My life is irreparably fucked and I don't know what to do and I cannot cope with it. This is not how people told me things would go. I wish it would end.
Same. I take solace knowing eventually, somehow, I'll die. It just gets hard when I start getting impatient and start wondering how many years am I gonna suffer until then? Decades? Shit...
My parents are morons but it seems like I am no better than them.
I am a moron, my whole existence is one big joke. I am currently drinking right now, even though I know excessive drinking leads down a road of alcoholism. I tried being positive, I tried to not be negative, I don't want to be negative, I tried to not be that timid, afraid, unassured, shy, scared kid but I failed at being true to my convictions. I hate myself, am full of self-loathing, tear myself down at every chance I get, I don't mean to be like this, but I am. I am insecurity, I tried to change for the better, be "positive" but I seem to have failed at that.
I asked him not to post anything disparaging you, but he just got annoyed and told me to stop considering your feelings. I’m sorry. I still believe in you and I know that you can do it. I wish that you would let me help you finish the project.
>why did u add me then >"no reason, I just thought I had you on this already"
Your brother hates me for deleting and no I didn't follow you when you posted videos with your now ex-boyfriend. But whatever, you didn't give me a reason for adding me so I'll just delete you since you won't open up.
I'm not this petty but holy shit I'm still fuming. I can't believe how much time and energy I wasted trying to be nice to you because I thought you were socially inept and slow, meanwhile you were narcissistically trying to make me look bad to others behind my back? I could easily dox you, you retard. Why the fuck would you do that?
Forgiving ourselves no matter how much or how many times it takes is how we move on and focus on living better. Others choose to forgive us or not, but we can always look deep inside and forgive ourselves. The trick is to make a change so that our self forgiveness means something.
Starting to wonder why I even bother? Like why I continue to hope that people listen to me or actually hear me out. Sometimes I feel like I'm fooling myself into thinking people want to hear what I say but they do it as happenstance or just as a means to get me to agree with them in some way but when they learn I don't or I word it different than they wanted...
If you didn't wanna hear what I had to say, why the fuck do you always ask? If I bother so much then cut me the fuck off and let me go so I can figure shit out on my own instead of being trailed along thinking I'm being honest instead of just pissing you off.
people only justify suffering if you're dysgenic, >just suffer more, just bow your head more
i hate you, no wonder people are scared of guns, they deserve to be shot and they know it
there is good money to be made in the trades but I cant stand the fucking assholes I have to work with. Not worth it. I just want a job where I can be by myself but make enough to pay the bills
Chance for love was taken away from me when I was born but at least I can still travel far away from my frigid mother who cockblocks me and doesn't give me any chance of love
Learning to not be rescuer is hard.
I don't have to prove to anyone that I'm worth of love. I've been able to get multiple partners, and that was due to just being myself. Before my codependent tendencies kick in.
Meaning I can get partners, I just have ti not let my mind fuck things up.
my life is so boring I'm starting to wonder if the brief periods of excitement I experience throughout the heating season are caused by an unidentified carbon monoxide leak in my house
>join feabie because it's a gainer/feederism/fat admiration site >join it in the hopes of finding a fat girl who likes fat guys (i think feederism and gaining are cringe fetishes) >all the fat girls want skinny or muscular guys >occasionally get messages from older women >it's mostly men messaging me >tfw i'll never live a fat life with a fat wife
It's crazy how fucked things are.
Fat girls think they are too good for fat guys.
4-6 think themselves 9-10s and not only expect but demand 9-10 guys. It's fucking wild.
Honestly the most maddening thing about is fat women will call guys fatphobic and body shamers but wouldn't touch a fat guy with a 10 foot poll. Like they get to be straight up hypocrites and if you call them out on it you get called a misogynist or an incel.
Honestly the most maddening thing about is fat women will call guys fatphobic and body shamers but wouldn't touch a fat guy with a 10 foot poll. Like they get to be straight up hypocrites and if you call them out on it you get called a misogynist or an incel.
Fat dudes can literally be the same way. I remember this turbo autist ginger from college, I was always super nice to him, played games with him, etc. He was fat and had a pretty bad face, despite being close in looks matched (I’m a pretty face/great personality fatty) he went after this skinny autistic drama girl who liked pretending she was Elsa from Frozen. Got her this big basket of valentines goodies to ask her out and was rejected hardcore. Had to help him by being a shoulder to cry on, but I rejected him after he tried rebounding on me.
He was one of those ‘I’m bad at school because I’m too smart’ kinda dudes on top of it all.
Had a major crush on him, but he rejected me and I moved on. :’) Can’t say it was much my personality either because I’ve pulled some seriously handsome and fit dudes as well just from confidence and openness.
Try being more funny and upbeat or go edgy metalhead mode to become more attractive without losing weight if you’re really that lazy. I’ve seen big fat dudes pull major skinny hotties too, since they like feeling extra small.
Most of the time it’s your personality being fucking disgusting or being socially inept that’s gonna hold you back, anons.
Stop giving people the benefit of the doubt who haven't earned it and people you don't personally know. Actually have real discernment.
You're just making yourself to look like a damn idiot in front of everyone. You're not some "bigger man" or "morally right" figure...you're an idiot that keeps falling into the same hole time and time again. Wake the fuck up.
>sister has the same disorders and a similar relationship with her father as i do with mine >sister was meaner than i ever was. full on bullied me, very entitled, was the 2016 sjw type >fucked up over and over. cheated on her partners and became a single mother to an ugly narcissist with mommy issues >still hired because she's a woman >still found a rich boyfriend to take care of her kid because she's a woman >able to find support for any emotional problem she has (even if she doesn't actively work on them) because she's a woman >can basically do whatever she wants with her life simply because she was born as a woman >meanwhile i'm a broke and neglected 24 year old alcoholic with no hopes of being anything more than a wageslave >constantly see women complain about men being privileged, not having empathy, etc
it's honestly insulting when people pretend like women can suffer long-term. all of the problems i have don't exist for women. you can afford to be emotional and openly empathetic because it's encouraged for you. nothing good happens when a man opens up. i'm just tired of things
Men so desperately want to blame women for the ills of living, but they fail to see how much of it all is propped up by systems made by men, ran by men, and tendencies of men to desperately try to provide for women. Even in your own example you’re merely pointing out the realities of your experience but refusing to hold the men feeding her lifestyle accountable.
no fucking shit you fucking retard. my post is about the bitterness i feel when i compare my sister's life to my own life. i'm not commenting on the deeper dynamics and causes >poor person expresses bitterness over being poor and hearing rich people complain about things poor people do to cope >W-WELL UHHH.... DID YOU EVER STOP TO THINK THAT THAT'S JUST THE SYSTEM THEY LIVE IN? >I-I MEAN POOR PEOPLE CONTRIBUTE TO THE SYSTEMS THAT SUPPORT RICH PEOPLE
like dude how fucking retarded can you be? what do you want me to do? become god and magically rewire the brains of the retarded simps who create these situations? it is unfair that this inequality exists and it makes me feel bad. did i create the systems? did my dad? did my great grandpa? i hate that you people act like every single man made a conscious decision to create these systems. do you understand how many men are HURT by these systems? MORE MEN ARE HURT BY THESE SYTEMS THAN WOMEN ARE. WHY THE FUCK WOULD WE CHOOSE THIS??????? >god i hate that money exists >W-W-WELL ACKSHULLY, YOU USE MONEY AND YOU CONTRIBUTE TO THE PROBLEM BY USING IT.
fucking disgusting debatelord cockroach. kill yourself
yeah keep that mouth shut unless i need it. can't respond because it's not programmed into you by the hasan types. think for yourself you disgusting fucking cockroach.
I think for myself plenty. I just know the future isn’t some misogynist piece of shit like the present. I always encourage my girlfriends to milk every penny out of the resentful porn minded guys like you.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
women haven't changed or improved as a collective at all since the 70s. men are the ones who change and listen to what women say needs to be changed because we are empathetic.
i do take accountability for myself, and i'm not single or anywhere near an incel. i am bitter over the fact that women can be their authentic selves (flaws and all), and still be supported by society, while i have to pretend that i'm okay. like if a businesswoman complained about how she has to constantly present an image to be respected at her job, everyone would sympathize with her. but a man complaining about how men are expected to present a stoic / funny guy image 24/7 or they're resented, disregarded, bullied, or neglected? everyone goes fucking crazy like i just said the most misogynistic thing ever uttered. i just don't get it.
Who is criticizing you for being “authentic”? Seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not “women” as a whole. Take up your complaints with the rightful people rather than yelling pointlessly at the sky
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
ah yes because all communication and mentalities are direct and overt >who hates you for being black? seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not "white people" as a whole >who resents you for smelling bad? seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not "humanity" as a whole >who is criticizing you for being a furry? seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not "humanity" as a whole
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Life is tough when you're a smelly, black furry I guess. I never thought about it.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Mmm yes, I love fallacies, please give me more.
i won
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Sure that’s one way to see it I guess.
Not the correct way, but a way nonetheless.
No one gives a shit about your pity party, man.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
You spent all this time arguing with a woman about nothing. You lost
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
it's not nothing. more gynocentric thinking that proves my point
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
It was nothing, maybe one day you'll understand that, but even if you don't, it's fine. You still lost today. And I am not "arguing" with you beyond this, shut the fuck up.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
yup can't point out anything wrong with what i said. women can never do any wrong, men can never be victims of anything. disgusting cockroach.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
You sound like a paranoid schizo. Get help. Conversely, work to change the society you claim keeps poor men down for…having feelings? No one is asking or expecting men to be unemotional robots besides yourself, apparently.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Men spend an awful lot of time not doing anything about their problems compared to women who actually do something about them. Or worse yet acting like you and turning up the misogyny and aggression wallowing in “problems” when they’re not reasonable and wouldn’t be seen as such by the rest of the planet.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
You have that the opposite way, completely. Men tend to want to solve problems while women don't care as much about solving their problems than venting their frustration to a man.
Seems like you hang around a bunch of immature men. Since you're here that's probably the case.
You’re whining about literally nothing. A problem you’ve concocted for yourself. That’s why I call it a pity party.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
And you shut up as well, stupid whore. The two of you have shat up the thread enough. Get a room and hatefuck to solve it.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
it's not nothing. it's about how men and women are treated as a whole. but yeah, sure. men being treated differently will never affect anyone other than those men, and only in their heads. it's not like school shooters or incels are a thing. it's not like scientists are saying that the west is heading in the same direction as south korea when it comes to the dating market. yeah, nothing affects anything. fucking braindead homosexual.
And you shut up as well, stupid whore. The two of you have shat up the thread enough. Get a room and hatefuck to solve it.
kill yourself brainwashed cockroach
You sound like a paranoid schizo. Get help. Conversely, work to change the society you claim keeps poor men down for…having feelings? No one is asking or expecting men to be unemotional robots besides yourself, apparently.
there is nothing i can do as an individual that will change things on a larger scale. it's like trying to solve climate change by explaining it to everyone you encounter. the problem is bigger than that. and it's not about men being expected to be unemotional robots.
Men spend an awful lot of time not doing anything about their problems compared to women who actually do something about them. Or worse yet acting like you and turning up the misogyny and aggression wallowing in “problems” when they’re not reasonable and wouldn’t be seen as such by the rest of the planet.
yeah this is peak delusion. to act like women do anything to solve their own problems is honestly hilarious hahahaha. you are ENTIRELY supported by society. society thinks you're weak, incapable, incompetent, helpless, etc which is why you're treated the way you're treated. homeless shelters, welfare, affirmative action, etc etc etc.
I am like so impressed with like how tau-le ' s leader insists upon making pizza and that a surely temple is a real cocktail named after me because they had an idea of what id look like !
