feels

third night in a row im doing this, been getting good responses from people who seem to genuinely need a post like this.

how are you feeling? tell me your struggles anons, ill listen 🙂

enjoy the kitty 🙂

  1. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    kinda scared to feel hope again but im in a position where I could maybe be pursuing goals and friends and a relationship in earnest, fighting the urge to give up out of a fear of failing
    also thx 4 kot, looks just like the one I had growing up 🙂

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      these are good things. fear of the unknown can be applied to anything, but remind yourself youre in a good spot.

      Very stressed lately and anxious, but I have the day off tomorrow and was planning on baking a medovik tomorrow so I am excited about that
      How are you anon, also thats very cute cat

      days off are always fun. im fine anon, thanks 🙂

      hey anon, retard here! enjoying the kitties so far. how are you doing?

      im alright, welcome back fren 🙂

      No particular feels, but thanks for making a positive thread and posting cute kitty!

      you got it homie

      I'm a 24 year old virgin, and I have no idea how to even fix this. I'm in law school surrounded by people my own age, but I'm still the autist freak I was since adolescence. I can't go to social events because I act like a robot and my classmates are already awared to my autistic ways. I don't know where else to get a gf. Do I go to a bar by myself? Church? I wish I could just buy one.

      therapy is a good idea for pretty much anything like this. people think therapy is exclusively for those with mental illnesses/disorders - this isnt true. you can go to the therapist for help on pretty much anything related to your mental and emotional wellbeing.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >therapy is a good idea for pretty much anything like this
        Fuck off kike

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >NOOOOO YOU CANT JUST TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS WITH A PROFESSIONAL

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Have you actually gone to a therapist anon?

            • 2 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              not that anon, but therapy was garbage when I went. maybe it could be good with someone who is both motivated and experienced, but to be honest, there are very few people in this world who truly understand and can empathize with how people in this community feel.
              I think I scared my therapist with the truth so I just started lying so that I could get out of there.

            • 2 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              >i had one bad therapist therefore israeli
              you're retarded anon, if you get a bad haircut do you say that barbers are a israelite scam?

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I've been to several, dumbass and they were shit.

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >"""""""""""""""""professional"""""""""""""""""
            My post was too low in content apparently, shame I actually have to put in any effort into this post unlike therapists.

  2. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Very stressed lately and anxious, but I have the day off tomorrow and was planning on baking a medovik tomorrow so I am excited about that
    How are you anon, also thats very cute cat

  3. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    hey anon, retard here! enjoying the kitties so far. how are you doing?

  4. 2 weeks ago
    Shortposter

    No particular feels, but thanks for making a positive thread and posting cute kitty!

  5. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I'm a 24 year old virgin, and I have no idea how to even fix this. I'm in law school surrounded by people my own age, but I'm still the autist freak I was since adolescence. I can't go to social events because I act like a robot and my classmates are already awared to my autistic ways. I don't know where else to get a gf. Do I go to a bar by myself? Church? I wish I could just buy one.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >24 year old virgin
      >law school
      How is this possible? I am yet to meet a law student or lawyer who isn't a super social manipulator.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Yes everyone in my class is incredibly outgoing and socially competent. It's a bit hellish.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          Why on earth would you choose law dude, you're completely out of your element?

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Family trade, it was always my fate

            • 2 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              Fucking sucks man, seriously. You're obviously a very bright guy but this is not going to be a fun ride. I don't really know any type of job as a lawyer that doesn't require a very high level of social skills. Since it's something your family does, does that type of role exist?

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Most lawyers are not courtroom laywers. They mostly just sit in an office studying court cases and gathering good evidence that the courtroom laywers (actors) then use in court. basically glorified script writers. not much social skill needed for that job

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I'm not talking about courtroom lawyers, I was thinking of those involved in business mergers.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Yea there's lots of transactional law jobs that are appropriate for autists. routine paper shuffling type stuff like title work or a purgatory job in some government administratice office

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                So the jobs you mentioned, are you going to go for those?

