if you, like me, are trans then you know firsthand the effects this board can have on your mind. i can personally attest to gaining many new sources of dysphoria and shame since finding it.
I think it is good to want to improve yourself. i think stagnation is a bad thing for people. i want you to achieve your best version of yourself. try to have some compassion for yourself along this hard journey. if you bring your unhappiness all the way along with all your changes, you will still find something to be unhappy about.
this may sound white mom preachy but it is huge drain of your energy to worry about things you cannot change. you are worth the effort it takes to reframe your thoughts and get happier.
the life of a tranner is not easy, try not to be another addition to your own stress.
i love you.
feel free to use this thread to share your thoughts or vent.
shut the fuck up weak fucking homosexual.
have a good one
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yeah I really should leave here but I also need the help with DIY, soon I'll be able to order it though and I'll try leave. just need to talk kver a plan with my therapist for telling my mom and dad I'm going on hormones cuz I still live at home and can't hide it forever
i hope it all works out for you. ive found therapy very helpful and hrt has only improved my life. best of luck
yeah it was nice when I was thinking I'm faking and rogd and that but now I'm more sure so I want to go on hrt, but should probably tell my mom and dad especially cuz they'd definitely disapprove if I didn't cuz they want me to wait until 25 to go on hrt which no lmao
as hard as it is, its your life not theirs. you gotta do what you can to improve your life. best of luck
i kinda wish i’d never came here. i’m ftm and all i can think when i look in the mirror is how disgusting and freakish i must be to people. i’m considering repping so i don’t have to deal with it. i wish i had a dick so i at least wasn’t so uncanny. i’m not sexy like a trans girl or a cis man. i’m just some weird fucked up thing that doesn’t even look remotely male, and even when i do look male it’s going to result in two ugly scars across my chest. i’m short, skinny, too fucking feminine. i’m a failed excuse for a man and even calling myself one before a drop of T has touched me feels like i’m appropriating something.
i hate it. i hate it so much, i want to die. but that would upset my mom, so i struggle on.
as far as i can be certain, we have this life. it is hard at times but we gotta try to make it better where we can. i hope it gets better for you,a nd you can enjoy more of this time we have on earth. i love you
I'm an early HRT trip and I feel like once I gain the validation from this Toxic board I will have conquered everything and truly be "beautiful" or "passable". I feel like every other space is too hugboxxy but I know this space is too somewhat :/
I wasn’t invited to my brother’s graduation even tho he says he wants me to come because my parents invited my insanely phobic grandparents (like, gpa has said “kill trannies”) without asking him.
I feel so alone. in case any chuds are tempted to tell me to 41 myself, I would but I need to get my little bro out of that shithole and you aren’t changing my mind about that.
that’s so shitty i’m sorry
at least ur brother loves u 🙂
you're 100% right and i wish more people would listen to this sentiment
I used to internalize so much of this boards culture and it took me a long time to begin to develop a healthier relationship with my appearance, it also held me back in transition a lot.
I know plenty of people from here who are the same, but I know some too that are still stuck internalizing everything and refuse to leave the safety of self-loathing, obsessing over the same things for years, the new sources of dysphoria and shame you mentioned.
There also seems to be a lot of young people now who see memes about this board from twitter or reddit and think it's some kind of cool subculture they desperately want to be a part of, so they force themselves to adapt the group beliefs but are overwhelmed by the amount they destroy your self esteem if you can't handle them. It's just a cluster of mostly chasers, transphobes, trolls and self-hating trans women that all work in tandem to reinforce the latter groups most self-destructive perceptions of themselves. There's also an obsession with "self-awareness", which people here equate to self-hatred, a need to distance themselves from the "other" trans which are unpassing and act "agp", as opposed to them, who despite believing themselves to be "hons" and "agp", are better than the other group because they "boymode", as to not subject others to the embarrassment they believe this other group to be.
>, who despite believing themselves to be "hons" and "agp", are better than the other group because they "boymode"
As a passoid they are doing all of us a favor by manmoding. Hons should never girlmode cringe transbian hons are why everone hate us.
I don't give a shit if it makes me or others cringe, part of passing is just luck and I don't believe people should repress themselves for life because of that.
People would hate us anyway, and regardless I think it's still stupid and wrong to hate an entire group of people, all with unique personalities, based on some people who belong to said group (that none of them chose to be in) doing something that you don't like.
Yea not because Christian fucks that want to gas us transfolk for existing. It the rapehons.
Hona don't boymode they manmode