Oh, yeah. Shoot. Well I'm tired and want to take a nap soon. How's your day going anyway? For what it's worth I hope you're living a nice retirement, or something. Dunno how old you actually are
I just woke up. Wife’s bout to go shopping for friends bachelorette party. I’m about to play splatoon 3 with the kid, splatfest is important. Coffees brewing and when it’s done I’ll sit on my porch and smoke n drink while I stare at my mountain. How about you? Anything besides the nap?
I have kind of a stressful week ahead of me, new quarter is starting and I haven't registered for one of my classes yet. I'm kind of at that crossroads where, I have a lot of not-so-clear opportunities open to me and I get the feeling how I respond to all of this might shape the type of person who I am for the rest of my life. I need to be a go-getter 🙁
Your day sounds absolutely wonderful. I hope to god that when I'm that age I'm surrounded by loved ones like that, and that I'm not cantankerous haha
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I couldn’t offer any advice on that. I steered clear of academics. What fields are you looking at?
I opted to be a house husband so my days are cheatmode fun and easy.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Hm, to give a little more context I am 20 years old right now. Some things happened and I got kicked out of highschool when I was 15, about halfway through my second year. My counselor, bless her, had my back though. She got me into a special financial aid program at a community college where, by getting an associate's degree there I'll get my highschool diploma too. And all for free! It's an incredible opportunity that I probably didn't deserve. And, have almost squandered too, it takes a certain level of feet dragging to stretch a 2 year degree plan out into nearly 5 years. The switch to online classes and the wobbly online college infrastrucure that came with it didnt help, but, I want to take responsibility for the situation I'm in.
Admittedly, I haven't been doing very well for myself the past few years. I've let myself go in a lot of ways, haven't maintained friendships the way I'd like to. I had a single day of clarity last month when my brother was visiting on leave, he's serving in the military right now. Went to my campus and got business in order, walked for hours asking for job applications. My family isn't well off so I'm gonna have to buy my own car, would've been great for me to job hunt seriously a lot sooner than this. I did have one job last year, so I'm not as apprehensive about getting another. Interviews aren't so scary and my resume says stuff on it now
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Sorry to be so long-winded, I guess I just want to say that, I've made so many mistakes. But I'm not screwed yet. My main issue right now is that, while I know generally what I should be doing, I'm not entirely sure how to go about it. My family is dysfunctional so I have to be very hands-on about how I structure my life. Either I get my act together now, or I slowly slink into the vices of both my parents. I can see the worst parts of them in me starting to grow and, it's terrifying, honestly.
Oh and I hope the Splatoon is going well lol
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Shit, I forgot to mention. It's a Direct Transfer Associates. A 2-year degree that covers basic foundational classes, that gets you into universities to then special on your Bachelor's (should take another 2 years of those specialized classes, for the 4 year degree). I was supposed to go all in on Physics and Astronomy, but that went haywire. I found out I was much closer to this degree, which does give me more time to think about fields. I have no idea what I really want. What excites me most as a person is script-writing honestly
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I doubt you're still here, I definitely took too long writing and I overshared too. Just, very stressed. At least there are no stakes to being a bumbling awkward idiot on this website haha. If you do see this this, I wish you and your family the best. I'm gonna go sleep now, I'm probably well overdue on that. Thread's gonna be archived by the time I wake up anyway
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Still here just doing coffee and vidya shit. I’m a slowish responder so LULZ isn’t the best place for me to communicate
So so far you’ve only been doing general education things? That’s not the worst. You’re still super young your life isn’t even close to being NGMImode.
Don’t feel bad about trying to communicate and have a convo mein dude it’s natural.
