How are all my fellow wizards holding up this Saturday night? Any of you guys feeling lonely? Do you still enjoy your hobbies? Personally I'm beginning to accept that I will remain single for the rest of my life and am trying my best to cope by playing vidya and lifting but tfw no gf still persist.
idk man im chillin. tfwnogf but like vidya is pretty much all i do, i'm yet to get into the gym, i feel like i can get a gf if i lose some fat and take more care of myself but it's not the number one thing on my mind anymore.
Basically, i just wanna meditate, lose some weight, work out. play vidya, get money.
After significant health issues at the ages of 31 and 32 I've finally found the ideal diet at 33 and for the first time in my life have actually seen any degree of gains from lifting, albeit modest in the grand scheme of things (130lbs most of my adult life but 145lbs now). Lots of eggs, dairy, meat, and olive oil. Feels good. The loneliness just gets worse though.
congrats on the gains anon. I always struggled to gain weight but after several psychosis' and medication i'm now heavier than I've ever been. It's hard to think only 5 years ago I weighed 70k, when now I weigh 108. I just took a dna test to figure out food sensitivities and I'm waiting on the results. I'm going to fix my diet and get into the gym and lose this weight, then work on getting some money that can separate me from my 9-5 income. 33 here aswell.
>Do you still enjoy your hobbies?
I played maybe 3 hours of Gearcity last week, it's the only video game I've played a few months. I really just watch a few things like ASL or Simpleflips.
I'll get the new factorio exp when it comes out, eying the stalker 2 development and Dyson Project.
I have an older friend who is extremely goal focused and it's made me want to improve a lot more.
Main short term goals are
-To cook more confidently, I'm ok but want to be better
-Have a basic understanding of metaphysics so I can debate losers on LULZ
-Run 10k, do 10 chin ups
-Get better at DJ'ing
>Stick with playing chess
I'm doing all of that rather than focusing on furthering my career
>Get better at DJ'ing
Cool, what type of electronic music do you like the most? Post some examples of what you like.
Not really any one genre.
I like a lot of old techno, house & trance from the 80's & 90's
Post some tracks.
Do you like Drum&Bass?
Here is a track that I like: https://youtu.be/E_WYFhP8QCs?si=fPxix3Kn5nOTZbzo
I like Goldie.
I listen to a lot of the old Clubnight mixes by Sven Vath, truly a near infinite collection of early techno/trance from Germany.
I accepted that I will be forever single many years ago, even before 30. I wish that were my biggest problem. I would absolutely happy if that were my biggest problem.
40 here
Found out the job Ive had for the last 7 years is going away in a couple months. Bummer but Im getting like 17k in severance and I have enough savings to live for months without a job. Boss is working hard to retain me and I have old co workers and friends reaching out to me on social media to let me know they can get me work
My wife is still working and she's been a trooper as usual... we were both unemployed neets when we got together. She's about to be 40 but she still looks so fucking good to me, her milfy pear shaped body is coming in nicely
Got three days off after tonight, then a short week until a week long vacation. Other than the job uncertainty, life is bretty gud
good for you man, glad to hear it. gl finding another job.
Thanks bro
Im not too worried about finding another job... just another job with good benefits
>My wife... friends reaching out to me on social media... life is bretty gud
I don't personally care that much, but what do you get out of posting on /LULZ/?
Do you post on the legless amputee forums how great it is to dance too?
> How are all my fellow wizards holding up this Saturday night?
Im chillin watching Mexico vs Australia while laying in my bed
>Any of you guys feeling lonely?
A lot of times, specially now that my brother doesnt talk to me and my friends dont talk to me. In the week no one talks to me in whatsapp and i only interact with coworkers and my mom.
Do you still enjoy your hobbies?
Yeah, i just got the oculus quest 2 and i have been playing a lot of vrchat lately. Also, been enjoying watching wrestling in calm with no one annoying me and having a time binging anime.
I finally got a gf but now have even more problems than before
How so? I think the loneliest anons would benefit more from a good friend before a gf. Women are by definition normalfags
>I think the loneliest anons would benefit more from a good friend before a gf. Women are by definition normalfags
I'm glad I'm not the only one who things this. There's a lot of responsibilities, effort and I guess maturity that's intensic in it because you need to take care of someone else and having them take care of you.
