Hello anons, I don't wish to sound like I'm schizoposting but I'm in desperate need of somehow "waking up" a few months back. Something isn't right and I can't quite articulate what's wrong, but it nearly pushed me to suicide and has robbed me of any true peace and comfort in my own mind and body, which has lead me to be checked out by doctors who don't find anything wrong. I've been stuck in a constant existential crisis as a result and feel as thought I need to be sent back. This is something beyond healing, I feel. I've tried praying and obeying what I felt were spiritual forces and gods telling me to change somehow but nothing helped make this problem go away. I don't want to get too into the weeds of what's happened, but I've been praying to whatever deity or source is out there to send me back almost every day now. Is there any suggestion as to what my fate will be? I'm legit scared for my future if I'm to suffer like this for the rest of my life.
>inb4 therapy and meds
Had to try those for the first time in my life recently. They hardly change anything.
Though*
I've been going through the same thing bro. It feels like im in a trip and im waiting to say or do the final step to get out. I haven't found how to do it yet but you can take solace in the face that you're not alone
This shit caused me to break down and sob, vomit and rely on my parents and friends for emotional support almost every day. I went from being fairly well off and about to make 2022 my year to nearly ending my life twice. I don't know what this is but I want it to end. I need it to end. I'm seeking peace in places I never thought I'd try now. It happened out of the blue one day and I don't know why. It isn't psychosis, it's just some kind of deep, existential disturbance that makes anxiety look tame by comparison.
I've been through it. At first I didn't want to be in it so I asked it to stop happening and it stopped happening. But, After awhile I started missing the feeling and how I felt during it and everyday I wish it would come back. If I had the chance again, I would ride it out and not let my ego ruin it by my expectations and demands. Just so you know, if you keep on wishing it to stop, it will slowly stop and will never come back again. Just make sure you won't regret it.
Weak.
We are in the most important time in human history. Soon we will have to choose between two paths: Light (God) or Darkness (Satan). Some of us are "ascending" and the rest are going into a Hell on Earth but even then, their suffering will not be permanent.
You have to live with the result of your own choices and everybody else's just like everybody else. Screw off with your selfimportant egotism.
>t. vaxxoid
I haven't taken it, actually
God can literally be people. The weird part is youll see these guys and girls talking to people. What are they even talking about? Had to post this at 4:44am
Like they are either temporarily god, like theyre possessed, or they are god and never anyone else. But they act like normal people most of the time.