Real. I interact with so many women and especially young moms in the cafe I work at and it’s just over over. There is no way I could ever come close to resembling anything like a woman.
My sister in law is a tiny blonde girl, like 5’ nothing and heavily pregnant right now
It’s painful to think about or compare so I try not to
I feel like she knows about me or at least thinks I’m gay or something, she’s always so kind to me and likes chatting about pregnancy stuff with me
Honestly I'm glad this board exists because anytime my AGP goes into overdrive and tries to push me closer to the edge I can just look here and see all the crazies and feel better about myself
That said I hate being insanely AGP.
Looking at real women is a nice reminder too, whenever they interact in any capacity I never think that I should be one of them.
AAP pooner repper here. has anyone successfully got rid of AAP/AGP? IWNBAM and im tired of suffering
I am sorry friend, we have to live with this curse forever.
However, you can take pride in not letting these desires take over you and you live the way you want to. It's not easy to conquer and will always exist as a part of you psychologically, but feeling in charge and in control is great.
idk what to do, I see myself as a grotesque monster, but when I use the smooth skin and long hair only on FA, I actually kinda pass and would be happy with just that. but idk how accurate FA is, and if I'd be just as grotesque irl
my hair is already long, but will def do longer. and I do plan on getting laser at some point cause having to see/feel my shadow makes me want to rip my skin off. and yea, I prob have to see a derma
yea prob. cause I wonder if a lot of the feeling of disgust and inability to ever imagine myself passing is the shadow, like even FA has a hard time removing the shadow so it ends up not looking great
I no longer have to rep hard, my time spent here has become so minimal, I think I'm getting used to getting comfortable with myself. Filling my mind with other things really helps a lot. Hope you anons find a way as well
I honestly don't know why i'm repping, it's been 12 years of wanting to be feminine and feeling like i never can, the feeling is never going to go away and I know that. Even if I find value in other things which I honestly doubt I'm going to be always have this in the back of my mind, what if i actually had tried to do what i wanted and not been afraid.
yeah i'll always look male but its besides the point. at some point something clicked in my brain to think life if fundamentally not worthwhile if i look masculine. every day since then has been a waste.
Dreams >Dreams
You had another one of being a woman. Dreams. >Dreams.
No matter how you cope while awake, your subconscious rules you. Dreams. >Dreams.
While half asleep you wake up confused, not even knowing who you are. Dreams. >Dreams
Remember that time you woke up distressed and feeling around your body confused why things were they way they were? Dreams. >Dreams.
It’s all in your head. Why don’t you repeat that three times? >It’s all in my head. It’s all in my head. It’s all in my head.
I ALWAYS dream I am male.
In fact I often dream I am male in a room full of passing trannies who look at me with disgust. I generally wake up drenched in sweat.
When I’m half asleep I’m more honest with myself so it’s when my feelings are strongest
I often have dreams where I’m a girl but otherwise the same person and living the same life
Sometimes I’ll wake up confused and upset about where are my hips or boobs, or why is my body so long and gangly
Shame that my subconscious just doesn’t seem to know who I am
I hate how huge I am. I'm 6'1, 12" feet, wide ribcage, wide shoulders, etc.
like, I'll be on pinterest looking at beautiful clothing or pretty rings, and then I imagine my ogre self wearing it and feel disgust.
Super jealous of people who have somewhat of a feminine face.
I have nothing feminine about me so I will just repress until the end of time. There is no coping mechanism for this and I just wanna die
when you see a happy woman and feel a sickening lurch in your stomach as if you were going up stairs and thought there was another step but there wasn't and you have that moment of freefall and dread
I don't think I'm really trans. I have no desire to crossdress. I have no desire to do makeup. I haven't voice trained at all. It's probably just a delusional obsession I have.
It's almost comical how bad it is to be in our position. The world fucking hates us and doesnt want to understand us. But unlike a gay person we can't pretend to be normal, we're getting slowly ground into pieces. Unlike a racial group we cant identify eachother by sight, so we have no community that isnt online. Jesus christ, why do I have thoughts like this at a time in history when people openly want me to be homeless or just killed for feeling this way. As if the constant fucking dysmorphia wasn't bad enough.
No, everything else is horrible.
However, face is fixable with FFS, shoulders are fixable with clavicle reduction, etc etc.