  6. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    sup homosexual
    feeling good, been hitting the gym consistently for the past 3 months. just benched 2 plates for the first time a couple days ago and squatted 300 lbs for the first time yesterday.
    been drinking a lot and eating dairy queen so I havent really lost any weight. sucks, my diet can be perfect 6 days out of the week but going out once a week is keeping me from losing any weight.
    nice kitty. wish I could keep a kitty in the barracks but life aint kind to us incel types. everyone just got fucked up today because of a random barracks inspection and these nasty kids cant keep their shit clean. im being punished for not being able to find a wife basically.
    hope youre doing well. im doing ok i guess.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      you seem like a very dedicated person; keep it up.

      Its been nearly three years since I've seen my wife to be. I have not met my children. I've dug my heels in, got a good job, and am still spending every penny trying to make sure they have what they need, but I'm at my wits end. The day they come back has been pushed back so many times, I'm afraid the next date is going to get pushed back again and I don't think I can do this any longer. I'm tired. I'm drained. I have not satisfaction, or gratification. I've just kept my head down and done what I've supposed to without any more than the minimum of recognition for my actions. My parents think I'm lying and refuse to support me. My Successful sister doesn't even want to spare a penny.

      I have 100 dollars and don't get paid until the 30th. They're going to need more groceries between now and then. I'm not going to eat for a week this month again, aside from the gas station crap that our work covers.

      I just want them back. That's all I've ever wanted. I'm tapped out, physically, financially, and spiritually. But I can't turn my back on them without everyone eventually hating me, without being a piece of shit. Is this fatherhood? Is this the male experience? I can't do twenty years of this.

      im sorry to hear about all this. i really hope you can make ends meet, youre a very hard working man who i can tell just loves his children. continue pushing forward, people who put positivity into the world will be rewarded for their actions.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        I love them all. With all my heart. But I can't just put up and shut up any longer. I've tried my best despite the odds. I'm now on the tail end of my third 14 hour shift in a row and while it was easy in the beginning, I'm just worn out. I haven't taken a vacation in 6 years, long before I even met her. She almost died back in July and I took a week because I couldn't handle that and work at the same time, knowing that I might get the call while in the middle of nowhere lacking cell reception. Knowing that she might pass alone and unknown.

        Thank God she pulled through, but I had a patch of hair just go grey during that week.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          i promise you will reap the fruits of your labor one day friend, just keep going, what other option do you truly have?

          • 2 weeks ago
            Sage

            I don't want it to be one day. I need it to be now. It needed to be the day they were fucking born. The only fruit of my labour is my ever increasing urge to neck myself. I'm not even 100% that the situation is the truth. I truly hope it is, I don't want it to all be a lie. I'd hunt her to the ends of the earth and beyond if that were the case. But one can never be truly sure, I suppose.

            I don't know, I just look around see everyone else getting on with their lives. As far as I know, I haven't been able to find a single shred of anyone being able to relate to my experience. It just hasn't happened before. Whoever wrought covid upon this earth can die in a fucking fire. If I ever found out who caused all this, I'm going to fucking flsy them and drop them in a pile of flaming salt.

            Coworkers, friends, all question it all. Everybody had their doubts and you're the only person who's actually given me a bit of positive reinforcement in 3 years. Thank you anon. You're doing the lords work. I only hope I can report that everything worked out in a few weeks

  7. 2 weeks ago
    Sage

    Its been nearly three years since I've seen my wife to be. I have not met my children. I've dug my heels in, got a good job, and am still spending every penny trying to make sure they have what they need, but I'm at my wits end. The day they come back has been pushed back so many times, I'm afraid the next date is going to get pushed back again and I don't think I can do this any longer. I'm tired. I'm drained. I have not satisfaction, or gratification. I've just kept my head down and done what I've supposed to without any more than the minimum of recognition for my actions. My parents think I'm lying and refuse to support me. My Successful sister doesn't even want to spare a penny.

    I have 100 dollars and don't get paid until the 30th. They're going to need more groceries between now and then. I'm not going to eat for a week this month again, aside from the gas station crap that our work covers.

