>masturbate to porn
>something bad in my life happens
>think about the negative things in my life
>something bad happens
>try and improve myself
>something bad happens
>try to accomplish something
>fail and something bad happens
Why is my life like this? Am I cursed? I made a promise to god when I was like 14 that I would never try or work hard ever again because I was so burned out on life did I really make a binding contract with him or some demon or something? Is that why these things keep happening?
One must imagine Sisyphus happy. If you can't deal with the prospect of failure in everything you do then you need to change your perspective.
That just seems like cope I’ve been so unhappy for decades now and it just doesn’t seem to let up
you didn't try hard enough
you seem like a very weak person
>you’re not strong enough you seem weak
You sound like every bully I’ve had
I guess you’re going to tell me I need to man up too
Can't tell without context, we don't know what you mean by "bad thing". Maybe your father got killed or maybe you lost your phone charger. That's why it's impossible to determine whether you're a bitch or not.
You should ask /adv/.
I will never ask /adv/ for a god damned thing id rather go to my local highschool and ask the local queen bee bitches life advice
you're asking /x/, it's barely any different
Yeah I was hoping for some magical spells or something memey just schizos and savants which I could find elsewhere
Going out on a limb and assuming you're still very very young but whatever,
Start blaming yourself.
Life isn't just happening to you over and over, it happens because you let it.
Try to have a better life. Don't just want it and complain about it. Start smiling at people when you show up somewhere and genuinely be grateful to smile at them, start working hard at things every day even when life is shitting on you and when it starts to shit on you remember that you're out here trying and it wasn't your fault this time that life is shitting on you because you were making the undeniable effort to become worthy of yourself.
That's why you need to accept responsibility for your situation until you yourself are sure that you're not acting like a little bitch. Nobody else can tell you what is and isn't fair to you and to sit and complain about it will never get you anything.
There isn't some magical hand in the sky serving up slop that gives some people more and less until their lives are balanced, you have to go and balance your own ass.
If you have to think about it at all you probably still are thinking like a victim thus your situation is your own fault.
I suggest listening to Marcus Aurelius. It's not a spell but he knew what he was on about.
Don't be a bitch anon, you don't have to be.
Now there's also every chance you're just a hormonal teenager and came to x to complain for attention, which is fine too. People need that.
But if you're really desperate the above is the only thing that will save you because hey, even if you end up homeless if you were really trying at life then it really is the universe shitting on you, how otherwise would it come to be that everything failed when you were genuinely trying.
If you have to reason internally either way you probably weren't trying.
>come to /x/ depressed
>get gaslight by some retard
Not OP but...
Kill yourself, moron.
cry harder you little homosexual. rid yourself of this disgusting victim complex bs and be better. So yes, be a fucking man. Any other answer is a lie. Stop being a bitch and deal with your fucking problems. The past doesn't exist. Move on with your life.
Oh Good, you just started crossing the abyss :3
Everything you do the first time will be bad. The first book you write will be terrible. The first time you go surfing, you're going to suck. The difference between a successful person and an unsuccessful one is the successful person will learn from the failure and keep pushing. The loser gives up and doesn't continue. Losers never win.
To live is to cope my man, if you can't give yourself excuses to be happy then just suffer. It's your choice to keep going at the end of the day.
That's a curse though. You should reap what you sow but it's others gaining the good stuff.
Answer is to call back your own energy and not give it so easily. I kicked all fake friends and family out of my life and things work out very well nowadays.
Are you looking for an easy answer? Because there isn't one. If people tell you possibilities or options do you nitpick problems with it? You know deep down what you need to do to change so stop wasting your time. You think God would hold you to your word at 14 or be happier to know you've learned from your suffering? Make a new promise & accept you'll stumble & suffer no matter what. One day you'll notice a change, maybe it's as simple as a more positive perspective
I don’t want an easy answer because I’ve learned by now that there is no magic solution to this bull shit I just need to grit my teeth until I get cancer and then I can get sympathy from normal fags until I die but I’m tired of the life’s tough toughen up I’ve had a shit life since I was like 9 I ask when does it end but it doesn’t I know that
>be our Jonas
>get selected by The god to be prophet
>he starts preaching and gets hated by society
>he has enough of it and leaves
>storm
>threwn in the sea
>caught by a whale
>he prays "My lord forgive me I opressed myself"
>he gets saved and healed
>he goes back to preaching
Ah yes, just follow the lord and good things will come.
Just ignore all the bad things that still happen....
don't give up anon, I'm too lazy to write a motivation speech or shit like it but try law of attraction, it really helped me a lot.
No, geez. It's clearly the worlds fault, not yours. I'm not joking.
The fact that you don't even consider that possibility and immediately go toward self blame is the reason you keep manifesting more SHIT.
Because you believe the source of the shit (the world) is infallible. Thus your soul remains attached to that system, and more SHIT manifests from it.
