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Anyone else extremely disappointed by life? I had such high expectations and life has fallen short in basically every way imaginable.

Anyone else extremely disappointed by life? I had such high expectations and life has fallen short in basically every way imaginable.

  1. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    I believed in all of the lies.

  2. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    What did you expect, man?

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

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      My childhood trajectory to continue I guess. In elementary and middle school I was one of the best looking, most athletic, most popular, smartest kids etc. I know it sounds dumb to say that, but back then girls would like me when I didn't even know they existed. Everything would just come to me so effortlessly. Then I had a sports injury and my life has been in a downward spiral since.

      Yes. I thought getting good grades in high school and passing AP tests would get me into a good college. Then I would be able to get a good job which would get me a half decent life. I ended up going to community college, transferring to a mediocre state university, earning a worthless bachelor's degree, and working shitty jobs. My life sucks, I'm poor, I have no friends, I've never been in a relationship, and my parents hate me.

      Similar feel. I assumed if I got a good lsat I'd be able to get into a good law school, but since I was not in a good place during college my gpa sucked and it sunk my law school chances even with a great lsat. Not sure what to do now. I just feel so utterly let down by life is every way. I had such massive expectations as a kid and they have been underwhelmed in every way. The worst part is they weren't even delusional at that time, I was on track to have that kind of life before a freak accident sent my life into a tailspin.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        LOL. My grades were above average and I did well on most of my AP tests, but I did terrible on all my PSATs, so I didn't take the SAT and just enrolled in community college. I was also scared of leaving home and going to university.. MY grades were above average in college too (graduated with honors) but I didn't do too well on the practice LSATs I took so I didn't bother applying to law school. Getting into loads of debt just to go to a mediocre law school didn't sound great to me.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >sports injury
        I blew a disc in my spine purely by being a retarded teenager and being an idiot while weightlifting. It was totally avoidable. I'm almost 30 and still feel it daily. Fucked up how you can feel invincible as a young teenaged male and then in a single moment get permanently fucked like that. Life truly shows no mercy, it doesn't give a fuck if you're only a stupid teen.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

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          Exactly, I still remember thinking the sports injury could happen right before it did, but intentionally making myself not safeguard against it to prove I was being paranoid since it was extremely unlikely to happen. Basically destroyed my mental health and made me an anxious mess when before I was basically Chad. Didn't help that the surgeons blew the operations in the aftermath so now I have chronic symptoms and difficulties everyday due to their retardation. I was 12, life truly does not give a fuck.

          >be 30 khv
          >completely miss all the romantic experience at the most impactful highschool and uni years
          >even if I turn my life around, it doesnt really matter
          >the only women available - leftovers, single moms and the ones with triple bodycount.

          Relatable, I thought young love and romance could save me, but even that was a disappointment. Just another disappointment which sent me spiraling further. Luck, people, it doesn't matter, everything has been a massive disappointment.

  3. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Yes. I thought getting good grades in high school and passing AP tests would get me into a good college. Then I would be able to get a good job which would get me a half decent life. I ended up going to community college, transferring to a mediocre state university, earning a worthless bachelor's degree, and working shitty jobs. My life sucks, I'm poor, I have no friends, I've never been in a relationship, and my parents hate me.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >Yes. I thought getting good grades in high school and passing AP tests... would get me a half decent life
      Aw, sorry to hear that. I did that too. I basically had a 3.8 GPA (not disciplined enough for straight As) from 9th grade to the end of college and nailed all my placement exams.

      "Boy oh boy, I worked so hard and I'm pretty darn smart. I'll have a great job." I might be the most naive cretin to have ever lived. If I never went to college and just sold hot dogs from a cart instead I'd still be in the same boat financially.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

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      >I've never been in a relationship

      I don't visit 9k often but when I do I'm always shocked at the amount of anons that say this. Have you tried bars? Okcupid? Etc?

      Don't worry though. Once you have a gf for a couple of months you'll realize it's as disappointing and overrated as everything else in life. I'm grateful for booze.

