i can't figure out if i miss my high school days or not
like i'm trying to think if there's any point in time i can go back and relive as a girl what would it be?
i guess right after i turn 16 would be the best, i think that's the latest i can go back and genuinely start fixing all the mistakes i made
i started hrt at like fucking 14 there was no “living as a girl” in high school lol everybody just treats you the same
i wish i was alive
starting younger won’t fix it or “reliving” things
you’ll still be just as miserable, i promise. just with less(?)(ish?).. body issues .. maybe.
sure mel, i can see how happy you are, you heckin giga passoid!
have your tuberous breasts filled in yet?
this is literally so untrue lol
i mean it's not just about that it's about literally all the other regrets in life and how i would do things differently
>you’ll still be just as miserable, i promise.
i mean you could say this about literally anything then. why do anything because nothing will make anyone truly happy
then this isn’t lgbt related is it
it doesn’t matter man none of it does
unless you’re like 60 years old just move on and make the most of it now
you can’t change the past, if i could id do a lot of things differently too. but i can’t so i don’t stress about it, i just focus on the next day instead
if you did transition during high school you’d just deal with relentless bullying, it’s grass is greener mentality imo
and i’m literally speaking from experience
>then this isn’t lgbt related is it
it is related but it's not the entire story
>it’s grass is greener mentality imo
are you saying you rather would have started later or that it doesn't really make a difference if you started at 24 instead?
>you can’t change the past, if i could id do a lot of things differently too. but i can’t so i don’t stress about it, i just focus on the next day instead
idk i just think about the past a lot, trying to remember if i was actually happy back then or i just remember the good parts
obviously age start matters, i’m not saying that and i’m extremely thankful to have gotten lucky in that regard
but also you can’t change that either, so learn to cope or rope. more to life than this gender shit no matter how much it hurts.
not trying to dismiss your feelings, i feel you nona. just gotta move on.
>obviously age start matters, i’m not saying that
its kinda the opposite of what grass is greener means if the grass is actually greener
>nona
you go on cc a lot?
>just gotta move on.
at my age there's nothing to move on to. i've already passed all the important milestones in life already
i wouldn't've been forced to socialize with cis boys and was told i needed to acted "right" if i couldn't socialize with them
Bait.
if it makes you feel better to think that
Meh. I wasn't really treated as a boy either. After I came out I was just my own thing at that point. Was the classic femboy pass from behind type pre hrt. Even my voice didn't drop yet for some reason by 16. But once I trained like half the people who bullied me before for not being a real man said I would always be a man and for everyone else I was just the school tranner which I guess wasn't that different from being the school homosexual but at least I didn't have to deal with stupud compliments like you need to lift bro anymore.
no, they just treat you like a gigahomosexual
>t. started at 15
>if i miss my high school days or not
>if I miss my high school
>miss high school
>miss school
NO, why would you do that to yourself? School fucking sucks, being a child fucking sucks. Imagine being basically owned by your parents and grounded for trivial shit if they're not chill? Dress-coded? Having to write essays as punishment for running down the hall or being late to class? Little shits in the backseats throwing paper at you? Fucking homework? Getting up at fuck in the morning to sit through teacher's ramblings and working a part time job cuz your parents won't give you the pocket money you'd need to buy the fashion brand clothes you get bullied for not wearing any article of? School suxx, period, good riddance. So glad to be an adult and don't have to mentally wrestle with adults for making decisions for me that I disagree with.
...Like, I know my experience isn't universal, but. Did you really like school? I liked clubs, I liked the breaks, the holidays, the meeting up with friends during lunch. But classes? Homework? Exams? Being graded and told that your entire future hinges on those numbers? Really?
>I liked clubs, I liked the breaks, the holidays, the meeting up with friends during lunch.
same, these are some of my best memories
>But classes? Homework? Exams? Being graded and told that your entire future hinges on those numbers? Really?
i didn't take any of that seriously in high school, which i regret now
college was horrible for me
why at 13? did something happen at 14 for you?
>High school sucks no matter what.
it was better than early adulthood for me sadly
I hear some people transition as early as 13, plus I looked kind of androgynous, but st 14 I started growing a browbone slowly (I'm getting ffs done next year at least).
also if I started hrt at 13 I could've started school with hormones already while looking androgynous.
my browbone and face in general is pretty bad but idk when it started to get worse
don't even know if i would have passed at 16, but this is my fantasy so i make up the rules and i do lmao
it's good you at least have something but i doubt you're failing at everything else
>Also idk having deadlines keeps me from procrastinating all day every day as much I still do but meh.
idk i just procrastinated so hard i miss deadlines and take the late penalty or 0, like i said i really didn't take school seriously at all
>any point in time i can go back and relive as a girl
Last day of school maybe? I don't think you really missed out on high school years as a girl though, I was a girl in high school and I just hated school. Being a college woman has been a much better experience for me, you can pick your degree and all that.
I recently asked my friend from secondary school how he and everyone in the school would've treated a transgirl classmate realistically.
My friend said that he would've protected her at all costs like she was his little sister. Added that the classmates would've been cool (our classmates hated homophobes, but had 2010 level of transphobia, which is just ignorance, not violent hatred) and our teachers would've bullied the transgirl classmate more.
I swear to god I wanna go fucking back and start at like 13.
I also remember how nicer the girls were to feminine male classmates in our class compared to the masculine types.
I just wanna go back...
You didn't miss all that much. High school sucks no matter what.
t. Trooned in middle school, moved and went stealth in high school
TFW when my highschool experience involved lots of bullying for being a femboy and later openly trans but my life still peaked at highschool.
Everything academically was super easy without effort so easy self esteem farming. And I got to see my friends every day. I feel so alone now and have really struggled to make friends at college.but it feels good to be back doing homework and stuff instead of just wasting away in my room at least.
>but it feels good to be back doing homework and stuff
do you like doing homework? honestly the reason i did so bad in high school and college was literally because i just never did my homework
I'd do and I don't. Like obviously it's annoying having to do something but also I really like learning new things and I'm past all the shitty core rec classes so I just feel really confident when I figure out a physics problem that seemed complicated at first or something. Like everything else in life I fail at socially awkward, clumsy , ugly etc. So school is the one place I don't feel like a retarded failure.
Also idk having deadlines keeps me from procrastinating all day every day as much I still do but meh.
I came out at 15 and they treated me like a freak of nature from the beginning, but then they got used to it, but I was never treated like a girl