Repper brainworm making you overestimate your own masculinity

I first came to this board when I was 18.
I had already been dysphoric for a good 5 years, and had thought about being a woman for about 8 years.
I wasn't really aware of what transwomen were (I thought they were just feminine homosexual men crossdressing to have sex with straight men, something I really didn't identify with at all.)
I discovered many trans women were just like me, had the same thoughts, the same tastes, the same fears.
I considered getting on HRT, but I was very afraid.
Then I started getting tremendous brain-worms, being convinced I could never pass.
My face was pretty bad, especially for my age, as well as my height (184cm) but I also convinced myself I was a masculine monster physically in every way.
I was certain my shoulders were twice the width of that of the average man, that my hips were half the width of that of the average man, and that I was generally incredibly masculine.
It helped me rep and actually made me feel like I could beat anyone in a fight and gave me stupid self confidence (I would intentionally look at every man I passed by in the eyes intentionally, just to taunt them, etc).
It also made me miserable, obviously.
Finally after 6 more years, at 24, I cracked and started trooning.
Since then, I am measuring my body... And realizing I am actually in or near female range in most things! I can't believe it.
In particular, my shoulders, underbust, hips, they're all into female range!
How could I be so unaware of the true dimensions of my body for 6 long years? It blows my mind honestly.
If you are repressing and certain your dimensions are horrible, try again. You might be very surprised.
WAGMI!

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  1. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    congrats you were a rare luckshit

    • 10 months ago
      Anonymous

      Nah, my face is still fricked and I am still 184cm tall.
      However things aren't as bad as I thought they were.
      Maybe I'll pass with drastic FFS.

      [...]

      Don't care, didn't ask.

      • 10 months ago
        Anonymous

        how do you plan to afford that ffs?

        • 10 months ago
          Anonymous

          I have 8k in the bank rn. Plus about 300k in inheritance that I will get directly when my grandmother dies.
          Plus my country covers FFS, at least in part.
          Finally, I might ask my father but he will probably not accept me trooning.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            fricking lol

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Uh?

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            female range measurements. 300k to spend on any surgery you could ever want and more. and ur telling us things are dandy and we're ALL GOING TO MAKE IT

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I think many reppers misinterpret their own measurements.
            I will not be free to spend this money as I want as I will have to pay for taxes and everything.
            I guess I am somewhat lucky but I think the average poster on this site is middle class and should be able to get some money one way or another.
            All I am saying is that many repper think they are gigachad due to dysphoria and dysmorphia, but really aren't.

  2. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    Can you give your measuremets, I'm 189cm tall and would like to know.

    • 10 months ago
      Anonymous

      184cm tall
      47/48cm shoulders bideltoid
      73cm waist girth
      36cm hip breadth

      • 10 months ago
        Anonymous

        189cm
        82kg morning weight
        23 bmi
        47cm shoulders bideltoid
        78cm waist girth
        39cm hip breath

        error on everything is like 5%

        • 10 months ago
          Anonymous

          Your shoulders are very good related to your height, I am jealous.
          Your hip breath is good too.
          The only issue is height/

          You can dress around a body, but you cand do shit except unaffordable surgery for face.
          My face is neanderthal and my body has anime warrior proportions.

          Face is fixable only through surgery yeah.
          But if you save up you should be able to afford it.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Yeah gl saving when you make 4-500/month

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Do you live in India or something?

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Nope, europe

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Ah, eastern Europe then I suppose.
            I doubt you have a chad face, Slavic males are neotenous.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I have a neanderthal face ontopof a sasquatch gorilla body

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I thought the same thing mere weeks ago.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I literally have a sloping overhang over my eyes and norwood 3

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I also have pretty bad browbones and some hair loss.
            Just growing your hair and having bangs helps.

            Ah, you think the bonepill is your ally ? You merely adopted the bonepill, I was born in it, molded by it, I didn't know I was trans until I had all my measurements mapped out on a chart.

            KEK.
            But seriously I came to this board at the height of the bone craze. Good times.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I have long hair, bangs are nasty and would look like shit on my skull. Your brow is probably no match to mine.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            My brow is really bad. I hope to get it fixed through FFS.

            He looks manly and you look like a homosexual

            I wish. Sadly I have a masculine face.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            >Slavic males are neotenous
            Are you fricking moronic?
            Protip: Putin isn't representative of the average Slav

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            After ffs I can elf mode, or if everything goes wrong I can manmode

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            But I have a big ass skull though. Not very masculine features in my opinion though, it's just big.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            But I have a big ass skull though. Not very masculine features in my opinion though, it's just big.

            Still better than repping, regardless.

            >Slavic males are neotenous
            Are you fricking moronic?
            Protip: Putin isn't representative of the average Slav

            They are through.
            Only southern Slavs have really masc features.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            You're a complete idiot

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            I mog him through.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            He looks manly and you look like a homosexual

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Oh and yeah im

            I have long hair, bangs are nasty and would look like shit on my skull. Your brow is probably no match to mine.

            I literally have a sloping overhang over my eyes and norwood 3

            south slav not onions north slav, so there you go you prove my point

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Ah, yeah if you're southern slav it sucks. But it's not necessarily over.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Poor+hypermasculine=over

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Well at lest you can serve society as a laborer.

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Kys

            There is no such thing as a north Slav
            Doubt there really are south Slavs either, Croats are an Aryan ethnicity while Serbs are gypsies crossed with Tutks

            >Kroats
            >Aryan
            Holy cope thats like slavs saying austrians are slavs lmao

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            Croats are loads more Aryan than Austrians

          • 10 months ago
            Anonymous

            There is no such thing as a north Slav
            Doubt there really are south Slavs either, Croats are an Aryan ethnicity while Serbs are gypsies crossed with Tutks

  3. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    im three years hrt and today a random troon walked up to me out of nowhere and asked if im trans
    i should have stayed a repper living vicariously through cis women

    • 10 months ago
      Anonymous

      Why is that bad, are you a manmoder?

      • 10 months ago
        Anonymous

        its bad because i got clocked moron

  4. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    You can dress around a body, but you cand do shit except unaffordable surgery for face.
    My face is neanderthal and my body has anime warrior proportions.

  5. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    >184cm
    Dude ywnbaw seriously save yourself before the troony haze starts crashing down like it already is in Europe

    • 10 months ago
      Anonymous

      My cisf cousin is taller than I am.
      I'll be a tall girl, that's all.
      Not everyone is an American surrounded by little garden goblins.

  6. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    a good way to deal with these brainworms is to compare your measurements to actual clothing size charts for women eg;
    https://help.rvca.com/hc/en-us/articles/4410458782861-ALL-SIZE-CHARTS

  7. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    Ah, you think the bonepill is your ally ? You merely adopted the bonepill, I was born in it, molded by it, I didn't know I was trans until I had all my measurements mapped out on a chart.

  8. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    You became delusional in order to cope with your eternal hondom. Sad to see.

    • 10 months ago
      Anonymous

      I am not delusional, my measurements are real.

      • 10 months ago
        Anonymous

        You became delusional in regards to your passability. You'll probably never pass

        • 10 months ago
          Anonymous

          My body might become passable.
          My face can probably be fixed with agressive FFS.
          Or at least look clocky in a cute way maybe.

  9. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    I repressed for a year and after a few years of HRT I realised I was even more masculine then I previously believed
    I am comfortable in my masculinity

  10. 10 months ago
    Anonymous

    What the frick is this thread? Why are you talking about Slavic phenotypes?

    • 10 months ago
      Anonymous

      I am OP.
      A quick visit outside and a shower and I am a dysphoric suicidal mess again.
      It's over.

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