>be me
>suicidal
>tried to throw myself in front of a car on impulse and failed
>the guy driving the car blew his horn very very loud and everyone in the street looked
>kept walking
>a girl from uni ive never spoken to saw me crying and hyperventilating before running into the highway
oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck is she gonna tell everyone. what lie can i say please help me if she tells anyone theyre gonna call my parents and send me away and ill lose the few friends i have god please help me what can i say. i was thinking of telling her my cat died and thats why i was sad but that im good now please please please
lol
Just say you need help and here's the crazy thing.. you accept the help. You may get a grippy sock vacation. You might be able to talk yourself down to outpatient groups and therapy sessions. But either way, If you're really making solid attempts on your life you're looking at meds
i cant do that. i cant get help right now. id love a grippy sock vacation if it wasnt for my parents. i have to finish uni first. then in the summer grippy sock vacation. but they cant tell them now
they can and will, your parents prefer you alive than in school
and if they dont theyre assholes
they dont care theyre abusive. they refused to send me to therapy this whole time. all the effort ive put into school was so i could get away from them
>can't do it now
Go into detail why, because it's not making sense to me. Anon, the people talking up suicide are statistically some of the least likely people to actually do it. It's the people who try to unalive themselves on a whim and then " deny, deny, deny" who worry me. Actually worry. You have some issues kid and it's time to deal with them.
If you can really wait till the summer then just say your cat died or that you tripped and got scared. But whatever you do, you need to seek help. As a uni student there are literally whole departments of people there to help.
I'm bipolar and tried to off myself a couple times and failed. Really, I'd have succeeded if just a few things had gone different. I'm happy as an adult and have a family. There is a path forward for you if a dumbass like me can make it
well whatever. all of that sentiment goes away when you know im a tranny. you dont care. youre gonna say this is because i transitioned or something and thats what everyone will say when i kill myself and i hate it but people keep ruining my life
On the contrary, nobody deserves to die and nobody should feel bad enough that unalive seems better than waking up tomorrow. Don't get into persecution complex bullshit. I'd much rather have transitioned than have been born crazy... trying to be normal mentally means I'll need to take meds for the rest of my natural life
yeah and ill take testosterone shots. but whatever. i should get meds too if im honest. thanks for being nice
Please take care of yourself. Life isn't as awful as you might think. Most people just care about themselves, they're not going to hassle you about being trans. and if they do they're assholes. Don't get into a rut because of what people might think. Most people can barely get through their own day with their own problems.
Go reach out to your university student wellness department and try to see a counselor, therapist, or psychiatrist. Be honest with them, and yourself. I promise whatever you're going through isn't bad enough to justify throwing yourself in front of a bus.
Adding on to this, go be honest with the classmate who witnessed it. And be honest with the people who try to help. Lying about my first attempt lead to a second and then a third. Any of the three could've worked, and the time I tried to overdose probably did damage my kidneys and liver. I'll have to worry about that for the rest of my life. Don't do it. Go get help. And be honest. If the worst thing that happens to you this year is a grippy sock vacation then you're probably doing okay. I know people who died unexpectedly from car wrecks and got cancer as a young adult. This is nothing
lmao u are afraid people will think you’re a weirdo for trying to kill yourself but not cuz you’re a tranny freak hahahahaha troon delusions are hilarious if not so stupid
i was tbh but i pass and theyre like super leftist young people in there and theyre all nice so its odd. whatever maybe they all think im disgusting in silence
plus that will kill my social life. theyre gonna say LULL THE EMO LOOKING GUY TRIED TO KHS or ew wtf we have to stay away from this freak
Accept the help. What you've been doing isn't working.
Being honest is a good idea here
oof that sucks buddy. in a couple days you will be known as "that weird kid that tried to kill himself"
Come on anon how could you think throwing yourself in front of car is the answer? That type of suicide will A) likely damage someone’s car B) could cause a wreck and kill someone else C) cause someone to have guilty conscience and D) will fail to actually kill you most of the time.
Next time try the tried and true bullet to the head or poison. Or just don’t kill yourself because doing so is very stupid.
Got your whole life ahead of you bro and you can do whatever the fuck you want with it, the alternate is killing yourself, imagine how many things you could do alternatively (moving to Alaska and fucking hookers all day is still better than suicide) seem like forever right now, but this too shall pass
>a girl from uni ive never spoken to saw me crying and hyperventilating before running into the highway
heh i've been there, ran into oncoming traffic in the highway at night then went to a restaurant and ordered scrambled eggs
same
thanks for being nice. ill get help someday i guess. i wasnt expecting this
Good luck anon
>ill get help someday i guess
This isn't good enough. Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that there's a problem. And that's okay. You can work on problems. But you can't solve a problem if you won't admit it exists. And right now you're in some real denial because you think it's going to go away, or that you can deal with it later. Stop it.
Not wanting to live is a more serious problem than your damn mid term or what your jerk ass parents think. None of it matters if you're dead. Go talk with a school therapist, counselor, or even try to arrange your student insurance, which most universities have, and see someone not directly affiliated with the school.
I can't make you do anything. I'm not there in person and I don't even know your name: but I'll give you the advice I wish I had gotten when I was your age. Take this seriously. Don't be embarrassed. And stop worrying about what other people think.
hey i also tried that once. nobody saw but later the cops found me walking in the road and put me in an overnight hold. i have tried other, more effective things too but i always chicken out or fuck up at the last second.
for me it never got better and i tried everything
>feel the slightest inconvenience
>WAHHHHHHHHHH LIFE IS SO HARD IM GONNA KEEEEEEEL MYSELF WAHHHH
Why are you guys such pussies?