how do I stop being a homosexual and just eat normal food?
last time I tried a new food was ~5yr ago, it was a burrito. Not bad, but I couldn't keep it down. I kept gagging and choking. I didn't want to, the flavor wasn't offensive (I didnt enjoy it, but I knew it was an objectively good burrito), I couldn't stop myself.
Everytime I try a new food I heave uncontrollably. I can't eat in public. My taste hasnt evolved beyond that of a literal 5yo.
I eat less and less now because eating less means I embarrass myself less going to the store and buying my shitty food, literally all junk food like hotdogs, macaroni, pbj fixns, etc. I can eat most fruit fine but vegetables? broccoli is the only decent one. Ive lost 120lb now over past year bc I stopped eating and I have literally no strength.
Thats a literal therapy thing if youre that extreme. Its going to take strategically planned baby steps, a professional can help.
When it comes to things like this, trying tok hard will regress you. A burrito is rich af in flavors and spices and sensations. If you already have a problem, its going to be too much, and that kind of thing will actually start to amplify the fear and aversion to new foods.
Anyway for interest sake, heres a guy like you:
Its not so rare its non existant. There are people like you.
how do I go a therapist and tell them im an infant and cant feed myself properly
Thats not how it works, not why you cant eat, not how they'll see it. And youre going to want a referral from ykhr general practitioner and find a proper professional. A life coach isnt going to help you.
There are a Wealth of reaaons you could have become this way. You could be a supertaster, there could be trauma, your parents may not have exposed you to enough so it underdeveloped your pallet.
If youre a super taster its gonna be harder than the other two. But notice none are your fault. Health professionals wont see you that way.
Oh and a thousand other possible reasons too. Point is, you need help at this point. Its not your fault. Your anxiety around the issue certainly isnt helping so quit bullying yourself about itm
im nowhere near as extreme as that guy in the video though, I can eat more than just mac, but I havent added anything new to my diet since I was a child, for the most part.
when I was a kid I remember being unable to finish my plate, I remember one case with green beans, very slimy. My father would yell and beat me bc I wouldnt eat them. so after that I just stayed in my room and said I wasnt hungry when I knew it was stuff I didnt know Id eat.
I'd go to a GP and tell them this? tbh Ive never went to a doctor besides emergencies.
>im not as bad as him
Honesrly not the point, the point is youre on an extreme.
And that sure sounds like it didnt help you.
And yes youd tell your GP your issue and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist, and they can probably help you find someone who can help. Its a tricky issue. Especially because this story youre telling. That may or may not even be the cause. So it becomes do they apply therapy targetting the food itself and help you expand your pallet, or do they determine its a trauma response and now you need orher forms of therapy before you can even approach food (probably not if food you try doesnt cause you panic, just tastes gross to you).
The GP is just to ensure tou stay within the realm of professionals. Therapy is one of those things anyone can call yhemselves a therapist. You could easily get someone totally unqualified looking yourself if youre not very careful/dont know what youre looking for.
But I would definitely bet youd be treated by trying food at a slow rate and determining triggers. Like have a bit of this very bland thing, and that, figure out if you dont like bitter tastes, then you have something mildly mildly bitter you can handle, work your way up, then sour, then this taste and that taste. Like its a slow build up.
>(probably not if food you try doesnt cause you panic, just tastes gross to you).
It's usually a texture thing, like the burrito didn't taste bad, I just couldn't control myself from heaving and gagging. Although other stuff like spinach or cauliflower tastes really bad and spinach was slimy and I couldn't swallow it. I feel it going up my nose and I have to spit it out or else I start choking. I can usually go a little bit without heaving.
IDK about panic. Most of the panic comes from being around food and the pressure of having to eat in front of others. I dont want to be judged because I have to order off the kids menu. So I just dont eat in that kind of example. But I really do everything I can to avoid being in that situation. I had a job for about a week and people thought it was weird I wouldnt eat at lunch. They offered me food over and over and I turned it down, saying I ate at home (which is like 8hr ago for a 10hr shift), and they kept offering to drive me home, I turned them down too, even in the rain last december when they let us out 2hr early for xmas. They let me go after just 1 week.
I was exactly the same way until age 23 or so. Like exactly what you are describing. Things changed when I took a trip to Greece and started eating feta cheese in my salad. From there, I started to eat other kinds of cheeses slowly and then I started trying other things too. But up until that age I only liked 5 things and they were all child foods like hamburgers (I wouldn’t even put anything on my burger either it was just meat and bun). Anyway there is hope for you OP. Hang in there. It’s rough I know. I threw up in school twice from teachers forcing me to try things in class. It’s brutal being that picky.
ty anons I dont feel as alone or retarded
no idea if/when ill ever get help but is nice to know am not alone
Could it be the anxiety from fear of being beaten is ingrained from childhood?
