I don't know what just happened but it was scary as fuck. I don't even know if this belongs on /x/ but I can't think of any other board to post it on.
Last night I went round to my mates and got drunk, did about a gram of cocaine. Nothing special really, since I've been doing this routine for months. I woke up this morning (afternoon really) obviously hungover, feeling low from the comedown, not fit to do much but lie in bed.
Well I was meant to be going back out to another friends house, so got up around 8pm and went for a shower. When I took my clothes off, standing there naked about to go in the shower, I suddenly just froze. Like how when you freeze when you remember you forgot something, but this was like remembering some dark unviersal truth. I suddenly got tunnel vision and began to realise that the world around me is not real at all. That if I focused too hard, or any second now, I would "wake up" from the dream and blip out of reality. I also felt an intense feeling of claustrophobia from being in my own body. Thoughts were impossible at this point, it was just complete fear and madness. I grimaced and let out some sort of wail, a plea to anything to help me.
Eventually I ran back into my room and just lay there with my eyes closed. It took around half an hour to calm down. I tried to watch YouTube to distract me but noticed that my body and my mind had become two distinct entities. My fingers would type the words and I'd realise that it's not actually "me" doing it, if that makes sense. It's now about 2 hours later and I feel normal again, but empty and emotionally blunted. Strangely, for the past few months I've had a recurring fear of going mental and having a schizo break. I've even somewhat romanticised the idea and thought there was some divine truth in the madness. But now that fear is gone, that full obsession is gone. Anyone had similar experiences?