Even if you fall into vices like your parents and waste 10 years you will still have plenty of time to turn it around if you have the ability To be self aware and honest with yourself. It seems like even with the obstacles you’re facing you are still making good decisions by going to school and getting it done even if you were slipping up a bit. Be proud of that especially at that age. We all make mistakes and some of us make really bad ones, you can and will recover if you want to, might have to change ur name.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
for the hell of it I just checked back in, woah. I'm still here, not sleeping yet lol
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Thank you for the words of encouragement. I really hope that I can turn things around for myself, fully. When did life feel like it fell into place for you? Not to pry or assume of course, I'm just curious if there are any really good points in life that I should be looking forward to. Anything to keep me grounded when I start to drift
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Life didn’t get any semblance of decent til 29 and now I’m as content and happy as I’ll ever be. 34 now. There is always time to get it together and change lanes. Always time if you can be honest with yourself. Just continue to make more steps forwards than back and one day you’ll have a second to yourself and realize you are content or happy or whatever or maybe not. Never a one defining moment that switched me over to happy it’s a mish mash of different aspects of your life like success and fitness and self worth etc. idk if I’m sticking to your points I’m a lil retarded
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Ah no you answered my question pretty much, thank you. I need to think more like this, and keep in mind that I can afford to change lanes and that I really do have a future. For a long time, I honestly didn't think I did. Had all these phobias that I'd be dead by now, hell recently old friends teased me about it, "hey do you remember when we were in highschool and you told us you'd be a corpse in a gutter before age 20? Lol". Hm, I really need to focus less on individual defining moments and more on gradual positive change. Thank you for your perspective, I can get caught up in bullshit sometimes
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I literally lived in the gutter for 10 years. You’ll be fine if you got any sense in there. Good luck, naggerhomosexual.
I would unironically try to be your friend but I'm currently too depressed and busy for social interaction, and will be for the next years. I wish you the best
The usual reason why your kind fails to make friends is because you're too busy spamming self-pity and you don't appreciate or learn from other people's reactions towards you.
The solution to this is to just stfu with your self-pity and interact socially.
Of course that's a damn shot in the dark since I haven't got a clue whether you even have self-pity or how spammy you get with it.
I don't know, I got by one ghosted and another one.
Not by asking like a kid.
Desperation is a turn off for any relationship anon
Its over
nigga what why are they funding money lmao
whats the endgoal?
I can try if you’d like. I’m an old man tho….leave a way to get in touch. I have all the time in the world.
do you have a discord or email address? I'm not putting my info up but I always like meeting new people in spontaneous situations like this
lmfao
I too am not comfortable putting my info up. Such is life.
Oh, yeah. Shoot. Well I'm tired and want to take a nap soon. How's your day going anyway? For what it's worth I hope you're living a nice retirement, or something. Dunno how old you actually are
I just woke up. Wife’s bout to go shopping for friends bachelorette party. I’m about to play splatoon 3 with the kid, splatfest is important. Coffees brewing and when it’s done I’ll sit on my porch and smoke n drink while I stare at my mountain. How about you? Anything besides the nap?
I have kind of a stressful week ahead of me, new quarter is starting and I haven't registered for one of my classes yet. I'm kind of at that crossroads where, I have a lot of not-so-clear opportunities open to me and I get the feeling how I respond to all of this might shape the type of person who I am for the rest of my life. I need to be a go-getter 🙁
Your day sounds absolutely wonderful. I hope to god that when I'm that age I'm surrounded by loved ones like that, and that I'm not cantankerous haha
I couldn’t offer any advice on that. I steered clear of academics. What fields are you looking at?
I opted to be a house husband so my days are cheatmode fun and easy.
Hm, to give a little more context I am 20 years old right now. Some things happened and I got kicked out of highschool when I was 15, about halfway through my second year. My counselor, bless her, had my back though. She got me into a special financial aid program at a community college where, by getting an associate's degree there I'll get my highschool diploma too. And all for free! It's an incredible opportunity that I probably didn't deserve. And, have almost squandered too, it takes a certain level of feet dragging to stretch a 2 year degree plan out into nearly 5 years. The switch to online classes and the wobbly online college infrastrucure that came with it didnt help, but, I want to take responsibility for the situation I'm in.
