From the previous post:
"the difficulty is I don’t even understand why I feel this way. I’ve never been in a committed relationship, I’ve never been abused, I have a loving family and I’ve never experienced heart break. I go through stages of wanting a relationship then when I get close to having one I panic, I feel the typical ‘philophobia’ symptoms and run for the hills…"
THE ABOVE IS TRUE FOR ME. WORD FOR WORD.
I've recently started texting a guy who I met a 2 years ago in lab at uni. I've had no problem talking to him in person in the past but now I'm freaking out because our texts have gotten very flirty and he asked me out. I am really trying to distant myself now and just making up excuses to avoid meeting him. I feel really bad for doing this because he is a good guy.
A few weeks ago I brought home a guy I met at a bar (for the first time) and did not find that awkward at all! I didn't have sex with him but just having him there to cuddle was great haha. But this is why I am so confused about why I run for the hills when a good guy that I actually care about shows interest in me. I can bring home a stranger from the bar and get a little intimate with him but not with a guy I actually know has true feelings for me.