Hands and feet aren't fixable.
I want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to bea woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o to be a a woman i want to be a coma i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a o wan i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want tot be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i. Ant to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman. I want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to bea woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman help me i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman. Is ant o be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i wan tot be a wo man i. Wan to be a woman i wan to be b a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman i want to be a woman i wan t to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a w Oman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman want a be a woman i want to be a woman i wan t be a woman i want to be
My AGP fantasies are so niche and specific that they put me in a constant state of dissatisfaction. The only outlet that really works is reading, but it takes hours to get into it.
I’m thinking about looking into lucid dreaming to further experience being a girl. Has anyone tried it? What was it like?
They want to transition but know they are agp fetishistis so aren’t really transphobic shouldn’t and call this repression. Then the more they obsess and fixate on it the more it legitimises this ‘repression’ they are doing and their trannydom meaning over time they can feel like they can actually troon out as they convince themselves they are legitimate.
>Normal trans people would just do it
A people rep for number of reasons, fear of rejection from family, fear of abuse from society, in some countires you may be killed
and worst of all the realisation no matter what you do you will never be a woman, you just become a mutilated frakenstein monster
I was really nervous about getting tits, actually stopped HRT for a bit when my buds formed. But after a few days I was like fuck no, T is brain poison, I don't care I can just wear sports bras. Now I'm almost a year HRT and happier than ever, despite not passing at all. Manmoding is way better than repping, IME.
>been doing ok with recently >no major disphoria >looked out of the window >woman walks past and swishes her hair >crippling disphoria sets in
why does it have to be this way
>He's a monarchist
most well adjusted repper's parent
7 days ago
Anonymous
He's actually one of the leading figures of the main monarchist party in my country.
It's more over for your face than your shoulders
Good, I guess. My face is bad but I think maybe with FFS it can be ok? It's free here. But yeah sadly my face is bad.
cute boobs
Uh-uh
7 days ago
Anonymous
>He's actually one of the leading figures of the main monarchist party in my country.
imagine choosing to fight for your right to suck the monarchy's cock
7 days ago
Anonymous
Eh, it's more complicated than that, Integral Nationalism is quite special and combines Monarchism, Catholicism, localism/regionalism, blood and soil etc.
Also the idea is that in a democracy israelites lead us anyway so the nation would be more free under a king that cares for his subjects.
7 days ago
Anonymous
you have inherited your father's autism
many such cases
7 days ago
Anonymous
As long as I didn't inherit his Neanderthal physique I am happy.
i had the realisation at the weekend that the only thing actually keeping my repression going is depression and accumulated inertia
if i had any reserves of motivation or self-worth i'd probably have trooned already
I did estrogen for 1 month. I'm not depressed anymore but it's not like I'm positive either. I don't really care about it too much. I'm gonna stop popping the pills
i think maybe it all really because i'm a fetishist
if i could kill my libido forever, i'd probably be happier and it'd be so much easier to repress
i wouldn't be reminded of how much of a delusional homosexual i am every time i get horny then
im honestly not trans because i dont want breasts or even to live as a female i just want to be cute and pretty and not look like an ugly greasy hairy moid.
thats all, genuinely want to die over this and im not even trans.
Something happened this week and I can’t get a smooth face after shaving now. I bought the expensive Gillette blades as always but now i can’t get it fully smooth to touch. I’ve been cutting the shit out of my face the last couple days trying and generally just dying inside. It’s like it just went up a level again and has me feeling like shit. Last time was when it stopped being shave every 3 days and was everyday. So many little changes like this that I fucking the and have just let happen over and over. I remember I nearly puked when I saw my brothers chest hair and the thought of growing my own popped into my head. And now I’m epilating it and just so far gone.
cant wait for this mental illness to slowly chip away at me over the next few decades until i sublimate it all into fetishes culminating in my ultimate humiliation as i am rewarded by finally losing my mind and trooning in my 40s.
This was an extreme fear of mine at some point. When I was like 16 and read about troons in the 50s, I literally planned to get my dick and balls cut so that I couldn't have fetishes anymore and therefore not troon. I also made a pact with my best friend asking him to kill me if I ever did degenerate stuff as I grow older.
