have you considered the possibility of 'settling down' with another man in some way?
what would be the situation that makes it work for you?
settling down with another man
have you considered the possibility of 'settling down' with another man in some way?
what would be the situation that makes it work for you?
>what would be the situation that makes it work for you?
I wish I would but even in my age I'm artistically shy but I mean I'm not totally against the idea.
I can cook clean I'm good with fixing things and diy stuff. With.aome physical fitness I can also work on cars and maintain stuff like that. Just I have medical issues I'm weak and frail no one needs me
what kind of medical issues?
its a bit sad when someone asks waht you'd need and all you list are waht you can provide. im pretty weak and tired, i just want someone to relax the rest of life with.
Urinary retention issue. Basically can piss without catheters.
Had my hip reconstructed due to a birth defect. I can walk but mobility sucks I'm clumy trip bump into stuff I get minor injuries fairly regularly.
Thrn you know mrmr mental illness. Not anything bpd related. Just nervous emotional wreck. Makes it hard to do things. I don't know I just want to be useful to someone.
>cant piss without cathetars
dude is that immensely painful? how old are you? how did that happen?
>dude is that immensely painful? how old are you? how did that happen?
Not anymore. Its mostly painless unless I have to force it in. That sucks. I'm 32. Started at 18. No one has any idea why. It blows. As long as I have catheters I'm fine but without one it's to the emergency room because shit feels like death.
and you have to shove it in each time? that is terrifying to me man.
>and you have to shove it in each time?
Yes. It's either this or let them core my prostate to open it up. Which ya know I'm not a fan of either. Life sucks why I want to feel useful to someone. I'm broken as hell. Scared just want to be held.
what does 'core my prostate' mean? sounds bad. why don't want you want it tho?
>Scared just want to be held
have you ever been held?
>have you ever been held?
Family and pity by a girl sure. But rarely if ever and ya know not comforting. Weighted blanket helps a bit.
>what does 'core my prostate' mean?
Depending on the procedure they slice into or like an apple core take a slice out to widen the urethra. Of course there's risks.
I am just not interested in other guys. I think my interest was only on a few occasions but I have always preferred women over men. So I am bisexual at the most and I am not even sure I like men anymore. Most if not all gay guys are not appealing to me. I do not see a man and just say that I am into that guy. Meanwhile, I see women who I can definitely say I find attractive.
I tend to not really enjoy homosexuals, but i enjoy men and im not sure what to make of it.
I suppose if he would be my mountaineering partner with as much risk tolerance as me
what would 'settling down' with him look like?
Both of us have lucrative jobs (mountaineering is expensive) and we live in Colorado. He would be more of a friend but we'd fuck because women are difficult.
We want to push harder. We'll train together hours each day (instead of having to slow down for a female training partner) and with our insane aerobic capacities the mountains will be our bitch. One day we will die together in a mountaineering accident, but it beats dying old. And it beats dying alone.
Home life would be normal I think. A dog or two. We'll cook and clean together. Preferably we'll wear socks around the house cause men's feet are kinda gross to me.
damn that sounds nice, except for the socks, id enjoy mountaineer feet. do you have to fuck tho? like if a straight guy imagines trying to make something work with another guy do they really imagine anal?
that sounds terrifying but damn id want to do it to not have to cathetar man. what is your daily life like?
>id want to do it to not have to cathetar man.
I don't know catheters seem better than having my prostate sliced into. Ugh I don't know.
For the most part reading things online watching YouTube and if I'm lucky fixing whatever ends up on my work bench from ym family.
Sometimes I end up looking into further the major I was in. Experiment a little. Lately though been trying to revive my dream of drawing. Had been a mission since I have a bad wrist injury but I'm at this point so far. I take care of the plants here and cook from time to time. I like doing that. Just what I can manage right now.
The idea is nice to think about but not something that'll happen.
why not? if its nice to think about, might as well share the thoughts.
I don't know if I had a dog tail I'd be wagging it. Just being happy to mindlessly fix thing in the house then cook dinner for someone to come home too.
i relate to the cooking thing. when im alone i fantasize about a woman who would cook and id just do the work to support us, but then I had a friend visit and i just felt natural cooking all week. the energy is there when its for other people it seems.
Yeah it's great I love it. Though I do make stuff for myself sometimes. Making something tastes so much better even if it's stupid simple.
when i force myself to do it i enjoy it but when alone i default to a lot of my worst habits. its crazy how much healthier you can be just having a nice person to share the evenings with before bed. its hard to find someone you can just enjoy.
It's hard to find anyone period for anything now. It's exhausting. Why I think it'll remain a dream.
I dont know when my friend visited it kind of gave me hope that the right person is out there and if i start looking maybe ill find them. I had a similar experience with an old roommate where we just genuintely got along and enjoyed nights together.
maybe its more in my head than in theirs though, im not sure.
>but when alone i default to a lot of my worst habits.
Same. I think now that humans are just social creatures by nature, and work best like that. Another person simply silently observing you causes you to pull yourself together a lot more, at least me anyway. Otherwise it's like bad habits compound over time to the point where you're not sure you could even live with another person anymore (like me currently).
its a combination of things. interaction / being around people is stimulation. its not just that someone else makes you pull an act but that even around someone who might encourage bad habits, you still dont have to always resort to them. two people are more likely to sit around and talk for long periods between a drink then if they just start drinking on their own to pass the time.
when alone you quickly grow tired of just 'hanging around' and look for stimulation through vice. but when someone is around you have an hours long stimulation and don't need to go from one vice to the next to pass the time.
other humans are a natural stimulation we are supposed to have.
men are too loud. there'd be constant banter that would be exhausting. I'm also not gay and they'd get in the way of having women over if that ever happens again. I've never really had a room mate except in college for one semester. I've lived solo, away from parents, not in a dorm setting since 2013. My guest room is for guests, not permanent residents.
>men are too loud.
Depends on the men. Lot of us are meek and quiet. Or even get upset at loud sounds
yeah with women i feel like they need constant babysitting but with guys you can just do your own things and when you want to interact they're open to it but then it can go back to doing your own thing.
thats been my experience with roommates mostly
>upset at loud sounds
So no fucking bitches. Got it.