I agree that being a woman gets you through things more easily, especially if youre pretty (t.woman)
And I know this is cold comfort but I imagine that when you are a man, you can be sure that all of your achievements in life are solely attributed to your skills and willpower. Which I think is better for your overall happiness and self image (if youre consious enough to be happy about such things of course, it may be that your sister is not bothered at all by the fact that her life depends on others). But it can be argued that being a retard is better and they are better off because they don't have to work on anything, other people will take care of them, and they don't even know it.
I would still choose to be a man even if its 100x harder, because when I succeed, I can be sure that it's all me.
Anyways, good luck to you anon and try to not be bitter, life isn't fair and thats it, wallowing in self pity wont change that.
I want a woman who's smarter than me, more competent than me, and makes good conversation. I am a hopeless, chronic failure who messes everything I do up, and takes full responsibility for it in the most severe ways possible. It's horrible, and I want someone else to take the reigns of my life so I don't have to suffer like this anymore. It's extraordinarily pathetic, and desiring this only makes me loathe myself even more.
It was mistake to not move further away from my mom and now I have to deal with my cousin who's emotionally connected to my trauma's considering my mom, so it's going to be rough 20 days before I get to move, and I might get just get bullied by women for being a spastic retard because I didn't move further from her which would help with spasticity and overtension.
I was born to be a clown. More handsome than average. Still psychotic oversensitive socially awkward retard. Like a target for bullying. Always feeling knives of jealous in my back trying to bring me down. Always getting shaded by jealous so I'd lose my self-esteem.
Your only outlet being an internet forum stained by political extremists, and otherwise hopeless autistic NEETs doesn't give me hope for either of you being qualified to raise a child. I hope you're just some 30something who browses here because you like action figures on the side or something.
I need a narrative, or some sort of *story* to my life. I'm going nowhere and I feel like I'm drowning. I don't know how to ask for help
>age 18: covid hits and I'm out of school, never see my friend group again but it's okay because they bullied me anway
>age 19: spent entire first year of college in my bedroom barely able to focus
>age 20: actually had some sort of social life for a very brief time, ended up falling out with pretty much everyone I knew, literally had to turn a girl down twice even though she liked me, eventual mental break down
>age 21: completely lost year of my life, failed a year of college and lost my job
>age 22: turns out I was autistic, where do I go from here?
I'm turning 25 next month and I'm still a virgin.
It's always been nagging me, but it was the kind of dull pain that you never pay much attention to. "Something'll come up eventually."
Well, it didn't. Never did any girl from uni get close to me despite me trying. Never did my friends introduced me to anybody. Never. I've gone to exactly one date in my life and that was eight years ago.
And now I'm panicking so hard that I spent all summer sleeping 2-3 hours a night and went full skellington losing 20 kilos because I can't eat.
I want to kill myself and I am so ashamed and I have no way out.
>have a rough breakup last June >paranoid Social anxiety gf doesn't like me hanging out with friends, doesn't join ever >Gets mad if I even mention their names >Hang out with them one night, haven't seen them in weeks >gf gets mad, drinks vodka until she's in a stupor >Threatens to cut herself if I don't come over >Sprint over, spend the next hour getting vodka thrown in my face and verbally abused while pleading with her >Defuse situation, in the morning we basically agree it's over >End on good terms, have concert tickets together but she never showed or replied to texts >Fast forward to today >Graduated college earlier, landed a job and am moving >Come back to the old stomping grounds to have lunch with an old coworker >He doesn't show, doesn't reply until 2 hours later >She's here with coworkers >Awkward but I drove 90 minutes and ran 7 miles this morning, I'm eating damnit >Order and go out to the patio, she's eating inside >Have to get within like 5ft of her to get a drink >Stick around to maybe see if she wants to say hi after, don't expect much >She bolts out of the restaurant a little later, all 3 of her coworkers follow and stare at me
She said I was stalking her didn't she
I know you're in pain. You can try and hide and pretend that you're this incredibly strong individual, but you can fool me. Keep on lying, protect your pride, but I won't give up on you.
as a good looking dude i hate how i can't be friendly with people without it being construed as flirting. i hate how insecure people act around me. i can't stand the qualities people assume i have because i'm fit and have a nice face. people assume i'm single so that i can fool around with multiple women. nerds assume i'm a meathead jock and get doubly insecure when they learn i'm a bigger nerd than they are. mid women assume i'm not attracted to them so they act mean af. gay men won't ever fuck off, they're everywhere pretending to be a friend. i feel like i rarely ever get to interact with actual people, instead i get to interact with some guard routine subconsciously cobbled together to protect people's fragile egos, or some lie to garner my approval. why can't more people be real?
I don’t consider myself especially handsome but I can relate. I’m normally a friendly person and people often get the wrong impression when I just want to talk and make friends. It’s gotten me into awkward situations with men and women.
I lost my job 6 months ago. I can't even get a new job in the field because I'm a brainlet. I don't think I'm intelligent enough to do anything outside of menial labor because I'm a good for nothing retard who can't retain information. I can read something, understand it fairly well, then the next day have absolutely no recollection of it. I'm incapable of learning or growing. I can't do anything right.
>found out that a group of friends is planning to go on my country's equivalent to comic con >another friend is going with his fucking company because his boss is into nerdy stuff >another friend is going with pretty much his entire family
yes. i am jealous. i am angry. i am sad too.
it feels like i'm always in the wrong place. wrong work. wrong family. is it something to do with me? why is it like this??
I never claimed to be intelligent. Other people just labelled me as that. I'm just observant and abstract, so I don't know why you insists that I'm not that smart. Must be a mansplanning, thing I guess.
Please just react to my text or something give me a crumb of attention I'm begging you oh lord have mercy
I need anything from you please
I had a bad day I was lonely and sick and you are the person I wanted to hear from the most but you ignored my texts.
You said I could text you a bunch and not to overthink it
I'm overthinking it
I need the validation cuz I'm pmsing hard and I'm not feeling well
First of all you woke up today.
That's a gift in its own.
You can hold a job. Shit anon, that's a fucking achievement in its own.
Yes you're lonely, that's alright. We all are, but that also means you have time you can use. You have freedom. Freedom is lonely, because you don't have to cater your life to anyone else. Go for walk. 5 minutes. Then maybe 10 the next time. Little by little that's time that you of yesterday didn't use one something productive. Every day you wake up you have the power to be better than the you from yesterday. Drink water. Hydrate.
Go to sleep early. Wake up early.
Slow down when you do eat. Try to taste every nuance in you meal. Even if you eat the same thing eat day. Coffee? Take time to smell it. It smells lovely.
Get fresh air. Lift. Not to get women, lift to see what your body can do. Don't die without knowing what you are capable of. You see your Magnum Opus.
You got a bed tonight? Be thankful for it.
You got an apartment? Be thankful for it.
Got a shower with both hot and cold water? Go take a shower, stand in the water. Feel that on your skin. Be thankful for it.
Also, if they like you? Sure they have an SO, but it means you have qualities they see. You have value, even if it's as a friend. You brighten up their day. That means, and you never know if you quit, that someday you'll bump into someone that likes you and doesn't have an SO.
It's not easy but a lot can change in 5 years. Hell, a lot can change in months.
Trust me. My life was way different months ago. Yeah, I'm lonely. Very much so, but who knows I now have my hands empty to find someone that won't abuse me.
It's alright anon. Really it is. Feeling down is normal. Life is hard, and some days really are harder than others. Sometimes it feels like everyone else has it planned out. They don't. Very few of us have things planned out. Even less have our plans actually working out.
You are doing your best. Really that's all that matters. Do your best today. If you always do that little extra everyday? That shit adds up. Like adding grains of sand on a scale. Don't compare yourself to the people shoveling sand on their scales. If you are having a rough time and a few grains is all you can muster? Bro, that's more grains than last time.
Life is a marathon, not a race. Sure the ones that rush through get a nice shiny medal, but they didn't take the time to enjoy the route. To feel the crunch of leaves under their feet. To see the smiles on people's faces or slap the hands of people as you run. And if it takes you a long time? And the crowds leave? It gets lonely, but you'll know you did the marathon. And that matters. There are people that never even made it to the end. People that never even started.
Enjoy life, even of no one is watch. Especially when no one watches. That's when you get to spent time with the most person in your life, you. Each day is a chance you get to treat that important person with kindness, compassion and respect. You deserve it anon.
im at the point of unleashing the autism but it might get someone fired but the alternative is an expletive ridden meltdown and quitting
dont know what to choose
Life sorta sucks. Going where I want to go but demons are obscuring my path and ruining my quality of life. I pray to be stronger in order to vanquish them
I have a even new interest ! in presenting my paintings and photography at a san francisco gallery and am that excited to meet yayoi again ! I am very happy that I recieved this invite from san francisco california united states !
I plan on killing myself in 2031, once my youngest graduates highschool and moves out. This way my wife won't need to raise our kids alone, and hopefully my children can process my death a bit better. I'm going to write each of them personalized notes explaining my thoughts and feelings regarding them personally, and hopefully giving a bit of closure.
>Did something happen to make you angry?
my coworker has been arguing everyday with his """girlfriend""" because hes an insecure cunt and im going to go in tomorrow and tell therm its him or me
im tired of this shit and hes barely even doing his work every fucking day she needs to show every pillar and post on a video call or he gets assmad and complains the whole day and says hes done and cant do this anymore
fuck it im cutting it there because im getting more angry just typing because im reliving listening to this shit
oh, shitty co worker, yeah they suck. Can you work away from him or get assigned somewhere else?
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>Can you work away from him or get assigned somewhere else?
nope
literally the the two of us in one room
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Oh fuck, sorry you have to deal with a toxic co worker.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
bro im close to committing a crime
this nigga doesnt shut up
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Hey, no one's worth going to jail over but yeah he needs to shut up and work
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
i know im just so fucking tired of the noise
i have autism i cant deal with this shit
im sorry
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I understand. It's worse when people can't just shut up and you really want them to. Maybe change the subject on him or wear earphones?
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
idk my headphones dont filter voice by design and this shit keeps going on
ive talked to them twice and the first time hey said they knew it was annoying and said other people had complained and the second time they were dismissive
either ill quit or they'll get fired but theyrll be a resolution. i just dont want to press the issue and end up coming up short because im not the charismatic one. i dont even want to get then fired but despite conversations the shit continues
im just massively stressed and my usually drink cope isnt working
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>ive talked to them twice and the first time hey said they knew it was annoying and said other people had complained and the second time they were dismissive
What a jackass, but maybe try changing the subject on him every time he brings up his gf? If only to stop him talking or annoy him. Sounds like you should look for another job if you can.
I fucked up massively. I took mortgage on possibly the worst condo I could find. The sad thing is that I didn't even get it discounted for much compared to other condos that were in a better shape and in a good location. I just got it because I was desperate and wanted to get out of the house search hunt. It was my first place and I bought it completely on my own. I wish someone could give me an advice on what to avoid or what to look for, but the only person who was going through the process with me was the realtor and he clearly didn't give a single fuck about the fact I was buying a shithole because he wanted to get his pay asap.
Now I regret it, living in a shitty dark condo and paying mortgage on top of it.
I guess the bright side of it is that I now have more motivation to earn money and pay off the mortgage so I can sell this dump and find a better place with more knowledge on what to look for. God I wish I could turn back time and not sign on this fucking offer
I've decided to open up about my problems but at this point I am pathologically unable to be honest. Typical 'no no I'm fine' shit when I feel absolutely horrible. The reasons for feeling like shit are genuinely out of my control (neurological problem causing mood swings, depression, fatigue, etc) but I feel guilty for talking about feeling bad.
