I’m scared of having that emotional connection with a man. I can’t imagine myself telling a man “I love you.” or “I want to be with you.”
I have no problem having sex with men though. To me, sex and love are two different things. Sex is a physical matter which involve no emotions whatsoever. Ever since I was a sophomore in high school, this is what I was taught by my guy “friends”. That there is no love, only physical feelings. That if you’re wanted, you’re only wanted for your body and nothing else. Once they get what they want, they leave.
Now, being a sophomore in college, love is no where in my life because I make it that way. I will sleep with you, just so I won’t have to love you. I attach myself with the men that I know won’t love me, I want them to leave.
Many say I’m just a whore, but I believe the matter runs much deeper. I couldn’t be wrong.