Years of repressed anger and humiliation. I think about it daily. I just want to take a rivet gun to someone's fucking fingers and break them. I want to torture someone. I want to hurt someone. I want to break a beautiful person's face. I want to break a musician's fingers. I want to take away someone's dreams. I just am too weak to literally pull the trigger. I can't get the fucking thoughts out of my head. I am always thinking of hurting a few people and I cant get it out of my mind.