  4. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >was a neet until 23
    >felt crushed by pressure of missing out, that my life was so dull when it could be better
    >turned my life around in a few months
    >the world still feels so empty and dull
    >more suicidal than ever
    The world just feels empty for lack of better phrasing. Like there's nothing worth seeing or doing, no reason to get up or work hard.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      [to AJ]

      Livia Soprano : It's all a big nothing. What what makes you think you're so special?

  5. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Tell me how to stop hating myself and contemplating suicide.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      I have these bouts of extreme optimism where I feel like I can carry the weight of the world on my shoulders and I can befriend everyone if I just talk to them long enough
      Then I get a reality check and see how little anyone cares, how nothing changes and it all comes crashing down, I want to curl up into a ball and do nothing

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

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      Accept that a lot of life is outside of your control, but also be level headed about what is and try to change things for the better. I get it isn't easy, especially when you get mentally beat down by terrible luck. It's difficult to internalize how helpless humans truly are to things outside of our control without it also killing your motivation. The alternative is hating yourself for simply having bad luck though. If you've been majorly unlucky in your life there's no easy solution.

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      it all happened so fast too. what the fuck.

      Agreed, my life was already fucked by the time I was 12 since that's when I got injured but I get your feeling. I'd do anything to go back to the moment before it all went to shit, since I know deep down things would be dramatically different. Life is cruel though, it will fuck you over with horrifically bad luck, then kick you while you're down without a second thought, even if you're a child.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      didn't mean to reply to you
      but least I can tell you is to start accepting and loving yourself, if you can't convince anyone you're in a good mood no one's gonna bother being good to you
      there may be a few people with a savior complex but their advice may not be good and you'll ignore them anyway

  6. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    im pretty fucking happy, a single shroom trip woke me up to how lucky I am to be alive and have my friends, girlfriend, and family loving me, etc

    theres always a silver linging anons, remember, millions of years of evolution have allowed you to live and hsitpost at his moment, chin up, there are creatures who long died before a moment like this was possible

    that being said i VERY much believe in God and God loves us all

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >girlfriend
      this board is not for your kind, normalfag

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        just try shrooms with some weed and tea, and take a walk in the park during the day fren

        youll feel like a million fucking bucks

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >a single shroom trip woke me up
      had the same thing but it only lasted about 2 months before i realized it was all fake

  7. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    it all happened so fast too. what the fuck.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >pic
      cant relate. didnt have friends when i was 12, either

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        what are 'friends' anyway - I knew people who hung out with me but were they really my friends? most of the time I felt like they were just using me and having way more fun than I was

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >Theyre not friends if they never text you first

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            people act like having friends is something valuable but 90% of the time you're just going through the motions, pretending you care in a world that couldn't care less

            • 2 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              this anon gets it. the world is a cold and bitter place. theres not much mercy or room for error outside the comfort of civilization. this also extends to our perception or reality and how we conduct ourselves amongst others. people will never show you the love and respect that close family can. this world can be so cold and harsh

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                >people will never show you the love and respect
                such people exist but extremely rare.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Because he is simplenton.

  8. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    The worst part about this is that I set low expectations for life and then I've been forced to see that my low expectations were actually impossibly high. I thought I was being down to earth and realistic thinking that I'd get a gf in college and have a couple friends and have a way into a stable career from there.

    • 2 weeks ago
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      Lol I'm tried to do the same in intentionally setting low expectations in the aftermath of what happened to me. I've found a lot of low value girls have weirdly high standards. Like they have way less tolerance for any perceived offences or flaws. I guess they're less mentally stable or something.

      LOL. My grades were above average and I did well on most of my AP tests, but I did terrible on all my PSATs, so I didn't take the SAT and just enrolled in community college. I was also scared of leaving home and going to university.. MY grades were above average in college too (graduated with honors) but I didn't do too well on the practice LSATs I took so I didn't bother applying to law school. Getting into loads of debt just to go to a mediocre law school didn't sound great to me.