    I just want them back. That's all I've ever wanted. I'm tapped out, physically, financially, and spiritually. But I can't turn my back on them without everyone eventually hating me, without being a piece of shit. Is this fatherhood? Is this the male experience? I can't do twenty years of this.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      ...how have you not met your kids or seen your ''wife'' in 3 years??

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Well, it's a long story, probably deserving of its own thread, but here's the gist. Sorry for the late reply, I just got home from work. Also, she's not my wife yet, but may as well be.

        >meet mom
        >we have seggs
        >she gets gregnant
        >she's travelling abroad at this time for work when she finds out
        >then covid hits full swing
        >she's stuck abroad for the first few weeks of Gregnancy as countries tried to figure out wtf to do.
        >finally makes it home, but has caught covid abroad.
        >quarantined at hospital. She hates it, her mental state hits the floor.
        >twin boys are born prematurely at 20 weeks. Before 24 weeks, don't hold your breath. They probably won't make it.
        >they do.
        >however they have heart defects that require surgery.
        >well known pediatric cardiologist catches wind of identical twin boys with identical heart defects.
        >this is an excellent learning opportunity for the medical field, he visits and offers to bring them all back to his primary hospital in Florida to do an experimental procedure.
        >we agree it's a better bet, as the boys won't have to go under the knife again when they get older. One and done.
        >they take some of mom's mycardium for the surgery
        >moms heart gets trashed due to unforeseen infection. Probably the covid she had at the time but no way to be sure.
        >at this point we're about July 2020.
        >hospital previously refused visitors to active covid patients before she left, now she's a country away.
        >they're essentially stuck there as mom now requires a transplant.
        >she gets one, but the recovery process requires immuno suppressing drugs, combined with her pre existing auto immune disorder, her immune system is basically trashed.
        >with the boys being premature, they are dependant on moms immune system to fight covid.
        >which now hardly exists.
        >as a result, they end up passing covid between eachother for months on end. Release terms require all three to be covid free for 14 days.

        1/2

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          2/2
          >this is essentially impossible. If one is negative, the other two are positive. If one two are negative, one is positive
          >the nature of breastfeeding essentially ensures reinfection constantly.
          >this continues for well over a year.
          >the hospital is soaking up the cost of everything, even 98% of the transplant. >Which if you didn't know, costs in excess of a million dollars in the US.
          >that leaves a bill of ~20k, and as they are not US citizens, the hospital will not release them until a payment plan is in place and acted on
          >that's where those thousand dollar payments I mentioned earlier come from.
          >unforeseen complications with her transplant nearly kill her in July this year.
          >requires a second transplant, which is generally rare, but the board agree that she's deserving of another chance. Fortunately, they don't charge more for this one.
          >a second transplant is performed with complications. She was unable to be restarted for 25 minutes. In that time, she suffers minor brain damage and has temporarily lost the use of her right leg.
          >but she's alive, thank fuck
          >Now she's even more depresso but still soldiers on.

          And that brings us up to about now. I glossed over A LOT as three years is hard to condense into 4000 characters, but now you know. If you have further questions, I'll be around to answer them. Covid and all the bullshit surrounding it fucked my life up and I never even caught it once.

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            im op. normally, i dont stay up this late seeing as i have school tomorrow, but i really wanna listen to dio instead of sleep.

            anyways, thats a lot to absorb. covid really fucked up many lives. i fortunately remained untouched by it. between living in rural east anglia for the first almost 2 years of it, and only having moved back to america a year ago, my odds were good. i made sure i was fully vaxxed and wore my mask all the time. my parents just recovered from covid and i didnt get it at all. to the idiots who say covid is a flu and doesnt warrant precaution, fuck you. you clearly dont care about the swathes of people dead/ruined by it.

            dont blame yourself for anything thats happened here. you deserve the best.

  8. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Not well but good enough. Thanks for asking and cute cat.

