Anons, can someone with schizophrenia or schizophrenic parents tell me how a schizo really is? Im genuinely curious.

Anons, can someone with schizophrenia or schizophrenic parents tell me how a schizo really is? I’m genuinely curious.

  1. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

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    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      I didnt know I have schizophrenia.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >I didnt know I have schizophrenia.
        lots of people have thoughts like that. That isn't the point. The point is the thoughts have different audible tones the same way different people chatting with each other at an event do. Have 10 different voices thinking good or bad shit but almost none of it is in the tone of your normal consciousnesses.

        >Hamlet: Denmark's a prison.
        Rosencrantz: Then is the world one.
        >Hamlet: A goodly one, in which there are many confines, wards, anddungeons, Denmark being one o' th' worst.
        Rosencrantz: We think not so, my lord.
        >Hamlet: Why then 'tis none to you; for there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so. To me it is a prison.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      She has a wavy line, I think it is a wave, on her left forearm.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      "i've named it Jennifer"

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >schizophrenia simulation
      >ss
      you'se getting hex'd
      also imagine to being woman so needful of attention you give yourself the schizo

  2. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    If you ask a more specific question I can give you an answer, that's way too vague

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      How are like hallucinations (both visual and audio ones)?

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >How are like hallucinations (both visual and audio ones)?
        During a psychotic episode you experience a lot of delusion in how you think and perceive the things around you. An example I can give is I was lying on my bed (pre-any medication), very physically anxious and shivering and began thinking that the police were coming to get me because I heard some sirens outside. I then began looking out my window and noticed some people walking across the road and "realized" they were being sent to monitor my every move, so I started panicking even more to the point where I thought I was going to have a heart attack. After living with that kind of fervent anxiety for a few hours (peering out every hour or so and being afraid to leave my room) I heard knocking on the door downstairs and I started screaming at them to stop. Eventually, I phoned 999 and threatened to kill myself if they didn't stop harrassing me, and after 6 hours of insanity I was trailed out of my house and locked up in a psychiatric facility. I didn't realize that all of this stuff was batshit insane or whatever at the time, I was super stressed prior to this with work 24/7 and no time for sleep/relaxation so that's probably what brought it about. Hope that gives some insight. I can operate normally on antipsychotics (risperidal) at least for now.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          There are good schizo-autist like here in LULZ and real schizophrenic who have daemon/ bad entities how are partly in their head feeding on the negative energy.

          Did you notice they never hear positive stuff in their head?

          Sound like the logic person might have in dreams.
          I think there are few kind of schizophrenia(yours is not the kind of hearing voices)

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I heard voices that were not there during that psychotic episode and afterwards while locked up.

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            They never speak directly to you, but through other people. That's if they're bored and frustrated with you.

            • 2 weeks ago
              Anonymous

              I’d say that’s mostly true in my experience but less about using other people and more like no one is talking to you. Why do a lot of them fall back on religion? Is there a brown schizo somewhere shoving allah in peoples faces believing that they are a new prophet? Does schizophrenia present itself in similar numbers in all nationalities/races? I’m asking before I attempt to look these things up because wording those searches is going to yield a lot of noise. I think schizophrenia has something to do with the liver and how it’s functioning.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                >less about using other people and more like no one is talking to you
                What do you mean? But yea look up the various types of schizofrenia they're quite varied. Personally I suffer from the one that's always "on", I'm in a constant psychotic phase but never break down.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I am agreeing with you, just saying in my experience the person is becoming a blank host as opposed to another identity. My brother falls back on religion and believes he’s going to be given an army and rewarded for his efforts. I have some of the tendencies but instead I obsess over numbers and geometry, things based in reality that most agree on. It’s like I think of a sentence and can stop at any point in it and go down a rabbit hole of word association and each new response pushes me in another direction. Internets been my best friend and coping mechanism for almost two decades. Had I not had it to communicate I wouldn’t have been able to be social outside of it.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Fun stuff. They've genuinly shown me the same thing: There'll be the final battle which undoes or solves it all and we are here to pick side but whatever side you pick its all the same on a higher level. As in Valkyries are a real type of being. The rest, being blank, the association chains, I have all that too. Do you get big visits? I get huge ones sometimes that make my bodyhair stand up straight and my body shiver uncontrollably they're massive and the insights they show you can be thoughtforms without any mind images or audio, whole concepts directly showing anything or using a single word it's difficult to describe. Like, I know what I need to do for some reason in order to achieve a specific goal and often it works out. I also get tons of deja vus.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I have visions of future events that flash in my head. At least that’s what I take it as. I often tell people close to me so I don’t obsess or feel isolated, burdened by it. My grandmothers always made predictions that often came true and I believed she was nuts. It was hard to call her crazy when she was often right. They were little things but as a result I fought against myself until I realized I wasn’t going to win. Now I try to find healthy ways to go along with it. I end up learning a little about a lot but with how my brain sees patterns I essentially fill in the blanks using jungian psychology and story structure as my reference. I am a total retard but clever so it passes as smart to midwits. I also have to do physically demanding tasks otherwise I end up acting out in weird ways and make an ass of myself.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                >I have visions of future events that flash in my head.
                Yeah. I have these too. They are a glimpse into the upcoming seconds/minute. But I’ve always thought it was my pattern-recognizing ability working in background and subconsciously feeding the probabilistic outcome via flash forwards.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                You may also have too many stimulants.jj8j0y

