Are you alone again anon?
Don't you feel lonely?
Don't you want to be with someone? To comfort and be with you?
Don't yoi think your life would improve drastically if you had someone by your side that supports you everyday?
Are you alone again anon? Don't you feel lonely? Don't you want to be with someone? To comfort and be with you?
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ah it is this episode again.
No, I have moved past that desire. Now I just want to die. I know that will never happen for me. At this point I dont want it even. Everyone abandons me.
What is the purpose of this thread? I dont know. In the past hermits were not uncommon. how the fuck did they make things work out for them? I know how, because even though loneliness is a stressor, life in the past wasnt full of sneed oils and microplastics and pavlovian devices like smartphones. To put it simply, people, specially outcasts and losers, could endure more abuse without reaching a breaking point.
So yes, I could use a friend or someone by my side, but I could also use a proper Doctor instead of one that pushes therapy and pills.
>moved past
Glad for y-
>want to die
No no NONONO NO goddamn Anon. No! That's not how it works.
>not how this works
cope. I am tired. Its a relief, finally. And the best part is I never meaningfully wageslaved. Ha. get fucked society I just drained resources.
I am alone again.
I have the house to myself and am here on LULZ, over-eating, and watching random videos. I am tired of being alone and depressed but don't know how to change things. Nobody wants to be my friend. I will probably die like this.
Do you want friends? why?
I want friends and a girlfriend so life means something again
I'm tired of it feeling a pointless void
I feel as if I might as well just kms
>void
ha. That doesnt go away. Even if you get a lot of friends and a gf. That is with you for life.
>Are you alone again anon?
yes I was groomed yet again by a homosexual on soc
>Don't you feel lonely?
yes
>Don't you want to be with someone? To comfort and be with you?
What's the point of trying to be with anyone or interact with people they all just hurt you and use you
>Don't yoi think your life would improve drastically if you had someone by your side that supports you everyday?
It has decreased in quality trying to add people to it they all make me feel like shit and unimportant when I have a list of 20 people who don't talk to me or respond to my messages or give half ass replies I just don't give a fuck anymore.
>someone cared enough to groom you
>20 people on friendslist
oh woe is you, homosexual. At least someone saw enough value in you to try to do that.
i stand fucking corrected absolute zero empathy from any people they're all hateful absolutely no budging with it. Anything less and they're pretending to get something out of you.
I have posted on that board for years literally asking to be groomed or some equivalent and nobody valued my life enough to even do that. I have no friends on any media service and I dont interact with anyone irl. No I dont have any empathy for you your situation is infinitely better than mine.
How could you think your situation was better? How is that any better in any sense? You still end up alone either way, you just want to kill yourself even more once you have the carrot dangled in front of you.
I said YOURS was better retard. How is never having even the slightest hint of an opportunity possibly better than having a lot of friends on your friendslist and being groomed?
>just want to kill yourself more
I highly doubt you want to do that more than I do, I already have plans to do so.
>I want to kill myself more because I was groomed
>No I want to kill myself more I have it all planned out because I HAVEN'T been groomed
>btw you're a retard
what the fuck is this shit
normie moment
dont hurt yourself
yes I'm such a normie that the only friendship/relationship Ive had in years was fake I'm such a normalfag
>but those relationships were fake they dont count bro!!!
why are you trying to stolen valor being a fucking loser freak? Be happy you can make friends. what the fuck?
>Be happy you can make friends. what the fuck?
What friends?
Oh are you just changing your narrative now.
You may be being sarcastic but there is a certain point you reach where you literally are desperate for someone to even groom you to indicate they see any form of value in your life and when nobody even cares enough to do that it is very damaging.
