Anybody else feel like wildly immature? I feel like I act and think way younger than I am and haven't had a lot of life skills/experiences people my age should have.
Anybody else feel like wildly immature?
Anybody else feel like wildly immature? I feel like I act and think way younger than I am and haven't had a lot of life skills/experiences people my age should have.
autism
Yes but its caause im adhd brained and tripped acid a little too much and too hard when my brain was still developing
me to but i have a disability and home schooled for a long time
Same, I sometimes feel like a young boy inside the body of an adult woman (male), I don't trust myself to make decisions without another adult and subconsciously avoid sex, alcohol, and swearing because I don't mentally feel old enough to be doing any of those things.
I think in my case, it's a combination of being isolated from the world through home-schooling and childhood trauma. I have no idea what kind of mental illness this is connected to or if it's just related to a melting pot of undiagnosed mental illnesses.
I feel like I stopped mentally aging around age 14 but even at that age I was still childish. I've hit no milestones that an average 21 yr old should have reached. I know I won't be able to live and survive on my own. I surround myself with toys and games to cope with this and my never ending mental health issues. I blame the tism and attachment issues from my parents
I'm 24, and I feel like I'm finally just "waking up" for the first time in 10 years. I reflected on a lot of trauma throughout myself, and realized I repressed basically every aspect of the identity, not just the fact that I'm trans, which I'm just now realizing, but really forming any sort of real personality at all. I feel like I've been sleepwalking through the past decade, and I still feel like a dumb teenager, but the fact is that I' well into adulthood now and I have no idea who I am or what I'm doing. I'm terrified when I have to interact with anyone remotely near my own age, it feels like they have everything figured out and I'm just some kid barely starting to understand what life is. It's really difficult to relate to anyone, and I have massive anxiety in any group event, but at the same time I crave interaction and relationships, and I know every day that passes is yet another day I've wasted without maturing.
I'm so clueless on how to proceed, I feel like I'm so stunted that I would just be a drag on anyone I try to relate to, and just pull them down with me because I have so little to offer. I used to comfort myself by thinking "Oh you're still young, you've got plenty of time", but suddenly things that feel like they happened last week actually happened 5 years ago.
You are not alone, many young people are experiencing this. Don't feel insecure about it. As long as you're running away from responsibility or growth you will make it.
as long as you are not*
FUCK
Ironically enough, I'm conventially successful in a lot of ways - I graduated university with a STEM degree a few years ago - I never had any particular ambition in mind, I was just always told "engineering is a good degree" so I followed that blindly. It was easy enough to do well in school because it didn't require me to be "me" or to really grow as a person. Just read the textbook, do the math, pass the exam, rinse and repeat. Managed to somehow land a great remote job that pays well, well enough that I could pretty much move anywhere I want in the country that isn't, like, downtown Manhattan.
At the same time, I feel more lost than ever. None of those achievements give me any sense of pride or meaning. I still feel like a little kid who has no idea what to be in the world. All the hobbies and interests I've had up to this point feel infantile and fake. I look at everyone elae around me who has a real identity, their own sense of style, truly engaging and growing in things they enjoy, and here I'm stuck barely able to figure out how to get dressed in the morning or how to talk to a cashier without having a breakdown. It's maddening. Most people would point to me as a success store, but I feel nothing but confusion and isolation.
There is no use in comparing yourself to your peers as its a fixed point in time. There is nothing you can do about it. Compare your trajectory instead of your point.
Holy shit are you me? I'm in basically the exact same situation. I feel like I started to unpack all my traumas and hangups and shit and it turns out they were pretty load bearing, that I was mostly psychological scar tissue by volume and now I'm left in my late 20s trying to build a new sense of self out of the fragments of real me I've managed to hold on to, which is really not a lot.
Curious...
I am the same, 27/M.
Had a good edible and cried for like 3hours.
soulless bug person who lacks will, many such cases!
Not sure how you got "soulless bugperson" out of that. More like "emotional abandoned and abused by their parents and peers growing up, having no guidance or role model, and basically being made to feel like they're an insigificant speck that just gets shut down any time they try to express themself." That kinda messes you up after a while, yknow??
I'm aware of that, and recently I've been making a lot of progress on at least being able to love, forgive and support myself, instead of repressing and hating like I did for most of my life. Even still, it's extemely difficult when I don't have a single person in real life I can turn to for support on any level. No one to just talk too, whether a chat or a serious talk. No one who's hand I can hold or hug. No one I can trust, no one I can just share a meal with or play a game or go out and do something or anything at all. It just hurts to see all that seemingly come so easily to everyone else. It's been over a month now since I've even spoken to anyone in person outside of a few brief sentences to cashiers.
you lack will, which means you aren't a real person. you're just someone who goes through the motions, follows the script because you fundamentally lack inner thoughts and feelings.
a bug person who just exists to consume and fill in the background. it's disturbing how many of you are out there.