Fast forward 8 years, he's an officer in the navy, I am trooning, and recently announced him I was transitioning.
Life is weird.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I WANT TO FUCKING DIE
I WILL NEVER BE PRETTY OR CUTE OR FEMININE IN THE FUCKING SLIGHTEST AT ALL
I'M SUCH A FUCKING DISGUSTING UGLY NEANDERTHAL ABOMINATION WITH NO FUCKING REDEEMING TRAITS THAT COULD EVER EVEN BE PERCIEVED AS FEMININE IN THE FUCKING SLIGHTEST
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT WHY DID GOD HAVE TO MAKE ME SUCH A FUCKING FREAK
WHAT KIND OF FUCKING CRUEL JOKE IS MY EXISTENCE
I FUCKING CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE FUCKING KILL ME PLEASE
stop watching porn
start exercising
start waking up in the morning and sleeping at night
stop taking drugs
start going to therapy
start looking for a job
become who you are, who you have to be, who you should be. before you never do.
I will never be a woman. There is no way you can get around this. Al I have to do is look at my sister (a real woman).
Real. I interact with so many women and especially young moms in the cafe I work at and it’s just over over. There is no way I could ever come close to resembling anything like a woman.
My sister in law is a tiny blonde girl, like 5’ nothing and heavily pregnant right now
It’s painful to think about or compare so I try not to
I feel like she knows about me or at least thinks I’m gay or something, she’s always so kind to me and likes chatting about pregnancy stuff with me
Honestly I'm glad this board exists because anytime my AGP goes into overdrive and tries to push me closer to the edge I can just look here and see all the crazies and feel better about myself
That said I hate being insanely AGP.
Looking at real women is a nice reminder too, whenever they interact in any capacity I never think that I should be one of them.
I am sorry friend, we have to live with this curse forever.
However, you can take pride in not letting these desires take over you and you live the way you want to. It's not easy to conquer and will always exist as a part of you psychologically, but feeling in charge and in control is great.
Reminder that if you're a repper you're already trans. It's the feeling that matters, everything else follows from that.
I have not spoken to a woman who wasn't a family member in a non professional context in over 4 years
Same, but literally 10 years.
great
time to masturbate to some gender bender hentai like the pervert i am
Literally me.
I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I wish I was really trans.
idk what to do, I see myself as a grotesque monster, but when I use the smooth skin and long hair only on FA, I actually kinda pass and would be happy with just that. but idk how accurate FA is, and if I'd be just as grotesque irl
Grow your hair out and get laser + skincare
my hair is already long, but will def do longer. and I do plan on getting laser at some point cause having to see/feel my shadow makes me want to rip my skin off. and yea, I prob have to see a derma
Seeing your beard disappear is the best feeling
yea prob. cause I wonder if a lot of the feeling of disgust and inability to ever imagine myself passing is the shadow, like even FA has a hard time removing the shadow so it ends up not looking great
I’m not really trans
Just an incel
If I had a hot gf who wasn’t a bitch I wouldn’t even be thinking about wanting to be a girl
sup, general with madeup problem, how is it going?
I no longer have to rep hard, my time spent here has become so minimal, I think I'm getting used to getting comfortable with myself. Filling my mind with other things really helps a lot. Hope you anons find a way as well
Long face anons REPORT N
You have no idea how bad it is. I’m like the drawing of the effects of mouth breathing
well, time to get my hair cut super short because long hair just makes me look like an ogre
time to look like a clean cut man in hopes that i just look like a twink instead of a gross goblin
I honestly don't know why i'm repping, it's been 12 years of wanting to be feminine and feeling like i never can, the feeling is never going to go away and I know that. Even if I find value in other things which I honestly doubt I'm going to be always have this in the back of my mind, what if i actually had tried to do what i wanted and not been afraid.
because you know you'll look like a man no matter how much surgery or hormones you take
at least that's why I do it
yeah i'll always look male but its besides the point. at some point something clicked in my brain to think life if fundamentally not worthwhile if i look masculine. every day since then has been a waste.
Dreams
>Dreams
You had another one of being a woman. Dreams.
>Dreams.
No matter how you cope while awake, your subconscious rules you. Dreams.
>Dreams.
While half asleep you wake up confused, not even knowing who you are. Dreams.
