacher called CPS on me because of bruises and he was removed from the house for over a year.
Other than that I am fine though, totally not a tranny due to trauma.
being locked in a room where i was raped for several months then when i got out i started whoring around in an attempt to get murdered or OD but instead ended up in another being "locked away and abused" situation for 2 years. im safe now for the most part i think
Finding my mom hanging dead when I was 10, me and my siblings never really seemed to have properly grown up after this, my dad was either working or kinda abusive esp towards me. At least I still had grandma and such who's really sweet.
Until now, when he has to go to a care home because he's too mentally broken after an accident, and he still acts like a control freak to me despite all this. It just teared apart our family honestly. My brother wants to move away and so do I.
The thing with my mom was at least that I was young and not too aware of death. Right now dealing with all this is way tougher, not to mention my depression and loneliness breaks me apart, friend who I really treasured just abandoned me. It's just really sad how the start of 2022 looked so bright to me and looking at it now, there's nothing but death I desire.
Getting held up at gunpoint on my first and last day working at a bank.
Portland is a fucking garbage dump and the longer it’s like this the more likely the Americans are going to have Nazis. This is the sort of state a city gets in where Hitler is the only option left. I wonder why trannies are always precursors to Nazis, Berlin had genital surgery books the Nazis burned.
Probably the rape, the time I accidentally nearly drowned because of a weird current in the beach, my mother trying to commit suicide in front of me, or that time I nearly got mauled by dogs because I was dumb and walked onto my grandmother’s house while forgetting about the giant murder dogs. That time I got mugged last March probably counts too.
idk. probably some random off-hand comment someone made to me once when i was 7 that snowballed into my entire personality. i can remember a ton of things i heard and "switches" that happened in my mind and it is fucky as hell. thats why talking to children scares the crap out of me. i dont want full control and responsibility over someones entire life
Dad died when I was 2 which certainly fucked me up long term but I have no way to quantify how it changed me. Also, I was almost entirely socially isolated from like 4th grade through freshman year of high school which absolutely ruined my psyche. Nothing as bad as some of what's been posted here
I haven't had it too bad but I'm a pussy.
Everyone in my school stopped talking to me for a few months in high school and while I was also on the wrong meds and then I started seeing demons. Mom kept threatening to send me to an institution.
Almost no social interaction for 8 weeks in college because my mom almost died and was recovering and couldn't visit me while dad skipped town to go to Morocco for 2 months.
idk :<
I self harm, do drugs and alcohol have an eating disorder, am in and out of therapy and am anti depressants and have intrusive thoughts about raping, murdering and eating everyone around me, I constantly wanna be abused and raped and like
I don't know why
I've never been abused or suffered any trauma in my life
I am extremely lucky but I just feel so
broken
ughhh helicopter parenting, and bullying at school i guess
bcuz it snowballed into later mental issues and drug addiction which later led into really shitty siuations, i lost my best friend and all terrible stuff that happens when ure a junkie
however, i managed to get help, i and actually wanted to change my life, got therapy and kinda fixing things up, and stopped repping
dont even wanna read yall replies, theyre probably fucked
but ugh yeah whatever happens u can make it i guess
i know i kinda did, at least im on my way to
i coudlve easily been dead, but kinda pushed thru it once i was ready to change my life
ofc change is only possible when ure ready for it
but yeah i live in a place where i was able to get rehab and therapy for free, if ure like in america or something itd be much much tougher, my parents wouldnt be able to afford rehab
A cousin (13), forced My sister and I (6 and 5) to perform sexual acts on one another and tried to force us to not tell anyone by saying if we didn't do it or told anyone he would get us in trouble
I've also been involuntarily committed twice after suicide attempts so those were kinda bad
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i wasn't raped as far as i know
then again i have no memory of what happened aside from the lead up to it and only know what i know because my dad jokes about it at dinner sometimes
i wasn't raped as far as i know
then again i have no memory of what happened aside from the lead up to it and only know what i know because my dad jokes about it at dinner sometimes
My FP ghosted me after I got too clingy, I developed a drug addiction and then changed my entire career path so that I could get a job at the place where my FP worked (obviously didn't happen) and basically derailed my whole life, luckily the pandemic basically gave me a reset and I'm okay now even though I obviously still think about my FP a lot
finding out i have gender dysphoria, been a downward spiral since, one and of self harm, daily suicidal, unable to love myself, unable to expet myself.
