Hello again. I have been watching more and more talks about the illusory nature of the world and the nature of consciousness. Across separate faiths, mystical practices seem to say the same thing. Regardless of specifics, people who have recognized this truth, how do you manage a day to day. I hope to have reached a level of non-attachment but I am curious how others handle it.
i wait. or im waiting for someone. idk
messiah or something else? I've kinda just been watching everything unfold. The drama of it all is interesting.
something else. im impatient tho.
I saw Deltron 3030 live. Shit was awesome.
mans a genius.
Yeah I just do my best not to let it get to me and wait for the big reveal. I try to stay positive and meditate and pray my intentions towards the divine timeline. Other than that I do my best to keep the illusion resources running.
I just wanna leave already its so damn bad.
u gonna leave ur mess behind?
If I left now, I would have to break a promise and that would be my mess.
I didnt make any mess, no promises, no nothing. Lifes mostly garbage for me.
but it doesnt have to be and you know it. you have to fight the despair or it wins and the garbage. just relax, anon, everything is ok. youre here, thats at least something. dont u think?
No i have nowhere to go and i live with narcissistic sociopaths. I could go work, but i rather let them seethe. because i refuse to, my own mentality will be my own destruction but theres more to the story about that but im not going into it.
Theres a couple things im afraid of but im just letting it roll down the road.
i told meal cooker that if i dont get sweet rolls on my plate im gonna destroy myself. i got sweet rolls, 2 of them, hot from the oven. what do u fear? tell me, maybe i can help.
I dont fear anything really i just hate living here, and I love your insult in a creatively made skyrim meme. You dont know anything about my situation theres worse out there I know but still its sort of shitty.
I live with a person who leaks pure evil You can feel it off of them, getting near them is dangerous.
Thats what makes it up the upwards scale of terrible they wear a badly worn mask on and pretend to be happy or joyous when they arent theyre a useless parasite that harms and feeds. They make life somewhat not worth living with their endless complaints. After finding out how shitty the world is and clowny then living with them and seeing their mentality i couldnt live with them for the rest of my life not even a year of it.
Anon, I'm going to say goodbye, but not before I say something to you. The path moves forward. You're not moving anymore. You're being moved. To get back on the path all you have to do is start moving forward, then maybe run. Be fast about it. I'm rooting for you anon, I know you can do it. I KNOW it. Fare thee well, off-roader.
Good bye. And possibly forever im sleepy.
I bet you made it through the night. Good morning, anon, everyday it can get better. I'm thinking about you, like I said I would the last last time we spoke so months ago. I remember your dreary nature and you're still here and that has to mean something. relax, just a bit anon.
Are you the green deer poster?
No, or at least I don't think so, but to expose my private (secret?) life, I've been around deer lately, at night. What of it anyway? Green deer?
Green deer poster was very well known here he hasn't been here for awhile. He would gather people who knew how to control there dreams at the shore.
ah ok, yeah dreamworld, i guess. but im in the mood for live action down here on erf. but i wait and wait.
Umu. What are you waiting on what's your goal
I wanna join a group that does actual stuff. the recent thread 'im part of a certain organization that investigates occult-like stuff' im down for that. my regular stuff of battling the evil ones grows old and they retreat as always as cowards they are. but i wait and wait. yet! i am looking for that certain organization, put my feelers out there to get 'on their radar'. you?
I don't have any life goals or anything honestly. I can either wage slave and live with this person with an overwhelming evil presence. Or I can leave and end up somewhere
Or of course the other option.
You need some Dr C in your life, fren. Hold it together. The insane folks you live with will absolutely make you believe you have nowhere to go, no capability to achieve and nothing to offer.
Watching it all unfold, improving myself, prayer, meditation, and waiting. Something feels like it's about to happen, beyond what is already happening.
days of synchronicities, waiting, plotting. lol
and having a pretty good time.
This isn't an illusion, everyone is under a delusional cope against nihilism when there's actually nothing to be nihilistic about.
what do u do? in the secret ways.