>Dreams
Remember that time you woke up distressed and feeling around your body confused why things were they way they were? Dreams.
>Dreams.
It’s all in your head. Why don’t you repeat that three times?
>It’s all in my head. It’s all in my head. It’s all in my head.
I ALWAYS dream I am male.
In fact I often dream I am male in a room full of passing trannies who look at me with disgust. I generally wake up drenched in sweat.
When I’m half asleep I’m more honest with myself so it’s when my feelings are strongest
I often have dreams where I’m a girl but otherwise the same person and living the same life
Sometimes I’ll wake up confused and upset about where are my hips or boobs, or why is my body so long and gangly
Shame that my subconscious just doesn’t seem to know who I am
I wish I was that trutrans.
I don’t feel trutrans, just schizophrenic
shiiiit is this not common? i thought every trans person had dreams like this?
Wtf. I must not be trans then.
gay sex is way too tempting only because of how easy it is to get
if it was as hard to get as straight sex I would never want it
I want gay sex but everytime I meet someone and see their face they're not my type 🙁
lol your type probably isn’t men then. It’s just the porn
I've literally had multiple boyfriends, I just like softer looking guys like myself and their aren't many near me
I have a similar issue, but I boiled it down to me just not feeling romantic attraction to facial features until I get to know them.
I tend to focus more on their body, and slowly appreciate their face.
How do I accept the fact that I'll never have a tall trans gf as a 5'5 manlet repressor
why the fuck are you repressing at 5'5?
because I look like a man
trust me anon if I looked even remotely feminine I would have transitioned by now
it's your life but it's hard to believe you're super manly at 5'5
being short actually accentuates your masculinity. you look a lot bulkier than tall guys with the same shoulder/face width
This. If you've made it pass puberty, then you are male.
I hate how huge I am. I'm 6'1, 12" feet, wide ribcage, wide shoulders, etc.
like, I'll be on pinterest looking at beautiful clothing or pretty rings, and then I imagine my ogre self wearing it and feel disgust.
Super jealous of people who have somewhat of a feminine face.
I have nothing feminine about me so I will just repress until the end of time. There is no coping mechanism for this and I just wanna die
I HATE BOYMODERS, WHY DO THEY GET TO BE ANDROGYNOUS/ FEMININE???????
I WAS FUCKING RUINED BY T AT 15 YEAR OLD WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?????
what the fuck did you do in your previous life anon
I literally looked like Tadzio until age 14, and then immediately transitioned into a fucking neanderthal.
It's all so tiresome.
I literally always looked like a neanderthal even before puberty
at least you got to be cute at all
Yeah but I didn't realize it would ever change.
Same but by 13
>can't get a tranner gf to help her succeed instead of me
Why should I even live sisters?
I think, if I had a trans gf, I would legit kill her in a fit of jealousy and rage.
that could be the other end of the spectrum as well. Shit well there no hope left to live period. I wanna an hero so bad
well i got a haircut
all it does is show off how big and manly my skull is
since most guys, at several points of their life, envy and want to be girls, how do i know im special?
if it persists for a long period of time and/or it starts to negatively impact your life
when you see a happy woman and feel a sickening lurch in your stomach as if you were going up stairs and thought there was another step but there wasn't and you have that moment of freefall and dread
The gender dysphoria is how you know it's different from just occasional envy.
Genocide all naturally feminine males.
I don't think I'm really trans. I have no desire to crossdress. I have no desire to do makeup. I haven't voice trained at all. It's probably just a delusional obsession I have.
i only started transitioning after pretending to be mtf for attention online but now im genuinely questioning.
i'm crying in my room right now
🙁
reppers have such powerful souls
an army of reppers could overcome anything
souls aren't real. this is probably the only life we get.
either that or a completely random material reincarnation into an insect or something
I have no soul
I can't stand talking to my friend Passoid anymore but she's one of the only people I talk to in the world, I don't want to lose her
It's almost comical how bad it is to be in our position. The world fucking hates us and doesnt want to understand us. But unlike a gay person we can't pretend to be normal, we're getting slowly ground into pieces. Unlike a racial group we cant identify eachother by sight, so we have no community that isnt online. Jesus christ, why do I have thoughts like this at a time in history when people openly want me to be homeless or just killed for feeling this way. As if the constant fucking dysmorphia wasn't bad enough.
can repressors hatecrime trannies
Why do I have such masculine hands??