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                >stimulants
                As in “substances”?

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I just meant like coffee or energy drinks, messing up your neurology and giving you déjà vu. I can't be sure, I'm a retard.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Nah, you’re not wrong. It would be foolish to say that such things have no effect. Give some of these people some alcohol and see what happens, like the gremlins movie when they get wet. I don’t really believe in schizophrenia or mental illness I just don’t see the advantage of these states in most cases. I do think digestion plays a huge role and there’s plenty of data that backs that. We have a lot of answers and maybe the behavior is the solution. Then again we’re chopping off peoples tits and cocks, some behaviors shouldn’t be accommodated. People are very impressionable.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Hey, whoa there, I'm not cutting off peoples' tits and cocks! Are you?!

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Haha, no thanks. Just referring to the terrible “treatments” modern day psychiatry has for the truly ill, mislabeled, or misled. Drilling a hole in ones head sounds reasonable in comparison. Line up for your lobotomy kids.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I would like trepan you a question...

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I’m surprised Bob Lazar doesn’t sell drill kits for DIY trepanation. We all know it will have a resurgence in some form. Especially if darpa and co bring brain chips to market.

                >excessive brain bleed is good and this is why

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                If the chips are capable of reconfiguring themselves, they may be able to go Turok 2 cerebral bore on the way out.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I only drink coffee. And moderately. So I don’t think it’s exogenous.

                Nah, you’re not wrong. It would be foolish to say that such things have no effect. Give some of these people some alcohol and see what happens, like the gremlins movie when they get wet. I don’t really believe in schizophrenia or mental illness I just don’t see the advantage of these states in most cases. I do think digestion plays a huge role and there’s plenty of data that backs that. We have a lot of answers and maybe the behavior is the solution. Then again we’re chopping off peoples tits and cocks, some behaviors shouldn’t be accommodated. People are very impressionable.

                You know what’s funny about alcohol? Before I built a tolerance (I genetically had already one btw, so we are talking of noteworthy amounts), and used to get near blackout drunk, I used to lose the control of my physical body and mind, but still witnessed what it was doing, like I was a passive passenger of myself.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Me too, and it felt glorious. Maybe that’s part of the reason as to why I believe the liver plays a big role in whatever the process is.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Coffee and stimulants have a grounding effect for me. Learned that quickly after being prescribed ritalin when I was younger, I just couldn’t tolerate ritalin. Coffee was/is enough. I wouldn’t say it has any dramatic effect on my perception just drowns out some noise.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Yeah, me too. I try to be logical about it but there is often no basis that I’m aware of for me to be modeling it. That’s the part that really makes me scratch my head. Hard to take myself seriously when I often end up right but never to any benefit. What’s the use? I like spending time in the details and often find new interests and information as a result. I think or see something and I pursue it in published studies or established belief systems. Everything we have to reference is a technology whether it’s poetry or hermetically and they all get something right. When you’re brain works this way there are takeaways that work to your benefit but being burdened with visions that you keep to yourself can be debilitating. I try to poke at it and share with someone to see how it plays out and have a witness. Problem is that we’re all nuts in the end and you’re manipulating someone else’s reality when maybe they aren’t a reliable witness. Who is ya know?

