I had an ex-girlfriend 5 years ago who really did a number on me.
I was inexperienced at the time and she walked all over me.
I did break up with her when she disrespected me, but I'd always take her back after some little meaningless apology.
I told myself since she hadn't cheated, it wasn't a big deal. But it was, and it was cheating just without physically touching other guys.
Ultimately she got a new boyfriend after a year of us having issues caused by her using
other guys to keep me jealous and on my toes, and it really pissed me off,
because she did it so soon after our break up.
She then proceeds to have a 5 year+ relationship with this guy so far, and although I can't be sure,
I have to imagine she's showing him more respect than me, or he's a complete bitch and putting up with her shit.
Because how else would they last 5 years?
Unless she realized she was wrong and changed.
Either way I've never managed to heal from all the disrespectful shit she did to me involving other guys, while we were together.
If I had been the one who dumped her and refused to take her back no matter what, I know I wouldn't be bothered right now.
But that's not how it happened.
After tormenting me for a year, she ultimately was the one who refused to get back with me after I broke up with her, even when I for the first time ever approached her first about getting back together, and got with another guy.
I felt like such a complete loser.
People told me, "Don't be sad bro, you dodged a bullet."
But how can I feel that way when another guy has got to be happy with her for 5 years?