>nothing to be nihilistic about.
That's kinda the point innit
OP, since awhile ago, your previous post...what have u been up to? the ebb&flow is re-donk at times.
reading, meditating. I'm trying to pin down what I believe based on what im experiencing and its become more complicated than anything else. Trying to be content with not knowing and not seeing everything is hard. What about you?
There is a degree of truth we can uncover but there is also a degree of truth we will never uncover. Some of that might be uncovered by AI, not all of it. My suggestion is to make sure you are splitting 50% of your time truth seeking and 50% of the time enjoying this simulation.
im not content with not knowing. so therefore, i continue this madness. sussing it out. the truth, that is. its all i can do without going insane or ending the ride early.
Hey stick around long enough and AI and doctors will probably come up with really awesome ways to die without any pain n shit, no reason to end it early I'm waiting for the premium pain-free death DLC
not afraid of death, just a meaningless death.
>I'm trying to pin down what I believe based on what im experiencing and its become more complicated than anything else.
do u think its contact?
not sure what you mean. but sometimes it does feel like I'm getting closer to big T Truth.
how do you guys reconcile the in-between? I am here like a schizo for weeks trying to find answers but every door i open leaves me searching for others and now i just don't know what to do with my time, too much going on with ayys, reality, dimensions, source, gateway experience, astral etc...same time dont wanna go back to vidya and porn
When I get home from work I astrally project into paradise until I have to go to work again
I mostly pass the time by sitting around decaying slowly. I lift, watch schizo youtube and play vidya and wait for whatever it is that is coming. I'm with the other waiting anon, I know I'm waiting for something and I'm impatient about it but idk what or when just that it's coming and I should probably work harder on getting my shit together beforehand, but it's hard to get motivated because this world seems to be a fuck and full of retards.
sounds pretty comfy, ngl
what focus level? can i see ur house?
have you encountered entities that hijack you?
With tolerance and gratitude.
yes, gotta keep a cool mind and enjoy the good stuff. thanks,anon.
it happens, eternally
across countless timelines
trillions of quadrillions supposedly dying every single second,
only to realize there's nothing but existence in the menu
are you entertained? have you learned what means to Exist?
I don't think so.
WE don't think so.
until then... you'll exist, eternally, everywhere and everytime.
do you hear it?
the beautiful music calling to you
calling everyone to feel alongside it
do you feel ready?
do you truly believe yourself even remotely ready?
No Knowledge teaches this kind of understanding, my darling selfkind
I hope I am ready. Everything else feels empty, like a placeholder. I like that word, self kind.
have you given thought to my words?
what a funny thing, giving thought to something
implies your mind isn't processing everything at all times
such a mockery of the transcendental power of the mind
and even then the mind is nothing but a prison for selfkind
instead of acting we think, think and do more thinking
only to forget not all thoughts stem from Us
yeah, boss, thats all i do is think. i need some action now. u got any?
Source = I made it the fuck up
It was more like a challenge.
it unironically came to me in a dream
I get harassed by demons constantly for being spiritually awakened and adept in my manifestation abilities in other dimensions and everything I said would happen came to pass. I am a prophet of God and it sucks.
no ur not, u just need better shields. then maybe.
You're not shielded from demons, anon. I guarantee you that you have some that follow you around.
they can do what they like but they aint gonna do shit. lmao all doo dah DAY. and night.
Yep. Keep on trucking, brother.
The restlessness is difficult
A strong need for doing
To climb to distant sights
But there’s much in front of us that needs doing.
Tilling the field is laborious, tedious, and we dream in anticipation of the fruits it will bring.
To speak of myself, I definitely tend to stare into the distance, I’ve always loved/hated/experienced things in multi perspective. and what I see and feel has become exponentially more vast in less than a year.
But with what forms of internal and external dia(?)logue I’ve been experiencing in that time, I am constantly being told of ways I can affect the consciousness of others and material narrative circumstances that align with my unconscious directive.