In reality, this image is actually bullshit. He-Man and similar entertainment do fuck up men's mental health over time. Men just don't vocalize their problems. Instead, they let them fester. Irritability is male depression. A shit ton of men are suffering from untreated depression stemming from a negative self-image and intense inner critic that they convert into addictive and abusive behaviors of various kinds. Additionally, most men are just as bad at communicating their emotional needs as women are. Men have the tendency to squash their emotions and mask them in sexual desire because they've been indoctrinated to think being horny is manlier than being emotional.
>they've been indoctrinated to think being horny is manlier than being emotional
there's no thinking or transference of one or more emotions into horny, men are just horny, and for a lot of us sex is an act of deep love and intimacy that we desperately crave and want to express, so yea, we're horny, and it probably means more than either of us think.
>it probably means more than either of us think
We're repressed. We don't let ourselves or other men grieve or get sad, and it eventually turns into self-hatred and lust.
I’m sorry you went through that anon. Do you have a relationship with your father now?
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Not really, he's an invalid now. He let himself fall apart — he became obese, lost all of his teeth, and burned many bridges with family and friends. When he got drunk, he'd break stuff, corner you, shout in your face, and gaslight you, but it was all because he was tormented by an inner critic.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
That’s awful; I’m so sorry. How do you think that your experiences growing up with him have affected you in your adult life?
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I have STPD and am in therapy and on fluoxetine. It took me a long time before reaching out.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I’m glad you’ve been able to get help.
I also had an abusive father, although he wasn’t an addict. I have PTSD because of it. It took me a long time to reach the point where I was able to actually go to therapy and seek help, so in that sense I can relate to you.
How do you guys cope with the fact you are physically ugly and the envy towards good looking people? Just learned about clint walker and I am quite jealous and envious of that prick. Incredible how lucky some people get
i m*sturbated to the thought (idea, not anyone real) of another dick than my ex for the first time ever. it makes me feel slightly guilty but also slightly relieved. like i feel turned off by him even tho i still have some feelings and love/care for him, its not romantic. i feel like i deserve better. im not sure how or why my brain made the switch.
Short list of regrets (to be expanded later) >not being insane, straight-A student in 8th grade through high school. also not doing better in sports and getting full-ride athletic scholarship to an Ivy >failing that, not serving in the military after high school >being so jealous and insecure >not developing self-discipline and the ability to focus >not overcoming my imposter syndrome >not controlling my emotions, especially my anger >not working on developing my maturity
I texted and emailed some terrible things to you and I’m so sorry. I was hurting so much and I was desperate to make the pain go away. I felt as though I was losing my grip on reality and losing control, as though I couldn’t stop. I had never acted that way before what happened last year, and l never want to act that way again. Please don’t define me by the worst things that I’ve ever done. Please at least try to understand.
It bothers me so much that I'm not conventionally attractive.
I'm 31, male, and do honestly do fine with women anyway. It shouldn't bother me this much. Being depressed with not being genetically blessed with effortless beauty is for young girls, not established grown-ass men lmao
But I can't lie to you, /adv/, or even myself! It bothers me, it bothers me every single day.
it's understandable anon, you spend years grinding your income/looks/social skills just so your success rate can go from 0% to like 5%, and then you see how chicks gawk at even the most raggedy-ass awkward dudes just for being skinny and 6'4" and it feels like it was all for nothing, or at least deeply unfair
fundamentally it's an issue of wanting what you can't have. if you were conventionally attractive you would just wish you were a different type of conventionally attractive, i.e. cute twinks wishing they were buff chads or vice-versa
You begged. That put her in a higher position than you. The sentiment and effort to win back her affection is admirable, but begging is the equivalent of a dog showing another its belly. Most women instinctively dislike overly submissive men. She likely moved on emotionally 3-6 months before things ended, unless you fucked around and got found out. In that case the bridge was burned the moment you got caught.
Move on, she doesn't give a shit about you anymore. Took me 4 years to learn this lesson.
My gf is a wonderful person and probably the best one I've had yet, but my ex was incomparably prettier and I was much happier with her. I wouldn't leave my gf for her or even take her back without her doing 3 things she's too proud to do though.
I want to be happy you have your old job back but I hardly recognize you anymore nowadays. Also holy fuck I can’t stand some of your friends. Absolutely obnoxious twats.
Just asked my crush out and she said yes. I mentioned it offhand to a group of my coworkers who immediately started scouring the office to figure out who it was so I forced myself to go talk to her first before they did. It was probably the best thing that could've happened and I doubt I would've got the courage had they not pushed me into it.
But where do I go from here? I haven't dated in almost 15 years.
What am i supposed to do? >be interested in a female friend from a female friend >shes nerdy, introverted and takes care if herself >never talked to her >friend says, in order to talk to her i need to wait until i can meet her randomly at a party >this could take weeks
>be me yesterday >buying groceries >scanning 12 packs of milk at the self checkout >cute cashier comes, used her card so i dont need to scan every pack one by one >"let me help you or else it would take forever to scanner all those one by one" >"...uuuh i cant count...." >i said nothing, because i thought she was joking or would get it any moment >why isnt she sayibg anything... >"its twelve!" she told me >i say "yes, twelve is right!" >she logged it in, said bye and walked fast away
i barely know anything about those girls and theyre both pretty but i think the nerdy girl would suit me more but who knows when i will see her? Also i dont know if she would fancy me
the other girl i will see today, i could ask her out but she seems more normal. on the other hand i think shes interested in talking to me. she also initiated smalltalk once before. i also believe she wants my organs or something like that. im a 5/10 or 6/10 and im not much taller than her at 5'9 so i dont know why she would like me
It’s the first night everyone is back at uni and my friend group ghosted me. We had plans to go to the club and then everyone collectively ignored me and hung up on my calls while they drank. I don’t even know what I fucking did I asked and they ignored that too. What the fuck man these are my only friends.
I think I am gonna kill myself. I ruined my chances with the best girl I’d ever met, who loved me for being goofy and loved my singing and wanted to marry me. And I I met her push me away.
What’s the point anymore? Now I have to see her every day talking to everyone else.
Life keeps going up and down and I have no idea anymore.
Things break when they shouldn't and work when they shouldn't.
I like things I shouldn't and dislike or get bored by things I should like.
Feels like I'm living someone else's life, but when I try to assert myself it still backfires.
I get enthusiastic for things, then the enthusiasm dies out quickly.
I want to be both away and close with people.
Breaks aren't breaks anymore. Despite all my effort i fall from one cage to another.
There is stuff that I should make up on mind on, yet I feel clueless at what to choose.
I don't fucking know
I don't understand what I have that brings them in. >19yo qt that I just talk to from time time at the dog park started talking ti me about more personal stuff seems interested in me >she knows I'm fresh out of a relationship that went to shit >she was friends with my ex >she knows I'm far older than her at 34 >asking if we can hang out outside the park
What the fuck am I doing right? Because I need to know.
I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit FUCK ALL OF YOU FUCK YOU ALL DIE BURN IN HELL
Holy shit. I don't deserve my parents.
Sure they didn't equip me with the emotional security needed to be an adult but damn.. they keep helping me. >move across the country >they buy me a new car, and pay about 26k out the 31k price >have trouble getting work, relationship becomes abusive >mom sends me 5k to clean up my debt >years go by, ex didn't work didn't do shit but spend money I didn't have >relationship goes to shit >on my own, they ask what my plans are >plan to go back to school after clearing my debt >mom simply says that if it's all I need to go back she'll bail me out
In 5 years, she's given me about 40k.
Holy shit, I just realized how much she's given me in the process of writing this.
I want to cry. I don't deserve my parents. I'll never be able to pay them back.
My parents bailed me out to from 18-25. At 25 I said guys give me 2 months to find a good job or kick me out .
I found sales and will make 125k this year, and they are so happy they are letting me stay even longer to save up for some land quicker .
Point is, be bailed by your parents, but spin that shit around and gift them in return. I can’t wait to buy my parents house off for them. I’ve told them a hundred times that them giving me some time and space let me find the RIGHT job, not the first one that came up.
Thanks anon.
Why do I feel bad? It's out of love that she wants to help. I'm 34 yo man, I should have been smarter than to let myself get trapped and then got myself into this situation. That's my mentality. "If I dug myself here, I'll dog myself out."
To was going to take me years to pay this off. She just asks that I sign up and start classes ASAP. Which at this point, I'll be starting in the fall. I already have an AS, time to bring it to the end.
I don't think I'll ever be able to repay their kindness, but I can try.
>Going back to school at 34
Unbelievably based. I believe in you anon. You can and will turn your life around for the better. You're not alone.
And don't worry too much about your parents. All they want is for you to be happy, and I'm sure they would be willing to pay any amount to see you succeed. That's the best way to pay them back.
Bro if you’re a good person then it sounds like your mom just wants her creation to be happy and smile at her every now and then. Anything you do on top of that is an extra bonus to her! So feel free to go explore and make something of yourself, you have someone that loves you and has your back. Not many get that in life .
>Going back to school at 34
Unbelievably based. I believe in you anon. You can and will turn your life around for the better. You're not alone.
And don't worry too much about your parents. All they want is for you to be happy, and I'm sure they would be willing to pay any amount to see you succeed. That's the best way to pay them back.
Thanks. I actually teared up a little.
It's something I'm still learning to embrace. Every time I call them, they always tell me they are so proud of me.
I never feel worthy of being told they are proud of me. I'm trying to pick myself up, to put back the shards that make up my cup. Trying to live better. Even before all this, they were proud of me. When I was a living corpse of a man, they were proud of me.
Damn, never mind I'm crying now.
This was the one thing I'd been trying to figure out after the breakup. How to progress with my life. I'm grateful for all that I do have, I have a lot, but I do aspire for more.
what the fuck is happening? I used to spend a lot of time alone and be very content with that, I didn't really feel lonely or like I needed someone to talk to
then I joined a college club and I thought I would try to socialize and hang out with the other members, too, because why not and despite meeting some new people I actually feel loneliness now
idk maybe it's all my head and I am just being a whiny bitch but it's like I suddenly realized how anxious I am in social situations and how hard it is for me to make meaningful bonds, I feel like everyone is much closer to each other and I am kind of the tag-along kid I don't even know if they truly like or care about or not
my attempt to become social really backfired, I used to never feel lonely being by myself and now I often feel soul-crushing loneliness and hopelessness
maybe I just need some more time for my mind to become acclimatized to all of that since I think I have missed some crucial years of social development
>be 2015 >recently quit smoking weed >cut out people who sold/did it >crave it >out for a late night walk one night >find a broken discarded glass bowl (the removable piece for a bong) >it has a ton of resin >bring it home and scrape it >smoke it for about a week
Looking back that was stupid not only just as but it could've been contaminated by any number of other substances. I very well could've smoked crack but then again I don't think anybody would bother doing that with a bong. picsimilar
i want a girlfriend and i've been looking and putting myself out there for 11 years now with zero success, ive been doing the same with work and nothing at all comes from my efforts i feel cursed, its like no matter what i do im forced to stay stuck sprinting in place desperate to move in any shape or form whilst all these cunts around me get everything with zero effort, its not fucking fair, i get nothing but these awful bitches that ignore me, use me for sex or lead me on then try to pretend its okay to treat me like shit while all my friends get to be in love and happy with their partners and land jobs within days of applying while i get fuck all back, i fucking hate it, its not natural it cant be.
No. I'm better than where I was even last year, but I still beat myself up about things and I still have some suicidal ideation. But there are depressed people, and people with low self esteem that get into relationships.
Okay. Yes.
But do you want a proper loving relationship where you both can grow close and grow as people into better versions of yourselves?
Or are you simply looking for someone to fill the empty space in your life and soul? Thus simply taking anyone, normally when you're wounded you bring others with wounds upon their heart. So you'll only attract a person who's looking to fill the void. Resulting, instead of love, with a trauma bond. And eventually one of you will become abusive and break the other leaving them in pieces. Which ends with you surprised that there's an actual rock bottom when you thought you were already there?