>I finally got a gf but now have even more problems than before
Go on?
My first 'partner' was horrific because she was likely BPD/I was very stupid/I ignored the red flags
My current relation is amazing, we talk about everything and I can discuss israelite and anything else with her despite her being a lefty
Leftie gf here
Can I fix my poltard bf into at least not being disappointed if our kid turns out gay?
He might be dissapointed
But as long as he accepts and supports the kid then he's a good man at heart
I know, he isn't dumb and he's very accepting, usually keeps his views away from his actual daily life
But still, I can't help but be a bit sad as I feel his fundamental believes are just based on how his parents raised and em, being on pol. I would just like him to actually reason it like the smart guy I know he is
My wife is an ultra lefty and I'm a radical centrist who still thinks racist humor is funny (even if its directed at my own race)
I have views that are "problematic" to her but I don't push them on her, she doesn't push her shit onto me. We agree on fundamental shit (Pro choice) and she tolerates my guns even though she hates them. Still teach her out to load, shoot, and clear it.
I just checked out of politics in general, I see the sham for what it is, I havent voted since 2012 and I don't see myself voting ever again. I still stay informed and my wife will frequently ask me to explain certain things on the ballot and out of respect I try not to color it with my opinion.
tl;dr: As long as you are on the same page on CORE beliefs, just learn to tolerate each others differences
Did you guys argue often over it?
Eh it got bad around 2015/2016 during the whole Trump election
I'm not pro Trump by any means but I am literally the only person in my friend group that has ever voted repub so I get flak whenever those assholes do anything stupid even though I havent voted in a decade. She would see some sensationalist garbage in the news, come rushing home and bombard me with it trying to gauge my reaction
Overall its not an issue because our relationship is good. If it was a poor relationship I promise you we would be arguing a lot more about it
>As long as you are on the same page on CORE beliefs, just learn to tolerate each others differences
Which is fitting because both you and your wife are liberals, except it sounds like she's a shitlib who likes trannies whereas you're a shitlib who makes jokes about naggers
Better than usual. Drinking and listening to some Rolling Stones. Taking a break from playing Bloodborne which is fucking sick but I kept getting my ass beat and needed a break
Had a very bizarre week and please don't take it as me trying to brag or anything, anons. I'm just like a lot of dudes who post in these threads, khhv wizards. Whether it's is due to autism or straight up being ugly, never had too much luck with women and have protected my chastity. When I go out they tend to either avoid eye contact with me at all cost or straight up just cross the road to give you an idea of my problem. This week though I got a call from a friend where I was pretty much blindsided.
I don't talk to women as they never talk to me and it's cut short by them very quickly (the only time i can say i have nice conversations is when they are significantly older than me). On the other end was a friend of my friend who I had a brief but nice conversation with. I guess I left a good enough impression and she had hoped to talk to me again soon. The next day I met up with a friend to do some work for and catch up for a bit. Turns out, his gf has a daughter who is single and is interested in finding a guy. Both these women are attractive (especially the daughter, she's gorgeous) and my friends would like me to pursue them. Goes without saying I have no intention of doing anything about this, but I can't help but laugh at the timing. Go the overwhelming majority of my life without attention from girls or any remote chance at a date and then all of a sudden, I became Fabio.
Im getting gray hair but i still have a young looking face
Is it over or has it begun?
Take it from me fellow greying bro, chicks dig grey hair, especially if you have a handsome face
If you have a young looking face and you don't care for that, grow a beard
>tfw only vice is porn.
It's such an easy enjoyment and I've not had the negatives. I still enjoy good softcore, I wake up with erections and can fug quite well
Friendly reminder that work is slavery.
37. Been looking for a web dev gig since February. Ran my own consulting business for 6 years; ditched all my clients to go in-house contracting for my biggest client; they RIF'd all contractors. I think being a contractor for so many years made me a risk, but I'll never know because every email is a robot response from a no-reply email address. My wife definitely got the ick because of all this.
Jesus that would be rough, but why ditch all your clients if things were going ok/good?