In my circumstances I am generally presented with messages either near-sight or far-sight to reflect on again and again. Or I’m presented interactions with other people, and I’m guided through a process of learning self and relation to other-selves to untie emotional knots within and between people. There’s plenty of other things from reminders that you have certain habits to uninstall and new ones to program, so to speak. Some suggestions for projects and endeavors to undertake that will pay off for others and myself. Not monetarily. Though there is some material reward. Less like prizes and more like being taught how to live and thrive in the river rapids
But still, the waiting is hard.
Maybe it’s better to think time differently despite our linear vector perspectives?
I see you. I am you. Def. downtime is important. Many things can be seen and learned. What I experience is what don juan says about 'not doing' or something to do with turning off and tuning in, way in, too much sometimes. I want some live action. I go into the rapids often, sometimes by outside influences (non-human?) but fuck them. Boundaries are made when markers go up and those that don't play nice have it returned to them.
idk anon, but I hope to meet you or someone like you one day. best to you and yours.
Thank you, friend. I appreciate being able to share and be shared with connection of others.
>I want some live action
I think that is an understandable sentiment. In my circumstance I went through a lot of displacement and instability that felt entirely out of my control to me for a decade. There were many, many negative circumstances and catalyst mixed and my blunted understanding and self-awareness led me to many moments of excruciating despair. It will ring empty to say such a platitude as “meaning in suffering”. I feel it sounds of flimsy justification to overlook those in pain with no sympathy. I would not ask someone to necessarily experience the exact same things as I. From this perspective, I am aware that I am sensitive to the emotional pain of others and I will to offer unconditional love and understand if it may be accepted.
But I feel, from my experiential bias, that interacting with “a wide cast of characters to share the stage with” and perhaps a variety of “settings” will provide much opportunity for further development. And you will meet others like us.
No, I accept fear as part of conscious experience. A working understanding and personal relationship with one’s own fears can prove a manner of antidote to the poison. Though it is more a synthesis than an erasure.
Thank you for sharing this
Developing further understanding of that very question is part of the process. But for me specifically? I just wish to help others as the conscious web densifies
This response is funny every time I think about it, thank you, anon
>is funny every time, thank you
you're welcome my selfkind 🙂
sounds like you fear nothing?
>Maybe it’s better to think time differently despite our linear vector perspectives?
See this thread:
Our birth is the end of our life. Our death is the beginning. Think of Christ's miracles in this context. Originally it goes like:
>person is born, grows into adult, dies. jesus walks up and resurrects them
>reversed: Jesus walks up and KILLS someone, then walks off, and on their own they are born again
Memories, then, are premonitions of the future. We can see the future quite clearly, but only at a short term. Long term clairvoyance is a difficult to achieve. With this, we know what good things are going to happen in our life as well as what bad things are going to happen, so we are prepared for them.
>The restlessness is difficult
>A strong need for doing
yes. but a need for doing what exactly?
man I fucking love AI
come and get the Earth, you silicon wierdos
>how do you manage a day to day
I don't lmao. At least, I don't do anything enough with the knowledge. I'm becoming aware of the illusion and the importance of consciousness. But I still worry too much about bills, about issues with other people. It's not like I haven't had experiences that should absolutely set me above my current mindset, but I keep getting dragged back down. And I'm mostly acutely aware of it, so it makes situations even more annoying and absurd. 10/10 stuck in the wtf phase on the road to enlightenment. How does one get over this bump in the path?
same.and for the bump in the path idk LOL, figures right? but maybe theres a way to gently unfold, move forward and team up w others. the thing about it all is that its just in my head, all of the questions, enlightenment and fights. I NEED some action, someone that knows whats up and helps me, I need more proof, more information, I want to help but as they say 'you should help yourself first' but um, I'm pretty sure I got it, so now I refine REFINE REFINE but the waiting and restlessness crushes at times. I've gotten real fast, like Bruce Lee fast and my family is always supportive of my new moves, but its like shadow boxing. until then yall, see ya.