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
I get that. I definitely don't want to rush into something bad, but I still feel like I'm missing out. Like I said I'm 26 and I feel odd seeing people significantly younger than me in relationships when I'm over here all alone, and I guess part of that self blame is beating myself up about that. FOMO is just a bitch I guess.
I was shooting at some fish in quake. I was taunting them because I entered the water and I was still not afraid of them. I was not talking out loud, just thinking. I thought: you're not a threat, just tasty fish (ignoring that they are kost likely undead). And then I remembered you hate the taste of fish. You're going to live rent free inside my head for years aren't you? How pathetic. But really, it doesn't matter. We are still not talking to eachother ever again (not that you care, as much as I want to hurt you with things like this, that's just me being pathetic again).
What a shit fucking post. I almost don't want to post it.
im actually a girl ! that's propaganda we sent to africa ! im apart of the redding city council and one of the main buildings engineers ! im friends with michael and the judge !
I seem to have found myself in a precarious situation with men.
I’m in a committed relationship and have no intention of quitting before I put in the time and effort necessary to make it work. I love my man so very much, he accepts me physically and still finds me attractive even though I was a mega-fatty who lost a lot of weight.
At least I want to trust him when he says that. My libido is super high, and his used to be super high but it seems like a lot has changed since the start of our relationship… I’m a pretty passive and submissive individual, so he controls most of the content we watch and consume together and just overall struggles with being thoughtful. He really does try though especially here recently after I’ve expressed those sentiments to him, he’s kind and patient and I love him. I won’t give up on him because I value loyalty.
Seems like god and the devil are placing bets on me now though. They’ve summoned a demon out of the abyss who shares waaaay too much in common with me and is stupidly thoughtful. He’s a mega flirt and usually I would be too even in a relationship but my man has some (understandable and rational) worries over that. I don’t want to not have this friend because I’ve struggled in general to make deeper connections with people and don’t want to miss a good opportunity.
But, man are my limits being tested between them. I’m not going to cheat, I refuse to. I respect both of them so much more than that. It’s put me into an existential crisis like no other situation has. I’ve had my physical and mental limits tested by a hard and horrible life, but having my values tested is proving to be a straw that might break me mentally for good.
mr . dave lombardo of slayer and win river had that load up once ! they didn't do the graphics well and it looked like clay . I know a melt pig that will try and do it ! I know a person who wants wheels to be their thing do that ! she'll like le sex pig out ! im walking in the building !
austin evan schumacher is signed to a few record labels and we can do the graphics game too . austin evan schumacher and phoebe lucille bridgers are in a relationship with each other and all rancherias are in communication with each other regarding this incident . austin evan schumacher is the recording drummer for phoebe bridgers and no matter what plays on all of the recordings . austin evan schumacher is also the recording drummer for boygenius and is a transsexual .
I am grateful to God for having people that are naturally and truly genuine be drawn to me and people that are superficial and fake (lot of em) be repelled by me. Although it leaves me to be alone a lot, I'm truly never alone anyway.
I never had a pool, but I saw the news today. A drone guy flew over a few backyard pools and added green dye to the pool water. I don't think the man had any bad intentions. Pools needed to be cleaned all the time anyway, and if you don't have a pool, you may not know the real consequences. I read the comments, and the people seem to really hate the guy. One person even calls him a sociopath. Imagine if somebody calling a man a sociopath over graffiti. The green dye wasn't toxic. According to a comment, the dye dissolves fast, so the prankster is probably going to have to pay for "cleaning" that already happened automatically. Times had really changed, I guess.
Don't fuck with people's property. They aren't his fucking pools. You can't just go around doing whatever you fucking want to people's shit and the fact you're defending a grown ass man's deviant behavior tells me everything I need to know about you
He has no respect for anybody he needs to be fucking taught a lesson. Honestly guys like that deserve to get beaten up
>man deserves violence over prank that fixes itself
It's literally less harmful than tp and eggs. And at least then food or other important necessities are being wasted.
I’ve lost interest in nearly everything that once brought me happiness.
I’ve had depressive episodes before, but there was always some sort of goal that would spark a little bit of inspiration.
Now there’s nothing. I’ve truly become apathetic and I’m scared I won’t be able to snap out of this. I feel like I died 2 years ago or that my life will soon be over.
I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of hoping to hear from you, I'm sick of feeling like I don't matter. I'm still going to stay around because I'm retarded.
After 2 years of subterfuge, subliminal messaging and very subtly suggestions I finally convinced my wife to have a threesome with her female best friend.
It worked so well she now lives with us and I fuck her without my wife.
Life is good.
LMOOOO it's actually gotten to the point where I've self harmed for the first time in my life, I'm actually hitting myself in the head like a complete crazy person. I'm so off the rails.
You’re not crazy. You’re trying to cope with intense emotions. You’re human. Of note, there are healthier ways to move through stress, which you can explore with time.
I used to do that, I think it gave me a bit of brain damage. One time I hit my head a couple of times with a thick hard book and I had a headache for a few days.
I plan on approaching someone I've been interested in since last year tomorrow but I keep getting nervous about it. I feel like they're interested, but also like I'm being delusional about the whole thing. I think it's the fear of rejection kicking in.
So thats it, right? We will just keep accepting less and less from women because social media fucked up all of us more than ever? It's insane. I've had a few relationships but as years went by things started to get really fucking horrible. Its like every girls is acting like a 10/10 literally because they can do it and still get what they need. I just refuse to eat shit. Fucking hell.
>give a shit about you not just as a boss, but as a human being, worrying about your health and stress >get "rewarded" with awkward scheduling, more responsibility than what I'm paid, co-workers getting away with dumb shit, all with no confidence in a raise or promotion in sight
I didn't even do that to you to shit to rise up, but fuck me, no wonder no one cares about you.
i would wife you up, give you a house, kids, everything you say is your dream... but you won't act right. i keep giving you a chance and you keep throwing it in my face every opportunity you get. you probably don't even care but your window of time is running out. i can't ask you to act right, you just have to do it.
so many things. honestly i have no business even being attracted to her, red flag city. she's like a siren though and makes me forget all that, and i would but only if she adopted my values.
I'll pray for her, and you should do. Before you expect her to adopt your values, you should embody them yourself. You can't expect a broken person who doesn't know Jesus, to behave like Him. Pray for her.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Too*
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
thanks, i appreciate it, and you're right. i see her watching me sometimes and i can tell she hates how friendly i am with other women as much i hate it when she gets too friendly with other guys. i haven't always been a good representative of Christ.
i hate my family. i dont even have one honestly despite living with them, doing things for and with them. i’m miserable. they either are abuse me or completely ignore me. i also don’t have any real genuine friends. the only thing that i do have is money. money to get tf away. i want to cut off all contact.
My life is irreparably fucked and I don't know what to do and I cannot cope with it. This is not how people told me things would go. I wish it would end.
Same. I take solace knowing eventually, somehow, I'll die. It just gets hard when I start getting impatient and start wondering how many years am I gonna suffer until then? Decades? Shit...
My parents are morons but it seems like I am no better than them.
I am a moron, my whole existence is one big joke. I am currently drinking right now, even though I know excessive drinking leads down a road of alcoholism. I tried being positive, I tried to not be negative, I don't want to be negative, I tried to not be that timid, afraid, unassured, shy, scared kid but I failed at being true to my convictions. I hate myself, am full of self-loathing, tear myself down at every chance I get, I don't mean to be like this, but I am. I am insecurity, I tried to change for the better, be "positive" but I seem to have failed at that.
I asked him not to post anything disparaging you, but he just got annoyed and told me to stop considering your feelings. I’m sorry. I still believe in you and I know that you can do it. I wish that you would let me help you finish the project.
It's over
>why did u add me then
>"no reason, I just thought I had you on this already"
Your brother hates me for deleting and no I didn't follow you when you posted videos with your now ex-boyfriend. But whatever, you didn't give me a reason for adding me so I'll just delete you since you won't open up.
I'm not this petty but holy shit I'm still fuming. I can't believe how much time and energy I wasted trying to be nice to you because I thought you were socially inept and slow, meanwhile you were narcissistically trying to make me look bad to others behind my back? I could easily dox you, you retard. Why the fuck would you do that?
You will die soon.
Yes and?
Okay as long as you know the risk.
I did bad things and I can't seem to forgive myself. It's ruining my life.
What did you do?
Forgiving ourselves no matter how much or how many times it takes is how we move on and focus on living better. Others choose to forgive us or not, but we can always look deep inside and forgive ourselves. The trick is to make a change so that our self forgiveness means something.
Thans Anon, today I needed to hear that.
Then stop doing bad things.
10/28/1929
so many few and further out days !
Starting to wonder why I even bother? Like why I continue to hope that people listen to me or actually hear me out. Sometimes I feel like I'm fooling myself into thinking people want to hear what I say but they do it as happenstance or just as a means to get me to agree with them in some way but when they learn I don't or I word it different than they wanted...
If you didn't wanna hear what I had to say, why the fuck do you always ask? If I bother so much then cut me the fuck off and let me go so I can figure shit out on my own instead of being trailed along thinking I'm being honest instead of just pissing you off.
I miss you a lot.
Well stop that. Go outside. Have fun. Do sun activities.
people only justify suffering if you're dysgenic,
>just suffer more, just bow your head more
i hate you, no wonder people are scared of guns, they deserve to be shot and they know it
there is good money to be made in the trades but I cant stand the fucking assholes I have to work with. Not worth it. I just want a job where I can be by myself but make enough to pay the bills
Chance for love was taken away from me when I was born but at least I can still travel far away from my frigid mother who cockblocks me and doesn't give me any chance of love
Learning to not be rescuer is hard.
I don't have to prove to anyone that I'm worth of love. I've been able to get multiple partners, and that was due to just being myself. Before my codependent tendencies kick in.
Meaning I can get partners, I just have ti not let my mind fuck things up.
my life is so boring I'm starting to wonder if the brief periods of excitement I experience throughout the heating season are caused by an unidentified carbon monoxide leak in my house
>join feabie because it's a gainer/feederism/fat admiration site
>join it in the hopes of finding a fat girl who likes fat guys (i think feederism and gaining are cringe fetishes)
>all the fat girls want skinny or muscular guys
>occasionally get messages from older women
>it's mostly men messaging me
>tfw i'll never live a fat life with a fat wife
It's crazy how fucked things are.
Fat girls think they are too good for fat guys.
4-6 think themselves 9-10s and not only expect but demand 9-10 guys. It's fucking wild.
Honestly the most maddening thing about is fat women will call guys fatphobic and body shamers but wouldn't touch a fat guy with a 10 foot poll. Like they get to be straight up hypocrites and if you call them out on it you get called a misogynist or an incel.
Fat dudes can literally be the same way. I remember this turbo autist ginger from college, I was always super nice to him, played games with him, etc. He was fat and had a pretty bad face, despite being close in looks matched (I’m a pretty face/great personality fatty) he went after this skinny autistic drama girl who liked pretending she was Elsa from Frozen. Got her this big basket of valentines goodies to ask her out and was rejected hardcore. Had to help him by being a shoulder to cry on, but I rejected him after he tried rebounding on me.
He was one of those ‘I’m bad at school because I’m too smart’ kinda dudes on top of it all.
Had a major crush on him, but he rejected me and I moved on. :’) Can’t say it was much my personality either because I’ve pulled some seriously handsome and fit dudes as well just from confidence and openness.
Try being more funny and upbeat or go edgy metalhead mode to become more attractive without losing weight if you’re really that lazy. I’ve seen big fat dudes pull major skinny hotties too, since they like feeling extra small.
Most of the time it’s your personality being fucking disgusting or being socially inept that’s gonna hold you back, anons.
