Half of the time it feels like I'm just on autopilot, just doing the bare minimum not to perish.
But doing anything beyond household chores (which already feels like it is taking up 100% of my capacity), I start to struggle so badly I end up postponing it or giving up.
Even something as basic as reading seems to be too demanding of my brain. I can't seem to stay focused/interested in what I am reading, I frequently read things wrong, and gathering info from text has become such a task that I just stay away from long paragraphs.
Memory seems to be deteriorating as well, as even I -and people around me- have noticed that my memory has gotten worse. I forget important dates, I forget important details, how mechanics in a game work etc.
I'm in my mid twenties, I have had sleep studies, meds, CT-scans and a few other things - in the pursuit to find what is fucking me over. No definite cause has been found, and no treatment has really been effective. This shouldn't be happening to me.
I am fucking scared shitless that I'm gonna be losing the one thing I had going for me. Please help me out, /adv/.
I feel like my mind is seeping out, and I'm getting dumber and more useless by the day.