im curious what /lgbt/ got up to in their more formative sexual years. were you all alone, or did you get up to some fun?
i had a friend who slept over every weekend when i was a teen. i figured out i liked cock by sucking his. we also shared a bed pretty often, and it was kinda nice just having a close friend around all the time.
i have missed out on teenage gay love and i will never recover
i wouldnt call what i had love, but the experience still makes for fun, if bittersweet memories. its also kinda funny to know most men out there likely arent as straight as their cis f partners think they are.
fucking brutal, i feel like a part of my soul is missing
When I was 14, me and the kid down the street tried some stuff one hot summer day. We tried everything but at the end of the day it was clear I was the cocksucker....so I spent the next few weeks being his personal little cocksucker. We did it every where around his house seeing how close we could get to getting caught. I was already a secret pantyboi by then so it just seemed a natural fit.
how come it stopped?
>how come it stopped?
I moved away and never saw him again...wouldnt suck another cock until the age of 21.
Growing up my male childhood friends were incredibly homophobic. They hated any kind of contact with another man. They had to sit with a seat between them to avoid accidentally touching each other. They even had little rules on when and how to look at each other to avoid catching "the gay" through the male gaze. There's more but that's some of the dumbest of it.
did you do any of the performative homophobia? i used to pretend to be homophobic as a teen for shits and giggles, and the people around me hated it. what they didnt realise is that the entire thing was a ruse for male attention, positive or negative.
Not really. At first I didn't give a damn over my friends' weird homophobia until one time they got really mad at me over turning to face them to talk (apparently if two straight men are sitting next to each other they're supposed to only look forward when talking) and scolded me. I ended up following along because I didn't have any other friends.
oof
thats a bit far on the spectrum on their part tbh
Yeah. Thinking back I suspect that it was just one of them who pushed the others to do it since he was the most vocal over it. He was a massive pervert over women too.
I feel for you.
same all my friends were like this. it was tortorus but i deludued myself into thinkking it was normal. i kick myself over not doin gay stuff as a kid but in reality i never even had a chance...i woulda gotten killed tbh
The only experienced I had as a teen. Was being groomed by bi guys/heteroflexible guys that were 25 and wanted to see my asshole (I was a femboy a very beautiful, fragile and dysphoric one).
I had my first love story when I was 18 (so late teen) with a straight guy that didnt knew I was trans. Before that I had a couple of hetero curious men trying to get my nudes on messanger but nothing more.
I was 14 to 17
I get to re-read the convos I had. Fuck it hits different now that I'm+5y on estrogen. I regret never getting into action earlier. I would have loved getting railed by ones of these chads but I was scared af at the time.
lol
desu, i think a lot of people who claim not to want that on at least some level are lying. theres no denying that mid to late teens is peak of androgynous beauty, especially if youre trans.
not me. i was such a masculine boy already at 14. im way prettier now then i ever was. pedos wouldve hated me i was so ugly
>theres no denying that mid to late teens is peak of androgynous beauty, especially if youre trans.
Yah, you're absolutely right. I know it's a really touchy subject but truth is a 16-19yr old is often peak beauty for both genders. Being attracted to it is normal and only in the 21st century are we asked to deny the instincts inherent to most of humanity.
There's also the simple fact that many teens do want that learning experience from an older, protective man. Otherwise why would so many teens be on Grindr/Tinder? I'm not advocating anyone do anything outside of legal Age of Consent but we can at least have an objective conversation about teenage sexuality. We can't just ignore biological realities.
>teens do want that learning experience from an older, protective man
groomer cope
no such thing as biological fundementalism, pedo
I’ll start my first year of college in a few weeks and hopefully I will get to experience it
>he believes
LOL
I believe. It’s a big and progressive college. It will happen.
Do you want just casual stuff because that's what you're gonna get.
I was alone the entire time, mostly by isolation, I didn't personally know almost any gay guys, and then of course covid
wish I knew how I felt back then it wasn't until I was 22 that I started realizing why I never crushed on a girl in class
>dated girl for five years from freshman through year after school
>broke up with her because i wanted to try other things
>unable to find love for years, marry at 30
>dream about her constantly
>my gay experiences weren't even good and i had a hard time connecting because the other male attracted men were flittery homosexuals and i enjoy the outdoors hunting
if i could go back i would never leave her.
to find love for years, marry at 30
what
did you marry someone you didn't like?
