What's stopping you from roping? Genuine question, I am running out of reasons to live and my shame grows more and more by the day. I hate being a disgusting troon.
What's stopping you from roping?
What's stopping you from roping? Genuine question, I am running out of reasons to live and my shame grows more and more by the day. I hate being a disgusting troon.
im hot. i have a great partner. im healthy. i cant really complain about my life
Then your afab. There's no such thing as a happy amab unless he's a straight Macho dude
damn i guess i pass soo well i turned from amab to afab. i did it, real sex change complete
good for you
shh no tears, my sweet child. Not that anon but took me 5+ years to git gud
I pass I'm just very sad and lonely atm its hard to get through days
happy pills luvly, talk to a psychiatrist about a tricyclic antidepressant, then socialize after a month
im not taking more pills, especially ones that will just make me gain weight. I socialise plenty at work and nobody cares if I drink on my shift
Work socialization isn't necessary satisfying, I'd say 30% of coworkers dislike me at my job and I'm forced to self-isolate a bit in order to avoid awkwardness. Interacting can be fun yeah, but work is (at least supposed to be) a professional environment rather than a fully trustworthy one, you can't pick and choose your coworkers you wanna be around at any given moment as opposed to say at a bar, a social event, somewhere less restrained.
>weight
I can't imagine anti-depressants improving appetite by much the opposite perhaps, again better consult an adequate healthcare provider, I didn't gain weight on psych meds, if anything I became more active. It's your choice in the end, but it is worth a try, there is a very low likelihoods that your needs couldn't interact negatively with the hrt regimen, but that likelihood is negligibly low.
*low likelihood that your meds could interact
That's because you were born a.m.ab and that means you're permanently ugly
lack of available methods
There's this one girl I'm in love with and I'm not gonna tell her because I don't think she'd reciprocate and it would put a lot of pressure on her but i literally hang on almost entirely just to see her because she makes me that happy.
Before, it was the hope of getting surgeries and experiencing what it would be like. Now, it's out of spite.
Kids. Parent suicides affect them worse than having a trans parent. Also holding out hope that maybe my wife leaves or lets me at least experiment sexually.
omfg leave your wife. do her a favor. disgusting
She won’t let me she’s like overly into it and more attracted to me
dont you have any agency
>a trans parent
>some kid's father decided to become a woman
Quite arousing ngl
Family, they're all suicidal as well and I really don't want to exacerbate that by kms
I'm running out of excuses not to. I'm up to "maybe it'll hurt a lot in those last seconds because time is relative" teetering on "what if I actually go to Hell?" I'm scraping the bottom of the barrel.
Believing that I deserve my suffering long-term more than a quick escape.
Only my partner really, but I think there's a good chance I get the courage to exit this year. Been fighting the urge to die for about twenty years (since 10). I had good periods, it's not all bad, it can get better, etc. but I'm too tired to try and fix my life anymore, and I'm kinda over wallowing in it and dragging others down.
family. it would be better if they disowned me so i could rope.
Was/were are not pronouns
Nowhere is it stated that they are.
It’s implied. Jokes are supposed to make sense
genuinely just living out of spite simple as that
I'm happy
drugs
Knives not sharp enough
And the constant fear of it not working
being a pussy and not wanting to lose the ability to maintain the apparatus of addiction
It’d make my dad and my mom and my brothers sad
Anyone know a good suicide that does not look like a suicide like a freak accident that’s painless? I live near the rocks and maybe I can ‘slip’ off a cliff
i wanna kill myself because im a loswer not because im a tranny 😀 idk whats stopping me food or sometihnng
I like living, the world is a beautiful place with infinite possibilities. Just thinking about the fact that I will never be able to listen all the music that has been composed or read every single book written is both amazing, humbling and a little bit terrifying.
There are many reasons to live and only a couple ones to die for.
I hate being a tranny but that won't stop me from living my life at its fullest.
legit keep taking mones and add antidepressants, hang in there (no pun intended)
Shits and giggles.
Climb a tree, wear a crazy outfit, commit a crime.
If you are already at rock bottom just go balls out and have fun.
Fear. I'm too much of a little bitch to kill myself despite the desire to growing by the day.
I just want a boyfriend who I can fuck but also like, cuddle and emotionally bond with.