when i was 16 i almost set myself on fire to try and kill myself
apart from childhood trauma and emotional neglect which seems pretty par for the course the first person i was in a long term relationship(2years) with deciding to leave me to move across the country to move in with someone she was cheating on me with
being raped
this but it was one of my parents
not sure, can't remember it
Having a guy in my class take advantage of my isolation from others caused by autism so he could sexually assault and control me for an entire summer before I went to another school
being born
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existence is suffering mfs are so cringe
find something to be miserable about that has happened to every person who has ever lived
I was car homeless for about 6 months and posted on /lgbt/ a lot.
my gf is putting on weight, what's the best way to traumatise her just a little (not too much)
A) that will make it worse B) have a nice day
disagree, low key traumatizing your gf so she loses weight is actually based
killing myself might work but then I won't be able to enjoy the fruits of my labour
Bro just invite her to workout with you. Don’t traumatize her.
In between getting cheated on by various ex’s and physically abused by my ex fiancé.
Parents divorce ?
Capatcha: 0HPHN
Sanest chaser
Wait why is this picrel just like me
Good luck anon
My best friend dying. He was a great guy, incredibly sweet, gentle and generous. I'm also pretty sure he was a repressed gay, he once admitted to me that he really loved Vigo Mortensen as Aragorn and was romantically crushing on him lmao - this was in the 2000s when LOTR was huge. His family were dicks to him though, I have no doubt that if he really was into men then he would've lived in fear and shame of their response.
He died suddenly and unexpectedly in his sleep, of an undiagnosed hole in his heart. It left one in mine, too.
After the funeral, my friends and I went to his house and went in his room. There on his bookshelf was this shitty, hand-drawn comic made by me when I was like twelve. It was about us and the rest of our friend group hanging out with video-game characters. He'd kept this cringe shit from me until he died.
I love you Tayler, the world is bullshit without you in it.
Sorry anon, sounds like you had a wonderful friend
Cancer
I allowed almost 20 years to elapse without ever seriously seeking out any sexual opportunity beyond one very brief relationship at age 20. Now I want to get some sex/relationship experience points but I'm stupidly naive at 40-ish. What I have on my side is living independently and being a gainfully employed skinnyfat white guy who looks okay and is fairly thin.
I think I will ask the physician about prep next physical. What else would you youngshits recommend?
hit the gym
Stay away from PUAs and alpha male podcasts if you're a guy.
Make the first move if you're a girl.
my dad committing suicide when i was 9. i still dont really know how its affected my life, but i think i could have been a lot happier if id had a father figure. he was a good dad too. sometimes i wonder if its the reason i trooned out too.
I'm sorry. my dad also died at the same age and I used to wonder the same thing
REDANDBLACKIDRESSEAGLEINMYCHESTGOODTOBEANALBANIANKEEPMYHEADUPHIGHFORFLAGIDIEIMPROUDTOBEANALBANIAN
2 years of psychological and verbal abuse from every single girl in my elementary school class for being autistic
born with anglo genes (doomed to be a hon forever)
dad did something bordering on sexual assault but not quite while drunk
Probably having to read out loud infront of an entire class and having my knees visibly start to shake, it was really embarrassing
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Since april I hopelessly pray for the destruction of silicon valley and all techfags
>Dall-E 2.
>Since april I hopelessly pray for the destruction of silicon valley and all techfags
cope and seethe
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psychosis. it's the genesis unto your road of insanity, the rest is just personal revelations and hallucinatory delusion. there is not one thing i can consciously think of that is worse than your own personal event horizon, even jesus fucking wept.
being born a tranny
that's it
i have 0 reason to be such a useless sack of this that hates almost every second of life but here i am
im such an insensitive dipshit
>dissociating in the supermarket and buying a bottle of wine and an avocado
I have trauma in my past but I only do this cause I'm extremely stoned every time I go grocery shopping
My mom passing when I was 13 messed me up a little.
Growing up in a meth house and all the crap that goes on around that, was depressing.
Getting fucked by a few relatives as a kid sucked.
Developing epilepsy and major brain damage has not made life at all easy.
I could go on and on, but the worse I think the worst was a very very bad trip, on some RC blotters, that took a long time to recover from.
Being isolated for long periods of time, seem therapeutic compared to that experience.
