I transitioned purely out of trauma


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I look in the mirror and I see a new person, every month I look less and less like I used to look. It’s a blessing. If I had gone to therapy, I would likely have unlocked hidden memories of trauma. Instead I rushed to the drugs, and that is O. K.

t. 13months HRT likely undiagnosed with multiple conditions

  1. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    Good for you, now realize that being trans is actually more physical condition than being mental illness. To simplify things some people like it better on estrogen and looking like woman. Dysphoria is directly reduced by removal of testosterone and starting estrogen while cis normie men who get their testosterone removed feel like shit and would hate it if they'd look like girls.

    This is why reppers never succeed stopping being trans no matter how hard they try to get over it or rationalize.

    So you just happened to be trans AND have trauma. It's not rare experience.

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      but if i didn’t have the trauma i wouldn’t be trans, which is significant
      many people work through their trauma and realize that’s what their dysphoria stemmed from

      • 2 days ago
        Anonymous

        cis men feel like shit on low testosterone, trans women feel like great

        you should feel like shit for gaving wrong hormones and looking like girl if it was simply trauma lol

        and personally the only childhood trauma I have is dysphoria itself, I had it since as long as I remember (some of my earliest memories are feeling like shit for having wrong kind of body) and only way I got over it was to transition

        • 2 days ago
          Anonymous

          whatever i can see you’re arguing in bad faith a therapist would put me on SSRI’s and antipsychotics not estrogen i rushed this decision and i wish someone stopped before i went down the rabbithole

          • 2 days ago
            Anonymous

            I'm not arguing in bad faith. Simply saying that being trans is also hormonal/physical thing. It is not simply mental.

            If you actually feel like shit (ie. really would just want to be man and like testosterone) and that you rushed this decision then just stop transitioning. It's not going to help your trauma to become woman for "escape", but I don't think SSRI or antipsychotics are going to either, but rather introspection and the hard work of growing as a person (in your case maybe manning up too since you seem to not like idea of becoming woman) maybe with help of psychedelics.

            • 2 days ago
              Anonymous

              if i go off estrogen and grow a single facial hair or my face or body changes i’ll be upset

              >i hope my (You)’s raises your rates a bit
              Wym

              ur clearly getting paid to make these posts i hope my (You)‘s help i understand times are hard right now

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                Damn I wish I got paid to post on this shithole, so far all I've gotten out of it is more internalised self hatred and a constant sense of nihilism

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                it sounds honestly you like being on estrogen and having no testosterone which means that you are trans whether you like it or not.

                sorry, but that's how these things work, you should be feeling really shitty with loss of testosterone if you were just a cis man with trauna

        • 2 days ago
          Anonymous

          >cis men feel like shit on low testosterone, trans women feel like great
          I'm cis, and I went on estrogen to treat hairloss. I don't feel anything on it at all. Having high E2 levels now feels exactly the same as having high T levels before hrt

          if i go off estrogen and grow a single facial hair or my face or body changes i’ll be upset

          [...]
          ur clearly getting paid to make these posts i hope my (You)‘s help i understand times are hard right now

          >if i go off estrogen and grow a single facial hair or my face or body changes i’ll be upset
          This is exactly how I feel about it. I care about what I see in the mirror. I don't care at all about the social identity I take and I feel nothing from taking hrt

        • 2 days ago
          Anonymous

          Like many in the trans community, you prioritize the legitimacy of transition over the the other people's truth. Obviously no one would ever transition for reasons you disagree with, right? No, that's obviously ridiculous. There's an obsession in this community with being valid, to the point people logic themselves in circles trying to validate their reasons for transition. Does it really surprise you that some people may transition for reasons you don't like? Do you really just reject that idea entirely? Ridiculous.

      • 2 days ago
        Anonymous

        >many people work through their trauma and realize that’s what their dysphoria stemmed from
        Source?

        • 2 days ago
          Anonymous

          source is i’ve talked to these people go on twitter and reddit there’s lots of mtfs and ftms who transitioned because of trauma and they worked through it and then detrans’d

          often these people transitioned young , 14 , 15

          • 2 days ago
            Anonymous

            Anecdotal evidence doesn't mean much. It really isn't that common, and no, your confirmation bias isn't evidence to the contrary. If you purposely search for certain experiences online, you're gonna find a lot.