Main client was paying the most and were intending to hire me full-time whereas the others were mostly ad agency work. I worked with main client for two years; the hiring kept getting pushed back; I was annoyed but thought they would do right by me. Major dumb move. I trusted the people on my team, but forgot that I was just numbers on a spreadsheet to the C-Suite. It's to the point where I'm going to have to get a job at a grocery store or something. I still have student loans.
During the week I apply for jobs and take more classes online to expand my skill set. Like clockwork, the robo-rejections come on Friday. After my wife goes to sleep, I just stay awake and worry. Oftentimes I come to /LULZ/ to feel a little less alone.
i'm a 32 khv 5'5 manlet, grey hair starting to appear and i honestly see no point on pushing on but it would be very selfish to commit suicide because my brother and mother depend on me
>because my brother and mother depend on me
i can understand potentially your mother, but why your brother?
he's only 16 and we lost our dad last year
that's rough, anon. was mom a stay at home wife?
no, she still works as a school teacher. i don't live with her but i work from home so i can stay a couple weeks at her house from time to time
relationship with little bro at least good?
yeah very typical brother to brother relationship i guess. though he's becoming stuborn and disagreeable but that's how teenagers are
however i'm kinda worried now i'm serving as a father figure to him because i definitely don't want him to end up like me
Can you afford to put him in some male positive activities?
he's going to the gym and playing football 2-3 times a week, but what I meant was in terms of sociability like approaching girls and such, I don't have anything to teach him about that
how did he roll on the genetics lottery? he taller and better looking than you at least?
>Do you still enjoy your hobbies?
I pretty much dropped gaming and I'm just reading now, about to finish all of naggermans owner books.
Got into light novels as well.
Still kinda want to die, have free healthcare but I don't bother using it hoping it will eventually kill me.
I am closing in on 40. What a life it's been. I haven't lived in years but I remember when I did. Nothing rings hollow like it used to when they actually mattered. I watch life like a movie. It's entertaining. I hope God is entertained like me. If I was made in his image than he must be.
Are you more at peace now than you were, say, at 30?
When I turned 30 I was sitting on a floor staring at a small pile of eustasy pills, my head wouldn't shut up, I was hyper focused on everything, felt everything but knew nothing. I know more and less now than I did then and I float through crowded areas like a spirit. I take in everything but my mind is free of all weight. I've packed everything I've ever done in the boxes on the calendar marking when they took place. When I sleep I die, when I wake up I am born again. I move the boulder up the hill with a single finger now. I've never been more at peace and I've never seen more clearly than I do now. I have a long way to go.
In this thread, an anon reaches enlightenment.
32 here. my life has become all about work but my body has become tired. death seems more appealing each day. I imagine its like being really comfy in your warm bed, forever. I hope that's what it's like. that would be amazing.
ew, what has this thread become
girls ruin everything. Like usual.
>ew, what has this thread become
What? A mix of wizards and normies of various degree has always been the way
Its going alright, had my hopes up for losing my virginity friday. Went on a movie date and ate together after. But all it ended up as was friendly chit chat. Idk how to escalate and flirty with a girl. Best I could do was text her after how I liked her dress that wasn't a dress but a top and a skirt. Not sure if its friendzone or just normal. 2nd "date" I have ever been on so still unsure things. 32KHV
>hardcore anti-government conspiracy theorist
>recently started a new job that is basically the old job but with better pay
>married to rich girl childhood friend
>she's running as a liberal for our area in the next election
>dad recently retired and got me playing World of Warcraft classic realms with him and my brother
>got my oldest son playing with us too while I basically bankroll all of us because none of these naggers know how to make that sweet sweet gold
Things are okay. Pic related is basically my marriage. I don't agree with many of her views but she means well with them. She really just has more faith in the system than I do.
Why are you on this board? I can't understand why a happy man like you could be here.
Hes a self-admitted conspiracy theorist. The kind of person who seeks out something to worry about when things are too comfortable. He will never be truly happy
I started reading LULZ when I was a teenager. I don't want to talk to the kind of homosexuals who are on most websites.
I could understand that you visit /misc/ then if you like conspiracy theorists but why are you here on the mentally ill losers board?
