I’m only 16 and I already feel scared by love. I have made myself believe that only your family and close friends can love you in a caring way. I constantly feel alone and crave affection but if someone (of the opposite gender) shows me that they care for me in more than a friendly way, I begin to dislike them. I convince myself that they are joking, being dared or they are just getting on my nerves.
Marriage and being in a relationship is a whole different world to me. I feel that it’s probably because of hormones and insecurities and that I’m too young to know anything but I’m so happy to find out that there are others who feel in a similar way that I do. I don’t feel so lonely anymore.