I'm 30 years old. What is the point of even transitioning at this age? It will probably take me years of effort to pass, assuming I ever will. How much time will I even get to enjoy being a woman before I'm old and grey? And all that effort just to basically feel 'okay', all that just to be at the same baseline as everyone else. How can putting in the herculean effort needed to turn my life around pass be worth it, why shouldn't I just actually commit suicide and have the pain end immediately?