      We're in similar situations but flipped. Had very good grades and sat scores in hs, ap classes, extracurriculars, the works, got into a great school, but had a terrible gpa in college due to being in a bad place in physical and mental health. I've already perfected the logic games section for the lsat, but after looking at the demographic data for law school applicants I sort of gave up. Even if I got 175+ (99.5th percentile or better basically), given my gpa I still couldn't get into a t14 since I'm a white male. It's fucking bullshit. Meanwhile some minority with a 165 (80th percentile) and the same gpa can get into a t14 with ease due to 'moral' discrimination replacing meritocracy. Such a clown world. Everyone knows being a lawyer and that debt is only worth it if you get t14, so I have no idea what career to do now since I figured I could bank on my lsat, but it turns out since I'm a white male my gpa is really important too since they'd rather take a white male with 170 lsat and 3.7 gpa over a 175 lsat and 3.0 gpa since they have to take tons of minorities with shitty lsat scores to fill up their diversity quota. Absolute clown shit.

  9. 2 weeks ago
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    It took me years to get to where I am now, that is being in a state of total indifference. I've stopped caring about virtually everything in my life: success, finances, health, future, etc. I shattered all expectations I've ever had for myself and any I could ever have. I stressed and stressed for years, to the point of being suicidal, and it was awful. Not giving a shit helps me cope with how stupid this world is, I just live for my own happiness, luckily I can achieve happiness with very little

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

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      I mean happiness is literally the meaning of life, if you can be happy how you are, you made it

  10. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    No honestly I always knew it was going to be shit. I expected myself to try or care a bit more though, shit happened and depression is a bitch. Heavily considering sudoku'ing.

  11. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    i guess thats the way it goes.. all alone.. aint got no friendsssssssssssss

  12. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    I though I'd at least wind up with an average boring but stable life but I couldn't even manage that. It's a 1/3rd of the way gone (if I'm "lucky") and I've done nothing. I'm a lonely homosexual who's still as dependent on his parents as he was in high school and I honestly don't think that will ever change.
    So much for how "gifted" my parents though I was. Honestly sometimes I wonder if I was just doomed to be the nemesis to my dad's hubris.

  13. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >be 30 khv
    >completely miss all the romantic experience at the most impactful highschool and uni years
    >even if I turn my life around, it doesnt really matter
    >the only women available - leftovers, single moms and the ones with triple bodycount.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Same
      At this point I think I'm just gonna fuck an escort to have sex and then give up on women. If I'm going to fuck a massive whore it may as well be a hot one.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >fuck an escort
        Go for it. I personally couldnt do it.

  14. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >never did drugs
    >never had premarital sex, still do not want to have premarital sex (no STDs)
    >never drank alcohol
    >never broke the law
    >never cheated on tests
    >got into a good uni
    >got a degree (graduated magna cum laude, did not get summa due to a few pesky B+s) without accumulating any debt
    >have my own car+driving license
    >six figure annual salary
    >regularly work out
    >eliminated sugar from my diet a while ago
    still no gf, still no attention whatsoever from women.
    there is no reward for trying to do the right thing.
    the world rewards people who are likeable, nothing else matters. people are rewarded more for putting on elaborate but dishonest social performances than they are for sincerely believing in anything or living a life in adherence to those beliefs.
    I will kill myself within the next few months.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      You sound boring just from reading this. Fix it.

