Is 27 too late to meet a guy
I’ve met like 1-2 good guys in my entire life
Currently the only guy that is/was speaking to me is kind of a giant asshole. I just feel like he has no conscience or something, like he’s a robot or abstract of some kind. I feel like I can’t tell him anything as a human. I feel like he has no empathy or real self. I feel like everything he does is an act, and I can’t speak to the real him. Or there just isn’t one. I don’t know.
His lack of empathy is deeply hurtful. He mirrors a human but I don’t feel like he is able to genuinely connect with anyone on an emotional level.
It makes me extremely sad, because I do enjoy having him around and I do like talking to him sometimes but it’s just basically impossible to have any form of relationship with him.
He is extremely psychologically draining. Yet he is my only friend and I miss the good parts of him. I wish we could have an actual relationship or connection, but it seems like he just cares about his own ego and getting validation.
Weirdly enough he with his lack of empathy seems more people centered and oriented than me. A big part of me likes being alone and doesn’t want to live with anyone. Another part of me in my animal brain craves human affection and belonging.
Im not very hopeful for the future or sure about what could make me happy. I meet people who lived their whole lives with their husband and he does and they’re left completely alone at an old age with no one to talk to.
I dont know what to do or how to cope. I don’t feel like I am able to meet new people or maintain any friendships. Maybe deep down just one friendship is enough for me, and that friendship ends up being a relaitonship, because I genuinely don’t need more than that.
I’d rather spend time alone than with another person, other than my partner. I’m not sure what to do.