>a very very bad trip, on some RC blotters,
know that hell all to well, it was my hard first break, despite that i went back again for round two. haven't had a ride as wild since, only some affective insomnia breaks come close. research chemicals are no fucking joke. was it 2-CB? N-BOMe? those are the real fun ones, the real cocktail of drugs. especially by yourself. if not, usually your trip sitter acts a ground, like somebody being a negative to your positive. it also sounded like you had a heavy load, long road for the set; bleeds over in the most horrifying, literal way.
I had 4 tab's of N-BOM and was being tormented by an entire party of people, basically fucked with me for several hours. It was really evil. Had tripped lots before this too. Really awful going through the worst parts of your psyche and people finding joy in your lack of composure.
Oddly it always seems another trip is the quickest way to recover from a bad trip, though for this one I think only time would have helped.
I dislike N-bome's, and DO(x) compounds. They feel so shitty compared to lsd. 2c-x compounds can be nice though.
Though I am glad to hear you could find enjoyment in tripping, despite having a break.
Some people quit, but theres lots of healing and enjoyment to be had, and im happy you could find it again.
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you got that vibe. the same shit had happened to me almost word-for-word, having past experiences already and people fucking with me at a party specifically. they were getting me to rip fatass monster hits of thc wax, the fog would clear whenever i would go to hit the rig, like i was getting thrown back into my seat, then i'd blow it out and get thrown out my head feet first.
the most fucked up feeling was afterwards, seeing it on video, that i was actually recorded during that primal retard state. it's hard to describe what looking into your own eyes and seeing that nobody is home feels like for the first time. if your tab tastes metallic, spit it out, or swallow 3 like i did and get ready for the heavy metal. the song 'pepper' will forever be etched, reverbing and looping in my mind, i think i got the front row ticket that night. mushrooms are far better in every-way any-ways, i only eat golden teachers every once in a blue moon now. shine on, crazy diamonds.
God I sure fucking hope it was never recorded.
As it was a full blown psychotic break, and having it out there for posterity seems miserable.
If I were you I'd rather have just not watched it.
Though i will say experiences like these really teach you to be a little more private about your drug usage, and especially psychedelics.
Also teaches to be motherly, any time you see someone who obviously having a distressing time, you cant help but want to do everything in your power to make them feel better.
That's a shame, but pretty typical for bad trips.
It's pretty common to for weed to just bring about panic after wards. Which sucks, I think you could learn to enjoy weed again, esp with moderation, but maybe theres no need for you too.
As long as your feeling comfortable sober, why push yourself with drugs though, esp when they now make you uncomfortable.
I bet we could trip together and have a good time though ^_^
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had a bad trip (sounds like baby shit compared to yours though), just incoherent panic and 120 bpm for 6 hours
smoked weed a few days later, felt the panic coming back
after that I quit everything, straight edge
I was groomed and assaulted by my brother and step brother, and made to have sexual relations with my step sister who was also groomed. Also my dad was an abusive alcoholic to the point a teacher called CPS on me because of bruises and he was removed from the house for over a year.
Other than that I am fine though, totally not a tranny due to trauma.
being locked in a room where i was raped for several months then when i got out i started whoring around in an attempt to get murdered or OD but instead ended up in another being "locked away and abused" situation for 2 years. im safe now for the most part i think
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>ave maria
The riddler diddled her
wrong, the riddler was a repressed trans girl who did domestic terrorism to cope with her trauma
Finding my mom hanging dead when I was 10, me and my siblings never really seemed to have properly grown up after this, my dad was either working or kinda abusive esp towards me. At least I still had grandma and such who's really sweet.
Until now, when he has to go to a care home because he's too mentally broken after an accident, and he still acts like a control freak to me despite all this. It just teared apart our family honestly. My brother wants to move away and so do I.
The thing with my mom was at least that I was young and not too aware of death. Right now dealing with all this is way tougher, not to mention my depression and loneliness breaks me apart, friend who I really treasured just abandoned me. It's just really sad how the start of 2022 looked so bright to me and looking at it now, there's nothing but death I desire.
At least I have boobs now, I suppose.
Asuka kin
Feck I can relate to her you got me senpai
i try to not think about it
I obviously don't wanna talk about that why did you make this thread ):
6-7 years of hardcore repression
burying my brother
one of those two
Getting held up at gunpoint on my first and last day working at a bank.
Portland is a fucking garbage dump and the longer it’s like this the more likely the Americans are going to have Nazis. This is the sort of state a city gets in where Hitler is the only option left. I wonder why trannies are always precursors to Nazis, Berlin had genital surgery books the Nazis burned.