Iwnbaw
Must be nice being pretty and feminine in every other way to only have you hands to seethe over
No, everything else is horrible.
However, face is fixable with FFS, shoulders are fixable with clavicle reduction, etc etc.
Hands and feet aren't fixable.
Go to reddit and look at the foot shortening pics, same is possible for hands you just need the right surgeon
I see. I wish I were rich enough lol.
My country covers FFS, but I doubt they'd cover this stuff.
>My country covers FFS
Kys
I am still 184cm with a giant skull and shoulders.
I'm currently trying to get over my 6'1 tall body that's scarred to shit from male acne and obsessive skin-picking, why would you say that 🙁
I want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to bea woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o to be a a woman i want to be a coma i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a o wan i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want tot be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i. Ant to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman. I want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to bea woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman help me i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman. Is ant o be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i wan tot be a wo man i. Wan to be a woman i wan to be b a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman i want to be a woman i wan t to be a woman i want to be a woman i want o be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a w Oman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman i want to be a woman want a be a woman i want to be a woman i wan t be a woman i want to be
I will never be a woman and nothing can change that
My AGP fantasies are so niche and specific that they put me in a constant state of dissatisfaction. The only outlet that really works is reading, but it takes hours to get into it.
I’m thinking about looking into lucid dreaming to further experience being a girl. Has anyone tried it? What was it like?
Everyone who represses is just an AGP fetishist, you literally cannot prove me wrong.
Normal trans people would just do it
Im neither trans nor agp, simply peter pan syndrome and wanting to be pretty
i am a cis man who wishes to be a woman
i'm not even an AGP fetishist. i'm a TOCD retard who probably would develop reverse dysphoria
yeah i wish i wasn't so obsessively male
They want to transition but know they are agp fetishistis so aren’t really transphobic shouldn’t and call this repression. Then the more they obsess and fixate on it the more it legitimises this ‘repression’ they are doing and their trannydom meaning over time they can feel like they can actually troon out as they convince themselves they are legitimate.
>Normal trans people would just do it
A people rep for number of reasons, fear of rejection from family, fear of abuse from society, in some countires you may be killed
and worst of all the realisation no matter what you do you will never be a woman, you just become a mutilated frakenstein monster
I wish I wasn't ugly
Wish i was really trans so i could troon out and not worry about getting tits
I was really nervous about getting tits, actually stopped HRT for a bit when my buds formed. But after a few days I was like fuck no, T is brain poison, I don't care I can just wear sports bras. Now I'm almost a year HRT and happier than ever, despite not passing at all. Manmoding is way better than repping, IME.
MY HATRED FOR PASSERS IS HOTTER THAN A THOUSAND BILLIONS SUNS SHINING TOGETHER.
I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM.
This disgusting fetish must die
I need to stay on nofap
I am done.
>been doing ok with recently
>no major disphoria
>looked out of the window
>woman walks past and swishes her hair
>crippling disphoria sets in
why does it have to be this way
Why? Why? Ugly, fine, whatever, but why the fuck make me a hairy fucking beast on top of that? fucking hell
I wish i was agp so i have a reason to transition
How over are my shoulders?
Kek, do I look like that?
Better than looking like a gigachad I guess.
You do.
Could be worse.
I don't have the SRSussy tho.
why the kingdom of the two sicilies flag?
My dad gave it to me and never explained why.
We have no relationship to Italy.
I have no idea honestly, maybe I was a bit tense. It happens often.
>My dad gave it to me and never explained why.
>We have no relationship to Italy.
fucking kek
He's a monarchist so I guess he just liked the design. And it fits well under my Rhodesian flag.
>He's a monarchist
most well adjusted repper's parent
He's actually one of the leading figures of the main monarchist party in my country.
Good, I guess. My face is bad but I think maybe with FFS it can be ok? It's free here. But yeah sadly my face is bad.
Uh-uh
>He's actually one of the leading figures of the main monarchist party in my country.
imagine choosing to fight for your right to suck the monarchy's cock
Eh, it's more complicated than that, Integral Nationalism is quite special and combines Monarchism, Catholicism, localism/regionalism, blood and soil etc.
