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  1. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >"I went from skinny hairless twink bottom to jock verse, and now Im entering my dad bod phase as a total top.
    Preferences are flexible and don't always match what you expect"
    This story of repression made me feel sick.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      nice canine

  2. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >be me 16 yo
    >want to transition
    >look at mirror
    >itfrickingover.jpg
    >repress for another 6 years
    >troon out at 23 and become manmoder
    At least I'll die knowing that I tried.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Skill issue

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      same thing except i realized at 14 and repressed for 10 years

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Same thing except at 21 and 25 rumao

  3. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >too scared to transition
    >too big a failure to raise your kids into good, kind people
    Lol
    Lmao even

  4. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    100% chance he pass on the troon gene to his kid

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      The desire to be transexual is far more likely to be caused by environmental factors during gestation(in the womb).
      At least for hsts an autists. And other post natal environmental factors for non homosexual transexuals.

      Not genetics.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        theres evidence its caused by the same gene that causes add/asd and increases chance for left handedness and other stuff and you're much more likely to develop those if you're trans and vice versa, which all have been proven to have genetic correlation. how do you debunk this?
        >inb4 just trust me bro i swear
        honestly its weird how many people on this board are completely close mindedly committed to thinking troonyism is completely non genetic

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          ADD can be caused by all sorts of things and is comorbid with all sorts of neurological damage. If a gene is correlated to it, I would assume it's an increased susceptibility for it when mixed with damage.

          I imagine most genes correlating with this kind of stuff would be in a similar vein. But way less impactful without the other influences.
          I mean I just look at troonyism like being gay. And it's the same story over there.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        >autists
        The autism you're talking about there is well established to be polygenic, very little nurture/environmental factors even in the womb. Genetic and inherited.

  5. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >be effeminate kid
    >get bullied daily, face smashed in, teeth broken, nose broken
    >didnt know hormones were even an option
    >tell psychiatrist i feel like im in the wrong body
    >take antipsychotics because npc
    >self harm
    >drink a lot
    >get fricked by men and feel extreme self hatred
    >join gym, get huge, force self to mating press with foids
    >get one pregnant
    >life over
    >troon out at 28, with huge man face and broken mind
    >dont pass
    >life basically over
    >feel suicidal constantly

    Dont do what i did in life.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      how old were you when you impregnated her?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        20

    • 1 year ago
      bartender

      I'm sorry anon
      i hope things can get better for you

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Thanks, im just mega dosing estrogen and hoping i can die soon.

        Everyday is a struggle, its over for me. Just whatever you do, dont get beaten up and dont get anyone pregnant ever. It will end in disaster. And dont go to the gym. And dont leave it so long.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >im just mega dosing estrogen
          Please try to be in normal levels, otherwise it will make you insensitive to E

          >dont get anyone pregnant ever
          I want to make a kid though...

          >And dont go to the gym
          Why?

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >Please try to be in normal levels, otherwise it will make you insensitive to E

            Oh god what have i done. I really need blood tests but im broke af and doctor said no. Im not producing sperm so thats good i guess.

            >i want to make a kid though...

            Thats fine just make sure you have a child with some decent. There's a whole framework for enslavemen set up, divorce courts, dna testing, child support, family courts, assesment centres. Theres massive money in the break up of couples involving children, i wish i knew, i wish someone had told me. I wish i had never gone down this path

            >And dont go to the gym
            >Why?
            It leads to increased testosterone, and permanent changes to appearance. You'll need surgery to ever pass unless you are ftm, ofcourse. Surgery i cant get due to my severe mental and financial issues. I just dont want anyone else to go down my path or experience the extreme misery i ddi.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >Oh god what have i done
            It's probably fine, just try to be careful. Injections tend to be cheaper and easier to do mono with, make sure to consult the guides over at diygen. Also check out the tools at https://transfemscience.org/misc/

            Thank you for the advice

            I wish you luck anonette!

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Also, sensitivity to E should increase again when you go down on a normal dosage. I heard of someone who was switching up the dosages to take advantage of it (I would not suggest it though)

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Thanks, i think my levels are around 550pg/ml. I stopped taking supplements as they were converting estradiol into estrone. I hope im ok, wish I could check blood levels.

            Also, sensitivity to E should increase again when you go down on a normal dosage. I heard of someone who was switching up the dosages to take advantage of it (I would not suggest it though)

            No it doesn't sound fun, rather just keep a steady dose at regular intervals . Thanks for respinding, i often feel very, very alone. I wanted chin reduction and VFS but based on my current 'income', it will be 2033 by the time i can afford it, ive made myself sad, im going to have sone water

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >550pg/ml
            Sounds like high level mono then, I would lower it but it's not horrible. Please cheer up anon!
            If you don't mind me asking do you ever meet with your kid? How is your relationship with their mother?

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Thanks, for the reassurance.

            Would i need to go on Bica? Or am i ok as i am?

            Its very painful talking about my child, very painful. Im sorry.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            You don't need bica for 200-500pg/ml, I would aim for ~300, you only need bica if you have to deal with adrenal dht. Also make sure to check the concentration of your injections, in the site that I linked there are tools to help you with calculating dosages. I know it may be hard but I really suggest doing blood tests (should be done just before you are supposed to take your next injection)

            I especially suggest against bica and other anti-androgens if you can't do regular blood checkups because their side effects are potentially nasty. It is also a bad idea to do monotherapy on pills.

            check these for more info:

            I am sure you can make it anon!

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Thank you so much for the info. You are a very kind person

  6. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    link to that post:

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  7. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Kek, I hope his kids redpill him on trannies so he can stop being a pathetic fricking homosexual who posts here.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >says the homosexual posting here
      pills, Alice

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Yes, we are both on NSFFW.org. Very interesting observation.

  8. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >be me
    >always felt off my whole life with things like girls and sexuality, don't know if there is something especially wrong with me or if i'm just an autistic beta or whatever
    >always extremely shy
    >early sexual memories aren't quite right something is off. Fantasize about atypical sexual interactions between men and women, stuff you can't really find pornography of.
    >have weird romantic fantasies where i imagine a world where I am a woman or feminine thing when i'm alone with a woman but when i have to leave into the world i'm a guy. Believe against belief that in some very extreme circumstance things somehow work like this.
    >time passes
    >interest in girls in theory but none in reality
    >maybe once or twice a girl showed interest but I showed none
    >one day a trans girl comes to my high school
    >I immediately feel something and feel really weird
    >I don't know she's trans but i feel like she gets me immediately
    >I stay up all night writing a shitty poem
    >she was only visiting the school to see if she wanted to go there and decided she didn't so i never see her again.
    >I learn she was trans a few days later
    >burn the poem
    >feel weird immense shame for a few years
    >find a weird troony blog online
    >feel weird
    >go to college
    >befriend a trans person there and immediately feel a weird sense of envy and frustration.
    >decide i'm trans
    >come out to friend group
    >no more friend group
    >come out to parents
    >they aren't mad they just tell me "you know that's not gonna work man, like you can but look at you. you're like 6'5. your life is gonna be really unpleasant if you do this. I'll support you but just know that you aren't gonna have a good life like most people"
    >don't transition,
    >don't think I ever really was trans or gender dysphoric, just an autistic loser who wanted a new start
    >frick two random women over the period of the next few years
    >don't really like it
    >I like when they fall asleep in my arms after because I get to know what a woman feels like.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      I don't even really get closure or anything. I don't feel like any of it was real, yet it wounds me all the same.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >I learn she was trans a few days later
      How did you learn? Did she feel androgynous?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        somebody mentioned it. yeah she was really androgynous, she had kind of a cool buzzcut and wore a black jacket with lots of patches on it with black and white cartoons, I remember most vividly a girl smoking a cigarette outside a 7-11 as a ghost looked on. Looking back now she was obviously mtf but like then she just seemed like a strange other-worldly girl who I felt an intense sympathy for.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      i like your story anon and that pic is really pretty and otherwordly
      how old are you now if you mind me asking?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        uh a little i'm worried you might know me and are trying to confirm it with my age. i'm always scared my posts aren't really anonmyus. I'm in my mid twenties now. I like this artist alot, he's a japanese artist, i've considered buying one of his paintings, he does commissions but he's a japanese artist so it may be hard to communicate that or reach him.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          i can't find him anymore but he has a twitter. if i could find him i'd buy one of his paintings.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >uh a little i'm worried you might know me and are trying to confirm it with my age.
          i figured you would think that but dont worry im just a random moron, thanks for answering