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                Yea. Just last week a teenage girl handed me first 1 stick and then another. I thought it was cute and cordial in the moment then I got home and realized I had already lived through that moment before even though it was so odd and specific. And yea exhausting myself physically helps against violently lashing out every about 2 years or so.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                >I have visions of future events that flash in my head.
                Yeah. I have these too. They are a glimpse into the upcoming seconds/minute. But I’ve always thought it was my pattern-recognizing ability working in background and subconsciously feeding the probabilistic outcome via flash forwards.

                That's crazy. I'm like turbo adhd but have always noticed the sort of same thing happening to me. It's like I have extreme "dad-sense." Like I'll see some kid messing around outside with a stick and be like "That kid is about to smack himself in the face with that stick in a second" and it will happen just like I saw it. I thought it was like some form of deja-vu going on but that shit happens multiple times a day. I have taken a lot of concussions in my day so that may make you a pre-cog but your results may vary.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I hadn’t considered brain trauma. Could be something as simple as a skipped beat so faces seeing faces in a single file line where you should be looking at the backs of heads.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                I’ve always defined what’s going on with me as slow motion schizophrenia. I can get stuck on a word or topic for months, pick and choose to do so or let it go completely. Can’t say the same for when I’m feeling in duress or under stress. I’m sure being faced with a corner inspires plenty of mental solutions. It’s why I like the Plato’s cave allegory. I also like your use of “dad-sense” as it’s quite applicable and simple without getting into daffy territory. My deja vu isn’t often creative or wild. Though some of my “major visions” are. My most recent has been fire, is it my fire or the worlds fire? Does it even matter when my routine is predictable and managed? I toy with the ideas, don’t commit.

              • 2 weeks ago
                Anonymous

                >I have taken a lot of concussions in my day so that may make you a pre-cog but your results may vary.
                The events you're discribing seem like a prediction of the future but it's likely your brain just "shut off" for 15 seconds and you're catching the visual of something you already experienced come back around. Probably related to your injuries as you said.

          • 2 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >Did you notice they never hear positive stuff in their head?
            Bullshit, there are various positive types of delusions, like being able to speak to animals, seing the future, having visions of dead ancestors, healing powers etc. Or what Terry had with his temple os

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          How did you know they weren't out to get you? It's bongland after all i would be paranoid too

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          I’ve actually noticed that in interviewing hundreds of individuals with diagnosed schizophrenia, “problems at work” and “hostile work environments” coupled with poor sleep are present in 99% of instances.

          This is the conversation slavedrivers don’t want to be having. They’re destroying peoples psyches for additional shekels. Jobs are the goyslop of earning a living.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        You start with hearing voices from faraway. Sounds like someone talking in your hallway in a whisper or just far enough to obscure the exact words they are using. Then you might start seeing something occasionally in the corner of your vision that isn’t there when you look back or focus on it. Finally, it seems like you stay the same while the world begins devolving into gang stalking, ritual plots, and a general foreboding sense that you are in danger from something. You never really think “I’m going crazy”. You think the world is getting crazier.

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >You start with hearing voices from faraway. Sounds like someone talking in your hallway in a whisper or just far enough to obscure the exact words they are using. Then you might start seeing something occasionally in the corner of your vision that isn’t there when you look back or focus on it.
          fuck i get that should i get checked or something

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          >Finally, it seems like you stay the same while the world begins devolving into gang stalking, ritual plots, and a general foreboding sense that you are in danger from something. You never really think “I’m going crazy”. You think the world is getting crazier.
          And then the president is being helped by a secret double deep state army. The Chinese released a virus that required huge changes to voting laws to avoid the deadly disease. Which wasn't any deadlier than the yearly flu unless you were 80 years old or older. So when the election comes around the inner double deep state rises up and attacks the nation's capital. This whole event turned out to be the culmination of a massive honeypot to entrap the support base of the president. Oh and race riots burn down major cities in the name of peace for a criminal who died of a drug overdose while resisting arrest. I didn't even mention half of the shit that went down in the past 5 years. No, I'm not crazy. It is the world that is crazy.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        My friend had a touch and went full blown after the jab. Everythings an operation, everyones a threat. Weird touch of narcissism, that they think they are worthy of such advanced spying and harassment. Very sad, had to stop talking to him as all i did was give him more material to build delusions with.
        Love him and miss him.