I wont groom you anon but i can talk to you regularly, im quite a miserable loner myself
You get offers of friendship and I just get told to kill myself, called manipulative, a homosexual, etc. apparently you have it worse though. It's hard to have empathy for someone who is just constantly insulting me, sorry.
im not the person insulting you though, this was my first post in this thread
so there are multiple people teaming up on me trying to invalidate my feelings when I just posted saying I'm lonely. It's some how better that I was groomed and taken advantage of. Great. I'm just a whiney homosexual and should be grateful to have been manipulated and groomed, lied to, and "cheated" if you can even call edating a real relationship in the first place. Got it. I honestly already knew what type of response I was going to get, I don't know why I expected anything less. I can't even play tf2 without being called a bitch and told to stfu when I barely even said or do anything in the game except play it.
i only asked you if you want to be friends but whatever
Dude this would all blow over if you would just fucking give in and reply to that other anon and say:
>Yeah OK bro I guess you're right. But I am pretty lonely right now too.
But that is beyond your normie pride.
>>Yeah OK bro I guess you're right. But I am pretty lonely right now too.
and he'll still call me a homosexual and say i don't know true loneliness etc
I never said you couldnt be. Just stop trying to appropriate my issues when yours are not the same.
????
I'm not appropriating anything You replied to MY post saying shit like "woe is me, homosexual" about my struggles and being dismissive. Making it all about you and how much more badly you have it
What's wrong with being groomed?
That is such a fucking chick complaint.
(I am assuming you are also gay.)
>What's wrong with being groomed?
What? Everything? You have a person manipulate you and fake being your friend and eventually pretend to be in a relationship with oyu and groom you into sending them sexual shit then they ghost you after they get bored of you what's there to understand?????? In my case I was a retard and trusted a guy and he was actually in a relationship irl with someone else the entire time he was grooming me and the entire relationship was fake I was used but somehow that is better somehow idk how but okay I guess
>Oh are you just changing your narrative now.
what narrative? When exactly did I say I have any friends?
in the post I just replied to you said your only FRIENDSHIP was fake, you still had one.
>wahhh somebody manipulated me
At least someone cares enough to manipulate you. That is the most faggy thing to cry about I have ever seen. You are a larping normie. kys.
was a """relationship""" no I don't have one they called me a psycho after I removed them after discovering their bf and I blocked him.
Its not just that I was taken advantage of and groomed. but its part of why I'm sad over it all. It's more that I've had a taste of what I might have had but realized its something I'll never realize beyond anything surface level that lasts a few weeks at best. Going from messaging and talking to a person every day for months saying "I love you" and good morning every morning to realizing it was all fake and acted and then you just go back to nothing and not talking to anyone and you wake up and check your phone but you realize you deleted discord.
>but wahhh he did this
You are mentally ill. How can you possibly compare that to having never had anyone at all. What the fuck is wrong with you.
its a weird feeling to pour your heart out and just to be repeatedly told to kill yourself, that you're mentally ill, and asked "wtf is wrong with you". I'm mentally ill for feeling hurt for being taken advantage of? or is it something else? I don't get it.
You can feel bad for being taken advantage of but you are directly telling someone that HAS NEVER HAD EVEN THAT that I am somehow better off for having been isolated my entire fucking life. I would fucking kill to have someone even fake that like happened to you. Fuck you
I asked you how my situation is any better than yours but you just keep telling me to kill myself and calling me a homosexual. I'm just confused more than anything. We're both at the same end result, regardless. Honestly the pain for me after realizing it was all fake negated any sort of good feelings that may have came from it. I don't get what trying to make each other more miserable is going to accomplish. I by no means meant to invalidate your own experiences. It was a genuine question not an accusatory one.
>has had experience I can literally only dream of
>hehe we are the same :3
Yeah, no issue there at all. Do you really not understand?
you dream of someone befriending you, entering a fake relationship with you, then ghosting you after a few months after they get bored of you and got their use out of you? I don't get it, why would anyone want that. I envy you that you didn't get to experience that
Being ignored and ostracized even by people that would do that inherently shows how little value my life has. I am not even good enough to be used because I have no value. Stop framing it like that.
have you tried not telling people to kill themselves, or being more friendly in general? It might go farther.