          i can't find him anymore but he has a twitter. if i could find him i'd buy one of his paintings.

          i think its this one, great recommendation anon
          https://twitter.com/west_wave_

          so getting back on topic, again if you dont mind me asking further, what are your plans from now on? are you still on the fence or have you decided to repress
          im really just curious about the life of reppers, i swear i wont try to convince you of anything lol

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            thank you for finding his account. IDK if you really are a random moron. I think I am going to keep repressing. I am like 6'7 and very masculine looking, it's really not something i could do and i don't believe I really have gender dysphoria. I think i'm just a weird autogynephilic who kind of envies the kind of bodily freedom women experience. They seem to move more where as I am very tight and still. there's an openness to women I envy or whatever, things like bodily beauty or dancing or whatever. It's not something I imagine i could have even if I did transtion there isn't any part of me that works like that, there's just a part that wants to. I am worried about saying too much cause i'm worried someone might recognize me by the way i talk. i aprecaite you finding the artist for me

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            its ok anon, i appreciate you opening to me and entertaining my curiosity
            i wont ask further, i understand you dont want to expose too much
            best of luck

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Why did you ask me about this?

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            i was legitimately curious
            i dont want to say this because i am in no position to pity others like they are inferior to me in any way, but i often think about repressors who simply wouldnt be able to pass because of their body, and what could we as a society do to accommodate such people
            the answer is probably nothing, and it makes me sad and angry to know there's a group of people i can kind of relate to that are suffering and i can't do anything to help them

            i didnt want to say it because it sounds like i have a savior complex or something, i just think a lot about things

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            oh that's ok anon. I don't even really think i'm gender dysphoric just crazy. It's not even passing, if I could just be visibly trans and kind of clocky that'd be ok, I wouldn't mind being a twinkhon or whatever. I am just not like that though, In body and spirit I am not a woman I just wish I was. If you want to do something nice for me enjoy being a woman.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Have you thought about getting a troony gf? It might help a little bit.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            I want a 6'7 partner too but come on have a little class

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            I am not offering myself, baka. I also don't care about height.

            >be little kid, have fun playing with my sisters
            >get to do girly stuff and they call me a girl name
            >one day my mother hears them call me it and screams at them to stop
            >cuts off my hair
            >become shy reclusive sensitive kid who cries all the time
            >grow to hate sisters and refuse to do girly things
            >use every birthday wish to become a girl
            >sometimes dream it worked but wake up jerked back to reality
            >spend all my time reading fantasy and eventually playing video games
            >gifted child so school was easy and parents laid off
            >dissociate during puberty enough that I didn't notice my voice broke until someone told me it did
            >didn't look at naked body once from age 11-14, yes actually I know it sounds weird
            >shocked when I saw how everything changed when I finally did
            >eventually figure out I'm supposed to get a gf but don't really get it like other boys do. Still try anyway but too afraid of girls
            >basically just go on autopilot until uni, develop agp
            >most female friends actually wanted to frick me because I grew too tall
            >find myself multiple times alone with them and about to have sex but panic and run out each time
            >last year of uni start doing nofap to get rid of agp and start lifting because I need to get a gf because that's important and will stop me being a sexually fricked up weirdo loser
            >read autismo pua shit because I need to "land" a hot gf
            >why? Because I wanted to frick her? No, because it would give me high social status and everyone would think wow he's so cool look at his hot gf!
            >eventually succeed in having sex a few times
            >never cum, they start asking why so I force myself to do it next time
            >still sucks though and have to kegel hard and imagine im her to do it
            >graduate become neet for a few years
            >find /lgbt/ soon after it's made
            >transphobic arc
            >eventually start questioning and remember stuff from childhood and realize I wasted my entire life repressing and doing shit for other people and am now in a fully developed adult male body

            Your story is somewhat similar to mine, except I am trooning out at 25. Discovered /lgbt/ in 2014, neeting after uni, had girls hit on me but sperg out and fail to do anything, etc.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Idk do you think maybe i was just born to be a chaser? I have thought about getting a trans girlfriend before but 1. no girl would want me and i wouldn't want any girl cause i couldn't give them a good life 2. I don't know how it would help because I'd get jealous and eventually tell her I feel jealous that she's a girl and that would ruin everything. I sometimes thought about having a transgirlfriend who could maybe help me transition or whatever but no that's kind of wrong you don't put that responsibility on others. I don't like having girlfriends I think I am just gonna be celibate.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >do you think maybe i was just born to be a chaser?
            Dunno, maybe, only you can tell. Alternatively you might be able to feel at peace with an enby identity, I know that some people here find it cringe but I think it is not a bad thing.

            >no girl would want me
            Trans girls are extremely easy to get as long as you share an interest or two, and also your posts emit likable vibes.

            >cause i couldn't give them a good life
            How do you know?

            >I'd get jealous and eventually tell her I feel jealous that she's a girl and that would ruin everything
            Idk about you but when I am jealous of someone I try to befriend them, then they become "mine" in some way, even if I felt the strongest form of envy towards them, it stops as soon as we are able to call each other friends.
            I don't know if it will be the same for you, but even if it is not, you should not assume that you will get jealous before even trying it.

            >I sometimes thought about having a transgirlfriend who could maybe help me transition
            You could get a transbestfriend for that instead.

            >I don't like having girlfriends I think I am just gonna be celibate.
            You can be celibate with a girlfriend.

            Sorry if this seems aggressive, it is not my intention.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            i do have a few trans friends. in a weird way I kind of already do this. I still feel envious or whatever. I am thinking of cutting things off with my trans friends cause it bugs me too much.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Maybe you would only consider your potential gf as "yours". In any case, you don't need to marry her right away, just experiment a bit.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            ok yeah maybe but I don't really think that's what i want.

  9. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Everything about lgbt people is sad.

