>realize I'm transwoman. >therapist suggests engaging with trans people and the queer community

>realize I'm transwoman
>therapist suggests engaging with trans people and the queer community
>find a trans counselor in my area
>make appointment in hopes getting some help or confidence
>counselor is a 6'2" and 60+ yo fat gorillamoder, literally looks like a garbage bag with a wig, trashy leopard print and way too short dress
>manliest voice ever, sounds like every 60 yo fat dude
>literally looks and behaves like a man in a woman costume
>extremely awkward conversation, I'm immediately uncomfortable
>tells me nothing I didn't know before
>I end the appointment quickly and leave
>misgender her in my head and when talking to others later that day
>be even more confused as before
>think I will nbaw because I'm an oldshit myself

How fucked is this. I'm trans and still can't acknowledge this person as female even though she was sitting there in a dress, with breast implants and everything. It was grotesque.

Is this my fate as well?

  1. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    This is how normal people see you

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      All women older than 45 or so are gross. All people for that matter. Yeah one day you will be old, unless you kill yourself early like I plan to.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        don't do it
        embrace your age

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Not true, there are plenty of cool old people, they just arent sexually attractive. That doesnt make them gross. They just need to put the fork down.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >not sexually attractive
          no point in living if I'm not.

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Ive thought the same thing many times but the reality is im just gonna watch my body very slowly degrade and eventually just stop caring about it. What else can you do?

            It also doesnt even logically make sense, if you're young and have sex a lot you'd know that sex isnt actually so precious its worth killing yourself over. And if you don't have sex it literally makes no difference to you.

            • 2 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              >looking good is about other people
              It's not. My self worth is almost entirely predicated on my own attributes.
              >inb4 npd
              Maybe, don't care.

  2. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    That’s sounds pretty normal anon. We all hate each other and ourselves (especially the hons)
    Welcome aboard btw!

  3. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Don't feel bad because you still see an obvious transvestite as male, if they want to be seen as female it's their responsibility to change, not yours. They fell for the crab in a bucket identity-acceptance mentality and now feel no need to put in any effort. You don't have to do that.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      If she just lost weight and at least tried to sound feminine it would go a long way. I try to take this experience as a reason to put in so much effort that I don't end up a gigahon

  4. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    if you went inside the head of that man it would literally just be pornography and a humiliation fetish that has gone malignant and taken over his entire life. Check your own mental state and the source of these feelings to evaluate if you are a freak or not.

    Also trans counselling is universally a joke, one of my (now passing) friends went to one and she was the only one there under the age of 30, all non-passing creepy gigahons.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      She even talked about a group meeting they do once a month and after some questions she confessed it's all senior citizen MTFs and all the youngshits and pooners never come back after the first meeting

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      why did the therapist make you get another therapist? anyway don't repress or you will become the second therapist.

      >only one there under the age of 30

      She even talked about a group meeting they do once a month and after some questions she confessed it's all senior citizen MTFs and all the youngshits and pooners never come back after the first meeting

      >senior citizen
      I really wonder what causes this like is it just that we're at different stages of life (and unfortunately their appearance prognosis isn't great) or is there another reason we don't get along

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      She even talked about a group meeting they do once a month and after some questions she confessed it's all senior citizen MTFs and all the youngshits and pooners never come back after the first meeting

      This checks out with my own experiences too.

      why did the therapist make you get another therapist? anyway don't repress or you will become the second therapist.

      >only one there under the age of 30
      [...]
      >senior citizen
      I really wonder what causes this like is it just that we're at different stages of life (and unfortunately their appearance prognosis isn't great) or is there another reason we don't get along

      You've ever been to Susans Place? Those people tend to be extremely bitter and toxic, unable to cope with the fact that you actually have a chance but theirs expired 30 years ago.

      It doesnt help that the talks at these groups will have exactly 0 relevance to your life either. Divorce this divorce that, what will the boss think, my career is over blabla.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >susan's place
        I have and they frighten me. I try to be graceful when interacting with that type because I don't believe we're fundamentally different it's just I got marginally more help for my condition than they did and at a much earlier age. but uh yeah that makes them toxic. so why do they take over support groups? or is it just that younger trans (and I transed at 25 so it's not like I'm a youngshit) don't need a support group as much. I'm in an online one and it's filled with that type but I only use it to talk to a few others who have had srs

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          I think its mostly because the old shits for the most part cant into the internet. Younger people get info and support online.

  5. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Lucky you
    You've basically seen your even more depressing future
    Detrans and Embrace Masculinity

  6. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    That will be you if you don't transition now. You either transition now, or you sui, or you transition when you're middleaged.

  7. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    that's the fate of every tranner.

  8. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    PFFFFFFFFFFFFT
    HAHAHAHAHAAHAH

  9. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Troon asap so you don't become the gorilla.

  10. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    80% of cis women look this way, honey. unless you have won the genetic lottery, you will as well. stop using beauty as a marker of success or failure. if she sucked as a therapist, sure, ditch her useless ass. dont do it because her appearance gives you the ick.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >80% of cis women look this way
      cope

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        im not a woman. i also didnt say she shouldnt put effort into her appearance. i think op over exaggerated how she looked, regardless

  11. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    you have to let go of your vanity as you age. only the very rich are beautiful when they're old. the elderly find other metrics to measure their worth by - are you professionally successful? do you have a family?

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Nothing to do with wealth. It's genetics and health. Get exercise regularly and don't eat like shit. Congrats. If you continue to live poorly past the age of 30, you're in for a rough road ahead.

  12. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Keep going to see him so you can provide us with more gross hon stories

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