  3. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    They are normal people who believe shit that isn't true when they're off their meds.. They live in a different reality otherwise. My friend, a schizo, called me last night asking if he was a ghost. I told him "go weigh yourself" he said "220" I called him a fat ass and told him "ghosts don't weigh anything, you're not dead just fat" we laughed.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Came here to say exactly this. I have a friend with schizophrenia, his doctor took him off of a medication then dropped him and he went into an episode after a few months. At one point he was screaming at Biden (from his living room) for not legalizing weed, because my friend had been sending him psychic messages to do so. But then it turns into extreme paranoia about how the world is ending due to xyz hyperlefty nonsense and he eventually ends up in the hospital, there have been three episodes now I think. It always goes to "this shitty song is actually a message from God about how we need to stop killing the planet and we need to do it now because the world is going to end tomorrow". Now that he's back on the correct meds he's fine. I legitimately believe leftism is a sign of mental illness after my experiences with that and my BPD ex.
      There was also a schizo regular at the gas station I worked at when I was younger, he was very nice but sometimes would start going on about how they watch us through the eye on the back of the dollar and stuff like that. My dad used to work with him, he disassembled a million dollar machine to "improve" it.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >I legitimately believe leftism is a sign of mental illness

  4. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Under stress they obsess over patterns and find through lines in things that have been described to them so the delusions are set in reality and the through lines feel profound so it helps them cope. Could be religion, science, cape shit, politics. I have seen many forms of this. In my father it presents more like dementia with tendencies to horde objects. My brother suggested once that one of our ancestors surnames was of yiddish origin and I laughed at him, told him to shut up. Now that I’m a bit older and looking at everything on the table it would make sense if I use a pol filter.

  5. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    My college roommate was diagnosed schizophrenic.
    He was generally cool but at some point a friend of ours convinced him to not take his meds.
    First weird thing we noticed was after leaving the park one time, he just took off running.
    When we got back to the dorms we found him freaking out. Asked him whats wrong, he told us there were people holding up signs calling him a homosexual for liking one of our female friends who was out of his league. We told him we didn't see anyone and if they were doing that, they were homosexuals for going that far out of their way to be dicks. That got him to calm down and realize it wasn't real.
    Then one time we were all heading to Baltimore one weekend, we were all getting pot brownies and heading off, he didn't have money for his so I was going to cover him. The dealer was short one, so him, being the one who was being spotted, didn't get one. This made him sperg out and stay home.
    Started texting me crazy all day without me answering.
    Came back at the end if the day to my protein powder in the middle of the room with one of my notebooks ripped up in a circle around it, a box of plastic utensils all broken on my desk with a note that said "BROKEN PROMISES" on it, a note taped to my mini fridge that said "BEER, DRINK IT UP homosexual!", he drew a mustache on my already moustached hendrix poster, etc. Me and other friends went to the park to get away from that, he turned up and started thanking us for being great friends and all that and then left without an apology or explanation.
    After that my buddy came clean and told him if he didn't like how his meds made him feel, he should stop taking them.
    He went back on the meds and things were awkward the rest of the semester but generally went back to normal with the understanding that he had a schizo episode.

  6. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Manageable. Lithium helps quite a bit.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Lithium helped me through a rough patch but I was nowhere near schizophrenic. I could see lithium or depakote used in a stack but I don’t see how it would be that effective in something considered severely debilitating. They’re just considered mood stabilizers. Basically a slight chemical lobotomy. Then again if I didn’t drink enough water it did make me pretty retarded. I could be downplaying how retarded I was.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Isn’t lithium more of a bipolar disorder thing?

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Before they called everything bipolar it was used for “mood-disorder” and manic-depression. To me the meds themselves aren’t the problem it’s the duration in which they’re prescribed. How long does one take SSRIs or mood stabilizers? The business model works in favor of the prescribers and not in favor of the patient. I had a trash handful of years and experienced a lot of death and was prescribed and diagnosed with loads of things. Turned out to be ptsd and here were these people calling me agoraphobic.

  7. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Just try lsd. You'll get a glimpse of what its like, but in a safe manner.
    Things look the same, but they're different. You see meanings and correlations in between things you never saw before.
    You can for example have a conversation with a friend, and later confirm from him that it really happened and exactly what you heard was said, but in the moment when it happened from your point of view it wasn't you having a conversation with your friend, it was you having a conversation with an alien. And it all made sense, and it all still makes some sense..

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      From that I’d imagine schizophrenia is almost like a dream. When tripping I’d feel like I was in that dream state, where things are real, but I was making connections and concepts that weren’t of reality. Words that didn’t exist and can’t be pronounced, or see some machine that operates in a completely different way that only exists in my head. Sometimes I’ll get those sort of thoughts while sober, which I presume are acid flashbacks and it’s disturbing at times.