  10. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >tfw repped till your late 20s
    >finally break and confide in gf and start hrt
    >cis gf clearly sees me as gay man
    >calling out gay guys in movies and tv and saying you or us if its a gay best friend
    >says im not real woman bc i dont pass as a punchline to a joke
    >laugh it off and try not to cry for next 3 hours
    Haha

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      She just does not know, very few people know about trans stuff.

      >calling out gay guys in movies and tv and saying you or us if its a gay best friend
      Maybe she is focusing on the same sex relationship instead? You could try to yuripill her idk.

  11. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    my story is pathetic not sad

    >be me
    >at the age when kids wanted to be unrealistic things, I wanted to be a princess
    >wanted to grow up to be a woman in general
    but
    >ever presented slightly fem, from stance, to interests (like violin), to friends with girls, my parents prohibited it, sometimes hitting me, sometimes telling me that I would be disowned and kicked out on the street if I was gay or a weirdo
    >become scared of sharing any feeling I have
    >never have any friends again
    >depressed & suicidal ~8yo
    time gap
    >dissociating, feeling like I'm having an out of body experience almost 24/7. like my perception of the size of objects is distorted. also makes my memory horrible
    >maladaptive daydreaming about living as a woman
    >been cutting
    >parents find out and have me go to therapist
    >so scared I only say it's because of lack of friends
    >generally appease them quickly and stop going
    >working @ goodwill
    >get called ma'am/miss by customers a few times
    >feels "right"
    >sticks with me for a long time
    >develop rheumatoid arthritis in all joints
    time gap
    >in college
    >go to japan on study about
    >mostly stay in room because dissociation and depression is really bad
    >enjoy daydreaming altered memory of time in japan as a woman more than the actual experience
    >failing calc 2 because of dissociation (previous classes were pretty easy without bad memory)
    >drop out of CS major
    >go back being convinced by parents, doing accounting
    >click to watch random anime one day
    >it's wandering son
    >realize/associate with some scenes
    >look into
    >realize I've been experiencing gender dysphoria
    >graduate with accounting major finance minor, 3.8 gpa, self taught excel stuff & python stuff (like statistical stuff)
    >no one will hire me
    >be now, 25yo
    >ugly man (can't pass ever)
    >working job stocking shelves

    I think this year will be my last.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Hey if it makes you feel any better, you atleast know what's wrong. you know you were born to be a woman. I'm

      >be me
      >always felt off my whole life with things like girls and sexuality, don't know if there is something especially wrong with me or if i'm just an autistic beta or whatever
      >always extremely shy
      >early sexual memories aren't quite right something is off. Fantasize about atypical sexual interactions between men and women, stuff you can't really find pornography of.
      >have weird romantic fantasies where i imagine a world where I am a woman or feminine thing when i'm alone with a woman but when i have to leave into the world i'm a guy. Believe against belief that in some very extreme circumstance things somehow work like this.
      >time passes
      >interest in girls in theory but none in reality
      >maybe once or twice a girl showed interest but I showed none
      >one day a trans girl comes to my high school
      >I immediately feel something and feel really weird
      >I don't know she's trans but i feel like she gets me immediately
      >I stay up all night writing a shitty poem
      >she was only visiting the school to see if she wanted to go there and decided she didn't so i never see her again.
      >I learn she was trans a few days later
      >burn the poem
      >feel weird immense shame for a few years
      >find a weird troony blog online
      >feel weird
      >go to college
      >befriend a trans person there and immediately feel a weird sense of envy and frustration.
      >decide i'm trans
      >come out to friend group
      >no more friend group
      >come out to parents
      >they aren't mad they just tell me "you know that's not gonna work man, like you can but look at you. you're like 6'5. your life is gonna be really unpleasant if you do this. I'll support you but just know that you aren't gonna have a good life like most people"
      >don't transition,
      >don't think I ever really was trans or gender dysphoric, just an autistic loser who wanted a new start
      >frick two random women over the period of the next few years
      >don't really like it
      >I like when they fall asleep in my arms after because I get to know what a woman feels like.

      this guy and fricked up in similar ways you did but it still feels like disassociation like it still doesn't feel real. you are only 25 it might be bad but it probably isn't too late, if it's your last year might as well.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        it is too late for me sadly, no one will hire me, I'm extremely poor. I don't even have insurance cause the cost per month was too much for me. and being on estrogen would just make it impossible for me to work with the arthritis. add that I'm extremely masculinized and there really isn't any point

        rheumatoid arthritis in all joints
        A fellow methotrexate enjoyer?

        tried it, didn't work. nothing has worked for me, and now I don't even have insurance so I gave up

        All of these stories are make belief.

        why do you think that?

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >nothing has worked for me
          Not even Adalimumab?
          I know that the medical situation in america is fricked up but it might be worth a try:
          >If you do not have insurance or are unemployed, you may be eligible to receive Humira at no cost from the AbbVie Patient Assistance Program (myAbbVie Assist) or another foundation if you meet certain income criteria.
          >Other groups, such as nonprofit organizations, may be able to provide financial support for your medications. Talk to your health care provider about ways to afford your medication.

          Is it possible to receive help from your parents by any chance? Not for this specific medicine but in general.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            yea, I've tried humira, and it didn't work sadly. even stuff like cortisone shots don't work. actually cortisone shots made it worse for me.
            but I don't even go to the doctors anymore cause I can't afford it.
            >Is it possible to receive help from your parents by any chance? Not for this specific medicine but in general.
            no, they're the type that believes I have to make it on my own now so they won't help.

            Why won't anyone hire you, you have a degree and certs and stuff? I'm almost 25 myself and i'm like 6'6. it's over for me too. Idk some people transition at around our age and do fine, but it's much too late for me. I hope you atleast get a good job with your degree and shit.

            I really have no idea, I've applied to >2k places, had friends of parents who are partners at firms look at my resume, my college looked, paid professionals to rewrite, they all said that it looked good.
            even hiring agencies have been ghosting me, either from the first email, to after being denies so many times.
            I seriously have no idea, but I was told that my degree is worthless now. I'm still applying, but still being denied.

            A lot of jobs seem to want python. OP could also try getting into webdev.

            yeah op you're carreer isn't over

            idk, I'll look into webdev. but not really hopeful of my chances

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            That's so strange op i really hope you find something. Don't give up on it yet. I'm sorry if my story made you feel invalidated it sounds like you've had it super hard.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            I'm giving it until the end of the year, if nothing changes then... my decision will have been made.
            but even then I'm not sure, just cause I'm so ugly, idk if it'd even be worth it, even if I did have an ok job, knowing that I can never look in the mirror and see myself as a woman

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >cortisone shots
            I have yet to see anyone with an autoimmune that had a positive experience with cortisone. It is literal meme medication with success rate as good as trephining.

            >I'll look into webdev
            There is a webdev chaser anon on frengen, show them your posts and I am sure that they will be sympathetic to your cause, might give you some guides or something.