            • 2 days ago
              Anonymous

              > anecdotal data means nothing and should be ignored for studies that push gender ideology instead
              understood. i hope my (You)’s raises your rates a bit

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                >i hope my (You)’s raises your rates a bit
                Wym

          • 2 days ago
            Anonymous

            I do know lot of ftms like you describe and it's scarily common, but mtfs not really.

            thing is that it's a specific kind of trauma which causes girls want to be men is trauma of being sexualized (becoming man is escape from being sexualized as female) and similiar trauma is not really possible to develop in amabs

            • 2 days ago
              Anonymous

              The funny thing about this take is that I hate being FTM specifically because it makes me less sexually desirable. I wish FTMs had more value on the sex market, not that I was particularly sought after pre transition either

              T. FTM with CSA trauma

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                You're obviously then the kind of FtM with sexual trauma I'm talking about and maybe even trutrans I guess.

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                Man can you at least write so that we can vaguely understand what you're saying

                I can't tell if you're saying I'm trutrans or if you think I'm the exact kind of FTM that's gonna detrans once they go to therapy

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                You said you want to be sexually desirable which means you are not likely the kind of FtM who detransitions.

                FtMs who transition for CSA trauma want to be sexless beings and their trauma causes them to have aversion to sex and thus hate their female bodies because females are highly sexualized in our society. I don't know what kind of trauma abuse caused to you, but obviously it's not the kind of trauma that makes you sex averse.

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                >You said you want to be sexually desirable which means you are not likely the kind of FtM who detransitions.
                I assume you have stats on this? It's not like you could be just talking out your ass, right?

            • 2 days ago
              Anonymous

              >I do know lot of ftms like you describe and it's scarily common, but mtfs not really.
              what? you never heard a mtf say he does not want facial hair ?

              >not possible to develop in amabs
              mkay .. what trauma though lol wrong post or what

              it sounds honestly you like being on estrogen and having no testosterone which means that you are trans whether you like it or not.

              sorry, but that's how these things work, you should be feeling really shitty with loss of testosterone if you were just a cis man with trauna

              but the people with trauma liked it too, they revealed in transition they were happy until they realized they made a mistake

              The funny thing about this take is that I hate being FTM specifically because it makes me less sexually desirable. I wish FTMs had more value on the sex market, not that I was particularly sought after pre transition either

              T. FTM with CSA trauma

              sorry you feel that way, there’s unironically people who would love you for who you are but i’m sure u heard this before

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                >there’s unironically people who would love you for who you are but i’m sure u heard this before
                I know, I just wish hookups or even just people feeling attraction towards me was more of a regular occurrence for me.

                I see conventionally attractive people get so much attention and even your average Joe can get relationships or sex with a bit of effort but it's so much harder when you're trans. I don't think I've ever even been crushed on

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                I meant that never heard of mtfs who have detransitioned because they realized they were just doing it for a trauma.

                most common MtF detransition is usually due to not passing lol, sad isn't it?

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                passing is not an issue i’m not concerned over that i’m concerned over one day taking shrooms or just waking up and realizing “wtf am i doing” and redo years of my life i couldn’t stand being wrong about my decision when i was young (i started hrt at 17)

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                just do shrooms then now lol, it is good for you and will help you to search your soul and find the answers you seek

                I personally did same with LSD when I was young. I think every thinking man or woman should. It's like rite of passag.

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                i’m mentally unstable i couldn’t do it i would go insane lol

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                stop being a coward and take control of your life, you won't go insane lol

                also, you can stop it any time with antipsychotics and benzos if it goes insane and don't do it alone (have a good friend to trip with who can be your tripsitter, preferably your bf/gf, but if that's not available then someone else you trust)

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                >most common MtF detransition is usually due to not passing lol, sad isn't it?
                There is an mtf I know who was 9 years on hrt and passed well (youngshit). He detrooned after he got orchie and realized that he never had dysphoria in the first place, but after orchie he became actually dysphoric
                He explained his reasons for transition as breakup trauma. Apparently his gf before hrt force femmed him, and he trooned after she left

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                good thing I became happier after orchie, nice to be trutrans I guess (not that I have any doubts at this point since even my orchie was 11 years ago and my transition was before birth of zoomers lol)

                But if you honestly are transitioning person unaure about yourself (and not just some /misc/ack or whatever demoralizer troll), I don't really have any advice on what you can do to know are you truly trans and will you regret what you do, but as ancient tranny myself that if you follow your intuition and true desires, it it will get better and you will find answers at some point.