When I was around 14 I met my ex-best friend. We became very close because he was an autistic mf who liked infodumping and I was a good listener. Our friendship was based on Star Wars, LoTR and music. Once, on a school field trip, we got lost because we decided to leave the group and go to a Star Wars museum. It was a crazy afternoon because the teacher was literally crying and they called our parents. At the time I felt very guilty but today I have no regrets, it's nostalgic to have those memories with my friend.
He went through a stage where he had very low self-esteem and deep down he believed that no one would put up with him (he had a girlfriend but everything ended quickly because, again, he was an autistic mf). On one occasion I gathered my courage and told my friend that I would rather listen to him than be at some party getting drunk with brainless idiots. This wasn't some white lie, I really liked listening to my friend, I was quite impressionable and I honestly believed he was a genius...I still believe that, but I'm also convinced he was an edgy incel.
pretty wholesome, why are you no longer friends?
(2) I don't know if those words had effect, he used to be very distant and I think he cared more about fame and status than other things like personal relationships. My friend avoided physical contact, except on rare occasions where he would take my hand and hold it tightly. Other times he looked at me for a long time, perhaps he was trying to understand me or his mind wandered to other places. But for a third spectator it must have been strange to see two boys looking at each other in silence. Other than that we didn't do anything homoerotic.
After we graduated, we went to the same university but after a year my friend got tired and moved to the USA. At first we kept in touch but we lost frequency over time, until one day he no longer answered and didn't appear online either. My friend lost/ruined his cell phone every year, so it's not strange that that was the cause of our "breakup", although I don't rule out the possibility that in an autistic outburst he decided to delete all the contacts he considered useless.
At the time I was aware that I felt stronger things for him than a friend would, but didn't care (or didn't want) to know anything about labels and sexuality, so I excused myself with things like "I want to hug him and look at him for a long time, but it's like affection between brothers, right?". Not sure about his sexuality, maybe an hetero asexual (or biromantic asexual, who knows).
Despite everything, it was a nice friendship.
oh it's about thing we did as teenagers rather than with teenagers lol
I had a girl give me an anonymous (lesbian) love letter, there was some stuff about watching me from afar. I think I realise in retrospect who it was, and she was cute and we had similar interests but never got to know each other. She said in the letter that she may work up the courage to confess to be in person soon, I know that sounds like a cheesy anime but that's the kind of girl she was.
Anyway the story ends with me dropping out of high school before she ever confessed to me due to mounting stress, depression, and a chronic fatigue disorder, combined with teachers picking fights with me that ended with suspensions. I wish I could get back the relationship we might have had, she dropped other hints that I ignored due to anxiety thinking she would shun me for thinking she was into me/lesbian. It's too late now, it's been 5 years, I'm an agoraphobic loser with no future, and she's completely wiped her Internet presence even if I wasn't.
I was working at a little dinky youth center/resale shop/concert venue.
The first time I ever went in there I met a nice older goth boy who tried to get me to play the open mic night. Eventually I was there every weekend so they offered me a job and I got trained as a sound/light/stage tech. Every Saturday it would be the two of us in the soundbooth me working, him flirting, me pretending not to notice, him noticing I'm red in the face. It went on for 2 years but he never made a move. One day our goth girl friends tried to get us to kiss, unfortunately I froze. We had another near miss when I went on a double date only to find out he was the other guy. Neither one of us was happy with the person we were out with and we spent some time chatting after they left. I would have gone for it but I wasn't going to cheat. Amusingly enough me and him ran through most of the alt girls in our town and surrounding towns, alt groups can be shockingly incestuous.
Shame if he made a move I might have been "gay" (bi) instead of larping as a straight for years.
I'm a bi mtf now
God I wish I could have fooled around with all of the twinky goth and emo boys in the 00's instead of chasing girls. I never realized that well would dry up
An all too typical teenage experience. Rush of brain chemicals from puberty basically paralyzing our ability to make decisions when first experiencing a true crush.