            I'm giving it until the end of the year, if nothing changes then... my decision will have been made.
            but even then I'm not sure, just cause I'm so ugly, idk if it'd even be worth it, even if I did have an ok job, knowing that I can never look in the mirror and see myself as a woman

            It might be a dumb suggestion but could you try dating? There might be some bi person (or chaser that wants to a boy into a girl) with broken bird syndrome nearby. Things are easier when you have someone nearby.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            oh, I would absolutely not date, that is unthinkable to me. someone intimate with me seeing me as a man is the worst thing I can imagine.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            This is why I suggested a chaser, someone who would be willing to help you become a girl and see you as one

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            I still can't do that. they'd see me as a man, I'd be more masculine looking than them.
            also, I won't ever pass anyway.
            it's just not something I can do

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >I won't ever pass anyway.
            Might as well try. If you are planning to die anyway then you might as well die with high E.
            And well, even if you don't pass it might still decrease your dysphoria.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Why won't anyone hire you, you have a degree and certs and stuff? I'm almost 25 myself and i'm like 6'6. it's over for me too. Idk some people transition at around our age and do fine, but it's much too late for me. I hope you atleast get a good job with your degree and shit.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            A lot of jobs seem to want python. OP could also try getting into webdev.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            yeah op you're carreer isn't over

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      rheumatoid arthritis in all joints
      A fellow methotrexate enjoyer?

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Sis you're 25. Just take estrogen now. I started at 30. Don't john 50

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        I don't plan on making it to 50. it's just too late for me.

        >I won't ever pass anyway.
        Might as well try. If you are planning to die anyway then you might as well die with high E.
        And well, even if you don't pass it might still decrease your dysphoria.

        I'd rather not, if I'm going to go anyway, I'd rather not bring shame to my family and just make it generally harder for them to cope

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Chances are that nobody will know it's hrt if you try to hide it, even after you die. At worst they might think that you developed gyno and had no money to fix it. That being said, I don't see the point in caring about bringing shame when they acted like that towards you.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            even if they didn't figure out, I can't do it now, I can't afford it, and I most likely wouldnt be able to work with the added muscle atrophy.
            but for not wanting to bring shame or more hurt, I just don't think I should make anything any worse for others if I can help it. like they've lived their lives, have friends, etc. I essentially just took resources from them. I don't see the need to make it worse for them.

  12. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    All of these stories are make belief.

  13. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >tfw used to drink söymilk because it had estrogen in it
    >didn't know medical hrt was a thing
    >troon out a decade later

  14. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >be 30
    >NEET
    >have cancer
    >STILL FRICKING REPRESSING

    And if I could do it all over again. I'd still repress.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >your cancer activates with testosterone
      >still repress

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Based on a level that can't be described because our language contains no such concepts.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        He gets to die while keeping his parents and family proud and not trooning

  15. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    this ones a little long but whatever

    >be 14
    >parents are hardcore tradcath to the point they think using condoms is a sin
    >grow up very devout religious kid
    >friends make jokes about me in a dress
    >wonder why i like it so much
    >start feeling very uncomfortable with myself
    >late puberty, facial features become masculine
    >don't understand
    >so fricking religious that i don't even consider me being trans a possibility because "that's a choice"
    >be 15
    >actually start questioning my identity now
    >denial.jpg
    >be 17
    >realize i've been bullshitting myself this whole time
    >become incredibly self loathing
    >have a couple breakdowns
    >start looking at troony reddit
    >maybe i should just troon out
    >eventually tell dad i have troony thoughts and am considering transition (big mistake but didn't realize it at the time)
    >he insists i talk to a bunch of church people and go to counseling
    >guess i'll give it a shot
    >go through all that shit for over a year before stopping
    >it really sucked
    >be 18
    >feel worse than before
    >completely given up on transitioning out of shame and embarrassment
    >tell myself i never would've passed anyway
    >try to repmax (even bigger mistake)
    >be 22
    >jaded repper who looks like he's 29
    >finally fricking snap
    >make plans to transition
    >be 23
    >10 months hrt
    >turning 24 this summer
    >realize if i hadn't grown up in such a religious conservative environment, i probably could've started hrt at 14-15 years old

    pain.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      hey man atleast you made it. you probably will be cute one day. you made it. I am 24 now and still repping and it hurts me everyday. you made it and all of that is the past, think about your future, you can make it, you were brave enough to start.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        thanks fren, i appreciate that
        on the bright side i got very lucky with my height and frame but i'll need ffs (and way more sessions of laser) to correct the damage that puberty did to my face

        but i hope somehow things get better for you anon
        idk what you look like, but it might not be as bad as you think! if you have anybody to confide in, you could ask them about how you look and what your chances might be? idk, but repping hurts a lot and i'm sorry you're still going through it.

        This one is rough but atleast you transitioned
        [...]
        awful
        [...]
        idk this one sounds like nothing

        yeah, if it weren't for some factors in particular i could've been repping to this day. it could've been better but it also definitely could've been worse

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          yeah you can make it. it is a not possible for me

          >be me
          >always felt off my whole life with things like girls and sexuality, don't know if there is something especially wrong with me or if i'm just an autistic beta or whatever
          >always extremely shy
          >early sexual memories aren't quite right something is off. Fantasize about atypical sexual interactions between men and women, stuff you can't really find pornography of.
          >have weird romantic fantasies where i imagine a world where I am a woman or feminine thing when i'm alone with a woman but when i have to leave into the world i'm a guy. Believe against belief that in some very extreme circumstance things somehow work like this.
          >time passes
          >interest in girls in theory but none in reality
          >maybe once or twice a girl showed interest but I showed none
          >one day a trans girl comes to my high school
          >I immediately feel something and feel really weird
          >I don't know she's trans but i feel like she gets me immediately
          >I stay up all night writing a shitty poem
          >she was only visiting the school to see if she wanted to go there and decided she didn't so i never see her again.
          >I learn she was trans a few days later
          >burn the poem
          >feel weird immense shame for a few years
          >find a weird troony blog online
          >feel weird
          >go to college
          >befriend a trans person there and immediately feel a weird sense of envy and frustration.
          >decide i'm trans
          >come out to friend group
          >no more friend group
          >come out to parents
          >they aren't mad they just tell me "you know that's not gonna work man, like you can but look at you. you're like 6'5. your life is gonna be really unpleasant if you do this. I'll support you but just know that you aren't gonna have a good life like most people"
          >don't transition,
          >don't think I ever really was trans or gender dysphoric, just an autistic loser who wanted a new start
          >frick two random women over the period of the next few years
          >don't really like it
          >I like when they fall asleep in my arms after because I get to know what a woman feels like.