Stop believing the world is above you. It's beneath you, and it's not your friend. It's trying to control and dominate you.
nta not op, but can you give more example how to change one's mental image/view on the world, to get world to be "under" me?
Bring out a pen and paper
Your manifestation power
Your strength vs World strength
Your potential vs World potential
Wait this reminds me of VOLTS AMPS WATTS AND OHMS
What are these for manifestation? Its like electricity
Well first of all I forgot to mention that it's not the ego "you" I was talking about.
The ego world is a total inversion, and that's the point of it. To keep you trapped through inversions.
Because the world defines your ego. So if the world says its your (ego) fault then it IS.
And this is why the materialist/scientific mindset cannot find the exit, because it itself is defined by the world.
So basically you have to wake up to your true self. Then the world is not just "beneath" you it simply is an illusion that never existed in the first place. You're what's real.
Your true self lives in the realm of pure consciousness. The realm where knowing and becoming are the same thing.
See that your entire existence, right now even in this moment as you sit here reading this, is made of nothing but conscious experience. Any idea of "matter" or "stuff" existing without consciousness is purely imagined.
And if you can allow yourself to really consider that possibility, if you can see your reality right now as consciousness then you ARE the consciousness. And it's literally the thing that informs your ego about its existence as well. Thus becoming is knowing. Knowing is becoming. Consciousness is true knowledge (mental knowledge is just symbolic knowledge and unreal).
Your consciousness VS the world
What does weaken the consciouness and what does strengthen it?
What are your energy sources?
>What are your energy sources
I am
>Your consciousness VS the world
No, that's the illusion. There is no world.
Consciousness creates the appearance of a world, and this particular appearance is trying to invert that. To create the illusion that the illusion creates consciousness, and controls it, i.e. "materialism".
The consciousness VS the appearance
So if I understand correctly this makes our eyes one of the weakest gates. A big part of the appearence comes from our eyes.
Now how do we increase the strength and stability of the consiousness and decrease the power of the appearance?
It's not just vision, you can't take it so literal because our language only expresses things in the world and we're talking about your true self which transcends the world.
By "appearance in consciousness" I'm also talking about the pure sensation of sound, taste, touch, smell, hot/cold, and even thought.
It's not about strength but about awareness. If I said how "strong the illusion is" I apologize if it was misunderstood. The strength of an illusion is not its ability to actually compete with something real, it's about how convincing the illusion is.
The world isn't competing with consciousness, which is why I don't agree with you writing "VS". The world is MADE of consciosuness. It can't be any more strong or weak than consciousness itself.
So what you're really asking is how to increase your awareness of all this. And I sort of explained that in the last paragraph here
You increase your awareness of consciousness by... becoming aware of consciousness. Become aware of your entire existence as nothing but consciousness.
There is no screen in front of you right now, there is only the vision of one. There is no keyboard under your fingers, or device in your hand, there is only the pure sensation of it.
You can also do meditation like this, that some call "awareness meditation". Like watching your breath, and being aware of all conscious sensations (as consciousness).
You explained it well enough to me
My favorite experience was when I sensed my homunculus. It requires the eyes to be closed.
Do both
Say the world is at fault and retarded and immature and say you are at fault because you didnt deal with the immature retarded world as you should
The world is a kid and you overpower it.
But what is the problem is kids come with an immunity most of the time they do things we cant smack them for because they are protected.
So say the world is your rowdy kid, you love it but it is retarded
But here you will feel burnt out because you are older than the world and you lived but the world is young which is not true but if you think the world is older than you give it power over you
The equation is about deminishing the power of the world relative to yours but without deminishing your potential and increasing the world's.
I need to understand electricity well enough to crack the manifestation really
There must be answers in books about Behavioral sceince if it is a thing.
>I made a promise to god when I was like 14 that I would never try or work hard ever again because I was so burned out on life
Joan of Arc began her quest when she was 16.
But I'm sure your life will begin in two more weeks.
Who told you that life would be easy? Do you really think you're the only person in the world that has bad things happen to them?
I think that you promising to "God" was just promising yourself that you wouldn't work for anything anymore, so since then you subconsciously feel you don't deserve anything good so you don't get anything good.
that’s pretty deep
I know right
You have made a curse of your own , which only the one whom devised it can stop, so... stop masturbating.
>masturbate to porn
>something bad in my life happens
homosexual-tier boo-hooing
>think about the negative things in my life
>something bad happens
should be self explanatory but you just perceived shit as bad
>try and improve myself
>something bad happens
i bet you stopped improving yourself like all dweebs do, didn't you?
>try to accomplish something
>fail and something bad happens
have you never accomplished a fucking thing in your life?
sometimes you win, sometimes you lose; you obviously aren't recognizing your wins, or comparing yourself to others too much. pretend like things are going well and recognize 1 minor thing that you can pretend to be thankful for; do this for a couple weeks and you'll be back to normal
You need to keep a vision in your head so all the bullshit day-to-day doesn't deter you from your goal. Life will always be a series of challenges. It doesn't mean you're bad or foolish to want things, it's just stuff that happens. Keep the goal in mind.