Having a fuck buddy is nice I guess, the one or two times a month I get dick, but it's just casual sex. Between that and the fact that most people ignore me now that it's becoming obvious I'm a tranny, or worse treat me like shit, I'm very fucking lonely...
I very much want to die but I don't want to kill myself.
quite literally because i have the faintest light of hope to get a good bf. thats it. i think about kms literally every single night. the only reason i havent is because i have that little hope and im a coward
coping with the possibility of the singularity
either some wild shit happens like we enter the matrix or have a transhumanist utopia
or humanity gets wiped out
so i may as well see it through
Honestly this is my last step before roping. I'm pretty much putting a new house worth of money into this, and if dysphoria doesn't go away that's my next step.
>What's stopping you from roping?
I think being alive is worth it
so many cool people to meet
Honestly I don't know, no one really seems to care anymore and my girlfriend sometimes just doesn't respond to my texts. I'm so alone, I reached for a knife earlier but I stopped myself in the end, I'm scared.
Because you're supposed to be a self-sufficient male whom she can leave to his own devices for extended periods of time. Stop this tranny shit and fix yourself, pleb.
friends, people who care about me
because i'm reasonably happy, as far as trannies go. HRT was kind to me, and I've been transitioning for about ten years. i have some friends (online) but they mean a lot to me.
Your day will come.
I'm going to try to come out to my dad soon+ diy hrt, I'm getting glasses sometime in the next month so hopefully I'll be able to mess with my appearance a bit, giving school one last try by enrolling in community college this summer, I'm sick as fuck right now and holding out hope that I'll get better and be able to go hiking+ I am a huge coward and have failed to kms every time I have tried
dont feel like it
I'm happy, healthy, financially secure, have a good future ahead of me. Got friends, family sucks but it don't matter. No reason to kill myself when I got one chance at life. I'll die when I die.
Nothing is holding me other than my obsession with being organized and not making mistakes.
Reason: Im old, I have been alone for too long, I got raped, I have a tumor, I have never had friends, dysphoria, and I could never be loved or cared about which is all I wanted in life
Lately, I was gonna do it last year but my mom got sick, since Im a neet I have been taking care of her, honestly waiting for her to die within a year so I could kms after that
I also have to set my suicide at some date that my dad is in the city so he can take care of the situation
And lastly I was gonna do it now but soon its my sister's birthday and I didnt wanted to ruin it.
So I guess im doing it in August, I already started selling all my stuff, all my collectibles and most of my MTG cards. Saving as much money as I can to leave it to my family (was gonna leave the money to some tranny or femboy but during all these 6 years I havent met anybody)
Honestly anon I've really struggled with depression my whole life and right now I'm staying alive to hang out with my friends and work on this big personal project. It's not much and I still have very severe depressive episodes but it's just the feeling that my work is not finished that I still have things I want done before I die that keeps me going
how can i be silly if i’m dead? :3
clearly i must live
taiwan
no way
way
saas
fear that i’ll fuck it up and be a cripple for the rest of my life unable to even finish the job and a crushing financial burden on my family
i have friends and family who treat me kind and i go out a good bit. that plus im almost done with college so my future looks pretty bright. even though i dont pass well yet, most people still she/her me because i try to be kind funny and helpful to them. for me befriending people is a great way to be treated as a passer because people will overlook ur non passing features just because they like you... thats my 2 cents.
I can't stand the idea of dying with a dick. I absolutely hate the idea of a bunch of nasty sickos looking down at my body in the morgue or whatever, seeing that part of me, and sneering at my body and making a bunch of nasty shitty comments, then filling out the obituary and death certificate wrong even though all my documents including my birth certificate say female and have a female name. Imagining that scenario in my head fills me with an incredible amount of spite, the survive no matter what kind. I plan to get SRS. I don't care if I get a mediocre or even botched result, I'm not dying with my parts the way they are now.
Why wouldnt any of this still happen after you get SRS?
I'm not a troon.
My bf, sometimes that makes me wanna rope more cuz he's sweet and deserves better but he'd be really sad and had a past love interest rope so I can't put him through that again
Waiting for him to realize I'm trash and bail lmao (then to forget about me completely cuz I told him I wouldn't kms if he left me cuz I don't want him to feel obligated to stay with me)
my dog would be sad
This meme doesn't work, was/were is a verb not a pronoun
Christ, right wingers are fucking retards
If i were to die, I wouldn't get to see whether things get worse or better. I know it's hard to remain optimistic but I more or less just find it interesting to watch things unfold on the world stage. If I had died a year ago, there are plenty of things I wouldn't have experienced. If I'd died 10 years ago, there is a nigh infinite number of things I wouldn't have experienced. Things I wouldn't have done. People I wouldn't have met.