          . I am like 6'7 and not even really sure if i am trans or have gender dypshoria i just feel bad.
          you can make it.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >be me
            >always felt off my whole life with things like girls and sexuality, don't know if there is something especially wrong with me or if i'm just an autistic beta or whatever
            >always extremely shy
            >early sexual memories aren't quite right something is off. Fantasize about atypical sexual interactions between men and women, stuff you can't really find pornography of.
            >have weird romantic fantasies where i imagine a world where I am a woman or feminine thing when i'm alone with a woman but when i have to leave into the world i'm a guy. Believe against belief that in some very extreme circumstance things somehow work like this.
            >time passes
            >interest in girls in theory but none in reality
            >maybe once or twice a girl showed interest but I showed none
            >one day a trans girl comes to my high school
            >I immediately feel something and feel really weird
            >I don't know she's trans but i feel like she gets me immediately
            >I stay up all night writing a shitty poem
            >she was only visiting the school to see if she wanted to go there and decided she didn't so i never see her again.
            >I learn she was trans a few days later
            >burn the poem
            >feel weird immense shame for a few years
            >find a weird troony blog online
            >feel weird
            >go to college
            >befriend a trans person there and immediately feel a weird sense of envy and frustration.
            >decide i'm trans
            >come out to friend group
            >no more friend group
            >come out to parents
            >they aren't mad they just tell me "you know that's not gonna work man, like you can but look at you. you're like 6'5. your life is gonna be really unpleasant if you do this. I'll support you but just know that you aren't gonna have a good life like most people"
            >don't transition,
            >don't think I ever really was trans or gender dysphoric, just an autistic loser who wanted a new start
            >frick two random women over the period of the next few years
            >don't really like it
            >I like when they fall asleep in my arms after because I get to know what a woman feels like.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      This one is rough but atleast you transitioned

      my story is pathetic not sad

      >be me
      >at the age when kids wanted to be unrealistic things, I wanted to be a princess
      >wanted to grow up to be a woman in general
      but
      >ever presented slightly fem, from stance, to interests (like violin), to friends with girls, my parents prohibited it, sometimes hitting me, sometimes telling me that I would be disowned and kicked out on the street if I was gay or a weirdo
      >become scared of sharing any feeling I have
      >never have any friends again
      >depressed & suicidal ~8yo
      time gap
      >dissociating, feeling like I'm having an out of body experience almost 24/7. like my perception of the size of objects is distorted. also makes my memory horrible
      >maladaptive daydreaming about living as a woman
      >been cutting
      >parents find out and have me go to therapist
      >so scared I only say it's because of lack of friends
      >generally appease them quickly and stop going
      >working @ goodwill
      >get called ma'am/miss by customers a few times
      >feels "right"
      >sticks with me for a long time
      >develop rheumatoid arthritis in all joints
      time gap
      >in college
      >go to japan on study about
      >mostly stay in room because dissociation and depression is really bad
      >enjoy daydreaming altered memory of time in japan as a woman more than the actual experience
      >failing calc 2 because of dissociation (previous classes were pretty easy without bad memory)
      >drop out of CS major
      >go back being convinced by parents, doing accounting
      >click to watch random anime one day
      >it's wandering son
      >realize/associate with some scenes
      >look into
      >realize I've been experiencing gender dysphoria
      >graduate with accounting major finance minor, 3.8 gpa, self taught excel stuff & python stuff (like statistical stuff)
      >no one will hire me
      >be now, 25yo
      >ugly man (can't pass ever)
      >working job stocking shelves

      I think this year will be my last.

      awful

      >be me
      >always felt off my whole life with things like girls and sexuality, don't know if there is something especially wrong with me or if i'm just an autistic beta or whatever
      >always extremely shy
      >early sexual memories aren't quite right something is off. Fantasize about atypical sexual interactions between men and women, stuff you can't really find pornography of.
      >have weird romantic fantasies where i imagine a world where I am a woman or feminine thing when i'm alone with a woman but when i have to leave into the world i'm a guy. Believe against belief that in some very extreme circumstance things somehow work like this.
      >time passes
      >interest in girls in theory but none in reality
      >maybe once or twice a girl showed interest but I showed none
      >one day a trans girl comes to my high school
      >I immediately feel something and feel really weird
      >I don't know she's trans but i feel like she gets me immediately
      >I stay up all night writing a shitty poem
      >she was only visiting the school to see if she wanted to go there and decided she didn't so i never see her again.
      >I learn she was trans a few days later
      >burn the poem
      >feel weird immense shame for a few years
      >find a weird troony blog online
      >feel weird
      >go to college
      >befriend a trans person there and immediately feel a weird sense of envy and frustration.
      >decide i'm trans
      >come out to friend group
      >no more friend group
      >come out to parents
      >they aren't mad they just tell me "you know that's not gonna work man, like you can but look at you. you're like 6'5. your life is gonna be really unpleasant if you do this. I'll support you but just know that you aren't gonna have a good life like most people"
      >don't transition,
      >don't think I ever really was trans or gender dysphoric, just an autistic loser who wanted a new start
      >frick two random women over the period of the next few years
      >don't really like it
      >I like when they fall asleep in my arms after because I get to know what a woman feels like.

      idk this one sounds like nothing

  16. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >be little kid, have fun playing with my sisters
    >get to do girly stuff and they call me a girl name
    >one day my mother hears them call me it and screams at them to stop
    >cuts off my hair
    >become shy reclusive sensitive kid who cries all the time
    >grow to hate sisters and refuse to do girly things
    >use every birthday wish to become a girl
    >sometimes dream it worked but wake up jerked back to reality
    >spend all my time reading fantasy and eventually playing video games
    >gifted child so school was easy and parents laid off
    >dissociate during puberty enough that I didn't notice my voice broke until someone told me it did
    >didn't look at naked body once from age 11-14, yes actually I know it sounds weird
    >shocked when I saw how everything changed when I finally did
    >eventually figure out I'm supposed to get a gf but don't really get it like other boys do. Still try anyway but too afraid of girls
    >basically just go on autopilot until uni, develop agp
    >most female friends actually wanted to frick me because I grew too tall
    >find myself multiple times alone with them and about to have sex but panic and run out each time
    >last year of uni start doing nofap to get rid of agp and start lifting because I need to get a gf because that's important and will stop me being a sexually fricked up weirdo loser
    >read autismo pua shit because I need to "land" a hot gf
    >why? Because I wanted to frick her? No, because it would give me high social status and everyone would think wow he's so cool look at his hot gf!
    >eventually succeed in having sex a few times
    >never cum, they start asking why so I force myself to do it next time
    >still sucks though and have to kegel hard and imagine im her to do it
    >graduate become neet for a few years
    >find /lgbt/ soon after it's made
    >transphobic arc
    >eventually start questioning and remember stuff from childhood and realize I wasted my entire life repressing and doing shit for other people and am now in a fully developed adult male body

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Damn you had a transphobic arc when you could’ve been a midshit. That’s rough

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        I don't really consider that a real thing but I was already 22 then anon

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      oh that's interesting. you don't cum during sex with women either. Is that a gender dysphoria thing?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Idk maybe. Haven't tried since. I think I just can't be a top with a woman. I like being penetrated

