I thought reverse dysphoria was a total meme.

I thought reverse dysphoria was a total meme. I'm cis and have never experienced gender dysphoria or a desire to be a woman and I tried HRT for a bit after this board memed me into it. Nothing unusual at first but after about a month it started to make me feel weird and disassociated and I had a kind of abstract crawling-in-my-skin this-is-wrong feeling. I stopped and felt fine again within about a week.

I kind of wish I were trans so that this wouldn't be the case, but oh well. I'm transtrans, and there's no medical remedy for being transtrans.

  1. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    I feel bad for reading this. It wasn't even a good larp.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      I swear to god I'm not exaggerating or lying about any part of this. Maybe the feeling I was getting was like a psychosomatic thing or a false positive or whatever, but this is really what happened.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Why did you take hrt if your not trans then hm?

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          This board memed me into it and I wanted to see how it would make me look.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            you were curious about how you'd look as a woman so you took hormones

            and that means you're not trans?

            • 2 months ago
              Anonymous

              >you were curious about how you'd look as a woman so you took hormones
              >and that means you're not trans?
              No, I was curious how I'd look if I looked more feminine/cute. I didn't want to look like a woman. It was more of a femboyization experiment. (I'm also straight and a top, though, which I understand makes it even weirder.)

              How does that work? I've been here almost a year and have no desire to try hrt, because I'm also not trans..

              >How does that work? I've been here almost a year and have no desire to try hrt, because I'm also not trans..
              I've also been here for a year and the idea only started to set in after like 7 months.

            • 2 months ago
              Anonymous

              ????that doesn't automatically make u trans like what? This was my therapists literal recommendation, try hrt and see how it feels. Ppl recommend it on reddit and shit to eggs with the logic that if u start experiencing dysphoria u know u done goofed.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            How does that work? I've been here almost a year and have no desire to try hrt, because I'm also not trans..

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Hmm does sound psychosomatic and neurotic. That's not even enough time for ant changes to make you uncomfortable... Literally making yourself uncomfortable with the power of your mind lol.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          I dunno, I remember my chest feeling more sensitive less than a month in and that was on a very low starting dose.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          i experienced emotional changes/relief within a few weeks on e…makes sense that an emotional discomfort could be the first sign of reverse dysphoria

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          HRT affects the brain too, you know. It's possible that certain people just run better on certain chemicals. I know my mind cleared up on HRT even though my body didn't change much. Furthermore I was part of a study on the cognitive effects of HRT and the preliminary result is that it improves cognition a year in. This, together with how commonly people report similar things, makes me think that something is happening there at a very mechanical level.

          With that said I've also conversed with femboys and the like who were fine on HRT so I don't think it's really all that dichotomous. Not every cis person will become dysphoric on HRT. There's just a reason to believe that this is A Thing for some.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Lost my long drafted post... so ill just say i am aware hormones heavily affect our neurology and agree that most men won't find the mental effects distressing. Men taking E for cancer normally don't, i am sure a lot of men can find it, a conducive headspace.
            I just didn't acknowledge it because OP didn't mention anything about they're thinking or feelings being distressing.

            • 2 months ago
              Anonymous

              Yeah, fair enough.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Hmm does sound psychosomatic and neurotic. That's not even enough time for ant changes to make you uncomfortable... Literally making yourself uncomfortable with the power of your mind lol.

        wrong hormones can fuck a person up it could be a real feeling

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          Wrong hormones are not going to make your skin feel like it's crawling. Or sense of body horror without the changes in place... The only effects in play would be mental/mood but op doesn't mention there thoughts or feelings, not feeling right. Aside from the vague dissociation mentioned.

          I dunno, I remember my chest feeling more sensitive less than a month in and that was on a very low starting dose.

          That's normal, even elevated nipples and breast budding are too.
          But for the most part no real changes yet.
          Smell and skin appearance are the only two others that would be apparent visually.
          Not enough to really freak a person out...

          Partly the transmaxxing stuff, partly because it just seemed kind of cool, partly because I like this board and I felt a spiritual kinship, partly as an experiment and I wanted to see what would happen and if reverse dysphoria was real or not.