>alt groups can be shockingly incestuous.
lol yah. I've dicked down plenty of alt-girls/boys and they were also getting dicked by every man in their friend group, often in threesomes with other alts.
>twinky goth and emo boys in the 00's instead of chasing girls. I never realized that well would dry up
We can never go back, Anon. Enjoy you didn't completely miss out on opportunities. I missed the entire scene/emo phase in the 2000s because I was an insecure little shit.
I’m still here gothing it up
>t. 18yo bisexual mallgoth
I mean I was never goth I just wore a lot of black and flannels, I was surrounded by subculture friends. I identified way more with the ska kids bit I listened to death&black metal, ska, punk, industrial, classic goth & dark/cold wave and tons if other stuff.
My friends and I still look alt although admittedly since I embraced being gnc and eventually trans I mostly listen to stuff like Charly Bliss, Beach Bunny, Chumped and Remember Sports
Jeeze no joke but I feel disgusting if I date anyone much younger than me.
I lost it at 14 during 2005 so you are literally in the age range of if I knocked up one of my fellow town bicycles
at 17 my gay friend at the time started flirting with me while at a sleepover at a mutual friend's place. we ended up cuddling while watching monty python and a few days later i went on a date with him and saw Frozen 2 at the movies. we cuddled during it and we both had a rlly fun time :). unfortunately im very mentally ill and cut things off with him before we could go further. nowadays im mtf and ill probably never get him back :(. i rlly shouldve kissed him he was so cute.
I didn't get teenage gay love really until I was 18 and with my now ex bf. I did have a beta orbiter when I was fagmoding at 16 tho lol.
I have been alone the whole time. Idk if I'm just too autistic to know how this works or porn fried my brain or something but I've never had an interest in romance or sex and really just don't know how it works like what am I supposed to feel? Idk I feel no desire to do any of this even now idk what's wrong with me
I am curious, what drove you to check out (and enjoy) porn when not having interest in real sex?
Probably just from talking about it with lads idk. I wasn't curious on my own looking up "boobies" on my computer I was told this is how you do it by friends ig
bisexual man here. in my teens i jerked it to a lot of trans porn, then when i became 18 i discovered femboy porn. I'm a genuine KHHV tho so i have no experience with either gender (there are only 2) i wish to have sex or date soon but it's most likely i will end up a 30 year old KHHV
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>become friends with a guy in hs who just moved into the school
>both around 16 at the time
>he follows a bunch of other ppl from the school on instagram, I was one of them
>immediately dm's me and compliments my art (I am an artist)
>we start up a conversation and he asks me if I know any hot girls at our school
>tell him "idk why I would know, I'm gay"
>he says something along the lines of "oooh really ;)"
>I try to change the subject
>he asks tons of weird invasive questions about my sexual preferences for the next hour
>we become friends over the next week or so because I'm lonely and have no standards
>he begins outright rp flirting with me in dms on a regular basis and then ending it each time with a "haha bro no homo tho jk"
>I get too excited and develop a crush on him
>try to arrange time to hang out
>actually manage to meet up with him for an hour at the local park, chill, hang out, etc.
>nothing really happens and neither of us mention the dms
>went well otherwise
>about 1 month since our initial meeting I confess my feelings to him in the midst of him writing some weird fanfic fantasy about us kissing "as a joke"
>he is accepting at first but says he's straight and has no interest in me but still really enjoys me as a friend
>I take it at face value and say I want to continue being friends too
>I go to bed a bit sad but thinking everything is fine
>wake up to dms from him calling me a "creepy fag" that tried to "turn him gay" and that if he saw me in the halls he would "rape and kill" me
>block him immediately, don't go to school for two days, don't tell anyone this happened
>I still saw him every once in awhile and he literally acted like I didn't exist besides an occasional dirty look
>still got random death threats from instagram alts every 3 months or so for the next 2 years until I graduated
>become literally too afraid to talk to any local gay guys again until about a year after I graduate
yes, this is the closest I got kek
god damn he was an ass
what the actual fuck that sounds like a nightmare, i used to get tons of friendly messages from guys in my like sophmore and senior years but 50% ghosted me for some reason after a while... Is there a phenomenon for the sudden homophobia bomb that explodes in mfs after they let out their repressed gay feelings??
