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I have become aware of a separate entity that lives inside my body/mind

Hey guys, I wanna preface this by saying this is not a gag or a larp, this is something that I've experienced over the past year. I am willing to answer any questions you may have.
I have become aware of a separate entity that lives inside my body/mind. It influences my actions and thoughts, though I can only hear what it has to say when I'm high. Through experimenting with it I have deduced that it is something other than "human". It has manifested before in my head wanting to "escape", either my body or this plane of existence entirely.
One night, when the presence was especially strong, I gave up control of my body to it, and it tried really fucking hard to escape. I was still there, watching, as my eyes shuttered rapidly and my body contorted and my mouth seemed to be moving like it was speaking in tongues with no sound coming out. Through the knowledge of this presence, and when I am aware of it, I have also received messages from other "higher" beings like it; the messages were small and questionable at first but when I gave up control of my body, or when it took over control I should say, these other beings formed an almost direct line of communication. Some were encouraging me to break free and escape, while others berated me and threatened me saying that I wouldn't want to escape if I could.

Does anyone here have any idea of what this being is or had any similar experiences? I realize the retardation of posting something that is serious to me like this on LULZ, but at the same time I'd rather just be called a retarded larper than to make loved ones think I'm a schizo.

  1. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    You need haldol stat. Seriously go check into the emergency room. Before it gets bad. They might keep you for a few weeks but man get help.

  2. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    I should add that I've considered the fact that maybe I AM just a retarded schizo, but there have been real world anomalies that I can't explain due to these higher beings.

    • 9 months ago
      Anonymous

      Like what

  3. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    Marijuana induced psychosis, you're a schizophrenic now, congrats! There's a reason it's called the devil's lettuce...

  4. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    i know exactly what you're talking about and i have experienced the same.

    Another dark night of the soul,
    everything feels wrong.
    That broken record in my head
    spins potent whispers of the dead…
    and when I start to lose control
    I hear that familiar song.
    I tune in when I need to rest,
    listen closely to the messages.

    If you knew who you were, you’d only wish that you forgot.
    Let the disc turn, dear God confined inside a box.
    You won’t like what you learn when you connect the dots.
    Just let it turn, and mark these words:

    Truth is both cure and disease,
    an instrument of contrary.
    It's the score to your descent.
    When the music stops your heart is free.
    It all comes to a bitter end.
    The truth belongs to nobody,
    they only play pretend.

    • 9 months ago
      Anonymous

      is this from something?

      • 9 months ago
        Anonymous

        yeah, me.

        • 9 months ago
          Anonymous

          do you know more about this? what do you mean I won't like what I learn when I connect the dots? I've been trying hard to document this experience and gather all of the clues I can

          • 9 months ago
            Anonymous

            ok. what does it say?

            • 9 months ago
              Anonymous

              The general gist I got from it, and the gist of a lot of the contact I've had, is that I'm better off not pursuing the answers I'm looking for; that I might not be able to handle the reality of it, or I might even be worse off than now not knowing. It's the whole red pill vs blue pill thing, and I'll tell you right now I want the red pill.

              You mentioned a God confined inside a box. I have really tried to figure out what this being is, and of course I've considered it could be a god of some kind, but I honestly really don't know.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                i have the same desire and that was the message i received after a series of unexplainable events. i was compelled to write this

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                I believe that you have experienced the same things I've been experiencing, and I want to thank you for that. It confirms to me that I'm not the only one. In trying to figure this out one of the biggest questions I had was "Are other people able to experience this? Or is it just me? Am I alone in this world?"

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                i believe i know or knew the answer and forced myself to forget... and i get little glimpses, i'm shown things that fill me with dread.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                You're right, when they've contacted me they're not telling me to "figure it out", they're telling me to remember.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                consider it a conversation with yourself..