Why did you have a crush on him?
He was funny and good at video games and we were in fact looksmatched in terms of body. Turned out he was shallow as fuck though.
Stop giving people the benefit of the doubt who haven't earned it and people you don't personally know. Actually have real discernment.
You're just making yourself to look like a damn idiot in front of everyone. You're not some "bigger man" or "morally right" figure...you're an idiot that keeps falling into the same hole time and time again. Wake the fuck up.
just give up
Never.
I am talking to myself, you do you.
that many dead democratic republic of congo africans
there's nothing and no one to try for anyway
>sister has the same disorders and a similar relationship with her father as i do with mine
>sister was meaner than i ever was. full on bullied me, very entitled, was the 2016 sjw type
>fucked up over and over. cheated on her partners and became a single mother to an ugly narcissist with mommy issues
>still hired because she's a woman
>still found a rich boyfriend to take care of her kid because she's a woman
>able to find support for any emotional problem she has (even if she doesn't actively work on them) because she's a woman
>can basically do whatever she wants with her life simply because she was born as a woman
>meanwhile i'm a broke and neglected 24 year old alcoholic with no hopes of being anything more than a wageslave
>constantly see women complain about men being privileged, not having empathy, etc
it's honestly insulting when people pretend like women can suffer long-term. all of the problems i have don't exist for women. you can afford to be emotional and openly empathetic because it's encouraged for you. nothing good happens when a man opens up. i'm just tired of things
Men so desperately want to blame women for the ills of living, but they fail to see how much of it all is propped up by systems made by men, ran by men, and tendencies of men to desperately try to provide for women. Even in your own example you’re merely pointing out the realities of your experience but refusing to hold the men feeding her lifestyle accountable.
no fucking shit you fucking retard. my post is about the bitterness i feel when i compare my sister's life to my own life. i'm not commenting on the deeper dynamics and causes
>poor person expresses bitterness over being poor and hearing rich people complain about things poor people do to cope
>W-WELL UHHH.... DID YOU EVER STOP TO THINK THAT THAT'S JUST THE SYSTEM THEY LIVE IN?
>I-I MEAN POOR PEOPLE CONTRIBUTE TO THE SYSTEMS THAT SUPPORT RICH PEOPLE
like dude how fucking retarded can you be? what do you want me to do? become god and magically rewire the brains of the retarded simps who create these situations? it is unfair that this inequality exists and it makes me feel bad. did i create the systems? did my dad? did my great grandpa? i hate that you people act like every single man made a conscious decision to create these systems. do you understand how many men are HURT by these systems? MORE MEN ARE HURT BY THESE SYTEMS THAN WOMEN ARE. WHY THE FUCK WOULD WE CHOOSE THIS???????
>god i hate that money exists
>W-W-WELL ACKSHULLY, YOU USE MONEY AND YOU CONTRIBUTE TO THE PROBLEM BY USING IT.
fucking disgusting debatelord cockroach. kill yourself
Lol calm down moid, just telling it how it is
yeah keep that mouth shut unless i need it. can't respond because it's not programmed into you by the hasan types. think for yourself you disgusting fucking cockroach.
I think for myself plenty. I just know the future isn’t some misogynist piece of shit like the present. I always encourage my girlfriends to milk every penny out of the resentful porn minded guys like you.
women haven't changed or improved as a collective at all since the 70s. men are the ones who change and listen to what women say needs to be changed because we are empathetic.
Take responsibility for yourself, jfc.
You sound absolutely insufferable, it’s no wonder you can’t find a woman to put up with your pathetic self
i do take accountability for myself, and i'm not single or anywhere near an incel. i am bitter over the fact that women can be their authentic selves (flaws and all), and still be supported by society, while i have to pretend that i'm okay. like if a businesswoman complained about how she has to constantly present an image to be respected at her job, everyone would sympathize with her. but a man complaining about how men are expected to present a stoic / funny guy image 24/7 or they're resented, disregarded, bullied, or neglected? everyone goes fucking crazy like i just said the most misogynistic thing ever uttered. i just don't get it.
Who is criticizing you for being “authentic”? Seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not “women” as a whole. Take up your complaints with the rightful people rather than yelling pointlessly at the sky
ah yes because all communication and mentalities are direct and overt
>who hates you for being black? seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not "white people" as a whole
>who resents you for smelling bad? seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not "humanity" as a whole
>who is criticizing you for being a furry? seems doubtful anyone is judging you for such things besides your own self, and certainly not "humanity" as a whole
Life is tough when you're a smelly, black furry I guess. I never thought about it.
i won
Sure that’s one way to see it I guess.
Not the correct way, but a way nonetheless.
No one gives a shit about your pity party, man.
You spent all this time arguing with a woman about nothing. You lost
it's not nothing. more gynocentric thinking that proves my point
It was nothing, maybe one day you'll understand that, but even if you don't, it's fine. You still lost today. And I am not "arguing" with you beyond this, shut the fuck up.
yup can't point out anything wrong with what i said. women can never do any wrong, men can never be victims of anything. disgusting cockroach.
You sound like a paranoid schizo. Get help. Conversely, work to change the society you claim keeps poor men down for…having feelings? No one is asking or expecting men to be unemotional robots besides yourself, apparently.
Men spend an awful lot of time not doing anything about their problems compared to women who actually do something about them. Or worse yet acting like you and turning up the misogyny and aggression wallowing in “problems” when they’re not reasonable and wouldn’t be seen as such by the rest of the planet.
You have that the opposite way, completely. Men tend to want to solve problems while women don't care as much about solving their problems than venting their frustration to a man.
Seems like you hang around a bunch of immature men. Since you're here that's probably the case.
Mmm yes, I love fallacies, please give me more.
im sending you and all of tau-le austin schumacher tranny portrait meme
what
you just don't get it. the fact that you're calling it a pity party proves my point.
You’re whining about literally nothing. A problem you’ve concocted for yourself. That’s why I call it a pity party.
And you shut up as well, stupid whore. The two of you have shat up the thread enough. Get a room and hatefuck to solve it.
it's not nothing. it's about how men and women are treated as a whole. but yeah, sure. men being treated differently will never affect anyone other than those men, and only in their heads. it's not like school shooters or incels are a thing. it's not like scientists are saying that the west is heading in the same direction as south korea when it comes to the dating market. yeah, nothing affects anything. fucking braindead homosexual.
kill yourself brainwashed cockroach
there is nothing i can do as an individual that will change things on a larger scale. it's like trying to solve climate change by explaining it to everyone you encounter. the problem is bigger than that. and it's not about men being expected to be unemotional robots.
yeah this is peak delusion. to act like women do anything to solve their own problems is honestly hilarious hahahaha. you are ENTIRELY supported by society. society thinks you're weak, incapable, incompetent, helpless, etc which is why you're treated the way you're treated. homeless shelters, welfare, affirmative action, etc etc etc.
I am like so impressed with like how tau-le ' s leader insists upon making pizza and that a surely temple is a real cocktail named after me because they had an idea of what id look like !
The system was working better when there were bo women in it.
I agree that being a woman gets you through things more easily, especially if youre pretty (t.woman)
And I know this is cold comfort but I imagine that when you are a man, you can be sure that all of your achievements in life are solely attributed to your skills and willpower. Which I think is better for your overall happiness and self image (if youre consious enough to be happy about such things of course, it may be that your sister is not bothered at all by the fact that her life depends on others). But it can be argued that being a retard is better and they are better off because they don't have to work on anything, other people will take care of them, and they don't even know it.
I would still choose to be a man even if its 100x harder, because when I succeed, I can be sure that it's all me.
Anyways, good luck to you anon and try to not be bitter, life isn't fair and thats it, wallowing in self pity wont change that.
it's that one way pass meme
I want a woman who's smarter than me, more competent than me, and makes good conversation. I am a hopeless, chronic failure who messes everything I do up, and takes full responsibility for it in the most severe ways possible. It's horrible, and I want someone else to take the reigns of my life so I don't have to suffer like this anymore. It's extraordinarily pathetic, and desiring this only makes me loathe myself even more.
Custody is being granted to the REAL parent
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hey ! you need to know that I did write out that image code on paper !
Dear X,
I have found a great amount of meaning in the unconscious.
>20 threads hidden via filter
>All bf/gf threads
Good.
It was mistake to not move further away from my mom and now I have to deal with my cousin who's emotionally connected to my trauma's considering my mom, so it's going to be rough 20 days before I get to move, and I might get just get bullied by women for being a spastic retard because I didn't move further from her which would help with spasticity and overtension.
A BROKEN HEART CAN'T BE THAT BAD
WHEN IT'S THROUGH, IT'S THROUGH
FATE WILL TWIST THE BOTH OF YOU
SO COME ON BABY, COME ON OVER
LET ME BE THE ONE TO SHOW YOU
I'M THE ONE WHO WANTS TO BE WITH YOU
WAITED ON A LINE OF GREENS AND BLUES
JUST TO BE THE NEXT TO BE WITH YOU
LET ME BE THE ONE TO HOOOOOLD YOU
OH GOD I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH
Wild to think about just how many assholes are in the way of better living here on earth
I was born to be a clown. More handsome than average. Still psychotic oversensitive socially awkward retard. Like a target for bullying. Always feeling knives of jealous in my back trying to bring me down. Always getting shaded by jealous so I'd lose my self-esteem.
Burgers are made of people. You can hear them crying when burgers are frying.
Are my taste buds changing or does orange soda just taste like shit now? I've tried a few and they all taste flat and gross
You're tastes buds change as you get older. Could be the company made changes to the ingredients
You have a mental disability that makes you unable to care for your daughter and I have a judge who agrees with me.
Your only outlet being an internet forum stained by political extremists, and otherwise hopeless autistic NEETs doesn't give me hope for either of you being qualified to raise a child. I hope you're just some 30something who browses here because you like action figures on the side or something.
I’m gonna beg her to take me back tonight. I can’t imagine life without her.
I need a narrative, or some sort of *story* to my life. I'm going nowhere and I feel like I'm drowning. I don't know how to ask for help
>age 18: covid hits and I'm out of school, never see my friend group again but it's okay because they bullied me anway
>age 19: spent entire first year of college in my bedroom barely able to focus
>age 20: actually had some sort of social life for a very brief time, ended up falling out with pretty much everyone I knew, literally had to turn a girl down twice even though she liked me, eventual mental break down
>age 21: completely lost year of my life, failed a year of college and lost my job
>age 22: turns out I was autistic, where do I go from here?
I'm turning 25 next month and I'm still a virgin.
It's always been nagging me, but it was the kind of dull pain that you never pay much attention to. "Something'll come up eventually."
Well, it didn't. Never did any girl from uni get close to me despite me trying. Never did my friends introduced me to anybody. Never. I've gone to exactly one date in my life and that was eight years ago.
And now I'm panicking so hard that I spent all summer sleeping 2-3 hours a night and went full skellington losing 20 kilos because I can't eat.
I want to kill myself and I am so ashamed and I have no way out.
she like so burnt right now and think she le like having kids
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>have a rough breakup last June
>paranoid Social anxiety gf doesn't like me hanging out with friends, doesn't join ever
>Gets mad if I even mention their names
>Hang out with them one night, haven't seen them in weeks
>gf gets mad, drinks vodka until she's in a stupor
>Threatens to cut herself if I don't come over
>Sprint over, spend the next hour getting vodka thrown in my face and verbally abused while pleading with her
>Defuse situation, in the morning we basically agree it's over
>End on good terms, have concert tickets together but she never showed or replied to texts
>Fast forward to today
>Graduated college earlier, landed a job and am moving
>Come back to the old stomping grounds to have lunch with an old coworker
>He doesn't show, doesn't reply until 2 hours later
>She's here with coworkers
>Awkward but I drove 90 minutes and ran 7 miles this morning, I'm eating damnit
>Order and go out to the patio, she's eating inside
>Have to get within like 5ft of her to get a drink
>Stick around to maybe see if she wants to say hi after, don't expect much
>She bolts out of the restaurant a little later, all 3 of her coworkers follow and stare at me
She said I was stalking her didn't she
I know you're in pain. You can try and hide and pretend that you're this incredibly strong individual, but you can fool me. Keep on lying, protect your pride, but I won't give up on you.