I have no idea. Idk if context helps but this happened in a small high school in rural PA around 2015-2016. My assumption was that it was some repressed homosexual desire interacting with mental illness, religious brainwashing and republicanism to create someone uniquely unstable 🙁
I got my first boyfriend at 16 and he was a 16yr old volleyball twink I met off Grindr (yah yah, we were both minors on the app).
We dated for 5 months and it was rather enjoyable but at the same time shallow. We were caught up in the dopamine rush of finally being able to sexually express ourselves and have someone to visit daily. It was fun and comforting but we never had deep conversations or true emotional support. We broke up on bad terms because he wanted more freedom to experiment with other guys.
I think most teenage romances are the same to this. It's a learning experience moreso than a life changing event and it ends over stupid shit.
I lost my virginity to my best friend who used to come over for sleepovers pretty often, we'd share a bed in the spare bedroom and one night things escalated beyond fooling around ig
didn't have many sexual experiences as a teen. cause of the the dysphoria. there were people interested in me but just low self esteem could never accept that.
Did hook up with a male friend when I was 16 tho. Me, him and our female friend had been drinking at his place. We were all sleeping in the same bed after drinking. He whispered in my ear to come to the other room, I knew what was going to go down. I took a swig of the left over rum then went there. He had already taken off his shirt when I got there. I did the same. We started making, pretty messily, but in that neither of us know what we are doing kinda way. Then we took of each others pants and underwear. There was no penetration just a lot of sucking and making out and touching and sucking. I don't think either of us actually came, this we just stopped because day light was coming up and just tired.
I remember laying there on the bed with him and he asked, "do you think you're gay?" "nah, pretty sure I'm bi" "I think I am".
That was both his and my own first real sexual experience. We don't really talk anymore, just a natural drifting apart. And he lived quite a privileged life and I came from a pretty poor unstable one parent household that's still had ramifications to this day, so sometimes there's resentment over how our lives turned out. But I really do treasure that memory of adolescent self-discovery.
That's really sweet anon.
I'm happy for you.
My first was a bi female hockey player/skater, she was 18 I was 14. She basically took the lead with everything and it was a good and for the most part fun learning experience.
I didn't realize it but I would end up almost exclusively bi people and dated or pursued many future ftm's, I didn't realize there was a radar for that...
lol, wonder what kind of vibes attract bi and ftm, seems like it'd be a nice one tho, probably cool as well. Maybe cool, calm collected?
(OP)
>be me
>shut in
>have shut in best friend
>have crush on best friend
>sometimes played truth or dare
>at the end it'd escalate to trading nudes
>claims hes sort of sometimes bi
do i have a chance bros?
underaged b&
prove it lamo
ill bite
all of my experiences in hs were straight. it makes me feel like shit and fake. i was a very typical teenage boy ig, always into girls my whole childhood. never even entertained the idea of being into boys since it was just so fucking hated by my family and schools.
i got cis gf when we were both 15. we were the emo couple of the school ig and did everything u can imagine. was with her until she cheated on me the first week of college. so now i just sleep around with transwomen and other amab genderfucks thatll take me because men are scary and actual, good men dont want me cause im not pretty like a real girl.
the closest thing i had to a gay experience was a homie i had in 8-10th grade. we got into fights alot over girls we both liked but would always stop talking to the girls and go back to being homies. i would always try to kiss him "as a joke" in school and hed beat me up but only after letting me get really close. id push him against lockers and grab his nipples in front of everyone for some reason. we worked at a pumpkin patch together in 10th grade and got rlly close. one day we were sitting on a hale bale and he asked me how big my dick was, so i told him and he told me about his. once i went over to his house and had phone sex with gf in my room when i thought he was asleep but he later told me heard it.
there couldve been something there, but around november that year, his family shipped him off to his aunts in canada and i never saw or heard from him again.
lots of experiences with girls and guys but my most memorable experience was..
