If free will exists it means that your life can be made a living hell by other people if they will it to be so, not even God can even force them to stop because "free will"
If free will doesn't exist and the universe is predetermined it means your life can be destined to be a living hell and you are utterly powerless to stop it
it's so fucking over
Any books for your existence being utterly fucked no matter what philosophy turns out to be true? Some kind of meta-philosophical pessimism?