The TL;DR of my situation is that my parents never really gave a shit about me beyond paying for school so I've never learned to become independent and grow up.
My character is pusillanimous, I'm completely clueless whenever it comes to the minutia of life, I'm a shut-in and genuinely do not know how to socialize. I can't think of a single reason why a girl would want to be with me, and I don't blame her.
I've been studying how male teenagers turn into men cross-culturally and it's always through rites of passage, and I can attest to this fact in some of my more mature friends.
I was thinking maybe I could do a sort of summer/military camp but I'm way too old for all of that stuff (19). I'm going to try to join a boxing academy soon to see if maybe the environment does toughen me up.
Does anyone have any similar ideas? If so, please share. I am begging you. I suffer a lot of needless suffering because of this, and I really do want to change.