>be me, 15/16 I don't remember exact age
>scrawny twinky 5'7, 100lbs teen who was super into wanting to be a femboy
>even got an older friend to help my buy panties n boots shorts n stuff from stores at the mall under the guise that they were for her lol.
>end up going to a summer camp for queer youth
>absolute chaos and sexual tension that only spending 4 days with other queer kids of a similar age in cabins with minimal supervision could provide.
>end up meeting this absolutely gorgeous, gymnast dude who was taller than me but a year younger in the same cabin
>he teases the hell out of me for most of the week and gives me butterflies
>makes fun of me for being such a scrawny smaller fem guy than him even though he's younger..drives me absolutely wild
>end up making out with him during the camp and giving him my number
>invite him over to my house a few weeks later
>parents are overbearing and conservative so we go for a small hike to the woods during my house
>eventually he tells me to stop and we end up making out in a small meadow and he's groping the hell out of me and i practically melt in his arms
>have to go back home cause parents wouldn't let me out too long.
>get back and go up to my room and pay the favor back by pulling down his pants and teasing the fuck out of his cock for like half an hour.
>he wants to fuck me but I'm absolutely terrified of my parents coming up and catching me getting fucked
>end up just sucking his dick instead while he gropes me
>we ended up blocking eachother for some stupid reason or another that I don't remember
>never did end up getting fucked by him 🙁
always wondered what happened to him until I found him as a friend of a friend's ex. he's still hot as shit but I doubt he'd be interested since I'm a tranny now
aw man. ive learned u shud always take the oppertunity when u have it. i have a hrt femboy friend i was hooking up with and suuuper into and one time after did alot of side stuff he wanted to top me but i said no because my hole wasnt completly shaven, even tho he said it was ok., the next day he told me he was ace and didnt wanna do that stuff anymore...i missed the chance. he wasnt even on hrt then he was just so fucking hot and andro and taller than me ugh why didnt i let him
uuugh yeah that sucks big time I feel that. that was one of the biggest things I told myself I'd start doing more since I started HRT and living again is taking chances and not letting myself have 'what ifs'.. if I can find his insta again, maybe I'll message him 🙂
yea u shud message him! u never know he might just like u now even morecause u have bobbs
I missed out on teenage love (still a khv) but this moment always sticks with me.
>be me,13 - 14, 9th grader
>slender lanky 170cm 40kg repressing autist poon, glasses, short brown hair, very flat, raspy voice
>attending all girls muslim school
>nerd tomboy but never got bullied like other dykes cause I was polite
>typically male interests like computers, history, fps and rts games
>either dressed formal with colored tuxedo shirts and wore hooded jackets over them in winter
>get my curly hair cut shorter and it looks fluffy
>shorter girl during the break touches it
>tells me I look like a cute 16 year old boy
>I get shy
>says she would date me if I were a boy
>I awkwardly laugh
>says we would've had cute babies if I were a boy
>shiver because never been in this situation, can't say anything but awkwardly stutter
>feelsgoodman
>i cant stop thinking about her all day
>dream about us making out
>next day
>shower in the morning and use my dad's cologne, try to dress cool for her
>sit next to her in class
>keep trying to not look at her
>in between class she comes close, sniffs my neck and tells me i smell nice
>i say she looks nice
>asks me to sit next to her
>she plays with my hair and lets me lay in her lap during break times over the next few days until she switches classes
>never talk to her again beyond waving and saying hello
I live in a conservative country and was also very dysphoric, so all of my gay experiences were just me finding different ways of secretly giving/receiving affection from guys.
> only staring at boys from outside their line of sight
> getting close to smell them but not too close to arouse suspicion
> can't hug them, so always give them shoulder massages instead to feel their touch
> wearing their winter coats and feeling like he's hugging you from behind
> secretly leaving snacks in their bags and pockets
> this one time that I actually held hands with a boy
> one time a drop of his spit landed on my hand while he was talking, and I licked it off when he was gone
Also the sad ones too.
> dealing with all the hurtful comments they made to me
> fantasies of imagining myself as their gfs
> one person stealing my phone and publicly going through my search history while I tried to grab it back
> people hiding gross stuff in my desks and bags and only finding out afterwards
> noone to talk to about it and just bottling it up in your mind