Yes. For a long time. Did nothing. I do not tell everyone that just people telling me to my face that they are worse off by having something I literally have begged for.
its weird you see it as a competition of who has it worse. I don't see how either situation is any less fucked up than the other. But I guess I should be oh so grateful and feel blessed every morning I wake up that I've been given the opportunity to be groomed and sexually abused since I was a child
I've been on reddit for a few months and I haven't directly communicated with one person
Look I'm just saying if you instead of calling me a homosexual and telling me to kill myself just related to my situation instead of trying to make it about yourself you could have made a friend maybe? Who the fuck knows. Does being nice really even go a longer way? It feels like I just get walked over, insulted, and used. idk man I just posted hoping to see a little slice of humanity or something find someone else who relates or sympathizes but sure you can tell me to kill myself instead I guess
>hoping to see a little slice of humanity or something find someone
Ive been told theres reddit for this kind of shit
I dont want to be friends with someone who just says to my face that what I wanted and tried hard to find and couldnt have
>wasnt that good bro :^)
and tries to argue they are worse off because someone saw some worth in them. Fuck you. Why should I be nice and empathetic to you when you still havent even tried to see my perspective? You hypocritical fuck.
>I dont want to be friends with someone who just says to my face that what I wanted and tried hard to find and couldnt have
okay well don't say I didn't offer
>and tries to argue they are worse off because someone saw some worth in them. Fuck you. Why should I be nice and empathetic to you when you still havent even tried to see my perspective? You hypocritical fuck.
I don't think I'm any worse off than you. If you think I'm better off having been manipulated and groomed sure. I'm just asking why because it is a really weird take. I honestly would rather have been continuing to be isolated and alienated than have it happen to me.
>"Someone was nice to me, and we had a fake e-relationship for a while, and I thought it would turn into something real, but then it didn't."
it was never real though it was fake and i was just being groomed to send sexual shit they already had a relationship in real life they hid from me
Are you a woman? I am genuinely curious.
>weird
>isolated and alienated
Thats curious that you immediately jump to calling my viewpoint non normal. If you are really so socially isolated and alienated why would you jump to calling it that specifically? You want to be alone so bad when I promise it is not a good thing.
>rather have been isolated and alienated
Tell me you werent actually completely isolated without saying it. Also after long enough being groomed starts to sound like something good because even if it is fake you get to be happy for a while.
this anon gets it. You reek of being a normie just because you do that same manipulative shit they do. Ha, you even started shaming me for not being empathetic enough when you just call my perspective weird and shit on me for having it. What a hypocrite.
>but bro happiness was just a pausing of suffering!
Yeah. you stupid fuck. That is better than having it just constantly pouring.
>messaging and talking to a person every day for months saying "I love you" and good morning every morning to realizing it was all fake and acted and then you just go back to nothing and not talking to anyone and you wake up and check your phone but you realize you deleted discord.
The anon arguing with you is correct. The above here is called "being happy for a few months". You got to be happy for a few months in between bouts of being miserable. That makes you better off than someone who was miserable the entire time with no break.
Rather than acknowledge that, you try to play a cheap normie card of claiming that it's WORSE to be happy briefly than to never be happy...and that is absolute nonsense. That shit might fly with your therapist, but it doesn't fly with me.
happy for a month, but you just pause the pain then you feel all the built up loneliness all at once
I see. So in other words, "grooming" sounds like you were "almost" but not quite in a relationship. So...what's the big deal?
>"Someone was nice to me, and we had a fake e-relationship for a while, and I thought it would turn into something real, but then it didn't."
OH NOES TEH HORROR...TEH HORROR.
Fucking zoomers man.
>this situation is equivalent to having never formed a meaningful human connection
that anon should consider transitioning because they post just like a woman would.
>I am a femcel! :3 chad doesnt want me
Bros you won't BELIEVE the size of the shit I just took.