  15. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I did too, used to believe there would be some great adventure, that an individual can make a difference, that people actually cared about each other
    But this place sucks, it's boring as shit, everything is designed to makebyou miserable so you try the next thing in hopes that will fix it

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >people actually cared about each other
      yeah I believed that too.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        How do you cope anon? Nice trips btw

        people do care about each other but they act like it goes without saying

        From my experiences, I don't really believe that. Especially online, everybody seems so disconnected. Even here on LULZ, yeah its not a hugbox but I feel like anons used to care about other anons. Most comments I see now are just filled with so much hatred.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >From my experiences, I don't really believe that. Especially online, everybody seems so disconnected. Even here on LULZ, yeah its not a hugbox but I feel like anons used to care about other anons. Most comments I see now are just filled with so much hatred.
          that's true but you gotta realize the people on the other side know nothing about you, most of the time people assume you're just some shitposter or something
          people do reach out to me more when I effortpost but I'm not always in the mood

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I typically do effortpost, I'm a fag because of it I know, but it gets met with the same thing
            Maybe it's the time of day that I post, I typically post during the daytime in the states but I've seen posts implying it's better here at night when americans are asleep

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      people do care about each other but they act like it goes without saying

  16. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    You can blame Hollywood for this. It made me think that being a teenager was gonna be awesome and I ended up hating my teen years.

  17. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    im in the trenches, a rut within a rut. my time on earth is struggle. life is a constant fight, i guess thats the way it goes. i feel so defeated. like ive been incredibly destroyed and reduced to nothingness.

    my childhood had so much hope and i felt like there were so many possibilities. now im 25 and a complete loser.

  18. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    yes. even the simplest of expectations seem unobtainable.

  19. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >be born Harry Potter
    >god I wish Star Wars was real
    live your story tbh

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      But i am not harry fucking potter and my story is depressing and boring.
      Ive never asked for life or existence, fuck this shit.

  20. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Life is fascinating but humans disappoint me

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      But normalfags are animals, not humans.

  21. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Everyone who isn't total normalfag, is dissapointed with life.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      but disappointment doesnt have to weight you down.

  22. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Modern life is all about hype. All about overpromising, underdelivering and being sent to hell for it. Fuck expectations. Fuck pushing yourself to your breaking point. Slow down and live.

  23. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I kinda feel like a prisoner in here.
    Maybe I did something terrible in a past life. Maybe I'm just an unlikable person. Idk what got me stuck in here.
    But when you feel like you're here against your own volition and all the other implications of being a prisoner, after a while you just shrug.
    Maybe its not even anything against me. Maybe there's just something that makes us feel inherently trapped in something. Could be the system of social expectations we're born in and the ensuing laws and such. Could be the physical forms we're limited to.
    But after a while, you just shrug and stare past it. It still hurts to starve and other things, but my body has impulses to mitigate against that. So I guess that'll happen. Sometimes my body will get moody, but it passes after a while.
    Maybe I'll make it and live a happy life in here. That sounds fine to me. Maybe I don't make it at all and will die an impoverished humiliating death. Thats fine too I guess, because then I'm out of here.
    So I'm just a prisoner in here. Maybe I leave early. Maybe it doesn't turn out to be so bad. At this point all I can do in response to the world but shrug.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Are you an unlikeable person?

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Sometimes people think I am. Sometimes people don't. Sometimes they are the same person. Most of the time they are indifferent.
        Either way, the way people think of you has this effect of holding you in a form. The thoughts of others hold an indisputable part in the net sum of what you are. For various reasons.
        So maybe I'm unlikable. But I have the capacity to be disliked, liked and all the other ones, all at the same time. As with anyone else.
        But whether or not its good or bad, it still gives us a form. And it makes me feel like a prisoner.
        Whether or not I'm likeable doesn't even really feel like it has anything to do with me anymore. I'd rather not be grating to the people around me, but if I am I guess another day will pass anyways.

        I'm sure this answers your question lmao

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Majority is, your typical normalfag isn't pleasant person.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          True, typical normal person is not pleasant.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Because earth is prison planet.

  24. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I don't know why I expected to wake up one day with this will to work for some reason I thought people just did it idk you fuckers lied to me. What I still don't understand is then how to force myself to work I can't or won't I just will not hold a job longer than 2 weeks and it doesn't matter how many times I tell myself how pathetic I am.
    Sometimes I just think I'm too weak even for this life.