  8. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >tfw high functioning sperg/schizoid or whatever
    >tfw no cool voices or visions giving you hidden knowledge

  9. 2 weeks ago
    SAGE

    Ask the agent next to you

  10. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    No such think as schizophrenia, it's demon possession and a struggle between the human spirit, and the demon. That's why in ancient times fasting was reccommended, as you literally starve the parasites. The soviets even did an experiment, they made skitzo patients go on a fast, what happened was the symptoms of being skitzo dissapeared.

    http://orthomolecular.org/library/jom/1971/pdf/1971-v03n01-p002.pdf

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Yeah, the liver has something to do with it. That or it’s my demon. Lol. Liver plays a huge role in consciousness. I have basis for that claim though and how I came to it is “mental illness.”

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        No* basis

  11. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    it's like lurking /misc/

  12. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    You hear voices telling you to do shit and you have paranoid delusions of people doing experiments on you because of scab from when you cut your self. It’s fucking hellish and your better off dead.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Indigestion and ulcers can put someone in one hell of a psychotic state. Think about your ability to reason when you’re driving and have to shit. You go from trying to make it home, to the wal mart bathroom, to pulling over on the side of the road, to speeding and shitting your pants and giving no fucks. Chemicals and how you process and filter them is where I believe the focus should be. There’s no profit to be made in making these things better. There are also no tools that the average person can access to take measurements and have a baseline to measure against. Studying behaviors and prescribing drugs can help but I see it as treating broken bones and diseases with no earnest inquiry. Put some tussin on it.

  13. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    If the answer is yes, post nose.

  14. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    naggers are tonguing my anus

  15. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    There shouldn’t be a world where you look down and see your dick and wish it wasn’t there and a stranger with a title, authority, certificates, and esteem says I can help. There are companies that insure that process. What a world. If they called it body modification and did it at a tattoo parlor I could at least digest it differently

  16. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    if you're curiosity is random then you are schizophrenic, technically.
    the mechanisms that establish relevance become pathologized and they see meaning everywhere randomly and that is partly why they see delusions because the incoherent manifestations of meaning calls out for a representation they develop a paranoid delusion if they are intelligent to put it together" Jordan Peterson

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      That’s a good take, boy is schizo so he’d know. A little bit of Jung goes a long way in a scattered observing brain trying to control oneself. I think anyways. Bible and Jung is a good combo, could get by on that for life.

  17. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous
  18. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    You don’t have goolge?

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      I ask people things here before I google shit. I’d rather see what people make of it and perhaps get references and citations. That and first/second hand experience has a value that google can yield but occupies a lot of time and force feeds you nonsense. Then you need to find several studies and draw abstract parallels, that is schizophrenia.

  19. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    and the cure is??
    or is this containment board all there is?

  20. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    i know they are all me, doesn't make it stop but i do know its not glowies or aliens etc, its just me thinking of a different perspective sometimes out loud (only when i alone) i dont think this is schizophrenia.

  21. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    It's nothing like any of these people are saying. There's no voices, unless you're mistaking your own internal monologue for an external voice, which most do. There's no hallucinations either.

    The best way to describe it is, normies go about their day compartmentalizing every tidbit of information, but with a schizo, there is absolutely no compartmentalization. Everything is one, and one is all.

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      That is an incredible way to mock me you disgusting glownagger

  22. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Not sure if my parents had schizophrenia or not, or if they passed it onto me, since none of us have ever been honest to a medical professional about what's wrong with us. But I see red gore like picrel whenever I close my eyes. I also shake my head to get rid of evil thoughts. I hate it, bros. I don't like being fucked up.

  23. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I'm familiar with the problem.
    Schizophrenics are imaginative and lose track of reality in their fantasies. For example they might day dream about a ninja sneaking around their house but later, when not day dreaming, they'd hear the ninja creeping around. They may even be attacked from behind while showering by the ninja.
    All from a dumb day dream.
    Basically schizophrenics are people too dumb to do abstract thinking so everything imaginary becomes literal to them unless they focus on reality very hard.

  24. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I’m officially diagnosed schizophrenic, and on a pension from my old tech employer in California for it. I used to hallucinate 24/7, and it’s so disconcerting it’s hard to NOT get paranoid and uneasy about it.