>but I won't give up on you
Thanks because I was very close to giving up on myself recently.
Guess I'll keep going _____, let me know when you need me. Also I'm going to keep hiding the pain.
as a good looking dude i hate how i can't be friendly with people without it being construed as flirting. i hate how insecure people act around me. i can't stand the qualities people assume i have because i'm fit and have a nice face. people assume i'm single so that i can fool around with multiple women. nerds assume i'm a meathead jock and get doubly insecure when they learn i'm a bigger nerd than they are. mid women assume i'm not attracted to them so they act mean af. gay men won't ever fuck off, they're everywhere pretending to be a friend. i feel like i rarely ever get to interact with actual people, instead i get to interact with some guard routine subconsciously cobbled together to protect people's fragile egos, or some lie to garner my approval. why can't more people be real?
I don’t consider myself especially handsome but I can relate. I’m normally a friendly person and people often get the wrong impression when I just want to talk and make friends. It’s gotten me into awkward situations with men and women.
I lost my job 6 months ago. I can't even get a new job in the field because I'm a brainlet. I don't think I'm intelligent enough to do anything outside of menial labor because I'm a good for nothing retard who can't retain information. I can read something, understand it fairly well, then the next day have absolutely no recollection of it. I'm incapable of learning or growing. I can't do anything right.
I think I will do another painting today !
>found out that a group of friends is planning to go on my country's equivalent to comic con
>another friend is going with his fucking company because his boss is into nerdy stuff
>another friend is going with pretty much his entire family
yes. i am jealous. i am angry. i am sad too.
it feels like i'm always in the wrong place. wrong work. wrong family. is it something to do with me? why is it like this??
I never claimed to be intelligent. Other people just labelled me as that. I'm just observant and abstract, so I don't know why you insists that I'm not that smart. Must be a mansplanning, thing I guess.
what if I paint my nails ! it's like im in boygenius !
Also I honestly don't know who or what you want me to be. It's unfair. I just want to be me.
jigglypuff ?
No, kitty kat
im sending you looking at out into the clouds (dafuqboom) meme !
Ok
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No typing on the keyboard, bad kitty!
they're trying to ruin cows for me again .
this is a gift from a friend ! I didn't paint this !
It's nice
thankyou !
Nicole.
and a shy guy sent a cruiser out
Please just react to my text or something give me a crumb of attention I'm begging you oh lord have mercy
I need anything from you please
I had a bad day I was lonely and sick and you are the person I wanted to hear from the most but you ignored my texts.
You said I could text you a bunch and not to overthink it
I'm overthinking it
I need the validation cuz I'm pmsing hard and I'm not feeling well
>fat
>ugly
>poor
>dead end job
>wnbarw
>only person I like and who likes me already has an SO
Waiting for the energy to kill myself
The Father and Jesus still love you and are waiting for you to talk to em. Go do it now while you're still live on this world...please.
First of all you woke up today.
That's a gift in its own.
You can hold a job. Shit anon, that's a fucking achievement in its own.
Yes you're lonely, that's alright. We all are, but that also means you have time you can use. You have freedom. Freedom is lonely, because you don't have to cater your life to anyone else. Go for walk. 5 minutes. Then maybe 10 the next time. Little by little that's time that you of yesterday didn't use one something productive. Every day you wake up you have the power to be better than the you from yesterday. Drink water. Hydrate.
Go to sleep early. Wake up early.
Slow down when you do eat. Try to taste every nuance in you meal. Even if you eat the same thing eat day. Coffee? Take time to smell it. It smells lovely.
Get fresh air. Lift. Not to get women, lift to see what your body can do. Don't die without knowing what you are capable of. You see your Magnum Opus.
You got a bed tonight? Be thankful for it.
You got an apartment? Be thankful for it.
Got a shower with both hot and cold water? Go take a shower, stand in the water. Feel that on your skin. Be thankful for it.
Also, if they like you? Sure they have an SO, but it means you have qualities they see. You have value, even if it's as a friend. You brighten up their day. That means, and you never know if you quit, that someday you'll bump into someone that likes you and doesn't have an SO.
It's not easy but a lot can change in 5 years. Hell, a lot can change in months.
Trust me. My life was way different months ago. Yeah, I'm lonely. Very much so, but who knows I now have my hands empty to find someone that won't abuse me.
I never thought I'd ever get a response in one of these threads, but thank you anon. I needed it tonight.
It's alright anon. Really it is. Feeling down is normal. Life is hard, and some days really are harder than others. Sometimes it feels like everyone else has it planned out. They don't. Very few of us have things planned out. Even less have our plans actually working out.
You are doing your best. Really that's all that matters. Do your best today. If you always do that little extra everyday? That shit adds up. Like adding grains of sand on a scale. Don't compare yourself to the people shoveling sand on their scales. If you are having a rough time and a few grains is all you can muster? Bro, that's more grains than last time.
Life is a marathon, not a race. Sure the ones that rush through get a nice shiny medal, but they didn't take the time to enjoy the route. To feel the crunch of leaves under their feet. To see the smiles on people's faces or slap the hands of people as you run. And if it takes you a long time? And the crowds leave? It gets lonely, but you'll know you did the marathon. And that matters. There are people that never even made it to the end. People that never even started.
Enjoy life, even of no one is watch. Especially when no one watches. That's when you get to spent time with the most person in your life, you. Each day is a chance you get to treat that important person with kindness, compassion and respect. You deserve it anon.
im at the point of unleashing the autism but it might get someone fired but the alternative is an expletive ridden meltdown and quitting
dont know what to choose
I wanted us to spend our futures together. You wanted to spend your future alone- while keeping me on standby. That's not good enough for me.
a yeti doing that
like a shy guy said that you can't expect that a new age beluga think of life like a bbc
my baby momma is taking the kids 2hrs away and is talking to some new guy 🙁
you keep hinting at killing yourself and each day i hope to hear youve done it
im tired of your shit
Life sorta sucks. Going where I want to go but demons are obscuring my path and ruining my quality of life. I pray to be stronger in order to vanquish them
I have a even new interest ! in presenting my paintings and photography at a san francisco gallery and am that excited to meet yayoi again ! I am very happy that I recieved this invite from san francisco california united states !
I plan on killing myself in 2031, once my youngest graduates highschool and moves out. This way my wife won't need to raise our kids alone, and hopefully my children can process my death a bit better. I'm going to write each of them personalized notes explaining my thoughts and feelings regarding them personally, and hopefully giving a bit of closure.
It's truly wild just how many red flags you overlook when you have feelings for someone
im so close to stomping on their head when tey least expect
I like schmookems that much !
Good riddance, narcissistic trash
likewise
I’m so sorry. I just wish that we could talk. I want to text you so badly, but I know that I have to respect your boundaries.
Thanks for texting me back now I won't kill myself tonight
i need a benzo or some shit to calm down im agitated
I took something like that and Nyquil, good buzz going on
recs?
im justb on a shitload of drink but angry
nope, anit-anxiety med and Nyquil. Was anxious and angry earlier, but numb now. Did something happen to make you angry?
>Did something happen to make you angry?
my coworker has been arguing everyday with his """girlfriend""" because hes an insecure cunt and im going to go in tomorrow and tell therm its him or me
im tired of this shit and hes barely even doing his work every fucking day she needs to show every pillar and post on a video call or he gets assmad and complains the whole day and says hes done and cant do this anymore
fuck it im cutting it there because im getting more angry just typing because im reliving listening to this shit
oh, shitty co worker, yeah they suck. Can you work away from him or get assigned somewhere else?
>Can you work away from him or get assigned somewhere else?
nope
literally the the two of us in one room
Oh fuck, sorry you have to deal with a toxic co worker.
bro im close to committing a crime
this nigga doesnt shut up
Hey, no one's worth going to jail over but yeah he needs to shut up and work
i know im just so fucking tired of the noise
i have autism i cant deal with this shit
im sorry
I understand. It's worse when people can't just shut up and you really want them to. Maybe change the subject on him or wear earphones?
idk my headphones dont filter voice by design and this shit keeps going on
ive talked to them twice and the first time hey said they knew it was annoying and said other people had complained and the second time they were dismissive
either ill quit or they'll get fired but theyrll be a resolution. i just dont want to press the issue and end up coming up short because im not the charismatic one. i dont even want to get then fired but despite conversations the shit continues
im just massively stressed and my usually drink cope isnt working
>ive talked to them twice and the first time hey said they knew it was annoying and said other people had complained and the second time they were dismissive
What a jackass, but maybe try changing the subject on him every time he brings up his gf? If only to stop him talking or annoy him. Sounds like you should look for another job if you can.
I left to respect your boundaries. You don't want me as a part of your life- message received.
Thank you.
I fucked up massively. I took mortgage on possibly the worst condo I could find. The sad thing is that I didn't even get it discounted for much compared to other condos that were in a better shape and in a good location. I just got it because I was desperate and wanted to get out of the house search hunt. It was my first place and I bought it completely on my own. I wish someone could give me an advice on what to avoid or what to look for, but the only person who was going through the process with me was the realtor and he clearly didn't give a single fuck about the fact I was buying a shithole because he wanted to get his pay asap.
Now I regret it, living in a shitty dark condo and paying mortgage on top of it.
I guess the bright side of it is that I now have more motivation to earn money and pay off the mortgage so I can sell this dump and find a better place with more knowledge on what to look for. God I wish I could turn back time and not sign on this fucking offer
I've decided to open up about my problems but at this point I am pathologically unable to be honest. Typical 'no no I'm fine' shit when I feel absolutely horrible. The reasons for feeling like shit are genuinely out of my control (neurological problem causing mood swings, depression, fatigue, etc) but I feel guilty for talking about feeling bad.
In reality, this image is actually bullshit. He-Man and similar entertainment do fuck up men's mental health over time. Men just don't vocalize their problems. Instead, they let them fester. Irritability is male depression. A shit ton of men are suffering from untreated depression stemming from a negative self-image and intense inner critic that they convert into addictive and abusive behaviors of various kinds. Additionally, most men are just as bad at communicating their emotional needs as women are. Men have the tendency to squash their emotions and mask them in sexual desire because they've been indoctrinated to think being horny is manlier than being emotional.
>they've been indoctrinated to think being horny is manlier than being emotional
there's no thinking or transference of one or more emotions into horny, men are just horny, and for a lot of us sex is an act of deep love and intimacy that we desperately crave and want to express, so yea, we're horny, and it probably means more than either of us think.
>it probably means more than either of us think
We're repressed. We don't let ourselves or other men grieve or get sad, and it eventually turns into self-hatred and lust.
>turns into
[citation needed]
Grow up with an alcoholic father and you'll witness it in real time.
What was that like?
Like living with Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
I’m sorry you went through that anon. Do you have a relationship with your father now?
Not really, he's an invalid now. He let himself fall apart — he became obese, lost all of his teeth, and burned many bridges with family and friends. When he got drunk, he'd break stuff, corner you, shout in your face, and gaslight you, but it was all because he was tormented by an inner critic.
That’s awful; I’m so sorry. How do you think that your experiences growing up with him have affected you in your adult life?
I have STPD and am in therapy and on fluoxetine. It took me a long time before reaching out.
I’m glad you’ve been able to get help.