  17. 1 year ago
    it is over

    reppers are based, troonsition is a sad joke. you arent missing out

  18. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >be little kid
    >mom asks what i want to be when i grow up
    >say massage artist
    >mom tells me that job is for girls
    >i cry and tell mom she just ruined my life
    time skip
    >be like 8
    >girl cousin dresses me up
    >i love it
    >until dad sees
    >he is absolutely furious with me until i pretend she held me down and made me wear the dress
    >dont get to play with that cousin anymore
    time skip
    >be 10
    >see troony on Jerry Springer
    >prostitute with bolt-ons
    >dad laughs at her before he changes the channel
    time skip
    >be 13
    >walk up to mom, start telling her about a bunch of sick ideas for my sweet sixteen party
    >"um, anon, you know only girls have those, right?"
    >try to play it off as a joke and run to my room before i cry
    time skip
    >be in highschool, standing with fellow nerds in the courtyard
    >they are talking about girls they like
    >tuning most of it out because it makes me uncomfortable
    >"what kinda girls do you like anon?"
    >blurt out "I'm a lesbian in a mans body" before i can help myself
    >everybody looks at me like i just admitted to skinning a cat
    >try to play it off as bad joke
    >next week have no friends to stand with
    >have no friends rest of highschool
    time skip
    >read description of transgender during "diversity week" at school
    >strikes a chord, but all i can think when i read it is that troony on Jerry
    timeskip
    >be 18 about to graduate
    >very depressed
    >no clue what to do after highschool
    >learn about hrt browsing web
    >sudden motivation
    >I will be a woman!
    >make plan to join military, make government pay for my transition
    time skip
    >graduated highschool and tried to enlist
    >was rejected
    >cant get job
    >now worthless 23 year old neet
    >try to anhero cause i am a parasite and iwnbaw
    >doesnt work

    Or maybe it did. I am about to turn 26, still neet, and every day feels like another day in hell.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      do you think you wouldn't pass?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Of course not. I am 5' 9" 220 lbs of testosterone damage. I have wide hips, but wider shoulders and a neanderthal face. My face is scarred and pockmarked from fighting and acne. My hair is already visibly thinning.

        But even if that werent the case, I still cant do anything about it. Even if i was guaranteed to be the most beautiful woman, I am still a Neet so i couldnt pay for treatment. I am dependent on the kindness of my parents just to survive.

        And i am mentally damaged from these long years of depression, repression, and isolation that even if the other two things werent problems, and i could transition, I would still be a mentally ill woman who cant function properly. None of my problems would be solved; and i would likely be hatecrimed because of where i live.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >I am 5' 9"
          hey thats not bad at a--
          >220 lbs
          oh, oof

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Uh, your post stood out to me Mai bru.

          Your situation legit isn’t that bad. None of that is. I’ve seen people with way worse. But your reaction is disproportionate. You’re this depressed? Weird.

          You have problems sleeping, my friend?

          ……also I can help you poor friend, just get Medicaid and scoot your treatments free

  19. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >My name is Steve, but in an ideal situation it'd be Stephanie.
    >This is my story
    >I was born in Salt Lake City, Utah, 58 years ago.
    >Despite my US passport, I grew up in Europe and I've never had the opportunity to visit my birthplace again. So be patient with my English, I'm also kind of numb due to several things.
    >I belong to that group of trans women who "always knew". Ever since day 1 it was crystal clear to me there was some kind of difference between me and my peers. I didn't have the words to articulate that, but at the time it was not important. I was just a cute kid who prefered dolls to guns and that was is.
    >But, unfortunately, time passes.
    >And we grow old.
    >I was 9 years old when I felt feminine for the first time. It was the most natural and beautiful sensation, it flew in my body bringing peace, and a genuine sense of joy.
    >That day I found out what I was.
    >I remember I couldn't wait to tell my mom and dad. As my mom came back home I told her "mom, I want to be a girl!".
    >I was so excited,
    >but my mom wasn't.
    >She stared at me for a couple of seconds, than went like "what?"
    >"Yes mommy, I want to be a girl, just like you!!".
    >A couple of days later all my girly toys were donated to the church. My mom bought me a couple of fake guns and a sort of big Jim, then she made me join the local soccer team.
    >It was heartbreaking.
    >I learned the lesson: it was not ok to be that way. I was supposed to be a strong, masculine boy.
    >So I learned how to play the role.
    >I cut all the girly stuff: mannerism, activities, everything. The idea of not being loved by mom and dad was too painful for me to even consider it.
    >Then, puberty hit.
    >Oh my God. Hell on Earth. Suddenly, the game changed. We were not "kids" anymore, we splitted into "boys" and "girls". Out of the blue I was surrounded by male friends comparing their body hair and penises, while on the other side of the locker room the girls were doing the same with their breast.
    1/x

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >I would have discovered why decades later.
      >So I did the most logic thing: I got engaged.
      >At 18 I met the love of my life, a wonderful and caring woman I immediately fell in love with.
      >We married 5 years later, got 2 beatiful children.
      >So there I was: a married 26 years old with a little boy and a beatiful wife, with a great career ahead. Everybody used to say that I was great at my job, that I was "naturally talented", but the truth is that I used to work all day long just to get distracted, because the minute my brain would stop, It would have reminded me about my true nature.
      >And my true nature was not ok.
      >My insane "work ethic" led me and my family to gain much respect in our comunity. We were considered people who "lived by example"...oh my God, such a hirony.
      >That's it, my whole life was marked by this two things: work and family.
      >And, of course, lots of little distractions.
      >Through the years, I "came to terms" with the fact that I would have never get the chance to be a woman.
      >6 months ago, after a lifetime of horse - like health, I had a seizure. It came out of nowhere.
      >I was rushed into the ER, and was told I have brain cancer, the most malignant.
      >My situation is not great, I could live anywhere from 1 day to 8 months, stats say.
      >When my oncologist told me about the prognosis, my first thought was " I don't want to die as Steve".
      >I'll never get to have a woman body. I'm on a low dose of E, meds told me it is not safe to stress the body.
      >I'm here to tell you something: TIME PASSES, LIFE WILL TOO.
      >I never transitioned for one thing and one thing only: fear.
      >"I might be too big" "I might end up regretting the whole thing" "I might hurt my family" "I might lose my job"
      >Holy shit.
      2/x

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        >I regret every single time I kept myself from going to a psy and talk about my situation. And that's hard to live with, because it was my choice.
        >I allowed fear to run my life, I lived in the little spot it left me and now I'm a nearly 60 years old sick trans who just came out and could be dead 3 days from now.
        >I see there are lots of post about people who are scared about transitioning.
        >Listen to me, you will die. Maybe not today, but sooner or later you'll be left with more "yesterdays" than "tomorrows". And you might already be there without even knowing.
        >Life can be hard. Life as a trans can be harder.
        >But there is no way to change that, you can't change the hand you've been dealt. It's up to you to get everything you can out of it!
        >I know there lots of "but..."s, which are great to postpone what is inevitable, but at the end of your life you will most likely regret every single one of them.
        >Time passes my friends, time passes. If you think you are young, keep in mind that your 50s will come in an heartbeat.
        >There are tons of "valid" reasons not to transition, but at the end of your life none of them will help you find peace. That's for sure.
        >Be aware of this, as you chose to live as someone you are not. You might end up regretting it with no enough time to fix the situation.
        >Don't you hide yourself behind the "I don't care about dying", in the last months I've met dozens of people who used to think the very same thing and now are scared to death.
        >I've decided to share my story to give you a different point of view. This is real. Regretting is real, aging is real, death is real.
        >Be aware of this.
        3/3