Maybe you would feel better if you cooked it yourself? Make something you like with a twist maybe, like macaroni n cheese with broccoli bits in it.
I dont watch porn, I use my imagination. I use 4ch like maybe a few times per year. The last anime I watched was Haruhi when it was new. I go outside every day to walk in the morning. There is no gym within 20m of me. I had a job but lost it, and work online currently. I have literally zero social media presence.
plain hamburger is literally me, I still do that. I only recently started eating mustard again. I remember as a kid I used to eat it but I stopped for some reason and just a year or two ago I was able to eat it again. But only on hotdogs.
I still can’t eat mustard. I hate the texture and biting thing it does on my tongue. Also I have only ever met like like 2 other people who have this as severe as we do. I’m pretty sure my husband thinks I’m being dramatic but I gag sometimes doing the dishes if I’m washing something I particularly hate like eggs. Don’t even get me started about Thanksgiving dinner. Each year is filled with dread
>anon you don’t like sweet potatoes?
>anon you don’t like turkey?
>anon you don’t like the side dish I brought? Try it! It’s so good!
>anon you don’t like pumpkin pie?
No I do not like any of it. And yes I have tried all of it. And no it’s not some mental disorder. I genuinely hate the way it all tastes and smells on every fucking level.
>no it’s not some mental disorder
It literally is you dumb hole
>And no it’s not some mental disorder.
It's called ARFID.
Yes anon, thanksgiving was always a nightmare with me. I got rotel every year. A big crockpot all to myself. Just cheese dip basically. I had to hide in my room all day for thanksgiving with my bowl of dip and some chips. I felt like a freak. The smells and sights were too much and ombined with all the people andn oise I couldnt really function. Every year by the end of the day I would break down and just hide in my bed way way too early.
I also hate doing the dishes, I hate how food touches me. I have to wear gloves. Im not sure if that's related to arfid though. Eggs also smell disgusting to me, every kind of egg. Even raw, they reek, and that's crazy to me because I know I have a worse sense of smell due birth complications. And like canned tuna and canned chicken? That stuff smells like cat food, idk how people can eat it.
I do take a few supplements. Multivitamin, calcium, fish oil.
Idk if im deficient in anything, or if my bloodwork is fine. I have never gone to a GP afaik. Only ever ER or ICU. Outside of needing physical or vax for school, which was ages ago. Like a decade at least. I honestly would not know who to see.
Im veryweak and I do not exercise. I never get sick afaik, I do not feel like Im ever physically ill, besides my weakness. BTW I am still not vaxd for Covid as I am a homebody. I am very low contact, like I leave house once a week for maybe an hour at Walmart.
the last time I was physically ill, I went to the ER, I think it was 2020 or 2021, it was for a varicocele vein, which was fixed by a change in wardrobe.
> I stopped for some reason and just a year or two ago I was able to eat it again
Also this happened to me with bananas twice. I’m currently eating them again out of nowhere.
And yeah no. This anon has no idea what he’s talking about. I am in excellent health mentally, physically and socially. I love my job and make a lot of money. It’s not related to some other “problem”. Most food literally just tastes and smells nasty to me. Always has.
Are you deficient in anything? Have you had blood levels checked? How is your general health? Do you get sick often? I'd definitely start taking some supplements if you don't take them already.
Try this, OP. Easy to get on Amazon.
for reasons I cant disclose, I cannot order things online. Is there an equivalent I can buy in person at a store like walmart/publix/etc?
or is this a basedboy meme?
also idk if this is like equivalent to something like slimfast, I tried those, both as supplement and as meal replacement, and they made me sick to my stomach. Actually ill, like I was punched in the gut, not that I had difficulty putting them down.
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Yeah you should be able to get it at walmart or target. Maybe call ahead, I'm not sure if it's in every store. And no, it's not a meme, that stuff really is nice if you are having trouble eating properly. It's kinda weird but you can drink a whole bottle in like 4 chugs so it's not that bad. There are flavors and the original tastes like the cereal pieces of Lucky Charms. Also a you can get bottles that are caffeinated if that's something you're into.
>for reasons I cant disclose, I cannot order things online.
it's nothing illegal it's a lack of agency lol
no I dont drink caff, I stopped drinking soda, I never drank coffee. i fear my diet makes me so unhealthy that doing any kind of drugs, incl caff, could really hurt me.
honestly even the decision to take the few supplements I take was hard enough for me to make. I wont even take stuff like advil or ibuprofen. so caff I actively avoid
No, caring for an invalid, and said invalid controls all the finances and accounts of the household that I'm the main provider for.
Yeah you can get those at walmart. I bought banana, strawberry and mint chip flavor to try.
They're like slimfast but not the same thing. Different brands also have different flavor profiles. But you do need a meal replacement kind of thing. Maybe you could mix other powders with milk? (Make sure they're not just protien powder but meal replacement, downsides are they're usually gritty.)