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                My only desire is to not go bald, I already know I'm not a true tranny. I just take issue with the idea that cis men feel bad on E, because I don't, and I'm clearly not alone or even unusual

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                I don't know honestly, but my personal experience was feeling like shit snd dysphoric about my sex until I got on HRT and femized. Then got even better with orchi. Fixed my problem of transsexuality (though I still wonder should I get SRS), but if HRT works to keep you happy as non-balding man I won't judge you. You do what you gotta do.

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                >Apparently his gf before hrt force femmed him

                Fucking hot

              • 2 days ago
                Anonymous

                Men tend to pick a path and stick to it. Women tend to waffle on things more. Transitioning is male brained.

  2. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    Bitches be like “I transitioned” and be barely over a year on hrt and boymoding

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      transitioned medically* i hope you're happy now

  3. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    I'm kind of considering therapy because I'm so absolutely fucked in the head in general and I'm also stuck in this loop where I'm dysphoric and it feels like I have to transition but I can't transition and it's just this tug of war. I'm kind of considering saying fuck it and trying to get the nerve to order HRT and just try it. I don't know what would be more productive

  4. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    defining yourself as "having trauma" is female mindedness
    no man was lost here.

  5. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    I think I transitioned out of trauma from social failure. I wanted so badly to be happy with myself, to not just see someone who failed to be a man but someone succeeding as a girl or whatever.

    I think HRT was a mistake and alienated me from my body even further. IDK what to do now but im glad it worked for you.

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      social failure because you tried being a man when you aren't.

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      >I think HRT was a mistake and alienated me from my body even further

      This sounds like hell.

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      That's real rough. At least you seem self aware enough to be honest with yourself.

      social failure because you tried being a man when you aren't.

      What are you trying to accomplish here? Every social reject is trans now? Fuck off with that brain dead take.

  6. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    I'm a mostly les leaning bi woman because of trauma. I was very unpopular growing up as I was obese. I became socially stunted early on and always developed slower than my peers. I dropped the weight and suddenly older men started perving. Was molested on a train. Then was in a relationship with a guy with untreated bpd. Then it happened again, but the guy was genuinely nice, he didn't realize how fucked up what he was doing was. But he couldn't be told "no" to sex without going into an emotional spiral. Also refused to wear condoms. Then refused to pull out. It was really bad. I don't know how I could let myself be treated like that. I didn't even want to date him but he threatened suicide and did other crazy things, like walking 20 miles to my house at midnight with one shoe because he thought I might leave him. Then another guy friend choked me when I rejected him. Then there was the time I was drugged at a punk show. Then the other time I was drugged at a friend of a friend's party and I really don't want to think about that one.

    Now I'm 30 and just fuck younger women for the most part. Logically, I don't want to project my issues on men. Realistically my body goes into a panic sometimes when I'm around them, especially when they're mad and larger than me. My body understands that no matter how strong I become I'm too damn small to protect myself much. I lift weights and work a physically demanding blue collar job, but my 5'4" ass can't do jack to a guy that's got, I dunno, a foot and 60 pounds on me.

    I take testosterone for fun and to help at work. Only small cycles of test p in dsmo. When I'm on cycle it's even easier for me to fuck girls. I don't have to deal with any of my fears with guys. I'm more often than not older, more experienced, and attractive to these college girls from being a big buff older woman. Logically though I can't justify going whole hog on the T and trooning out. I don't want to be a short, extra wide guy.

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      >tfw ywnbaw that gets raped at parties and molested on trains
      🙁 i want to be desired like this instead of an ugly trans

  7. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    Im transitioning just because I don’t want to be like my dad, and godspeed fellow fucked up anon we’re still going to make it

  8. 2 days ago
    Anonymous

    They wouldn't have helped with your trama and just pump you full of pills anyway

    • 2 days ago
      Anonymous

      Therapy can help you give context to your emotional problems. A cognitive behavior therapist can really help you cope with your issues. You don't need a psychiatrist meeting you once or twice then dosing you up.

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