I also had an abusive father, although he wasn’t an addict. I have PTSD because of it. It took me a long time to reach the point where I was able to actually go to therapy and seek help, so in that sense I can relate to you.
i said citation, not stupid anecdote you wildly misinterpret.
kys, citations are for midwits
>midwit
More than anything, I want you to be a part of my life.
How do you guys cope with the fact you are physically ugly and the envy towards good looking people? Just learned about clint walker and I am quite jealous and envious of that prick. Incredible how lucky some people get
i m*sturbated to the thought (idea, not anyone real) of another dick than my ex for the first time ever. it makes me feel slightly guilty but also slightly relieved. like i feel turned off by him even tho i still have some feelings and love/care for him, its not romantic. i feel like i deserve better. im not sure how or why my brain made the switch.
Short list of regrets (to be expanded later)
>not being insane, straight-A student in 8th grade through high school. also not doing better in sports and getting full-ride athletic scholarship to an Ivy
>failing that, not serving in the military after high school
>being so jealous and insecure
>not developing self-discipline and the ability to focus
>not overcoming my imposter syndrome
>not controlling my emotions, especially my anger
>not working on developing my maturity
Please just talk to me. You know how much I love you. Please don’t be mad anymore.
I texted and emailed some terrible things to you and I’m so sorry. I was hurting so much and I was desperate to make the pain go away. I felt as though I was losing my grip on reality and losing control, as though I couldn’t stop. I had never acted that way before what happened last year, and l never want to act that way again. Please don’t define me by the worst things that I’ve ever done. Please at least try to understand.
It bothers me so much that I'm not conventionally attractive.
I'm 31, male, and do honestly do fine with women anyway. It shouldn't bother me this much. Being depressed with not being genetically blessed with effortless beauty is for young girls, not established grown-ass men lmao
But I can't lie to you, /adv/, or even myself! It bothers me, it bothers me every single day.
It bothers me that I am latino, don't fit in, am a moron, am a weirdo, am a creep, and can't get my life together.
it's understandable anon, you spend years grinding your income/looks/social skills just so your success rate can go from 0% to like 5%, and then you see how chicks gawk at even the most raggedy-ass awkward dudes just for being skinny and 6'4" and it feels like it was all for nothing, or at least deeply unfair
fundamentally it's an issue of wanting what you can't have. if you were conventionally attractive you would just wish you were a different type of conventionally attractive, i.e. cute twinks wishing they were buff chads or vice-versa
Fuck she really is ignoring me. My letter begging her to take me back is for nothing.
I’m going to kill myself.
You begged. That put her in a higher position than you. The sentiment and effort to win back her affection is admirable, but begging is the equivalent of a dog showing another its belly. Most women instinctively dislike overly submissive men. She likely moved on emotionally 3-6 months before things ended, unless you fucked around and got found out. In that case the bridge was burned the moment you got caught.
Move on, she doesn't give a shit about you anymore. Took me 4 years to learn this lesson.
I love you so much. I’m so sorry for everything. Please talk to me. Please just try.
My gf is a wonderful person and probably the best one I've had yet, but my ex was incomparably prettier and I was much happier with her. I wouldn't leave my gf for her or even take her back without her doing 3 things she's too proud to do though.
I want to be happy you have your old job back but I hardly recognize you anymore nowadays. Also holy fuck I can’t stand some of your friends. Absolutely obnoxious twats.
You have the most adorable laugh I’ve ever heard. I love your eyes, too. Why do you have to be such a cunt sometimes?
Just asked my crush out and she said yes. I mentioned it offhand to a group of my coworkers who immediately started scouring the office to figure out who it was so I forced myself to go talk to her first before they did. It was probably the best thing that could've happened and I doubt I would've got the courage had they not pushed me into it.
But where do I go from here? I haven't dated in almost 15 years.
What am i supposed to do?
>be interested in a female friend from a female friend
>shes nerdy, introverted and takes care if herself
>never talked to her
>friend says, in order to talk to her i need to wait until i can meet her randomly at a party
>this could take weeks
>be me yesterday
>buying groceries
>scanning 12 packs of milk at the self checkout
>cute cashier comes, used her card so i dont need to scan every pack one by one
>"let me help you or else it would take forever to scanner all those one by one"
>"...uuuh i cant count...."
>i said nothing, because i thought she was joking or would get it any moment
>why isnt she sayibg anything...
>"its twelve!" she told me
>i say "yes, twelve is right!"
>she logged it in, said bye and walked fast away
i barely know anything about those girls and theyre both pretty but i think the nerdy girl would suit me more but who knows when i will see her? Also i dont know if she would fancy me
the other girl i will see today, i could ask her out but she seems more normal. on the other hand i think shes interested in talking to me. she also initiated smalltalk once before. i also believe she wants my organs or something like that. im a 5/10 or 6/10 and im not much taller than her at 5'9 so i dont know why she would like me
what should i do?
Good night dear anon.
Planning to move out around the 20th, stressed because I don't know how to tell people at large
Don't. You don't need to.
When I'm moving out I'm doing it as discretely as possible, I don't want anyone coming over unless I really trust them.
It’s the first night everyone is back at uni and my friend group ghosted me. We had plans to go to the club and then everyone collectively ignored me and hung up on my calls while they drank. I don’t even know what I fucking did I asked and they ignored that too. What the fuck man these are my only friends.
You dumb whore I don't miss you and I don't care anymore after all the shit you pulled treating me the way you did. HAHAHAHAHAHA you dumb whore...
Fight the future.
I think I am gonna kill myself. I ruined my chances with the best girl I’d ever met, who loved me for being goofy and loved my singing and wanted to marry me. And I I met her push me away.
What’s the point anymore? Now I have to see her every day talking to everyone else.
Life keeps going up and down and I have no idea anymore.
Things break when they shouldn't and work when they shouldn't.
I like things I shouldn't and dislike or get bored by things I should like.
Feels like I'm living someone else's life, but when I try to assert myself it still backfires.
I get enthusiastic for things, then the enthusiasm dies out quickly.
I want to be both away and close with people.
Breaks aren't breaks anymore. Despite all my effort i fall from one cage to another.
There is stuff that I should make up on mind on, yet I feel clueless at what to choose.
I don't fucking know
I don't understand what I have that brings them in.
>19yo qt that I just talk to from time time at the dog park started talking ti me about more personal stuff seems interested in me
>she knows I'm fresh out of a relationship that went to shit
>she was friends with my ex
>she knows I'm far older than her at 34
>asking if we can hang out outside the park
What the fuck am I doing right? Because I need to know.
I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit I quit FUCK ALL OF YOU FUCK YOU ALL DIE BURN IN HELL
Holy shit. I don't deserve my parents.
Sure they didn't equip me with the emotional security needed to be an adult but damn.. they keep helping me.
>move across the country
>they buy me a new car, and pay about 26k out the 31k price
>have trouble getting work, relationship becomes abusive
>mom sends me 5k to clean up my debt
>years go by, ex didn't work didn't do shit but spend money I didn't have
>relationship goes to shit
>on my own, they ask what my plans are
>plan to go back to school after clearing my debt
>mom simply says that if it's all I need to go back she'll bail me out
In 5 years, she's given me about 40k.
Holy shit, I just realized how much she's given me in the process of writing this.
I want to cry. I don't deserve my parents. I'll never be able to pay them back.
My parents bailed me out to from 18-25. At 25 I said guys give me 2 months to find a good job or kick me out .
I found sales and will make 125k this year, and they are so happy they are letting me stay even longer to save up for some land quicker .
Point is, be bailed by your parents, but spin that shit around and gift them in return. I can’t wait to buy my parents house off for them. I’ve told them a hundred times that them giving me some time and space let me find the RIGHT job, not the first one that came up.
Thanks anon.
Why do I feel bad? It's out of love that she wants to help. I'm 34 yo man, I should have been smarter than to let myself get trapped and then got myself into this situation. That's my mentality. "If I dug myself here, I'll dog myself out."
To was going to take me years to pay this off. She just asks that I sign up and start classes ASAP. Which at this point, I'll be starting in the fall. I already have an AS, time to bring it to the end.
I don't think I'll ever be able to repay their kindness, but I can try.
>Going back to school at 34
Unbelievably based. I believe in you anon. You can and will turn your life around for the better. You're not alone.
And don't worry too much about your parents. All they want is for you to be happy, and I'm sure they would be willing to pay any amount to see you succeed. That's the best way to pay them back.
Bro if you’re a good person then it sounds like your mom just wants her creation to be happy and smile at her every now and then. Anything you do on top of that is an extra bonus to her! So feel free to go explore and make something of yourself, you have someone that loves you and has your back. Not many get that in life .
Thanks. I actually teared up a little.
It's something I'm still learning to embrace. Every time I call them, they always tell me they are so proud of me.
I never feel worthy of being told they are proud of me. I'm trying to pick myself up, to put back the shards that make up my cup. Trying to live better. Even before all this, they were proud of me. When I was a living corpse of a man, they were proud of me.
Damn, never mind I'm crying now.
This was the one thing I'd been trying to figure out after the breakup. How to progress with my life. I'm grateful for all that I do have, I have a lot, but I do aspire for more.
im so glad i didnt send those texts when i was in my feelings.
i would have looked like an insane person...
what the fuck is happening? I used to spend a lot of time alone and be very content with that, I didn't really feel lonely or like I needed someone to talk to
then I joined a college club and I thought I would try to socialize and hang out with the other members, too, because why not and despite meeting some new people I actually feel loneliness now
idk maybe it's all my head and I am just being a whiny bitch but it's like I suddenly realized how anxious I am in social situations and how hard it is for me to make meaningful bonds, I feel like everyone is much closer to each other and I am kind of the tag-along kid I don't even know if they truly like or care about or not
my attempt to become social really backfired, I used to never feel lonely being by myself and now I often feel soul-crushing loneliness and hopelessness
maybe I just need some more time for my mind to become acclimatized to all of that since I think I have missed some crucial years of social development
>be 2015
>recently quit smoking weed
>cut out people who sold/did it
>crave it
>out for a late night walk one night
>find a broken discarded glass bowl (the removable piece for a bong)
>it has a ton of resin
>bring it home and scrape it
>smoke it for about a week
Looking back that was stupid not only just as but it could've been contaminated by any number of other substances. I very well could've smoked crack but then again I don't think anybody would bother doing that with a bong. picsimilar
i want a girlfriend and i've been looking and putting myself out there for 11 years now with zero success, ive been doing the same with work and nothing at all comes from my efforts i feel cursed, its like no matter what i do im forced to stay stuck sprinting in place desperate to move in any shape or form whilst all these cunts around me get everything with zero effort, its not fucking fair, i get nothing but these awful bitches that ignore me, use me for sex or lead me on then try to pretend its okay to treat me like shit while all my friends get to be in love and happy with their partners and land jobs within days of applying while i get fuck all back, i fucking hate it, its not natural it cant be.
I feel like such a fucking loser. I'm 26 and never been in a serious long term relationship. There's undoubtedly something really wrong with me.
Literally me, i turned 26 2 days ago and all ive managed to get is a goth bitch that cheated on me in a month.
Why is it so important to be in a serious relationship?
Because it's a sort of milestone to me. It shows that I have become good enough to be in a relationship with someone.
Do you have a loving relationship with yourself?
No. I'm better than where I was even last year, but I still beat myself up about things and I still have some suicidal ideation. But there are depressed people, and people with low self esteem that get into relationships.
Okay. Yes.
But do you want a proper loving relationship where you both can grow close and grow as people into better versions of yourselves?
Or are you simply looking for someone to fill the empty space in your life and soul? Thus simply taking anyone, normally when you're wounded you bring others with wounds upon their heart. So you'll only attract a person who's looking to fill the void. Resulting, instead of love, with a trauma bond. And eventually one of you will become abusive and break the other leaving them in pieces. Which ends with you surprised that there's an actual rock bottom when you thought you were already there?
