LULZ / LGBTQ

I want to kill myself so bad.

I want to kill myself so bad. I'll never have a penis, I want to repress but it doesn't work and it would be more simple to just kill myself even though I know I can't because I would hurt my dad. I'm never going to be male, nothing feels like it's improving. I'll never be able to just accept my body, I won't be able to cope like these freaks do who can do PIV or something it makes me want to throw up. It's awful. Everything is awful. Even when I was high off my ass I felt awful, I couldn't stop thinking of how female my body was it's horrible. It'll never end and I can't cope I can only ignore it. If it wasn't so female and obvious to my father I'd cut my ankles with my stupid pocket knife or light the blade I wish it would just feel better but nothing does. I can't get out. Every part of my body is fresh hell and I wish it wasn't it was doing so good for a while and it hurts all over again. It won't get better.
Inb4 "Uh your clitoris is a penis!" have a nice day immediately, you're most likely not even FtM. I want to throw up so bad I wish I could kill myself

  1. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    tbh u pass as male on presonality, just an autistic one. idk how u look but at least personalitywise ive always seen u as an autistic dude but idk if it helps

    • 1 week ago
      Green

      It's not about passing, who fucking cares if I talk like a man, girls do it all the time. Men act like pussy ass girls just as often if not more, it doesn't mean a god damn thing. I'm never going to have a penis my fucking body was tortured by estrogen my chest was fucking ripped to pieces by the time I was fucking 12 nothing matters anymore

      just be a tomboy bro

      I tried I hope you have a nice day

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        not very nice, I always see your posts and had a good image of you but now you’re changing the mental image I had

        • 1 week ago
          Green

          I hope you feel as bad as I do right now I hope you feel the worst possible dysphoria and someone grabs you exactly where everything hurts and tell you to just be cute or to just stop feeling bad

          Never say never. Medical technology is always accelerating, especially tissue/organ growth and robotic surgeries. You could probably have a top tier Frankenpenis if you wait 12-15 yrs.

          Also, there’s a strong chance we all get forced into a partial metaverse existence soon for climate reasons or virus reasons who knows. In the metaverse you’d just be able to use your matrixpenis and you’d be stealth too.

          >WAIT 12-15 YEARS
          What is the point in saying all of these things wow one day things can magically get better but they aren't and there is no reason to plan for it I"m going fucking insane. You think this is so funny because of le hehe cyborg weiner. If I have to look at myself I will kill myself. I hate this fucking body so much.

          • 1 week ago
            Anonymous

            It’s not funny, you’re pathetic. Go join the military or something, you lack discipline completely, you act like a spoiled little girl. Maybe you’re dysphoric because you aren’t inhabiting the male mental attitude you claim to represent.

            • 1 week ago
              Green

              >Claim to represent
              I don't claim shit
              I'm a woman, I have said this throughout the entire thread. I am a woman and god made me a woman and I will never stop being a woman regardless of how I look or how I act. The only escape is suicide and even then my body will still be female and I will not even be able to experience the relief of being outside of my body because ghosts aren't real unfortunately.

              I gave up trying to pass and just learned to be happy with myself and not tell people to kill themselves. Not very nice of you.

              have a nice day anyway dickhead

              it will happen. there's so much money in the organ market. give it like 30 years max and you'll prob have a 12 inch shlong and new skin or some crazy shit. take the sciencepill

              This sciencepill ain't helping doc
              How do I even cope with dysphoria without sleeping it away or hurting myself

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                I’m just a passerby concerned about you but I’m disappointed you just want to tell people to kill themselves. You can do better, I think you should take some deep breaths and calm down.

              • 1 week ago
                Green

                If someone tells me to just be a tomboy I will tell them to kill themselves on the basket weaving forum it is my god given right and they deserve nothing more.

                channel the hate into a new bench pr

                I need to exercise but it makes me feel sick because I can feel my body even more

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                what’s wrong with that? I gave up trying to be a woman and I’m happy now

              • 1 week ago
                Green

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              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                aww, I’m a huge sonic fan. sonic adventure 2 on the dreamcast was my favorite. when I get free time I want to learn to mod it and bring back the chao gardens as an online game for a few anons to have fun with.