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >I would have discovered why decades later.
          >So I did the most logic thing: I got engaged.
          >At 18 I met the love of my life, a wonderful and caring woman I immediately fell in love with.
          >We married 5 years later, got 2 beatiful children.
          >So there I was: a married 26 years old with a little boy and a beatiful wife, with a great career ahead. Everybody used to say that I was great at my job, that I was "naturally talented", but the truth is that I used to work all day long just to get distracted, because the minute my brain would stop, It would have reminded me about my true nature.
          >And my true nature was not ok.
          >My insane "work ethic" led me and my family to gain much respect in our comunity. We were considered people who "lived by example"...oh my God, such a hirony.
          >That's it, my whole life was marked by this two things: work and family.
          >And, of course, lots of little distractions.
          >Through the years, I "came to terms" with the fact that I would have never get the chance to be a woman.
          >6 months ago, after a lifetime of horse - like health, I had a seizure. It came out of nowhere.
          >I was rushed into the ER, and was told I have brain cancer, the most malignant.
          >My situation is not great, I could live anywhere from 1 day to 8 months, stats say.
          >When my oncologist told me about the prognosis, my first thought was " I don't want to die as Steve".
          >I'll never get to have a woman body. I'm on a low dose of E, meds told me it is not safe to stress the body.
          >I'm here to tell you something: TIME PASSES, LIFE WILL TOO.
          >I never transitioned for one thing and one thing only: fear.
          >"I might be too big" "I might end up regretting the whole thing" "I might hurt my family" "I might lose my job"
          >Holy shit.
          2/x

          >My name is Steve, but in an ideal situation it'd be Stephanie.
          >This is my story
          >I was born in Salt Lake City, Utah, 58 years ago.
          >Despite my US passport, I grew up in Europe and I've never had the opportunity to visit my birthplace again. So be patient with my English, I'm also kind of numb due to several things.
          >I belong to that group of trans women who "always knew". Ever since day 1 it was crystal clear to me there was some kind of difference between me and my peers. I didn't have the words to articulate that, but at the time it was not important. I was just a cute kid who prefered dolls to guns and that was is.
          >But, unfortunately, time passes.
          >And we grow old.
          >I was 9 years old when I felt feminine for the first time. It was the most natural and beautiful sensation, it flew in my body bringing peace, and a genuine sense of joy.
          >That day I found out what I was.
          >I remember I couldn't wait to tell my mom and dad. As my mom came back home I told her "mom, I want to be a girl!".
          >I was so excited,
          >but my mom wasn't.
          >She stared at me for a couple of seconds, than went like "what?"
          >"Yes mommy, I want to be a girl, just like you!!".
          >A couple of days later all my girly toys were donated to the church. My mom bought me a couple of fake guns and a sort of big Jim, then she made me join the local soccer team.
          >It was heartbreaking.
          >I learned the lesson: it was not ok to be that way. I was supposed to be a strong, masculine boy.
          >So I learned how to play the role.
          >I cut all the girly stuff: mannerism, activities, everything. The idea of not being loved by mom and dad was too painful for me to even consider it.
          >Then, puberty hit.
          >Oh my God. Hell on Earth. Suddenly, the game changed. We were not "kids" anymore, we splitted into "boys" and "girls". Out of the blue I was surrounded by male friends comparing their body hair and penises, while on the other side of the locker room the girls were doing the same with their breast.
          1/x

          that is devastating

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Do they know?

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >I would have discovered why decades later.
      >So I did the most logic thing: I got engaged.
      >At 18 I met the love of my life, a wonderful and caring woman I immediately fell in love with.
      >We married 5 years later, got 2 beatiful children.
      >So there I was: a married 26 years old with a little boy and a beatiful wife, with a great career ahead. Everybody used to say that I was great at my job, that I was "naturally talented", but the truth is that I used to work all day long just to get distracted, because the minute my brain would stop, It would have reminded me about my true nature.
      >And my true nature was not ok.
      >My insane "work ethic" led me and my family to gain much respect in our comunity. We were considered people who "lived by example"...oh my God, such a hirony.
      >That's it, my whole life was marked by this two things: work and family.
      >And, of course, lots of little distractions.
      >Through the years, I "came to terms" with the fact that I would have never get the chance to be a woman.
      >6 months ago, after a lifetime of horse - like health, I had a seizure. It came out of nowhere.
      >I was rushed into the ER, and was told I have brain cancer, the most malignant.
      >My situation is not great, I could live anywhere from 1 day to 8 months, stats say.
      >When my oncologist told me about the prognosis, my first thought was " I don't want to die as Steve".
      >I'll never get to have a woman body. I'm on a low dose of E, meds told me it is not safe to stress the body.
      >I'm here to tell you something: TIME PASSES, LIFE WILL TOO.
      >I never transitioned for one thing and one thing only: fear.
      >"I might be too big" "I might end up regretting the whole thing" "I might hurt my family" "I might lose my job"
      >Holy shit.
      2/x

      >I regret every single time I kept myself from going to a psy and talk about my situation. And that's hard to live with, because it was my choice.
      >I allowed fear to run my life, I lived in the little spot it left me and now I'm a nearly 60 years old sick trans who just came out and could be dead 3 days from now.
      >I see there are lots of post about people who are scared about transitioning.
      >Listen to me, you will die. Maybe not today, but sooner or later you'll be left with more "yesterdays" than "tomorrows". And you might already be there without even knowing.
      >Life can be hard. Life as a trans can be harder.
      >But there is no way to change that, you can't change the hand you've been dealt. It's up to you to get everything you can out of it!
      >I know there lots of "but..."s, which are great to postpone what is inevitable, but at the end of your life you will most likely regret every single one of them.
      >Time passes my friends, time passes. If you think you are young, keep in mind that your 50s will come in an heartbeat.
      >There are tons of "valid" reasons not to transition, but at the end of your life none of them will help you find peace. That's for sure.
      >Be aware of this, as you chose to live as someone you are not. You might end up regretting it with no enough time to fix the situation.
      >Don't you hide yourself behind the "I don't care about dying", in the last months I've met dozens of people who used to think the very same thing and now are scared to death.
      >I've decided to share my story to give you a different point of view. This is real. Regretting is real, aging is real, death is real.
      >Be aware of this.
      3/3

      This is such a brutal story

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >I would have discovered why decades later.
      >So I did the most logic thing: I got engaged.
      >At 18 I met the love of my life, a wonderful and caring woman I immediately fell in love with.
      >We married 5 years later, got 2 beatiful children.
      >So there I was: a married 26 years old with a little boy and a beatiful wife, with a great career ahead. Everybody used to say that I was great at my job, that I was "naturally talented", but the truth is that I used to work all day long just to get distracted, because the minute my brain would stop, It would have reminded me about my true nature.
      >And my true nature was not ok.
      >My insane "work ethic" led me and my family to gain much respect in our comunity. We were considered people who "lived by example"...oh my God, such a hirony.
      >That's it, my whole life was marked by this two things: work and family.
      >And, of course, lots of little distractions.
      >Through the years, I "came to terms" with the fact that I would have never get the chance to be a woman.
      >6 months ago, after a lifetime of horse - like health, I had a seizure. It came out of nowhere.
      >I was rushed into the ER, and was told I have brain cancer, the most malignant.
      >My situation is not great, I could live anywhere from 1 day to 8 months, stats say.
      >When my oncologist told me about the prognosis, my first thought was " I don't want to die as Steve".
      >I'll never get to have a woman body. I'm on a low dose of E, meds told me it is not safe to stress the body.
      >I'm here to tell you something: TIME PASSES, LIFE WILL TOO.
      >I never transitioned for one thing and one thing only: fear.
      >"I might be too big" "I might end up regretting the whole thing" "I might hurt my family" "I might lose my job"
      >Holy shit.
      2/x