Also the idea is that in a democracy israelites lead us anyway so the nation would be more free under a king that cares for his subjects.
you have inherited your father's autism
many such cases
As long as I didn't inherit his Neanderthal physique I am happy.
how is one side lower than the other i have the same problem
It's more over for your face than your shoulders
cute boobs
can i like stop being 30?
can i get 20 again and pretend that i still have a chance?
it's actually not funny anymore fuck
i had the realisation at the weekend that the only thing actually keeping my repression going is depression and accumulated inertia
if i had any reserves of motivation or self-worth i'd probably have trooned already
>tfw shaved my head and quit hrt
We're back.
AAP pooner repper here. has anyone successfully got rid of AAP/AGP? IWNBAM and im tired of suffering
It doesn't go away.
what's AAP?
I did estrogen for 1 month. I'm not depressed anymore but it's not like I'm positive either. I don't really care about it too much. I'm gonna stop popping the pills
You may just want to look into anti-depressants then if you don't care about the HRT effects.
i think maybe it all really because i'm a fetishist
if i could kill my libido forever, i'd probably be happier and it'd be so much easier to repress
i wouldn't be reminded of how much of a delusional homosexual i am every time i get horny then
where are the cis male agps
here nigga
hows it going lol
I wound up here today so there was a bit of a battle but usually it's pretty easy these days and barely even a thought.
yo
I'm cis AGP but wish I were trans
im honestly not trans because i dont want breasts or even to live as a female i just want to be cute and pretty and not look like an ugly greasy hairy moid.
thats all, genuinely want to die over this and im not even trans.
Something happened this week and I can’t get a smooth face after shaving now. I bought the expensive Gillette blades as always but now i can’t get it fully smooth to touch. I’ve been cutting the shit out of my face the last couple days trying and generally just dying inside. It’s like it just went up a level again and has me feeling like shit. Last time was when it stopped being shave every 3 days and was everyday. So many little changes like this that I fucking the and have just let happen over and over. I remember I nearly puked when I saw my brothers chest hair and the thought of growing my own popped into my head. And now I’m epilating it and just so far gone.
get laser/ electrolysis
Bruh I have to shave twice a day.
bampu
Fuckit im nonbinary ig maybe its cope maybe not, but im gonna buy e aa and ralox and see what happens
I USED TO BE A LITTLE BOY
i can remember days of just being a kid
cant wait for this mental illness to slowly chip away at me over the next few decades until i sublimate it all into fetishes culminating in my ultimate humiliation as i am rewarded by finally losing my mind and trooning in my 40s.
This was an extreme fear of mine at some point. When I was like 16 and read about troons in the 50s, I literally planned to get my dick and balls cut so that I couldn't have fetishes anymore and therefore not troon. I also made a pact with my best friend asking him to kill me if I ever did degenerate stuff as I grow older.
Fast forward 8 years, he's an officer in the navy, I am trooning, and recently announced him I was transitioning.
Life is weird.
>search for trans pornstars with more masculine features so I can self insert better
any other repsisters do this
no because there aren't any
by more masculine features I mean like hasen't gotten ffs or ba, still has small or flat chest, noticeable brow bone, unplucked eyebrows, etc
yeah and I mean there aren't any
Yes, I do.
trans porn in general makes me too jelly to watch, though sometimes it triggers a nervous adrenaline response which I turn into a rapid hatefap.
you mean aesthetic despite masculine then yes
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I WANT TO FUCKING DIE
I WILL NEVER BE PRETTY OR CUTE OR FEMININE IN THE FUCKING SLIGHTEST AT ALL
I'M SUCH A FUCKING DISGUSTING UGLY NEANDERTHAL ABOMINATION WITH NO FUCKING REDEEMING TRAITS THAT COULD EVER EVEN BE PERCIEVED AS FEMININE IN THE FUCKING SLIGHTEST
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT WHY DID GOD HAVE TO MAKE ME SUCH A FUCKING FREAK
WHAT KIND OF FUCKING CRUEL JOKE IS MY EXISTENCE
I FUCKING CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE FUCKING KILL ME PLEASE
IWNBAW
stop watching porn
start exercising
start waking up in the morning and sleeping at night
stop taking drugs
start going to therapy
start looking for a job
become who you are, who you have to be, who you should be. before you never do.