I'm currently with someone. I don't love her and that kills me. I've realised that no matter what, I'm incapable of really loving. I am stuck with the option of staying with her and having a mostly comfortable secure life, or leaving her and crushing her heart. Regardless, someone gets hurt. I'm getting on in years. I should probably end it sooner than later, I have no idea how. I could probably avoid this empty feeling by putting my life towards something meaningful that will improve the quality of my community. I have no idea how I could do that when there are crackheads and single mums and juvenile delinquents and homeless people and starving families and toxic materials and uhhhhhhhh everything is kinda falling by the wayside. I don't really have any values, and yet women think I am a "good man" because I'm not a complete boar. Sometimes I wish I was a complete boar, but it doesn't suit me. I am perhaps the worst man I know and thank God they don't know what goes on in my head.
I'm inclined to disagree. At this point there is no shit (human faeces) that could surprise me.
I think I am past the edgy phase of I don't need anyone people are shit etc. But even without emotional response to being an outcast I rationally can't see finding someone as a good idea. Basically what this anon posted but applied to the woman. I will never really know if she is with me for convenience. If her affection is faked. I could live through my entire life with her thinking she loves me but she was in it for the money from the start and always faked attraction. Or I could learn about it one day when she gets a divorce and leaves me alone again but this time with me having to pay her bills. And I don't even know which is worse.
I want to have sex too, what is this FUCKING BULLSHIT
the answer is 4 x yes. I cope by eating chocolate and playing games
I grew up with loneliness, my adolescent brain was permanently molded by it. You merely adopted loneliness during the china flu lockdown meme.
Jokes on you my life didn't change even a little bit during the lockdown because i was always a loner
Underrated opinion: you are always alone, even with someone like family or loved ones or friends. It doesent matter, everyone is alone and everything we do is usually aimed at not being alone. The irony is that you can never escape lonliness since its inside us.
Yeah but one thing is havinf friend, a partner and an active social life, another is being complitely alone.
My point is exactly that, people that engage in things u say they do it to cope, normalizing yourself is literally coping. If you did it you would still be depressed, those things are just meant to discract us acting on basic human istintics that evolved with us to be very effective otherway we would already be extinct.
>Don't you want to be with someone? To comfort and be with you?
>Don't yoi think your life would improve drastically if you had someone by your side that supports you everyday?
Maybe, but people annoy me very quickly and I prefer being alone.
The answers to all of those questions are self-evident, retard.
>again
I've always been alone.
>Are you alone again anon?
>Don't you feel lonely?
>Don't you want to be with someone? To comfort and be with you?
>Don't yoi think your life would improve drastically if you had someone by your side that supports you everyday?
What's really funny about this is that quack shrinks would definitely phrase the questions this way, because they steadfastly believe that if you're alone it's because you're doing that deliberately.
Those fucking quacks simply cannot or will not conceive of the possibility that you're alone because other people don't like YOU. Nope, it's always "Why do you think you avoid intimacy?"
You stupid fucking nagger, I continually seek out intimacy. No one reciprocates.
Yeah 99% of people have internalized the just world fallacy as a way to cope with life so if you are alone it must be through your own actions. If you ask them about starving children in 3rd world countries they often resort to religious arguments or deny there is any similarity
Why isnt there a pill to forget your past? The problem many anons have is they are irreparably damaged by loneliness. If we could forget that, we could start anew even if its with a single mother or middle aged fat cat lady. I wouldnt mind tbh
Your memories are deeply tied to identity so you would likely be a very different person probably unrecognizable mentally afterwards
>be a very different person probably unrecognizable mentally afterwards
Beats being a suicidal fuck, dont you think?
>wake up
>"damn maybe next time I won't wake up"
repeat.
I had friends. Lost them all due to an episode of psychosis. Even if I didn't, I'm a bona-fide failure now, and no one wants something to do with a failure. I wish for death. But that's too hard. Hopefully I can get back on my feet.
No
I really wish I was lonely though, then I'd have a problem to solve