Years of repressed anger and humiliation. I think about it daily. I just want to take a rivet gun to someone's fucking fingers and break them. I want to torture someone. I want to hurt someone. I want to break a beautiful person's face. I want to break a musician's fingers. I want to take away someone's dreams. I just am too weak to literally pull the trigger. I can't get the fucking thoughts out of my head. I am always thinking of hurting a few people and I cant get it out of my mind.
This has been going on at least 8 years. Really longer. Ever since middle school. I thought about shooting it up in 2008
The Mayos!
Become a farmer, and kill the animals, and if you want you can eat them
Raised by a hunter. Too much respect for animals and what they provide for us and nature by killing them and using their bodies. Humans are the target.
I constantly think about hurting a few people I know. I almost want to fly out where that guy lives and hurt him just to get this off my mind.
You're gay
I empathize with your ideation. People fucking suck, I completely empathize. If I were to lose one of the major senses, it would be my sight, for my eyes have caused me far more suffering than any other phenomena. Why the fuck are we expected to exist on this shitball planet and just accept how people treat us and turn the other cheek 99% of the time? I put up with so much bullshit from people who treat me like shit because they assume that I'm not going to retaliate. People to me are worth about as much as the burger king cups and cigarette butts they leave on the streets, they're a selfish waste of space. Every last good, original, wholesome, unique thing in this world is becoming RAPED and subsumed by capitalist, hyperconsumerist, corporate homogeneity. You voice, face, and hands are now property of a fucking Chinese corporation that owns and is owned by like a million mysterious corporate entities that have established themselves as the bedrock of our corrupt, rotten society. The status quo is to live, buy, consume, die. You put up a fight, you get memed and called a fag and you rot and die with even more suffering attached as punishment for being a nail that has to be hammered back in.
The only reason I didn't shotgun mouthwash a long time ago is because I am young, talented, and attractive enough that I can share a positive experience with other humans just long enough to feel a sense of hope in humanity. Our lives are so fucking fragile.
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it sounds like you want to be the very morality people invoke so often
It really is hard to do so by what you said. My point of view says that to see others as humans you have to see yourself as a human and you have to love you. But since aparently you dont do any of those two things I doubt thats possible. If there is any chance for you to love yourself and to see yourself the same as other people as a concept, you could escape this feeling. If not I doubt it will change. Wish you the best my anonymous friend
Mood
I recommend having outlets for this anger. Like heavy lifting or some kind of competitive sport.
Get ifs therapy and do mdma trauma release
This is really hot have you considered getting into BDSM
You should do it to the homeless you will be doing a great service to society.
There is literally nothing wrong with this.
Just wait.
Soon it will be your time to shine.
Kill a celebrity, make that your passion project.
Same tbh.
I want to take away people's dreams so they feel just as hopeless as me.
I want to take away their loved one so they don't take them for granted anymore.
I want to disable them in one way or another so their life becomes a constabt struggle.
But at the same time i always have the urge to help people that are in need.
It's just all so tiresome.
Idk why but I absolutely hate that image. Every time I see it makes me furious.
Play cod zombies, you can kill fitty men
Watch gore videos and/or watch extreme horror movies
hmm..
Same. Except I don't want to hurt them physically. I want to become rich. Like really fucking filthy rich with a lot of fuck you money. So that I can go Infront of people who wronged me and case them trouble in various different ways.