Does never loving, or never being loved, or, never having been in a mutually loving relationship, stunt my growth as a human being?
I am an attractive guy, but I am deathly afraid of trusting women. I feel that most are evil and, nowadays, mostly interested in sex rather than relationships. I do wonder if they feel that this grants them the power over men which feminism preaches?
I feel depressed, hopeless, and afraid that no girl will ever love me. Or that I will never love a girl. I can only have sex with a girl while remaining emotionally walled off. I want to open up but, I feel that I am too afraid of commitment. Or at least, I think that is what I am afraid of. But, maybe, I am just afraid to be happy.