/misc/ is the boomer homosexual board, I've got no interest in talking to them. They're all borderline retarded.
NTA, but I hate this narrative. Some of the best and most well-thought out discourse on the internet is on LULZ, even if that's not the majority of posts. I've always viewed this more as a board for outcasts and people whose social views don't line up with the norm than one for only self-identified mega losers.
>Some of the best and most well-thought out discourse on the internet is on LULZ
What are you smoking my friend? 90% of this board is deranged, degenerate or cringe shit. And then some threads like this where mentally ill losers talk about always the same topics: I'm 30+, I have no girlfriend, it is over for me..., neet life, mental illnesses, etc.
I hate women very much. They are annoying.
Sigh....I hadn't had feelings for a woman in over 10 years until recently. Nice girl at work talks to me most days but like all women before her she isn't interested in me.
I had forgotten what unrequited feelings were like after so long so shit sucks. Vidya has lost its luster. So few games are good nowadays. Plus I'm a poor wageslave so I can't get many of them anyway.
I picked up martial arts and I'm enjoying it so far. Still need to lose like 100lbs tho lol
30, I moved beyond feels years ago when I realized the unconditional love I dreamed of just plain doesn't occur in people. Love is mankind's biggest scam. It's all transactional. In fact most relationships are built on that principle. All the more reason I don't mind being alone.
I played old school runescape for a while now, may take another break from it as usual. The exhaustion of doing the same things day in and day out gets tiresome even if it's good discipline. I'll get some good rest and when I get bored of resting I'll keep on dancing with whatever my whimsical hands grasp.
I just like doing whatever at this point, and eating. Don't need goals or any of that crap, stuff like that just keeps me tied down and miserable. Life gets easier the more things I am capable of throwing away, material and mental. People get so used to hoarding things because they don't want to waste them, even if they are things they will never use. It's easy to throw away shame for instance. People convince themselves it's a survival tool but it's a lot like fear, where it will stop you from acting when you need to. I threw out love and the desire for love for the same reason, because it would repeatedly overwhelm me with despair basing my existence on something I've never participated in. Wanting other people gave me nothing but self-perpetuating misery. I stopped wanting people, then people were much more approachable, and now even though people are a much more common part of my life now I still don't care. It's easy to throw away things you don't need, and even easier to throw away things that actively impede you. It's quite liberating.
>It's all transactional
Of cause it is, it isn't like you want a whore or a woman who can't cook/take care of herself
Correct. Every relationship, even down to the friendly simple with pets are utterly transactional. The love demonstrated in media, and the one that is sold in human culture, doesn't exist externally. The only love there can be is for yourself.
>l. The love demonstrated in media, and the one that is sold in human culture, doesn't exist externally
So? It's still amazing and you can still deeply care for someone and they for you
I'm 28 and the happiest I've ever been. I got a car, stable career, my own place, piles of cash and no debt. For some reason I don't care about girls and dating. I don't take drugs (no alc, no cigs), don't use dating apps or social media and don't consume any porn. It's all garbage and will just suck the soul out of you. I broke up with my one and only gf when I was 20 and disregarded females since then. I may not be a wizard but that was my best decision of my life. Whatever you do, the grass is always greener on the other side and before you go down a bad path, destroy your addictions and hesitate for a year. You have plenty of time to deprogram yourself and find the peace within you.
Imagine being over 30 and still being on this inorganic botted shit.
Yeah I should go post on facebook where your grandparents are
I've migrated to LULZ, /int/, and, occasionally, LULZ. Only come to /LULZ/ once in a blue corn me to hit ctrl+f "30+", though every few weeks I contribute a drunken shitpost in other threads.
I recognize two other old timers on LULZ. 35 year old vocaroo anon and 36-day water fast anon.
Blue corn moon*. Fuck
Anyway I've been reading a blog by a 69-year old wizard. Dude started blogging in 1995 and is still going.
The beginning:
https://losernet.tripod.com/virgin1.html
Today: https://exodusfootnotes.blogspot.com/
Index:
https://losernet.tripod.com/virgin.html
Love all you bros in this thread
this wizard cast DICKAMUS MAXIMUMS on himself. very impressive member. you can feel the mana from it just from seeing the picture.
