Philophobia love

You are confident
You are happy
You are who you want to be
Living most of life’s experiences
Yet fragile in one particularly
isn’t everybody

An eternity you have been searching
And rarely you get this feeling
Where you are both truly smitting
Oh boy this is exciting
Alas others share this fabled story telling

I finally meet a perfect being
after sharing and talking
you are everything I dream of believing
it’s only been a short while
and hope this feeling will never die

For a moment, my life becomes whole
Finally a person I think worthy of my soul
Thinking of you more than now and then
Hoping you are also dreaming of me, amen

Seeking my attention
Returning your affection
There is no misconception
There is definitely a connection

We make ourselves vulnerable
and both want to be lovable
So passionate and unstoppable
This is truly unforgettable

My whole life waiting perfectly and patiently
to give myself to the deserving one and only
and WOW what a month in January
giving yourself to me unexpectedly
filled with the same envy certainly
always texting each other daily

Then you sent this shockingly
We need to talk – I am sorry
What’s this you say you are not ready
Getting hurt again is your worry
Too fast we went…maybe
If so, we are both guilty
Let’s talk about it surely
Too late the door closed abruptly
you killed me softly

My world instantly stops
My heart instantly drops
I try to breathe the air
The dream is suddenly a nightmare
Does this story sound familiar said the tortoise to the hare

You feel yourself about to fall
In slow motion as you’re wishing they’d call
Hoping they realize the unnecessary pain they are causing
But for some reason they don’t want to be communicating
Turn the page was their last writing
So hurtful they must be exaggerating
but you promised not to be harassing

As you are falling, you start to think
What did I do, did I say something
There must be a misunderstanding
Impossible, this can’t be happening
There is no reason we should be hurting
Perhaps they are not telling you everything

Naïve, you still think they will catch you
You left the door open for them to walk through
To tell you “I am sorry I scared you”
But in the end they never do

Feeling like a sacrificial pawn
That’s when you hit the ground
You know they are gone
You are definitely alone
How long and difficult the climb is unknown

You try and heal your wound
May never truly understand their move
Abandoned and used, you are somehow surviving
Eventually getting up on your feet and willing
To climb out of the darkness nobody deserves to be in

You recognize they let you go
Not living the agony they put you through
They actually feel liberated
and this should be respected
because no one should be hated

And as you are making this terrible journey
Giving up on love entirely
Praying that it’s just temporary
Wondering if you will ever truly be happy
Remember that at least you gave it a chance
And learn from this fast romance
Avoid the imaginary love trance
Next time you better slow dance

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