  25. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I guess I would've had high expectations when I was a child. I had an active imagination about all the things I'd love to do, some of it obvious unattainable by the simple fact that it could never physically happen, but some of it was still possible. Somehow, I don't even really care that life has fallen short of my childish expectations. Maybe after a while, you just stop giving a shit. Idk.

  26. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I thought I'd be over my sex repulsiveness by my 20s. Really looks like I'm in it for the long haul
    >t. moid with BPD
    How much lower can one go?

  27. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Just be thankful the internet exists for you to cope with this shitty world.
    Ironically the internet is also the reason for all the social problems we find ourselves facing today.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      No its not internet.
      Its garden gnomes being garden gnomes, normalfags and homosexuals being themselves and usual sources of problems.

  28. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I wanted to be a doctor, I thought I was smart, that I would be able to help others, at the end I am the one who needed help.

    26 yo jobless virgin mentally ill guy.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Failed exams into medical school?

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        It is true I didnt get good enough grades, but things were going badly two years prior and even before. The thing is my personal life was and still is complete nightmare and I deluded myself into thinking I could make it. Its like I was blind to my actual situation and just obsessed in the morally correct objective I wanted to pursue -be a doctor to help others-. Years later, after graduating in chemistry and starting a professional course in clinical laboratory (two unrelated studies), I have learnt more about myself, I know there are other interesting professions which can allow you to help others, I learnt to focus on myself, I had realize that when I wanted to be a doctor I had many personal problems I needed to adress.

        In handsight, I wasted my youth and no longer want to be a doctor, I would rather focus on improving my quality of life, and then Id like to learn psychology or teaching.

        Failed to tag you

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      It is true I didnt get good enough grades, but things were going badly two years prior and even before. The thing is my personal life was and still is complete nightmare and I deluded myself into thinking I could make it. Its like I was blind to my actual situation and just obsessed in the morally correct objective I wanted to pursue -be a doctor to help others-. Years later, after graduating in chemistry and starting a professional course in clinical laboratory (two unrelated studies), I have learnt more about myself, I know there are other interesting professions which can allow you to help others, I learnt to focus on myself, I had realize that when I wanted to be a doctor I had many personal problems I needed to adress.

      In handsight, I wasted my youth and no longer want to be a doctor, I would rather focus on improving my quality of life, and then Id like to learn psychology or teaching.

  29. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    i never had any long term goals or aspirations for when i became an adult and i'm not really surprised i ended up where i am now. still though i wish i could start over and actually try at something

  30. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    yeah that feel is probably not going to go away

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      but once you kind of understand the manipulation at work then it's easier

  31. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I don't think I was ever alive.

  32. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    Not so much anymore. I've accepted it.
    Now I just wait for LFE.

  33. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Your life isn't a hero's journey. It's just moving forward, day after day, with millions of events that lead to nothing. Then, you die.

  34. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    I don't know what I expected but it certainly wasn't this.

    Awareness and the power of physical interaction is awesome, responsibility for yourself is not. Needing food, shelter, emotional satisfaction and an ego that has bought the narratives that make you something you really ought not to be. Turning nirvana into a burden, the rare light that does shine overpowered by the overwhelming darkness.

  35. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    This is the easiest way to improve everything about ur life, start using steroids.

    read this:
    https://forums.steroid.com/anabolic-steroids-questions-answers/541167-my-first-cycle-planning-executing-successful-first-cycle.html

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    >feel like a fucking stud, literally feel like you can kill anyone with your bare hand (completely delusional but that's how you'll feel)
    >wake up with rock hard erection every day
    >20x confidence
    >best anti-depressant in the world
    >...more??

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    I'm a retard btw and not a doctor so....

  36. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Honestly I'm just bored. I never expected anything.
    I never wanted anything and I didn't want to grow up.
    Friends are getting married and having kids and I don't want any kind of responsibility.
    I have a job and I'm independent but I really see no point in anything.
    I don't think getting a gf would fix this. I really doubt I could find someone I can connect with. These days everyone is so obsessed with "making it", and expect everyone else to be that good. I don't expect anything from anyone.

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