I get that. I definitely don't want to rush into something bad, but I still feel like I'm missing out. Like I said I'm 26 and I feel odd seeing people significantly younger than me in relationships when I'm over here all alone, and I guess part of that self blame is beating myself up about that. FOMO is just a bitch I guess.
How do you condition yourself to like foreigners? They multiplying like hell so you'll eventually have to get along with them
i have to slowly wean myself off her so my spending on her is going to get smaller and smaller from now on
no more big spending sprees on her
no more feeling anxious when someone else gives her stuff
i will slow down my spending and eventually stop altogether and move on from her
she for the streets anyway
Its honestly just so pathetic how badly I want her. She doesn't even give a shit about me. I need to move on.
Does she know you want her?
Yeah, she does, and it honestly make it even more pathetic lol
Many such cases
I was shooting at some fish in quake. I was taunting them because I entered the water and I was still not afraid of them. I was not talking out loud, just thinking. I thought: you're not a threat, just tasty fish (ignoring that they are kost likely undead). And then I remembered you hate the taste of fish. You're going to live rent free inside my head for years aren't you? How pathetic. But really, it doesn't matter. We are still not talking to eachother ever again (not that you care, as much as I want to hurt you with things like this, that's just me being pathetic again).
What a shit fucking post. I almost don't want to post it.
why do i keep messaging her these things about my life when i know for a fact she couldn't care less?
a funny anecdote - am i hoping she will laugh along with me?
some tidbit i found interesting - hoping she will ask follow up questions?
it's honestly pathetic...
i am absolute trash
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It's Austin, he goes to elementary schools to stab children. His thought process is beyond human understanding.
im actually a girl ! that's propaganda we sent to africa ! im apart of the redding city council and one of the main buildings engineers ! im friends with michael and the judge !
I'm sorry for misgendering you but the judge was very clear you need to be rehabilitated and I'm not seeing any paintings.
you're getting arrested for being this much of a stupid uprep homosexual .
leaf metal is that heavy !
>find out I look like Rivers Cuomo
>day ruined
jej !
I'd take it man.
He's not ugly. Just a normal dude.
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I think we can all agree that all social media should have dislike buttons
But sometimes i really wish that there was also a kill yourself button that unlocks after a video has accumulated enough dislikes
I wish I could go back to the days of eating chicken wings and watching linkin park WoW movies just for one day
Yeah
Just emailed a girl who blocked me on everything else
>girl is insecure and standoffish
>gets bf
>suddenly has confidence to interact and flirt, much to insecure bf's dismay
not everyone can handle the crucible
I seem to have found myself in a precarious situation with men.
I’m in a committed relationship and have no intention of quitting before I put in the time and effort necessary to make it work. I love my man so very much, he accepts me physically and still finds me attractive even though I was a mega-fatty who lost a lot of weight.
At least I want to trust him when he says that. My libido is super high, and his used to be super high but it seems like a lot has changed since the start of our relationship… I’m a pretty passive and submissive individual, so he controls most of the content we watch and consume together and just overall struggles with being thoughtful. He really does try though especially here recently after I’ve expressed those sentiments to him, he’s kind and patient and I love him. I won’t give up on him because I value loyalty.
Seems like god and the devil are placing bets on me now though. They’ve summoned a demon out of the abyss who shares waaaay too much in common with me and is stupidly thoughtful. He’s a mega flirt and usually I would be too even in a relationship but my man has some (understandable and rational) worries over that. I don’t want to not have this friend because I’ve struggled in general to make deeper connections with people and don’t want to miss a good opportunity.
But, man are my limits being tested between them. I’m not going to cheat, I refuse to. I respect both of them so much more than that. It’s put me into an existential crisis like no other situation has. I’ve had my physical and mental limits tested by a hard and horrible life, but having my values tested is proving to be a straw that might break me mentally for good.
And your name is KATNISS EVERDEEN the girl on fire
I like your reference funny anon, I’ll go find a hunger game to participate in later
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im walking in the building !
Yeah yeah, keep making paintings and posting pictures of rocks so we don't send you to Alaska.
alright man, its over
I was evacuated successfully ! thankyou redding police department !
mr . dave lombardo of slayer and win river had that load up once ! they didn't do the graphics well and it looked like clay . I know a melt pig that will try and do it ! I know a person who wants wheels to be their thing do that ! she'll like le sex pig out ! im walking in the building !
I literally have chris nelson ' s phone number saved on my phone !
Oh deathhh take me awaayy
death is from redding california shasta county united states ! they did that many shows in flordia and idaho !
bro
I've fucked four guys this summer so I went and got tested today I hope I'm ok. I feel ok but you never know. No aids pls
it's like !
I have a sludge band and play drums
and like
im sending all of you austin schumacher tranny portrait meme !
new sex pig craze is not turning out as planned .
we are now investigating bogus claims that are trying to lead to an abduction and defamation of austin evan schumacher who went to pioneer .
austin evan schumacher is signed to a few record labels and we can do the graphics game too . austin evan schumacher and phoebe lucille bridgers are in a relationship with each other and all rancherias are in communication with each other regarding this incident . austin evan schumacher is the recording drummer for phoebe bridgers and no matter what plays on all of the recordings . austin evan schumacher is also the recording drummer for boygenius and is a transsexual .
I am grateful to God for having people that are naturally and truly genuine be drawn to me and people that are superficial and fake (lot of em) be repelled by me. Although it leaves me to be alone a lot, I'm truly never alone anyway.
im walking in the building !
anyone on propranolol for anxiety? just started today, hope it works.
Oh boy it's that time of the day again.
it's a shrub painting ! im literally one of the janitors !
I see you are representing big paper. For the sake of the internet, I cannot let you get away with this.
iwjdhwj shrub metal is a new thing ! im sending you a meme !
I never had a pool, but I saw the news today. A drone guy flew over a few backyard pools and added green dye to the pool water. I don't think the man had any bad intentions. Pools needed to be cleaned all the time anyway, and if you don't have a pool, you may not know the real consequences. I read the comments, and the people seem to really hate the guy. One person even calls him a sociopath. Imagine if somebody calling a man a sociopath over graffiti. The green dye wasn't toxic. According to a comment, the dye dissolves fast, so the prankster is probably going to have to pay for "cleaning" that already happened automatically. Times had really changed, I guess.
Don't fuck with people's property. They aren't his fucking pools. You can't just go around doing whatever you fucking want to people's shit and the fact you're defending a grown ass man's deviant behavior tells me everything I need to know about you
He has no respect for anybody he needs to be fucking taught a lesson. Honestly guys like that deserve to get beaten up
>man deserves violence over prank that fixes itself
It's literally less harmful than tp and eggs. And at least then food or other important necessities are being wasted.
I love the fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous so much. nothing else has been so real, supportive, and there for me.
LULZ is getting scooped .
what's going on on?
Protein scoops brah
I’ve lost interest in nearly everything that once brought me happiness.
I’ve had depressive episodes before, but there was always some sort of goal that would spark a little bit of inspiration.
Now there’s nothing. I’ve truly become apathetic and I’m scared I won’t be able to snap out of this. I feel like I died 2 years ago or that my life will soon be over.
I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of hoping to hear from you, I'm sick of feeling like I don't matter. I'm still going to stay around because I'm retarded.
You will always have my silence.
kys
I want to but my parents would be sad
Just found out my girlfriend has a diaper fetish that includes piss and scat what the fuck do I do
lucy dacus is a mutt !
I want a latina wife from Columbia or Venezuela but I have no money to go there >;(
You have a goal, it's time to grind for it.
After 2 years of subterfuge, subliminal messaging and very subtly suggestions I finally convinced my wife to have a threesome with her female best friend.
It worked so well she now lives with us and I fuck her without my wife.
Life is good.
id remind that me walking with chinese military isn't a joke !
shut the fuck up
I like
know how to speak mongolian
. .
and like
know how to speak japanese !
kirby math !
You're not scared of god, you're scared of your mom's pussy
So from what I've determined, the aggro posters are doing it out of self loathing.
This is the origins of the cope meme (or at least its overuse). It's Darwinite psychological warfare by the normies. But they're not normies.
They're fucking like us but they hate themselves and so they hate us too. They're traitors.
Who is responsible for the LULZ civil wars? Noted.
I am very impressed with something . .
Your art is shitty. Try harder. This isn’t even art. It was probably made in 5 minutes
millipedes don't like you .
I miss you a lot today, not that you care
They might care, and miss you, too. But you two are unable to find peace together.
FUCK ALL OF YOU LUCKY COCKSUCKERS IM TIRED OF COPING AND PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS FINE. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUUUUUCK YOUUUU
Go on anon, make the news.
Then change your life. It’s not going to change itself. Stop bitching and moaning about how unfair it is and get off your ass.
I saw dimitri (a cat) stick his tongue out !
Cute!
Ok
LMOOOO it's actually gotten to the point where I've self harmed for the first time in my life, I'm actually hitting myself in the head like a complete crazy person. I'm so off the rails.
You’re not crazy. You’re trying to cope with intense emotions. You’re human. Of note, there are healthier ways to move through stress, which you can explore with time.
I used to do that, I think it gave me a bit of brain damage. One time I hit my head a couple of times with a thick hard book and I had a headache for a few days.
im friends with morbid angel !
Go bond with your ex more you fucking whore what are you trying to do by trying to get my attention I'm not talking to you until you stop...
Looks like I got your attention
I plan on approaching someone I've been interested in since last year tomorrow but I keep getting nervous about it. I feel like they're interested, but also like I'm being delusional about the whole thing. I think it's the fear of rejection kicking in.
So thats it, right? We will just keep accepting less and less from women because social media fucked up all of us more than ever? It's insane. I've had a few relationships but as years went by things started to get really fucking horrible. Its like every girls is acting like a 10/10 literally because they can do it and still get what they need. I just refuse to eat shit. Fucking hell.
>give a shit about you not just as a boss, but as a human being, worrying about your health and stress
>get "rewarded" with awkward scheduling, more responsibility than what I'm paid, co-workers getting away with dumb shit, all with no confidence in a raise or promotion in sight
I didn't even do that to you to shit to rise up, but fuck me, no wonder no one cares about you.
Please stop haunting me, please get out of my head
i would wife you up, give you a house, kids, everything you say is your dream... but you won't act right. i keep giving you a chance and you keep throwing it in my face every opportunity you get. you probably don't even care but your window of time is running out. i can't ask you to act right, you just have to do it.
So you want her to read your mind AND under an unspoken deadline? Yikes
>So you want her to read your mind
no just the Bible.
What is she doing that's not acting right?
so many things. honestly i have no business even being attracted to her, red flag city. she's like a siren though and makes me forget all that, and i would but only if she adopted my values.
I'll pray for her, and you should do. Before you expect her to adopt your values, you should embody them yourself. You can't expect a broken person who doesn't know Jesus, to behave like Him. Pray for her.
Too*
thanks, i appreciate it, and you're right. i see her watching me sometimes and i can tell she hates how friendly i am with other women as much i hate it when she gets too friendly with other guys. i haven't always been a good representative of Christ.
im like
getting married tomorrow !
🙂
congrats anon.
i hate my family. i dont even have one honestly despite living with them, doing things for and with them. i’m miserable. they either are abuse me or completely ignore me. i also don’t have any real genuine friends. the only thing that i do have is money. money to get tf away. i want to cut off all contact.
I want to text you so badly, but I can’t. I just wish that we could talk.
i like black girls, i find black skin to be beautiful, but i can't get used to their hair
Same
i can handle braids or a fro but the whole wig thing weirds me out. i stopped hanging out with a hot white chick because she liked wearing wigs.