When you hit rock bottom, the only direction you can go is up. You're still falling, but you'll get there eventually. And from there, everything will be okay.
life has fun things like weed, anime, vidya gaems
i don't care much about being a tranny aside from the fact that i don't wanna get hatecrimed
just be urself
t. boymoder
My will to live and my will to die is equally strong, Like speeding in traffic while dodging everything.
Because it would traumatise my partner and parents. If I could guarantee it wouldn't cause any pain to others I would kill myself in an instant. It just makes sense. Successful suicide is the only thing you can do in life that has a 0% regret rate.
Literally the only thing that keeps me from doing it is the physical pain I'd have to go through. Otherwise I would have already hanged myself on a doorknob. I tried to, but it felt too uncomfortable to go through with.
..i want to live life first..
-..killing myself right now would lead to nothing…
.i wouldn’t be remembered..
and my mom and her family would be in a lot of pain..
-/ i want to be famous first then kill myselfff.
>What's stopping you from roping?
No suitable drop anywhere in my house and I don't have enough energy to look for anything outside, it's either choking to death for an hour or my parents finding my decapitated body
they're probably for bondage thoughever
Yes, obviously, you should only put this thing around your neck in some weird sex scenarios not to actually suicide efficiently
would you commit suicide if you could have the sexo with an angel
I tried to two months ago.
Friends noticed the sign, found me and stopped me before i could do anything.
I've been too ashamed to try again since. I still want to die, but i don't want to betray the only people who actually cared for me.
Not being able to afford legal gender marker/name change, the new laws proposed taking ages to come into place that would make it easier and pure spite not wanting to let everyone win by dying with my deadname on my headstone
I might be able to travel more someday if I work hard and have a good mindset. I appeared on a livestream recently as a guest and all the viewers liked me even tho it's not like a queer or trans or whatever type stream (travel show with mostly cishet male viewers). So I might start making content soon because I deleted all my social media before transition and it would be cool to put myself out there again. I love my parents, as difficult as our relationship is nowadays. I love my kitty cat. I'm going on a date tonight, maybe that will be fun. I have the ingredients to try a new pasta recipe I've never made before, and it has lots of anchovies so I know I'm gonna like it.
You just gotta find little things in the present and the future to hold onto. The suffering will always be there, butt the good stuff makes it manageable.
i only want to die because of romantic unfulfillment and heartbreak
if my wishes are met someday i will want to live that life forever
>oh please come over this time my beloved !!!!!!! ;-;
I'll be your beloved if you are not a hon
if you think about live as a surviving quest it's way more funnier to live
idk
suicide sounds icky
>as a surviving quest
It's a real fucking boring quest. There's virtually nothing you can do to put yourself in danger in modern society. Everything is safe, clean, convenient and peaceful. All violence is surpressed by state oppression so you can't even get into a fight without having your freedom taken away from you by the cops.
you are constantly in danger in modern society, it's just more boring than you think it is
>you are constantly in danger
No one is trying to hurt me, no one is trying to steal my resources, there are no predators I have to keep a look out for, I have no danger of going without food or shelter.
No one and nothing is out to get me and it's fucking dull.
>No one is trying to hurt me, no one is trying to steal my resources, there are no predators I have to keep a look out for, I have no danger of going without food or shelter.
I have never seen this man anywhere near me, I don't even know who he is. He hasn't so much as sent even a vaguely threatening dm to me. I'm literally just existing and every day I'm safe and sound.
the other anon is a retard but you're constantly at threat of disposession, starvation, and hurt by the capitalists of the world. it all takes place in a "civil" way, through a sophisticated financial system and the state, but at the end of the day you're in danger of becoming homeless and dying from the elements. you're not safe
even if things are hard now, my frame is tiny, someday I'll have breasts, and FFS will fix much of my face
adhd meds and math/engineering in various disciplines, dashed with tenets of absurdism and existentialism
boobies
that's literally it
God has heard the abundant protector