what is the probability of me being autistic?
>grow up with no friends
>watched a pair of movies around 300 times
>curiosity for everything, how things worked. specially astronomy
>never had a female friend
>outcast
>almost 0 friends
>play kirby & the amazing mirror for 10 hours daily
though
>i know how to act in certain social situations, im not that dumb, can understand most of the time how people will act and their strategies (maybe because i played chess)
>i understand emotions, though im just socially akward, i cant do small chat, sometimes im able
I'd say that there's a higher possibility that your mom's genetically a lesbian who hates cocks and growing up in that psychic atmosphere has made you invisible to women
I don't have a phd so I can't give you a diagnosis, but I am curious to know what in your life would change from having a label? There's no cure to being autistic. Would life be easier to handle if someone told you you have it rougher than others? You already know that though
it would give me a sense of peace, i know my conditions, my limitations, and what to do next.
>you have it rougher
man, like tellin me that will change anything. it always has been rough and it will always be
Does a sense of peace depend on your relative struggle to others rather than just your struggle? Let's pretend I'm your doctor and gave you a paper saying you're autistic, what do you do now?
>[chair clattering]
>chill and let that though sink in. finally accepting and finally understanding the "why" of most situations of my life.
>be overall happier, though lonely
>still cry on my bed at night
Great if finding a name for all the shit that's happened to you helps. It will have been the same struggle regardless of whether it would be grouped as autism or not though. Not having a diagnosis wouldn't invalidate your experiences in any way
yeah, though i dont know if im genuinely just being a bitch or i am just straight up special-ed
Neither would change your situation though. Others could label it differently regardless of a diagnosis so relying on the opinions of others to define you is a fool's errand
if you can maintain eye contact fine you don't have autism
I struggle sometimes. it may just be social anxiety though...
Eye contact isn't the binary deciding factor in a spectrum of disorders
this is almost exactly my story op. did you also:
>grow up detached from your siblings
>burn bridges for no reason
>never get the ability to be jovial and joke around
>have unmonitored access to tech
>grow up detached of your silbings
yes
>burn bridges for no reason
specify?
>never get the abillity to be jovial and joke around
well i can only joke with my most intimate circle. out of that i cant.
>have unmonitored access to tech
indeed, yes
>specify?
I've almost built friend groups for all of my childhood and ghosted them later. I genuinely don't know why.
>out of that i cant.
same for me, but that circle is one or two people online
>burning bridges
Well in that case yes, i ghosted them. but i knew why i did so.
well it seems that (you)'re literally me anon
we should coin a term. quasitismos. schizoiderinos.