          [...]
          >Hmm does sound psychosomatic and neurotic. That's not even enough time for ant changes to make you uncomfortable... Literally making yourself uncomfortable with the power of your mind lol.
          Well I also already experienced skin effects and some genital, libido, and other sexual effects. Didn't notice any changes to my looks besides my skin. I don't know if the mental stuff was real or self-inflicted, but it was 100% doing something. The skin effects started happening within a few days, and that was definitely not placebo. I was shocked at how fast that was.

          So what's the word OP, are you going to keep going? Does it still bother you like it did with your episode? I think you dhould keep going and transmax your way to a husband.
          But you should examine your feelings a little more... This is a little much for an "experiment" might be some other motivations in play, and your more a tranny than you imagine.

          i experienced emotional changes/relief within a few weeks on e…makes sense that an emotional discomfort could be the first sign of reverse dysphoria

          Those are all normal effects for the time frame, it's just they wouldn't give you a skin crawling feeling, at least i don't see why they would. More like not feeling like yourself, if you didnt find the effects welcoming like most of us do. Idk personally think reverse dysphoria is a meme to a point.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            apropos

            [...]
            wrong hormones can fuck a person up it could be a real feeling

            Wrong hormones triggering an authentic psychological response seem reasonable tho like if u take HRT and the first changes u notice make ur skin crawl and are horrifying ur just describing my shitty amab puberty. Idg what there is to argue about.

            • 2 months ago
              Anonymous

              >tho like if u take HRT and the first changes u notice make ur skin crawl and are horrifying ur just describing my shitty amab puberty. Idg what there is to argue about.
              yeah fr

  2. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    what does
    >I tried HRT for a bit after this board memed me into it.
    mean? memed into taking hrt for what reason?

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Partly the transmaxxing stuff, partly because it just seemed kind of cool, partly because I like this board and I felt a spiritual kinship, partly as an experiment and I wanted to see what would happen and if reverse dysphoria was real or not.

      Hmm does sound psychosomatic and neurotic. That's not even enough time for ant changes to make you uncomfortable... Literally making yourself uncomfortable with the power of your mind lol.

      >Hmm does sound psychosomatic and neurotic. That's not even enough time for ant changes to make you uncomfortable... Literally making yourself uncomfortable with the power of your mind lol.
      Well I also already experienced skin effects and some genital, libido, and other sexual effects. Didn't notice any changes to my looks besides my skin. I don't know if the mental stuff was real or self-inflicted, but it was 100% doing something. The skin effects started happening within a few days, and that was definitely not placebo. I was shocked at how fast that was.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        >Partly the transmaxxing stuff, partly because it just seemed kind of cool, partly because I like this board and I felt a spiritual kinship, partly as an experiment and I wanted to see what would happen and if reverse dysphoria was real or not.
        nobody takes hrt as an experiment. i am almost convinced this thread is bait so i wont be posting here anymore. bye.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          >nobody takes hrt as an experiment. i am almost convinced this thread is bait so i wont be posting here anymore. bye.
          I literally was. I don't know what to tell you. Part of the experiment was to see if I would look more attractive as a result.

          ????that doesn't automatically make u trans like what? This was my therapists literal recommendation, try hrt and see how it feels. Ppl recommend it on reddit and shit to eggs with the logic that if u start experiencing dysphoria u know u done goofed.

          >????that doesn't automatically make u trans like what? This was my therapists literal recommendation, try hrt and see how it feels. Ppl recommend it on reddit and shit to eggs with the logic that if u start experiencing dysphoria u know u done goofed.
          Yeah, sometimes the "try HRT and see what you think and just stop at any time if you decide you don't like it" thing seems like a meme itself but that's what I did and it was fine. I'm glad I at least gave it a shot rather than just left wondering.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Me too, I'm glad for u! Everyone should be able to if they want. :3

            Fwiw i did this too, it was the argument that got me to stop repping and at the one month mark i felt /amazing/ in a hard to define way. Everything just worked better mentally, my mood even with mood swings is absurdly better all the time.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            >I literally was. I don't know what to tell you. Part of the experiment was to see if I would look more attractive as a result.
            so you want to transition and your experiment was just to see if it was viable? if not then what do you mean by "more attractive"? that you don't care about being male or female so long as people perceive you as more attractive than you currently are? if so, why do you think female-you would be more attractive than male-you?

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