>be Jesus
>heal the sick
>preach the good gospel
>dedicate your entire life to bring the sheep into the light
>something bad happens
the world hated him first
>>try and improve myself
Just keep going, when you reach a certain point the bad isn't seen as something personal, its more the challenges inherent in existence. You aren't cursed, there is just a lot of malaise through which to wade through before you can rest on the calm shores of eternity.
Stop masturbating and watching porn, retard.
>Why is my life like this
That would require more information. What 'bad' things have happened to you?
are you literally me
Are you gonna sit there all day or are you coming with?
Hahahah amazing - what is the name of this artist
serge3dx
If you feel yourself cursed overcoming such a burdon is key to progress
reoccuring thought processes and similar stress constructs are a signal to fix these areas of your life
maybe you were a fucking asshole in your previous life. try past life regression. watch that guru chakra part in avatar: last airbender. learn a mudra. listen and be thankful for what you have.
it could ALWAYS be worse, you could be dead and have to do this shit over again. learn what you need to learn then gtfo of hell.
Yeah man, if you can't figure out where it went wrong, keep digging before you were born, you'll find that cannibal rapist eventually
>Why is my life like this? Am I cursed? I made a promise to god when I was like 14 that I would never try or work hard ever again because I was so burned out on life did I really make a binding contract with him or some demon or something? Is that why these things keep happening?
Life is shit for most people. Also, good and bad shit happens no matter what you do.
Stop trying to "work hard" and instead try to "work smart". Most people that are successful in life didn't really get there because they worked hard. They go there because they had the resources and opportunities that allowed them to even put their efforts towards a task/goal.
Your resources and opportunities matter way more than your ability to work hard.There are a lot of poor people in Africa right now that work harder in one day than most of us will work in an entire week, and they will still never enjoy any of the comforts and modern conveniences that many of us do simply for being in more developed countries.
Don't ever fall for the lie that hard work = success.
First you need to acknowledge your shortcomings, and then think about what positive traits you have (regardless of how few), and then brainstorm ways in which you could put those skills to task in order to reach your goals.
Sadly, even then you still may not reach your goals anytime soon, it may take years, or you may never make it.
Life is about playing a game of probabilities. Doing the things that increase your chances for positives, and removing the things in your life that increase the changes of negatives.
Don't fall for this NoFap nonesense either. The sexual release of masturbation may be the only thing keeping you going, and keeping you rational and of a clear mind. A sexually starved version of yourself isn't any more competent or rational.
I read your post and for some reason something resonated in me, usually self help normie posts just piss me off but for some reason yours calmed me.
hermano... the best thing you can do is keep trying, just in different ways. you need to be versatile in your choices when the same shit doesn't work. You can never control the chaos of the outside world, but you can work on improving your options for dealing with it.
just remember this>> giving up is not giving up, it's resting to try another day.
I can understand, though in my case i know the reason my fate is so horrible.
In your case my advice would be to figure out the reason or cause if you can. If not, try to avoid thinking in terms of pleasing societal expectations. Instead, learn to please yourself and what YOU want for yourself and out of your life.
If you look in the mirror and see yourself as a failure, ask yourself why you think that. If the answer involves societal expectations imposed on you instead of what you actually desire out of yourself and your life. Then you're going at it wrong.
Societal expectations should be in the back seat, shotgun should be what you want. YOU are in the driver's seat.
This world is swarming with evil, infested and ruled by it. Don't feel bad that bad things happen to you, it's likely not targeted on you specifically. It's just how things are here. We live in a world where babies are devoured by evil "people" like it's veal. Or children being raped/tortured by those same elites. Don't feel like you're being punished, by some grand higher power too up his own ass to realize his morality is shit.
Odds are, most of the stuff happening to you is just chaos theory + will actualization + emergent causality in action. You can affect your destiny via will actualization/manifestation. But it can only get you so far, sometimes. No matter what you do, or how hard you try. It's going to be painful or outright impossible to achieve. Is what it is.
I am not saying this like some pompous ass about "muh others have it worse" argument. It's more so i am explaining to you causality is a fickle bitch sometimes and will fuck you right up the ass for no reason sometimes due to factors having nothing to do with you. Or very little.
The plight of others compared to yours may be worse, but that doesn't detract from your pain. Merely gives perspective is all. But don't allow that to make you accept your plot in life wholly to inaction. Struggle against that current fren.
Hey anon, same here.
A decade of suffering later and I'm turning into a animal murdering, people manipulating psychopath who will either kill himself or someone else.
What matters is the path you choose yourself, so at the end of the day you can die having lived your own life your own way.
>something bad happens (multiple times)
>cursed
the answer is right in front of you. change your mind. focus.
You are being tested.
Strive towards something and give thanks to the One for all of it, the bad and the good.