  9. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I'm a 24 year old, 5'6, balding virgin neet. I destroyed my health from years of loneliness and autistic coping. I can't digest anything properly anymore and my muscles are wasting away rapidly (was already underweight). I have zero appetite and have to force feed myself raw meat because its the only food that doesnt make me nauseous or burn my legs and the back region of my head. The veins in my legs don't work properly, so blood just pools in my feet when I sit in a chair, stand, or do any physical activity. It burns so bad it feels like my calves are in an oven. This has restricted me from doing anything distracting or productive. It's a chronic/degenerative condition. I have zero functional copes and my sleep quality is terrible, so when I do have dreams it's the only relief I get from the torture chamber that my body has become. Doctors have been unable to do anything for me and their drugs only made shit worse, so I don't trust them anymore. If I wind up in the hospital, they will kill me slowly. I look like I'm dying, so I'm not sure if anyone will sell me a firearm (mine are locked in a safe in which I cannot access). I know that my health will only get worse from here as I'm able to eat less and less each day. I feel terrible about leaving my loving, supportive parents and younger siblings... But I can no longer bear this slow and agonizing deterioration. I have to make a decision soon or a quick and painless death will no longer be an option.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Have you tried being yourself anon? That might help you.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Not sure if you're fucking with me.. but how would this help me? I'm physically disabled and unable to care for myself without assistance from my parents. It's not like I have to wear a social mask in my own home. Last year I started and ran my own small farm until my health deteriorated. My heart is broken and I just want to die without pain now

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          Of course im fucking with you its a meme you dip. Hope something works out for you whatever that is.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >I started and ran my own small farm
          Did you raise pigs?

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Yeah I did. Pic rel

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      anon, none of this is your fault. you dont deserve this agony. dont beat yourself up over this, you are ill and thats not a product of poor character. you need to find something to love so you can justify the pain of existence.

      I don't want it to be one day. I need it to be now. It needed to be the day they were fucking born. The only fruit of my labour is my ever increasing urge to neck myself. I'm not even 100% that the situation is the truth. I truly hope it is, I don't want it to all be a lie. I'd hunt her to the ends of the earth and beyond if that were the case. But one can never be truly sure, I suppose.

      I don't know, I just look around see everyone else getting on with their lives. As far as I know, I haven't been able to find a single shred of anyone being able to relate to my experience. It just hasn't happened before. Whoever wrought covid upon this earth can die in a fucking fire. If I ever found out who caused all this, I'm going to fucking flsy them and drop them in a pile of flaming salt.

      Coworkers, friends, all question it all. Everybody had their doubts and you're the only person who's actually given me a bit of positive reinforcement in 3 years. Thank you anon. You're doing the lords work. I only hope I can report that everything worked out in a few weeks

      i know what its like to suffer with no end. ive been in 2 psych wards in 2 different countries, and have attempted suicide. i have permanent scars on my arms and legs that i put there intentionally and still do. i know it hurts anon, but im proud youve made it this far. you have to find some form of meaning. join the military, do volunteer work, convert to christianity, do whatever you need to do to feel like life necessitates getting up in the morning.

  10. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I really need to just fully commit to either living or dying and I need you to be honest with me. Can a 24 yr unemployed man without any skills or friends along with chronic physical pain every be happy? Have you met anyone in my situation who made it? They need to the lowest of the low to the point where you have more respect for rapists and murderers because at least they do something and have executive functioning skills. Obviously, I don't know many people so I was hoping if you did

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      happiness isnt sustainable, but contentment is. i havent really met anyone in your situation before, but there are tons of disadvantaged people who turn the odds in their favor.

  11. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    my gf doesn't talk to me much anymore and it's depressing as shit. i'm seeing her soon, but i just miss her so much. she's all that's ever on my mind but i just feel like i'm nothing to her. i know it isn't true, but fuck does it hurt to be like this.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      i know exactly how you feel. me and my girlfriend slowly drifting apart was painful. she stopped texting me and i felt worthless to her. op, if youre not getting the attention you deserve, shes probably not worth your time.

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