i dont want to do things with my life anymore ever since i transitioned being trans is so anxiety inducing even tho im a boymoder im always worried about people clocking me and treating me like a freak bc im actually really ugly and dont pass at all but im clearly feminized in an uncanny way and also having long hair
i cant go outside and talk to people and socialize normally anymore ive been a neet for more than a year now its fucking debilitating i get so many stares everytime i go outside. how am i supposed to do anything with my life when im so self conscious and anxious about being trans all the time? i want to pursue things again, relationships, goals, education, career, but im too fucking paralyzed to do anything bc im trans.
it doesnt help that everyone ive trusted enough to tell abt my transition betrayed me and treated me like a freak. my openly homophobic family treats me like an outsider now, one of my friends raped me and when i tried speaking up about it somehow it was my fault and my entire friend group ghosted me, im so traumatized from my past relationships im almost considering detransitioning just so i could live a normal life again. i hate being trans so much
Don't be scared of them people
Walk up in there and show them that you equal fuck them
its hard when transphobia is so rampant and normalized everywhere and everyone always talks about how disgusting we are just for existing. how am i supposed to talk to ppl when almost everyone has these negative presumptions about me that have zero basis. i know theyre all thinking bad things about me bc of how i look, some ppl even showing me that theyre visibly uncomfortable with me breathing the same air as them even when im just minding my own business somewhere
okay and? leave me alone.
You will never be a real woman.
I'll save you femanonny come live with me, we'll be trooners together <3
i live in a third world shithole i doubt ur anywhere near me haha 🙁
Can I be your discord gf >\<
ehh what use is a relationship without physical touch ;_;
we can pretend~ >~<
I promise I'll take care of you ;_;
Get a therapist
Stop mind reading
Make irl trans friends
well im not just mindreading im being rightfully wary of people thinking bad abt me and hurting me based on experience being a tranny its not that easy
how am i suppose to trust u w that? u cant just make declarations like that when dont even know the first thing abt me ur probably jus gnna hurt me like everyone else :/
How about you give me a chance then :3
no yeah it's not easy at all and you've definitely been hurt in the past. and I'm really sorry about that. you've been dealt a rough hand. but there's good or at least decent people out there. and you ARE mind reading if you're sure they hate you. I mean, some of em do. don't go up to the guy with the American flag shirt (or local equivalent) and say hi. some wariness is good. but really most people aren't gonna care. you wouldn't want to be friends with people who don't like you, anyways.
anyways make friends with some trans people cuz that'll be easier than having to do the whole anxiety bit around cis ppl.
>how do u ppl deal with being seen as a freak?
I just dont care. I used to hate myself because im too retarded to make eye contact. I stopped trying to make eye contact. Problem solved. If other people think im weird for not making eye contact then these are their thoughts. Why should that be my concern if simply not even trying to make eye contact is so much easier. I stopped caring what makes me weird i just do what makes me feel comfortable. I dont know why being normal matters so much to you. If everything and everyone who wants you to be normal is only making you feel bad, then what's the point in trying to please them? They're not looking to make you happy either, so why are you trying to please them with your normality?
because i hate being alone and being trans makes people uncomfortable around me and see me as a freak but i still want to be able to make connections with other people
idk we could jus b frens yk >.>
i guess so. im just rly traumatized but yeah i have met some decent ppl its just my anxiety and trauma holding me back from letting myself get comfortable w them. sometimes i end up even ghosting them bc i feel like they will hurt me and betray me or are secretly disgusted of me. i do have one irl friend i know i can trust but thats it
What your tag :3
decchi#9773
it started out relatable and just kept getting worse and worse to the point that now I feel like my manmoder problems aren't so bad in comparison to yours
you should get therapy I guess
Desh
Desh
hi matilda