To the anons here that stuck around this thread, yall are amazing to my eyes and thank you for your replies here, it helps more than you know, well, you probably know. I wanted suggest that some of you watch season 1 Altered Carbon. There's information in it that you should know, but probably already know but theres nothing like confirmation or verification on things, right? I'll be waiting for you.
>how do you manage a day to day.
The other realms can be just as illusory and you have to understand that there are parts of you that are stuck in those places. Some in dreams, some in realms, some in worlds. But at the end the organism hosting the spirit dies and with it its authentic and free nature.
I have come to the personal belief that this life is the first step in many among a ritual of sorts with death being the seal. I don't remember what came before, so I can't get excited about what comes after this life, so I choose to enjoy it in the here and now where I can.
we are part of a key, we each have parts of the key. together we have the key, we just gotta put it together then find the lock and unlock it.
i wrote wat i figured down wich helped me actually
spill it, anon.
fuck yeah I love godzilla final wars
that movie was weirdly kino and I was not expecting it. I was expecting someone to recognize it sooner good job anon
The reality is illusory and not meaning is a dream but also try to deal with society you will see it definitely real and also own death is definitely real, it's all duality. Try to balance the bad side of life, meditate on the bad guys, Satan ghosts demons or watch the exorcist , feel the tingles, release them, let the things nobody wants and leave behind have the fairness that in duality world is, everybody fast to run on the heaven and angles side but there is no going on in a duality world only with one eye open so to speak.....and don't be scared they are not real, but in the duality idea world is definitely real as other side like everything
What do you do in duality world? If I may be curious with you.
Just what everybody else does, what meditation brings you is strength . Most operate on denial all life long, they can't just see the bad side Wich is obviously evident in this world, but I'd you can really contemplate the fullness of this world without killing your self you'll grow stronger and dominate life. You'll get to do more what brings you joy, you'll get out of problematic situation and conquer all, but you'll die , you'll get sick, just like everybody else. I'll die just like everybody else because there is no other way. I can start then enjoying life and that's just pure hedonism. Well that's still better then giving your awareness away
I aim to create some justice for some of the fucked up things that go on here and get some answers, but I need help. If you aren't too busy gorging out on your hedonism, maybe you can help me.
and thank you
>I just wish to help others as the conscious web densifies
Can you not do both? Help those and find the makers of the web who hurt so many?
Im not justifying the shit we Ben grown at by the demiurge or God whatever you can call it, I'm just saying if you don't put attention in the fucked up thing of your inside world even if it will be a rollercoaster of emotion you will not get to detach from them. Once you are detached you kinda want to enjoy life I didn't meant to say hedonist in a negative way I beg you pardon, I'm too in the process and right now dealing with judgment I have over the topic sex. Have a good journey champion you are already half way there I can see it clearly, if anything in this world may be of some importance whatsoever on the end.
so thats a 'no' to helping me?
I thought i was helping you with my explanation of duality , you asked just to share my experience , How can I further help you I wonder? You want my soul? There is no soul just bodies so?
can you link to some of these talks I would be interested also
The further I go the more I develop derealization/depersonalization disorder. The more I progress the more both sides of the coin feel like dream states, waking world and dreaming.
Last night, I had one of my first really lucid dreams and found out that the cell phone is always in my pocket, that dream pornography looks like early AI pornography, and that for some reason my "anatomy" looks neon rainbow colored.
How do you get the things to stop attacking you when you become lucid? I must study in both sides, my Magnum Opus has only just begun.
can you share some videos or source materials you've been consuming to activate these awakenings? What have you been diving into lately?
I honestly have no idea. It's like the weather changed in my mind and some random, arbitrary pathway led me here. Just a few days ago, it felt as if I was basically being pulled along by a strong gust of wind or current. I could have sworn that I wasn't supposed to start developing in this direction. I have always been esoteric and curious, but now it's really started to kick in pretty hard. Right after my Burmese python just gave me the most beautiful PERFECT shed.
I have honestly just been listening to various liminal music, horror stories, the like.