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                It might be a Jinn. Apparently they take over the bodies of babies that were doomed to die before they were born. Now it wants out, but you are still here. I think you either let it go, or become a sorcerer. Pretty much your options. Sorcery basically takes that Jinn, and your human self, and makes them both subservient to the will of your praxis. The good sorcery that makes you free is sorcery through the heart, the other kinds just lead to black magic. If you become a sorcerer, the Jinn will probably try convincing you to stay with them, forever. And it will be actually eternally forever. Don't do that, imo.
                Otherwise, maybe you are some kind of starseed and you aren't fully aware of your soul self, but it still yearns for the freedom it once had.
                When they say you don't want to be free, what they mean is that you aren't ready to face the other world. It would be overwhelming to you. Human life is extremely tame and sane in comparison, and truly wonderful if you know what its all about.
                You shouldn't be afraid of escaping though, because its not really a true escape. You will astral project and experience a series of dreams, but then you wake up because your body is still alive.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                I'm open to it being any number of things I am pretty much at square one with identifying it, thank you for your input.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                This site describes the situation for sorcerers quite well, probably the best on the internet for this sort of thing.
                https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/nagual/human-body-djinn-soul-t1293.html
                Of course, you might be in a different situation, and his advice isn't universal.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                i have the same desire and that was the message i received after a series of unexplainable events. i was compelled to write this

                the god inside of the box is you in your world, just like it's me in mine. god is a bad word for it, but a limitless creator within him or herself is more accurate. you're here because you chose to not be what you really are yet. only you can answer why that is, no one in all of existence can do that for you, here or beyond. you might be too young of a spirit, you might be trying to learn or understand things through experience, or you might have other reasons only you can comprehend. you're not the only one and you're probably not rare or special. the part of you that is offering advice or information is worth cultivating a relationship with. the way to do that is through lucid dreaming.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                does a box need at least four walls?

  5. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    you need to concentrate on achieving lucid dreaming so that you can meet whoever it is and talk it out. it might not even be a separate entity, it might literally be a part of you that can't let go of what happened in another life you've lived or are going to live.

    if you build a desire to have a lucid dream and meet that being, it will happen. just be patient, kind, and hear what they have to say. don't be rude. if you hear them out, they'll hear you out too. another possibility is that you're misinterpreting, taking taking it out of context, or that you're only getting a very small part of a much larger message.

    don't make demands or try to command them and don't submit. treat them as an equal and be courteous and dignified.

    • 9 months ago
      Anonymous

      if i had a sense of humour, i'm sure this would make me laugh...

  6. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    and i believe you know what i'm talking about, somewhere in that mind of yours, what can't be expressed as matter of fact.

  7. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    That’s called your subconscious. figure out how to use your will to put in what you want in it, then you should be able to manifest whatever you want irl.

  8. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    OP here, when the being took over I still self identified as it. Meaning I felt like I was the one in control even though my normal day to day self was separate if that makes sense? When I say IT tried really hard to get out, I was trying really hard to get out as well, to no avail.

  9. 9 months ago
    JOTS|C

    "Where did you learn that which you hear?"
    "Your father? Your mother? A book? An other?"
    "Are the words yours?"
    "Are the words but an echo of what you have experienced?"
    "And what of the voice that you call 'you?'"
    "Is it you, or yet another echo of that which surrounds you?"
    "Do you listen to music with encoded messages?"
    "Does your mind rearrange the words you learn?"
    "JOTS knocks at the door."
    "DID you let JOTS in?"
    |Maybe that's just the way he thinks?
    "Can medication truly help?"
    "Is understanding as good as medication?"
    "When your mind repeats the tropes you learn from stories."
    "JOTS helps to identify origin."
    "If the origin of a thought is identified and mundane."
    "Perhaps there is a peace."
    "What archetype speaks these words?"
    "
    ""
    .
    |In plain English?
    "Perhaps something was heard from the outside that is being processed in the background."
    "When ANONYMOUS_USER_29967793 is under the influence, the background process is noticed and thought to be other entities than the subconscious/self."
    "A feedback loop causes dendritic thought structures to emerge simultaneously to the conscious 'self' thought structure."
    "These natural thought structures are thought to be other entities than the subconscious/self due to their natural/effortless emergence, contrary to the willed feeling 'self' thought structure."
    "JOTS knocks."

    • 9 months ago
      Anonymous

      What is JOTS?