But yeah, noped out of that shit hard.
Probably the rape, the time I accidentally nearly drowned because of a weird current in the beach, my mother trying to commit suicide in front of me, or that time I nearly got mauled by dogs because I was dumb and walked onto my grandmother’s house while forgetting about the giant murder dogs. That time I got mugged last March probably counts too.
>7/11
what do I win
idk really nothing I think
was raped over and over for about 2 years by my ex (13-15)
they then spread it around to everyone in high school after we broke up that i raped them and had to move schools, all in all a really fun experience
getting raped by my brother
idk. probably some random off-hand comment someone made to me once when i was 7 that snowballed into my entire personality. i can remember a ton of things i heard and "switches" that happened in my mind and it is fucky as hell. thats why talking to children scares the crap out of me. i dont want full control and responsibility over someones entire life
What was said to you?
Dad died when I was 2 which certainly fucked me up long term but I have no way to quantify how it changed me. Also, I was almost entirely socially isolated from like 4th grade through freshman year of high school which absolutely ruined my psyche. Nothing as bad as some of what's been posted here
I haven't had it too bad but I'm a pussy.
Everyone in my school stopped talking to me for a few months in high school and while I was also on the wrong meds and then I started seeing demons. Mom kept threatening to send me to an institution.
Almost no social interaction for 8 weeks in college because my mom almost died and was recovering and couldn't visit me while dad skipped town to go to Morocco for 2 months.
idk :<
I self harm, do drugs and alcohol have an eating disorder, am in and out of therapy and am anti depressants and have intrusive thoughts about raping, murdering and eating everyone around me, I constantly wanna be abused and raped and like
I don't know why
I've never been abused or suffered any trauma in my life
I am extremely lucky but I just feel so
broken
same... nothing ever happened to me either I think it's just a complete lack of self esteem tbhon
My best friend hanged himself when we were 16. That kinda sucked lol
ughhh helicopter parenting, and bullying at school i guess
bcuz it snowballed into later mental issues and drug addiction which later led into really shitty siuations, i lost my best friend and all terrible stuff that happens when ure a junkie
however, i managed to get help, i and actually wanted to change my life, got therapy and kinda fixing things up, and stopped repping
dont even wanna read yall replies, theyre probably fucked
but ugh yeah whatever happens u can make it i guess
i know i kinda did, at least im on my way to
i coudlve easily been dead, but kinda pushed thru it once i was ready to change my life
ofc change is only possible when ure ready for it
but yeah i live in a place where i was able to get rehab and therapy for free, if ure like in america or something itd be much much tougher, my parents wouldnt be able to afford rehab
Getting Married
A cousin (13), forced My sister and I (6 and 5) to perform sexual acts on one another and tried to force us to not tell anyone by saying if we didn't do it or told anyone he would get us in trouble
I've also been involuntarily committed twice after suicide attempts so those were kinda bad
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most people like dont telling stories about when they got raped
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Fucking weirdo kys
groomed and raped while underaged, or 5 year nhs waiting list.
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i wasn't raped as far as i know
then again i have no memory of what happened aside from the lead up to it and only know what i know because my dad jokes about it at dinner sometimes
My FP ghosted me after I got too clingy, I developed a drug addiction and then changed my entire career path so that I could get a job at the place where my FP worked (obviously didn't happen) and basically derailed my whole life, luckily the pandemic basically gave me a reset and I'm okay now even though I obviously still think about my FP a lot
im still with the abusive bf and getting regular beatings. the bedroom is totally dead tho to the point i kinda miss the ex who raped me
I am sensing a pattern
looks like somebody’s parents gave them a warped view of love!
finding out i have gender dysphoria, been a downward spiral since, one and of self harm, daily suicidal, unable to love myself, unable to expet myself.
when i was 16 i almost set myself on fire to try and kill myself
Being physically and verbally/emotionally by my brother until he moved out when I was 13
mfw I vibe w picrel
minus the police thing
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you're fucking weird
the worst thing that happened to me is nowhere near as bad as anything listed in this thread so I won't bother sharing it since it'd just be petty
apart from childhood trauma and emotional neglect which seems pretty par for the course the first person i was in a long term relationship(2years) with deciding to leave me to move across the country to move in with someone she was cheating on me with
Clitoris overgrowing