I have nothing but inner thoughts and feelings, I just feel extemely anxious and vulnerable with people and don't know how to safely express myself. Even alone in my own home I'm in constant fear of doing something "wrong" and being somehow mocked or punished for it. The fact that I'm finally able to admit to myself that I'm trans is the first thing I've been able to do in a long time that feels truly "right", and I have no doubts about it, but it took an enormous effort of suffering and crying to even get to this point.
If I'm a "bug" for being traumatized, then so be it.
you aren't a woman, just a failed male
Are you retarded or something? You seem legitimately confused
weird ass idea, nobody fundamentally lacks inner thoughts and feelings, you're odd as hell for thinking that the people around you don't have any type of sentience, the world doesn't revolve around you anon
you wouldn't get it
>Le he's literally me poster
You're far more of an NPC than any of us. I bet you have no sense of identity beyond memes and being edgy and thinking you're the only REAL person, maaaan
no, it's because you really wouldn't understand. you're obviously upset that i don't see you as a person and that's fine, but the assumptions you have about how the world works are completely different from mine.
I just think you're kind of retarded and shitting up the thread because you think your hylic ass is somehow the truly enlightened one when your posts legitimately feel like they could have been written by an AI trained on guys who own the jacket from drive.
you are, in every conceivable way, irrelevant
no one treats me like my opinion matters because of my voice
maybe if you stopped talking like a mentally retarded nasally 12 year old they would. i refuse to believe you don't talk like that on purpose
it's IMPOSSIBLE for someone's voice to just be natural alright buddy
i agree completely. but is that your "natural" voice or did you voicetrain to sound like that?
i didn't voice train that's just what my natural voice sounds like
well that's unfortunate. i honestly thought you were pedobaiting with your voice. you can't sound "normal" even if you try?
Why do I need to change my voice? Shouldn't other people just be accepting of it? Im not doing anything wrong, and i'm not going to put in effort to change an aspect about myself that i think is perfectly fine
i mean you don't gotta change anything, it's ur life. it just sounds like it causes you some issues, that's all
it's not just because of your voice, you constantly act like a kid
this isn't true at all
lol, you act like the most edgy teenager on earth
Yes, 26 and feel like 20-22 at least, my bf is 21, friends similar, nothing in life's figured out, but at least I'm happy now and I think future will be good too. I also attribute part to ADHD, overall it just seems like I slightly don't fit in society, but that's fine I think
Yup I've had this constant fear of getting older, and people have always treated me younger than I am so it only affirms it. It feels nice to just not have to pretend to be serious all the time
i do. ever since i was a kid i was always scared of growing older, and now at 21 i’m always kinda shocked that people my age and younger are able to do anything of substance lol.
I can relate, but in my case I think it’s just autism. To be clear, I’ve been diagnosed with autism.
What’s weird is that I’ve also been called an “old soul” since I was a teenager, and I can get along easily with older people because I’m into a lot of Boomer culture.
This is also something I’ve heard from other autistic people — being perceived as both older and younger than your actual age.
i relate to you so much anon but i haven't been diagnosed with anything, but also i barely visit the doctor and haven't ever seen any kind of mental health professional before so makes sense
Well, I recommend you get evaluated for autism if you’re able. I put it off for years, because I didn’t think it would make a difference, but it’s definitely had a positive impact on my life.
i am not immature; i am simply maturing perpendicularly
Because transgenderism is a type of developmental retardation.
Yes, I'm a little and I like ageplay and stuffed animals and blankets and things like that and I find it really comforting.
yeah i also cope with my issues the same way it's very comfy
Sometimes my mommy touches me funny and I get all shy though! >.<
awww, what's got you all flustered little one? mommy just loves you sooo much
i am in therapy but i'm not hurting anyone >:( let us cope in peace
Seek therapy, Jesus, or the grave.
T-that's not very nice anon ;-;
No but you're being weird and horny in a thread that's not really about that. I don't want it to devolve into like abdl incest erp or something.
Miii.
i come to realization I have brain damage.
._so it not rlly my thought__
…honestly being so immature makes miii want to die-
as a 19 year old
I am physically and mentally 16 due to never finishing puberty
Not to belittle you, but that's really not so bad compared to most of the anons here. You'l make it fren.
Yeah it's honestly kinda sad, I'm 28 and feel like I act like a 20 year old I think it's because most of us shutins
im 20 and still haven't been able to properly mentalise being an adult
i guess i just kind of expected to be 17 forever
that feeling of impending catastrophe hasn't gone away since people started to not treat me like a kid and i dont know what to do tbh
at least i still look young
i'm in my 30s and an old man told me i looked 16. i then lied about my age to someone and said i was 19 and the guy didn't even blink.
the killer is i also feel immature at heart because of autism
i'm a legal walking fetish for pedos
t. ftm