Admittedly, I haven't been doing very well for myself the past few years. I've let myself go in a lot of ways, haven't maintained friendships the way I'd like to. I had a single day of clarity last month when my brother was visiting on leave, he's serving in the military right now. Went to my campus and got business in order, walked for hours asking for job applications. My family isn't well off so I'm gonna have to buy my own car, would've been great for me to job hunt seriously a lot sooner than this. I did have one job last year, so I'm not as apprehensive about getting another. Interviews aren't so scary and my resume says stuff on it now
Sorry to be so long-winded, I guess I just want to say that, I've made so many mistakes. But I'm not screwed yet. My main issue right now is that, while I know generally what I should be doing, I'm not entirely sure how to go about it. My family is dysfunctional so I have to be very hands-on about how I structure my life. Either I get my act together now, or I slowly slink into the vices of both my parents. I can see the worst parts of them in me starting to grow and, it's terrifying, honestly.
Oh and I hope the Splatoon is going well lol
Shit, I forgot to mention. It's a Direct Transfer Associates. A 2-year degree that covers basic foundational classes, that gets you into universities to then special on your Bachelor's (should take another 2 years of those specialized classes, for the 4 year degree). I was supposed to go all in on Physics and Astronomy, but that went haywire. I found out I was much closer to this degree, which does give me more time to think about fields. I have no idea what I really want. What excites me most as a person is script-writing honestly
I doubt you're still here, I definitely took too long writing and I overshared too. Just, very stressed. At least there are no stakes to being a bumbling awkward idiot on this website haha. If you do see this this, I wish you and your family the best. I'm gonna go sleep now, I'm probably well overdue on that. Thread's gonna be archived by the time I wake up anyway
Still here just doing coffee and vidya shit. I’m a slowish responder so LULZ isn’t the best place for me to communicate
So so far you’ve only been doing general education things? That’s not the worst. You’re still super young your life isn’t even close to being NGMImode.
Don’t feel bad about trying to communicate and have a convo mein dude it’s natural.
Even if you fall into vices like your parents and waste 10 years you will still have plenty of time to turn it around if you have the ability To be self aware and honest with yourself. It seems like even with the obstacles you’re facing you are still making good decisions by going to school and getting it done even if you were slipping up a bit. Be proud of that especially at that age. We all make mistakes and some of us make really bad ones, you can and will recover if you want to, might have to change ur name.
for the hell of it I just checked back in, woah. I'm still here, not sleeping yet lol
Thank you for the words of encouragement. I really hope that I can turn things around for myself, fully. When did life feel like it fell into place for you? Not to pry or assume of course, I'm just curious if there are any really good points in life that I should be looking forward to. Anything to keep me grounded when I start to drift
Life didn’t get any semblance of decent til 29 and now I’m as content and happy as I’ll ever be. 34 now. There is always time to get it together and change lanes. Always time if you can be honest with yourself. Just continue to make more steps forwards than back and one day you’ll have a second to yourself and realize you are content or happy or whatever or maybe not. Never a one defining moment that switched me over to happy it’s a mish mash of different aspects of your life like success and fitness and self worth etc. idk if I’m sticking to your points I’m a lil retarded
Ah no you answered my question pretty much, thank you. I need to think more like this, and keep in mind that I can afford to change lanes and that I really do have a future. For a long time, I honestly didn't think I did. Had all these phobias that I'd be dead by now, hell recently old friends teased me about it, "hey do you remember when we were in highschool and you told us you'd be a corpse in a gutter before age 20? Lol". Hm, I really need to focus less on individual defining moments and more on gradual positive change. Thank you for your perspective, I can get caught up in bullshit sometimes
I literally lived in the gutter for 10 years. You’ll be fine if you got any sense in there. Good luck, naggerhomosexual.
Just realized, I didn't even talk about my day at all. Shows where my head is at...
Who Is Your Daddy And What Does He Do?
I'm ur friend dawg
the fuck going on in here bruh?
>the fuck going on in here bruh?
The messageboard is being used as a messageboard.
If you want a friend, be a friend. Or get a dog.
I would unironically try to be your friend but I'm currently too depressed and busy for social interaction, and will be for the next years. I wish you the best
Damn, what was that like?
The usual reason why your kind fails to make friends is because you're too busy spamming self-pity and you don't appreciate or learn from other people's reactions towards you.
The solution to this is to just stfu with your self-pity and interact socially.
Of course that's a damn shot in the dark since I haven't got a clue whether you even have self-pity or how spammy you get with it.