I've been with my gf for a while now, we are both in our 30s, live together and everything that comes with it.
I'm pretty happy with our relationship with the exception of our sex life in the last 3 months.
Due to changing jobs and even location of living, she and I went through a lot of stress and she completely lost her libido for almost 2 months. Before this it was around 2/3 times a week.
We didn't have sex whatsoever during that time, not even making out or touching each other. I got along with it because I could see she was stressed and I didn't want to pressure her.
Now we are finally living in the new place, she started a new job etc. We had sex maybe 3 times since mid of August.
Each time I try to initiate she blocks it by saying she's not in the mood. The only times we had sex in the last 3 months, it was because she always initiated it first.
I approached this topic with her and she tells me crying that she's sorry for her lack of libido and that she wishes she could do something about it.
A couple of days ago she got out of her office (we work from home) and said "I'm extremely horny right now!" and I thought that finally we were going to have sex after almost 2 weeks.
She then said that she had to finish something from her work and when it was over she didn't feel like it anymore.
I got pissed and sad because this was a last blow to my self esteem.
I feel completely rejected, unattractive and with low self esteem. I'm irritated all the time, with bad moods.
She's not cheating, I know this for a fact.
I don't know what the fuck to do or how to approach this. Sex is like air for me, if I get it regularly maybe even 2 a week or 1 a week I don't even think about it, but if it starts lacking I immediately feel it.