    My examiner said “your reality testing is really good, you are aware it’s not real, I think you’re bipolar with psychotic features , but we’re going to put you down as schizo for your disability.”

    Nice of her , but it doesn’t matter, my policy applies to bipolar or schizo and does not have the 2 year limit most policies have.

    The bad news is, I found out down here , that part of the left side of my heart is dead and what I have is more or less vascular dementia.

    They have me on a heart medicine that I think is banned in the United States , they said it will help a little blood flow in those dead squeeze areas:

    After years of risperdals and the revolving door of apathetic bored and sometimes barely fluent in English shrinks who’d see me for all of 5 minutes I am in complete remission from any kind of psychiatric symptoms and my resting and walking heart rate both dropped by 20 because it’s not straining so hard to pump blood through my body

    I still experience night terrors and fear of the dark and living alone , even though I’m not having these horrible perceptual experiences anymore , I am really fucked up , scarred , and ruined by them. It’s gotten to where I’m not terrified of every bump in the night; every woodpecker going at my siding , every stray cat knocking over a garbage can at 2am but, I was for a long fucking time after the voices stopped.

    This is what myocarditis kinda is but that happened to me before COVID or vaccines, I know someone’s going to ask. It was a heart attack.

    I have absolutely no god damn respect for “Psychiatry” , I only had one psych who examined me and said she didn’t think I was crazy and thinks it might be sequeala (sp?) of some other type of illness but we didn’t figure it out w her

  25. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    My little brother has schizophrenia and he couldn’t sleep for like at all for the first couple months that he had it he wouldn’t take his meds or when he would take his meds he get better and think he didn’t need them and then relapse he go start wandering the streets at night and get in fights of random people he thought he was the antichrist yeah it’s really bad he just got out of like a five year conservatory ship were they just took care of them in a house

  26. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Though I’m free of the horrific psychotic symptoms, I remain a recluse as far as isolating , social withdrawal , and what you’d call negative symptoms. My mind and body are healing, I sleep a lot, I’m learning to feel safe but I am FUCKED by what I went through

    • 2 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      You should take drugs, learn to enjoy hallucinations like everyone else.

      • 2 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah, take drugs with a dead left ventricle. Brilliant idea, thanks, no thanks

        • 2 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          Hey, my heart's fine and I say do it. Your heart's all funky and you say don't do it. Clearly only one of us is right and I've got the healthy heart. I'm gonna step outside and smoke something.

  27. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    The one thing I want to say before I get anyone scared it’s their ticker or dementia especially if you are schizo, I was in so much pain I’d lost any sense of what was going on with my body and didn’t even notice both of my palms were cyanotic in the areas closest to both thumbs . I would say this is not normal.

  28. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    My uncle was schizophrenic, he was just a really quiet guy, mostly kept to himself but was quite friendly when he reached out, he was taken care of by my other uncle. I guess he was always on his meds

    My OTHER other uncle (3rd uncle) has psychotic delusions when he doesn't take his meds and he'll just start making up nonsense. Like he'll start recalling how he murdered his wife and son (both are still alive), or he'll accuse random neighbors of stealing from him. He fucked up his brain from alcohol

  29. 2 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Visual hallucinations is cliche and not really what it is.

    There are auditory hallucinations, hearing voices, all that. Or just sounds that aren't there and aren't voices. Usually these will tie into the delusions.

    Delusions are the main thing, fantastical beliefs that are not grounded in reality. It comes in gradations, like schizoid disorder is harmless beliefs such as angels or magic spirits, then full blown schizophrenia are more intense beliefs. Most common I'd say is that some person, government, or organization is out to "get" the sufferer in some form. Have also met a guy who was the secret head of the NSA haha. He was like "People don't trust us, but the founding fathers knew we're like a benevolent big brother" (NSA was founded after WW2). So that delusion would be a positive one. Or think Terry Davis who thought his operating system was a literal gift from God. Evolutionary biologists speculate that schizo has been kept in the gene pool because in mild cases a schizo will be seen as a sort of blessed spiritual magic man via strength and creativity of conviction, much as Terry Davis is the magic man of LULZ.

    There are other similar conditions, like psychosis can happen if you or me take a lot of meth for a few days... can hear voices then. It can happen organically too from say bipolar manic phase, basically the body makes a person feel so great it's like they're on meth naturally. To me that's because the cognitive systems are so activated that it's all gas and no brakes, versus schizo where cognitive system is at normal operational speed, just that the brakes are connected to the steering wheel.

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