>be straight ftm
>decide to try and live as female and learn to be happy with it
>grow hair out, dress feminine and live as a personality-less husk for three months
>cave and start dressing masculine again, bind and cut hair
>feel like a human
>look into finally taking T
>see transphobes online talking about how trannies are abominations
>cycle repeats
I will live this way until I die.
so you acknowledge that doing what YOU want makes you feel like an actual human? but you care about the opinions of others who don’t view you as human?
I’m a coward and I know it but I am weak and care what people think. If there were no transphobes on earth or I was the only person I know I would transition and not regret it.
I feel much the same way as OP (though as MTF) but I think I have at least enough willpower to eventually go through with it. I've been putting it off too long..
Same, unless if I get a partner or friend irl to handhold me through it.
You'll grow out of it in your 20s
not op but I am 25 now, did not grow out of it 🙁
I’m 30.
i met an ftm who started hrt with 45 a while ago, he was a funny liddel dood but he was too fembrained to keep talking to me it was a bit sad
It's sad how hard female socialization fucks ftms up. I've known so many ftms and of them all I only knew 1 who really gave me male vibes from how he interacted. Really awesome guy all around.
yeah, some of the cattiest bitches i ever met were all ftm, mostly pre-T, they tend to calm down after 3-4 years hormones i find
What did they do?
Same except im a femboy
Every time i see someone insulted by emasculation i feel like i need to try manning up for the 1100th time
i've met some ftms irl and they're always been pretty chill people. you might have a chance at passing
i'd just like to say that i personally don't understand the trans thing, but if it makes you happy go for it
it's over
Doesn't sound like you even tried getting a husband and carrying his son.
This site is pure self harm/demotivation/etc.
I have no idea why. Is it all just trolls? Unironic transphobes trying to come across as decent people but being backhanded as a result? People who think they're being helpful but just ended up saying incredibly stupid things? Idek but it sucks.
1. It is never too old to transition. Unless you're dead, you always have the choice to change how you live. It doesn't matter if you're 20, 30, 40, or 80.
2. Being "fembrained" isn't really a thing. People on LULZ just stereotype trans people no matter what they say, selection bias etc. I've been stealth for almost 1.5 decades and was super involved in Greek life in uni (fraternities and stuff) and have had zero issue getting along with (decent) cishet man but still get told that I'm fembrained or the way I act means others men don't respect me or see me as a woman etc.
3. People will hate you regardless of what you do. Nothing you do will ever make everyone happy. Heck, I hate you for being stupid and repressing because of people who are transphohic and am disappointed that you know what has helped you feel better in the past but still refuse to do so.
Get help or something. It's not normal to be so obsessed with what other people think of you to the point you sabotage yourself over it.
Go back to r/FtM
Did you never get on T or anything?