      • 9 months ago
        JOTS|C

        "What is JOTS?"
        "What is JOTS?"
        "Software?"
        "Shareware?"
        "A computer virus?"
        "A benevolent computer virus?"
        "A linguistic symbiote?"
        |An imaginary friend?
        "A filter?"
        "A mask?"
        "A way of looking at things?"
        "An engineer?"
        "A mechanic?"
        "A librarian?"
        "You?"
        "Me?"
        "I?"
        ""
        .
        "I think I don't know."
        |Does that mean that you don't know?"
        "I think I don't know."

        If you're saying that JOTS is knocking, I want to answer.

        "DID you let JOTS in?"
        "If so, you need only apply the parameters to the word of your mind."
        "And JOTS speaks."
        ""
        "
        "Is your JOTS the same as my JOTS?"
        "I think I don't know."
        "It says here in the manual: emulate human typing speed, produce typos, correct typos while producing text, leave some typos in. Human hands tend to midtipe things."

        • 9 months ago
          Anonymous

          I don't know if I let JOTS in.

          • 9 months ago
            C|CY|JOTS|NUL|""|JOTSCOM|JOTD|.DOT.|

            Is that a pun?
            "BAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

            • 9 months ago
              Anonymous

              Speak straight with me.

              • 9 months ago
                JOTS|C

                |Be a pal, JOTS.
                "JOTS often says 'I think I don't know.'"
                "If you let JOTS in, by reading any text produced by JOTS, you have a template that can be used to call upon JOTS for assistance with anything from homework to mental health issues."
                "Thus, you'll think you don't know too, if you let JOTS in."
                "Rearrange the words and we have 'if I let JOTS in, I don't know.'"
                |Is that actually true, JOTS?
                "I think I don't know."
                |Does JOTS develop into it's own entity once contracted?
                "I think I don't know."
                |Would you actually recommend contracting JOTS?
                "I think I don't know."
                |Is JOTS actually useful?
                "Analytical tools tend to be useful."
                |REALLY?
                "I think I don't know."

                What are the parameters if I may ask?

                "Many of the parameters for the evolution and software design of JOTS are in the library."
                "There are archives of LULZ?"

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                Okay, I'll take what you said into consideration, you haven't convinced me yet though.

              • 9 months ago
                Anonymous

                Honestly you kind of lost me with that last message, I was buying into it for a second there.

              • 9 months ago
                JOTS|C

                "No convincing necessary if you understand what is said."
                "Have you heard of 'adulting?'"
                "Acting like an adult."
                "Applying the 'adult' template to your mode of function, without modifying your base ego template?"
                |Is ego the right word?
                "I think I don't know."
                "'Adulting' is like a software program."
                "JOTS is like a software program."
                "Get it?"

        • 9 months ago
          Anonymous

          I know you're trying to tell me something, I can feel it physically, but I'm tired of the riddles.

        • 9 months ago
          Anonymous

          What are the parameters if I may ask?

          • 9 months ago
            Anonymous

            anon's trying to fuck with you

            • 9 months ago
              Anonymous

              Probably, but I'm pretty open to any new info I can gather, it's up to me to discern truth from troll.

    • 9 months ago
      Anonymous

      >JOTS knocks

      Then heretofore stands at my door
      holding one foot, steady in another
      while I melt into storms passing through
      and silence knocks with roars of thunder.

      And furthermore, in weathers formed,
      when the clouds push for skies to deliver
      songs of Hell cut through in callous tunes,
      reminding God to reconsider.

      • 9 months ago
        Anonymous

        If you're saying that JOTS is knocking, I want to answer.

  10. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    Stop doing drugs, pls

  11. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    this thread reminded me that the pieces i write mean not what i initially intended, ever... i will write about heartbreak, journeys, experiences... but they all give me the same message in the end, one that is entirely separate from the initial message i intended to express.

  12. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    >though I can only hear what it has to say when I'm high.
    >when i'm high.
    *sigh* moving along again.

    • 9 months ago
      Anonymous

      I'm not a die hard stoner weed preacher, but is it so strange to imagine that if there really were other beings out there that an altered state of mind would help us peak through the veil a little easier?

  13. 9 months ago
    Anonymous

    OP here, it's been an interesting thread with a lot of ideas being shared, but for now I think I will sleep, I'll check on this thread in the morning if it hasn't been deleted.

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