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                hang in there, I haven't heard anything since initial results a few years ago but good odds they'll come out with a nice option for lab-grown dicks once they can figure out growing something with the right kind of vascularization and all that, personally I'm desperate enough to consider having fishskin installed into my body as a preferable option to the alternatives so obviously the whole thing is a work-in-progress but there's a lot of demand and cool advances in the bio/medical technology and related fields so I'm actually kind of optimistic

                this is really fucking gay btw

          • 1 week ago
            Anonymous

            I gave up trying to pass and just learned to be happy with myself and not tell people to kill themselves. Not very nice of you.

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        Never say never. Medical technology is always accelerating, especially tissue/organ growth and robotic surgeries. You could probably have a top tier Frankenpenis if you wait 12-15 yrs.

        Also, there’s a strong chance we all get forced into a partial metaverse existence soon for climate reasons or virus reasons who knows. In the metaverse you’d just be able to use your matrixpenis and you’d be stealth too.

  2. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    just be a tomboy bro

  3. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    unironically look at this vid

    science has advanced so fucking far so quickly. especially with the rapid advancement of ai, medical shit is gonna get wild shortly. there's hope brother, hang in there.

    • 1 week ago
      Anonymous

      also this article
      https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Decellularization
      they are working on growing organs from plants and shit and your body doesn't even reject it cuz it uses your cells

      • 1 week ago
        Green

        I'm really riding on this but I feel like it will never happen
        I'm praying anyway I hope to god it works but also bringing it up doesn't make me feel any better because it might not even happen.

        Damn did that previous thread fuck you up this badly?

        I was feeling like this already I don't get sad over LULZ

        • 1 week ago
          Anonymous

          it will happen. there's so much money in the organ market. give it like 30 years max and you'll prob have a 12 inch shlong and new skin or some crazy shit. take the sciencepill

  4. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    OP, I don't know what you're saying but you'll never be a man. Get comfortable in the body that God gave you and stop acting like a little bitch.

    • 1 week ago
      Green

      Tried

      you arent missing out on shit. My dick just sits there collecting bacteria and when i need to pee it sprays piss everywhere. I've had more fun with my ass these past few weeks than 10 years of masturbation. Hope this helps

      I don't care and it doesn't help, different folks different strokes motherfucker I wish I wasn't so deformed

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        Try harder.

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        want me to link you some high quality packers?

        • 1 week ago
          Green

          I won't feel it it won't be my nerve endings it'll feel worse because then it's on my groin and I feel what I really am and I hate it. Even when i just grind on something to jerk off i feel so sick and want to cry because it just reminds me of what I am.

  5. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    you arent missing out on shit. My dick just sits there collecting bacteria and when i need to pee it sprays piss everywhere. I've had more fun with my ass these past few weeks than 10 years of masturbation. Hope this helps

  6. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Damn did that previous thread fuck you up this badly?

  7. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    channel the hate into a new bench pr

  8. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    I’m sorry you have to go through this man but goddamn you guys make dating / being close friends with trans people seem exhausting. Now I understand why t4t is a thing, only another trans person could deal with this shit.

    • 1 week ago
      Green

      I don't act like this in person. The only time I opened up about my dysphoria with someone (Besides my dad when he kept pressing) was because I was very high.
      Perhaps dating would be slightly more difficult but it's easy to be friends with trannies, at least by default.

      • 1 week ago
        Anonymous

        Just find someone who likes you for what you are and supports you anon.

        • 1 week ago
          Green

          I hope that happens
          I just felt very bad earlier
          Cybershell soothed me

          Become a TERF lol

          No trans girls are too cute

          • 1 week ago
            Anonymous

            if u want we can date and i can be mildly abusive and annoying so u can start hating trans girls and become a terf

            • 1 week ago
              Green

              You are probably over 20 and live far away from me (south west oregon)

              • 1 week ago
                Anonymous

                >You are probably over 20
                jesus how young are u? i thought all the posts abt u being underage were just a joke. or do u just want ur gf 2 be younger than u? if so i understand

  9. 1 week ago
    Maria

    Become a TERF lol

  10. 1 week ago
    Anonymous

    Dissociate Return to daydream Live in fantasy Live in your head and reject reality

    • 1 week ago
      Green

      It doesn't work I am to conscious I need to ask my friend to give me brain damage

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