      >I regret every single time I kept myself from going to a psy and talk about my situation. And that's hard to live with, because it was my choice.
      >I allowed fear to run my life, I lived in the little spot it left me and now I'm a nearly 60 years old sick trans who just came out and could be dead 3 days from now.
      >I see there are lots of post about people who are scared about transitioning.
      >Listen to me, you will die. Maybe not today, but sooner or later you'll be left with more "yesterdays" than "tomorrows". And you might already be there without even knowing.
      >Life can be hard. Life as a trans can be harder.
      >But there is no way to change that, you can't change the hand you've been dealt. It's up to you to get everything you can out of it!
      >I know there lots of "but..."s, which are great to postpone what is inevitable, but at the end of your life you will most likely regret every single one of them.
      >Time passes my friends, time passes. If you think you are young, keep in mind that your 50s will come in an heartbeat.
      >There are tons of "valid" reasons not to transition, but at the end of your life none of them will help you find peace. That's for sure.
      >Be aware of this, as you chose to live as someone you are not. You might end up regretting it with no enough time to fix the situation.
      >Don't you hide yourself behind the "I don't care about dying", in the last months I've met dozens of people who used to think the very same thing and now are scared to death.
      >I've decided to share my story to give you a different point of view. This is real. Regretting is real, aging is real, death is real.
      >Be aware of this.
      3/3

      Thank you

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        [...]
        [...]
        This is such a brutal story

        [...]
        [...]
        that is devastating

        this wasn't me, this was /u/stephanie1960. She followed up with this post
        >Dear trans friends, it's time to say goodbye
        >Some of you may recall my first post in here.
        >Situation got worse, I'm getting more and more numb and wanted to use one of few clear moments to say goodbye.
        >I'm glad I got to see a little part of me in my life, I hope you'll be luckier than me.
        >Make love your goal, I whish you have all the happiness we all deserve.
        >I love you all.
        >Good bye.
        https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/8lw1g3/dear_trans_friends_its_time_to_say_goodbye/

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >last post 4 years 9 months ago
          o7

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          tnx, I cried.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >I would have discovered why decades later.
      >So I did the most logic thing: I got engaged.
      >At 18 I met the love of my life, a wonderful and caring woman I immediately fell in love with.
      >We married 5 years later, got 2 beatiful children.
      >So there I was: a married 26 years old with a little boy and a beatiful wife, with a great career ahead. Everybody used to say that I was great at my job, that I was "naturally talented", but the truth is that I used to work all day long just to get distracted, because the minute my brain would stop, It would have reminded me about my true nature.
      >And my true nature was not ok.
      >My insane "work ethic" led me and my family to gain much respect in our comunity. We were considered people who "lived by example"...oh my God, such a hirony.
      >That's it, my whole life was marked by this two things: work and family.
      >And, of course, lots of little distractions.
      >Through the years, I "came to terms" with the fact that I would have never get the chance to be a woman.
      >6 months ago, after a lifetime of horse - like health, I had a seizure. It came out of nowhere.
      >I was rushed into the ER, and was told I have brain cancer, the most malignant.
      >My situation is not great, I could live anywhere from 1 day to 8 months, stats say.
      >When my oncologist told me about the prognosis, my first thought was " I don't want to die as Steve".
      >I'll never get to have a woman body. I'm on a low dose of E, meds told me it is not safe to stress the body.
      >I'm here to tell you something: TIME PASSES, LIFE WILL TOO.
      >I never transitioned for one thing and one thing only: fear.
      >"I might be too big" "I might end up regretting the whole thing" "I might hurt my family" "I might lose my job"
      >Holy shit.
      2/x

      >I regret every single time I kept myself from going to a psy and talk about my situation. And that's hard to live with, because it was my choice.
      >I allowed fear to run my life, I lived in the little spot it left me and now I'm a nearly 60 years old sick trans who just came out and could be dead 3 days from now.
      >I see there are lots of post about people who are scared about transitioning.
      >Listen to me, you will die. Maybe not today, but sooner or later you'll be left with more "yesterdays" than "tomorrows". And you might already be there without even knowing.
      >Life can be hard. Life as a trans can be harder.
      >But there is no way to change that, you can't change the hand you've been dealt. It's up to you to get everything you can out of it!
      >I know there lots of "but..."s, which are great to postpone what is inevitable, but at the end of your life you will most likely regret every single one of them.
      >Time passes my friends, time passes. If you think you are young, keep in mind that your 50s will come in an heartbeat.
      >There are tons of "valid" reasons not to transition, but at the end of your life none of them will help you find peace. That's for sure.
      >Be aware of this, as you chose to live as someone you are not. You might end up regretting it with no enough time to fix the situation.
      >Don't you hide yourself behind the "I don't care about dying", in the last months I've met dozens of people who used to think the very same thing and now are scared to death.
      >I've decided to share my story to give you a different point of view. This is real. Regretting is real, aging is real, death is real.
      >Be aware of this.
      3/3

      You know what I'm just gonna say it, this is fake and gay. "my mom bought toy guns for when I said I wanted to become a girl at 9" fake

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        yeah suuuuuuuuper unrealistic for 1960 thanks for the insight
        moron

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Frick off zoomshit

          That's not the unrealistic part. It's unrealistic that a 9 year old would understand "I would like to be a woman instead of a man I have gender dysphoria" it'd be like a 9 year old saying "mother I'm sad without a coherent explanation and often fatigued, I believe I have clinical depression" and on top of all that the writer has just three years to live. It just feels to grand. Don't buy it.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >a 9 year old would understand "I would like to be a woman instead of a man
            literally me now kys
            saw my first troony at that age even

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            kys

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Frick off zoomshit

  20. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >always knew since i was around 14
    >got bullied a lot in hs for being effeminate and weak and puberty not hitting hard at all
    >break down and cry my lungs out to my mom at 17
    >go to a shrink for 6 months
    >feel like its not doing anything for me
    >decide to "man up" at 18
    >go to the gym, get ripped
    >get a gf
    >this is all fake, it's not who i want to be
    >the thoughts never stopped but are getting more difficuult to manage over the years
    >break up with gf
    >finally break down at 23 and start transitioning
    the people that tell you to man up and to lift are cruel and you shouldnt listen to them

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >the people that tell you to man up and to lift are cruel and you shouldnt listen to them
      this, fricking buttholes

  21. 1 year ago
    Terje

    >OP asks for screencaps
    >thread is full of greentexts

    depressing

  22. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    i realized i was trans when i was really young (11) but i fell for the "HORMONES ARE... LE DANGEROUS!" narrative so i waited until i turned 18 and puberty already fricked my body. not like my mom would have let me transition as a kid anyways, she also thinks hormones are dangerous and thought i had ROGD from the internet even though i didn't use social media or the internet until after i realized, and i knew something was wrong since even younger

  23. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    this thread is a psyops, its all bullshit

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      why do you think that?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        because he's running out of repperfuel after reading all the greentexts

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