I paid 4 grands for aligners just to see them lose tracking after 3 weeks, I want to end myself. I can't believe my "parents" allowed my teeth to become this fucked up, and I don't live in america
> Oh, I thought the world of you
> I thought nothing could go wrong
Everything feels effortful and unrewarding. I find it hard to commit to anything when there's no certainty of any kind of payoff. I don't know whether my expectations are too high or too low. I don't know the limits of my abilities. I still feel underdeveloped even though I am far too old to have any kind of untapped potential. I don't know whether I should strive for more or be content with where I am.
> They say every man goes blind in his heart
33 khv, neet, living with mom, didn't graduate, don't drive cause too afraid, only worked for 3 months in my life and i hated it, never talked, made a move or had female friends, always avoided them cause they seemed stupid, never cared about friends, but random people decided to befriend me (why?). Spent all my childhood, teen years and twenties playing videogames and reading mangas. Good genes from good looking parents. Never made anything out of it. Never had ambitions or dreams. Only cared about the next vidya, anime, autistic hobby. Disappointed everyone, threated everyone badly, entitled af, hurt many feelings, able to empathize just hurt them anyway cause i was in the mood. Nihilist since day one. Never believed in anything. Never felt the need for a belief system. Never cared about the big questions. No interest in material possession, never felt the need for companionship, don't desire anything in particular besides being lazy.
Is this normal?
>Is this normal?
Probably. Except for
>only worked for 3 months in my life
It's very rare for men to have female friends. She has to be unattractive for you and be very funny or interesting.
Why didn't you care about having friends? It looks you either have autism or became so isolated by your videogames addiction that you never learned to socialize.
Powers this week. Look forward to bringing statues to life.
I always wonder why I got this broken mind and this miserable life. I was always a good person and trying to be the best to others. Still God, the universe or whatever you believe in it gave me this broken ill mind and a miserable life. If you think about it nothing makes any sense, people that do good things can get a miserable fate and other worse people get a better one. It's not like a did things that cost me having this ill mind like taking a lot of drugs, in that case you could say that it was my fault. No, I always had precaution doing everything to be healthy, exercise, not drink or take drugs too much. Still here I am with this ill mind stuck in this miserable life until I die. If you think about it, human life is just something random and we don't choose almost anything of the important things that shape our lives. We can only live with the fucked up mind that we were given.
>I was always a good person and trying to be the best to others
I used to think that. Then self awareness began to set in. I realized I was a massive sperg homosexual. People had reasons to hate me.
Not saying that's you, anon.
I wonder how many people are on autopilot such way. Not necessarily being a sperg. Just going through the motions until some decades into life they wake up. Is it only an autist thing. Maybe that's a reason why people do sudden changes in life. Like divorce or career change.
September 10th, 2001.
>Bought a new shower cabin, put it up, hooked the plumbing and shower head, overjoyed.
>Today tested dried sealant, minor leak in the corner, feel like killing myself.
I'm too old for mood swings, i think it's the alcohol.
not really doing too well tbh, woke up this morning realizing how stunted i am in life, my job is for someone 10 years younger than me, i still live at home, my experience in relationships doesn't exist, i have no friends and doubt i'd be able to relate to people my age anymore who are married and have kids, a lot of growth options are probably behind me or embarrassing to try at my age, it's looking pretty bleak guy, i'm 33 btw
Same here, i feel like the things i'm doing should have been done 10 years ago. First one bedroom flat, IT monkey job, cash for hobbies.
I have to keep reminding myself that "i don't care" every day.
I just want summer to end already. I can't take this peroetual heat. Why did I have to be born into this fat accumulating body in the age of global warming?
Today i realized i hate people more than i did yesterday. It's the only emotion i have left in me, so i am trying to keep on it. I meet a lot of people at work, like 1000 daily and i can't remember the last time i spoke to someone without visibly sounding that i am diagusted with them. Even the type that smiles all the time like a retard and is "haha opmitism xD" stops smiling when speaking with me. I am quite proud of my tone of voice now.
I am Also thinking of starting steroids. Might as well, it's not like i am getting any healthier so why not take them. I Can deal with getting worse.
Austimmaxxing post 30?