Hi, I'm Jordan and I'm a 19 year old philophobic. I've never dated, I've never kissed a girl, I've never felt the feeling of love. My parents never really loved me all they were to me were someone to pay my stuff for school.
I had alot of friends growing up. I may not know how to feel loved but I know how to give it out like no tommorow. My friends both girls and guys wonder why I take care of them, support them and make them feel loved. It's because I love them.
But for some odd strange reason when a girl gives me a look, talks to me or smiles all I really do is turn away or keep things appropriate and at a friend level with my female friends. I know a good handful like me but I feel that if I feel in love I would lose. My love and compassion I feel is not meant for one individual person but for those around me.
I don't know whats wrong with me.