I'm a very convict repper who is never ever going to transition but holy shit every single time someone on here tells me to take my pills I get b...

I'm a very convict repper who is never ever going to transition but holy shit every single time someone on here tells me to take my pills I get butterflies on my fucking stomach thinking about it I hate myself so fucking much for that at the same time I'm never taking my pills I wish so much I was groomed by someone on discord into transitioning
Honestly if I have any chance at all to look anything like a woman I probably would but I'm a fucking oldshit grotesque ogre-looking ass italian man I know I would at the very best look like Dr. Frank N Furter I hate it but I know it's true I just wish I had any fucking shot at all
I am the strongest living breathing argument in favor of forced euthanasia

  1. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    go order E and bica right now retard

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      What part of italian did you not understand

      • 2 days ago
        Anonymous

        take
        your
        pills

      • 2 days ago
        Anonymous

        get laser

        • 2 days ago
          Anonymous

          It's not just being hairy it's being just generally ugly and extremely masculine as we meds tend to be (even though I'm northern italian which is a bit less med) and also I'm poor

  2. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    that's a lot of words, take your pills sweety

  3. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    same. there are moments that I get just an extreme amount of hope... but then I remember what I look like.
    I can never see myself as a woman. there is literally no hope.

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      you might look more like a woman if you took your pills

      • 1 day ago
        Anonymous

        the issue is that what is extremely likely to happen is that I just end up looking even more monstrous and nothing like a woman.
        but at this point I don't even care, I have other issues unrelated to this stuff too and don't plan on sticking around for too much longer.

        • 1 day ago
          koneko

          Why would make you look worse? That doesn't make any sense. It's not like you're drinking Onions like Narcissa

          • 1 day ago
            Anonymous

            idk, I feel like if it gives me conetits and other things that are kinda uncanny but I'm still pretty much 100% a man, I'd look maybe sickly at best or like someone who is trans but obviously nowhere close to being a woman. so would probably face more issues.
            but still, none of this matters since I won't be around much longer. and with that in mind, I should just rep since if I'm gonna go anyway why risk family learning I was trans too?

        • 1 day ago
          Anonymous

          If you're gonna sui anyways you could just try E

          • 1 day ago
            Anonymous

            like I said, since I'm gonna sui, I won't make it worse for family by possibly making them find out I was trans too.

            • 1 day ago
              Anonymous

              You'd be too dead to care what they think

              • 1 day ago
                Anonymous

                but I am alive now to have the moral integrity to not needlessly make it worse for others. it's why I plan on doing inert gas vs blowing my brains out. others shouldn't be subjected to having to look at that/clean that up.

              • 1 day ago
                Anonymous

                if you actually had any moral integrity you wouldn't kill yourself at all, and not subject others to have to deal with your corpse

              • 1 day ago
                Anonymous

                people will have to deal with it some day anyway. also there is a limit of whats withing reason. I'm not gonna suffer for 60 more years to avoid natural corpse vs sui corpse. but thats not the same as just not taking e for a year.

              • 1 day ago
                Anonymous

                pussy

            • 1 day ago
              Anonymous

              if you're already giving up on life just take estrogen. you have nothing to lose at that point. trust me

              • 1 day ago
                Anonymous

                nah, as I said, trans stuff isn't the only thing factoring into my decision. even if e worked okay, I'd still be doing it.

                pussy

                k

    • 1 day ago
      Anonymous

      This. And also growing up catholic made me want to beat myself to a bloody pulp every time I think about how much I want to be a girl (which is almost every single moment I'm alive)

      • 1 day ago
        Anonymous

        grew up catholic too (Irish american (actually Irish (80%), not 1% so "technically" Irish)
        self sacrifice is one hell of a thing.

        • 1 day ago
          Anonymous

          Yes
          In my country the majority of people are catholic and a lot of times they are a more watered down version of Catholicism (Latin America, where the whole "sexual repression" aspect is basically non existent) but my mother was specially devout so I didn't get the more lenient version
          I feel constant and crippling guilt about wanting to be a woman and I accepted it's something I just gotta live with
          Meanwhile my dad is less strictly christian but almost like Emiliano Zapata in terms of macho ideology. I've always been much closer to my mother but my experiences with him still affect me

          I've lived just outside of Washington DC for like 25 years and I've never even been accosted for being trans there. It's really just black on black violence reclassified

          DC? Bruh I'm from Latin America you got nothing on me

  4. 1 day ago
    Anonymous

    You'll get saved if you take your pills.

    • 1 day ago
      Anonymous

      No I will most likely get hatecrimed

      • 1 day ago
        koneko

        I've lived just outside of Washington DC for like 25 years and I've never even been accosted for being trans there. It's really just black on black violence reclassified

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