I'm a conversion therapy survivor, and I'm still dealing with the effects of it 15 years later. Goddamn I hate that this is what my existence is. I see tranners from non insane families and I feel like I'm stuck under a sewer grate watching them live happy and care free lives
transgenderism is conversion therapy itself
seems like you have learned nothing from your experiences
not op but kys
trauma during formative years is permanent and even externally stuff that happens to you growing up does have a big effect on your future so stop talking down to op like you have any idea how bad this would frick up your life, you definitely don't
my family was catholic not evangelical (thank god) but i still came from a conservative family and i get the pain of watching kids grow up as stealth trannies and be accepted and take hrt early and pass their entire life, shit hurts, especially when those same youngshits call you an agp rapehon just because you don't perfectly pass and they feel ashamed to be associated with you
all i can say is life is extremely unfair and you shouldn't be judged for where you are, nor where you started, but how far you've come, and you've come a lot further than any of them have
i'm sorry anonette pls don't give up, let this pain always remind you why we have to fight them
Yeah I know, I live with severe trauma from my childhood. Bad enough that my abuser went to prison.
You’re making a conscious decision to stay stagnate and stew in your old trauma. Don’t expect sympathy for that.
>Bad enough that my abuser went to prison.
the fact that you think this qualifies your trauma as worse than when the perp doesnt go to prison proves you had it easy, sorry
kys
I know you’re mad I suffered unspeakable abuse that caused irreparable damage and lifelong trauma, and still managed to do the work to heal and get on with life and live very well while you’ve resigned yourself to wallowing in your own self-pity for 15 years, so I’ll forgive you for taking your anger at yourself out on me 😉
im not mad, im just saying if the overarching society actually recognizes what happened to you as a bad enough thing to punish someone for it you weren't left alone with it but had something to rely on
but at least you still have empathy
>especially when those same youngshits call you an agp rapehon just because you don't perfectly pass and they feel ashamed to be associated with you
not OP but this hurts a lot
best you can do is stop comparing yourself to others and instead compare yourself to how much worse you were in the past
unless you're not making any progress, in that case stick with injecting opioids i guess
Girl… you gotta let it go. It’s been 15 years. That means you’re at least 30. That is way too old to harp on shit from a decade and a half ago. You keep blaming your problems on that when the problem is right here right now. You have the power to fix it, so fricking fix it already.
>t. doesnt understand trauma
We all from trauma. At some point you make a decision to use that trauma as an excuse to stay stagnate instead. If that’s your choice that’s fine, but don’t b***h about the consequences of your own actions when people already gave you the very simple way to fix it.
the capability to make decisions depends on how healthy your brain is, and trauma can cause brain damage
anyway, congrats for figuring everything out and losing all empathy and theory of mind in the process
getting over trauma is hard and anyone telling to just get over it is insensitive
yes, it's hard for every trans person
even when your family doesn't actively work against you, society around you does
i'm not OP, and i've never been to conversion therapy, but i'm stagnated. but to simply call that my choice is insulting. there is no simple fix for living in a transphobic society. we come to an anonymous messageboard to b***h so if you're going to be a b***h about us b***hing to each other maybe post in a different thread
it's hard to live while worrying about the numerous psychic landmines in my head
It's similar in abstract. Surviving my family and community took Grey rocking, which I am told is an anti interrogation technique
it was me
What are some similarities between surviving conversion therapy and going through SERE training in your experience? (I assume you did not do SERE training, but the comparison is apt)
Someone posted this already
I'm sorry OP that you went through that. sadly that's the reality for many LGBT kids out there, a lot rn for trans kids with your parents trying to cure you. Although my mom and part of family are supportive, I've accepted that I'll never come out fully because of my father. I watched a couple of gay and trans movies and docs to cope and help me feel happy because I know others won't suffer the same repression I'm feeling rn. I know for other seeing other people happy may strike a feel of deep sorrow for some ppl here, but it's for the best.
Are you at least in a better standing than back then?
>Are you at least in a better standing than back then?
my parents have since disowned me
Don't worry anon I'm right there with you, from age 10/11 to age 18, it never leaves and you always feel horrible and guilty like your existence is wrong and that you weren't meant to be happy
>t. 32 and still self harming and thinking I'm a bad person regularly
not rly a conversion therapy survivor but so many years of lying to myself and living under manipulative parents is gonna take a looooong time to heal from 🙁
good thing the UK has decided to keep it legal
Is this image from the creator of that hardcore neolib meme just like it
yes, was me
no, there was one devoid of any hint of satire. similar to this tho